Welcome Back!

So I'm welcoming myself back to the livejournal community. It's been roughly three years since I've written (four since I first started) and let me tell you, I actually miss it. I was a different person back then and although I'm glad I've lost a lot of who I was, I do miss some parts. Hopefully I can regain some of my better qualities that I've lost along this self-destructive period and get back to being a healthy, social, and fun girl. It's hard to believe I'm graduating high school. I never thought I would get to this point. I say it all the time. I'm really trying to work on my eating habits and the types of food i decide to ingest. All these harmful and cheap ingredients in American foods are scaring me. I would love for every type of food to be pure and wholesome but I know that would be extremely difficult. Maybe someday I can have an effect on fixing this situation. Last night I devoured nearly three quarters of a whole grain baguette and a french one. No wonder why I feel horrible today. Never again! I've gotten myself into this deep hole of bad eating patterns and I'm trying to claw my way out. It's tougher than I could have imagined. I think it's because I'm getting older and I've stopped growing. I just keep packing on the pounds until one day someone will say something to me or I'll get on the scale and I wonder how I got here. I've got prom coming up so I really want to work on looking my best.

Today I had off because it's Junior Ring Day and luckily this year the seniors didn't have to sing at the mass. So I had a whole day planned out to get research done for my research paper but this whole baguette deboucle has really set me off pace. Actually, I haven't done anything except drink two glasses of water, eat a small banana and a LunaBar, and go online. Shame on me. I've been sitting in my running outfit since I woke up dreading the workout that I should be doing. Well it's 2:45 and I have to leave to go to lax practice at 4:15ish. Maybe I should get going or just wait it out? I don't know. I'm really regretting not getting anything done because tomorrow I'm gonna be gone all day at a game in New Jersey. Then on Sunday we probably have practice and that's my last day to write the paper for English. Never ending stress. Well, I guess around three I'll get going on working out and then hopefully I'll be able to do the paper all day on Sunday and not be too stressed out.

After practice I have to go to a Pasta Party in Hauppauge. Lacrosse team takes over life. I guess that's a good thing I'm just so anal about setting time for myself to get work done and when I don't, i lose control. Lol. Oh mannn! I don't want to do anything. I'm cold, fatigued, constipated and bloated! Worst combination which basically equals my life for the past 7 months. Well, here we go...