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i am going to do this survey! i did it earlier but this should be funny. we'll see how things have changed... not that ANYONE reads these!
Kissed someone? yes
Danced in front of your mirror naked? no
Told a lie? yes
Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? yes
Been arrested? no
Seen someone die? no
Kissed a picture? yes
Slept until 5pm? no
Fallen asleep at work/school? yes
Held a snake? yes
Ran a red light? yes
Totaled your car in an accident? not totaled.. but i do have a black front on my red car haha
Pole danced? yes
Been fired from a job? no
Sang Karaoke? yes
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? haha yeah
Kissed in the rain? yeah
Sang in the shower? yes
Played chicken? i don't know what that is
Been pushed in a pool with all your clothes on? yes
Broken a bone? yes
Mooned/flashed someone? yes
Slept naked? no
Blacked out from drinking? yes
Played a prank on someone? yes
Had a gym membership? for a week probably haha.
Felt like killing someone? not actually. it's more of a saying than anything.
Made your gf/bf cry? yes
Cried over someone you liked/were dating? yes
Had mexican jumping beans for pets? whaaaaaat
Been in a band? yeah ahaha
Subscribed to maxim? nope
Taken more than 10 shots of alcohol in one night? yeahhh. oops
Shot a gun? yep-- a squirt gun!
Played strip poker? hayeah!
Tipped on mushrooms? not into that.
Donated blood? i'm not old enough =(
Eaten alligator meat? eww?
ANYWAYS, now that, that is done and i feel like an absolute idiot, i guess i am going to write about my summer. I am finally going into my senior year now. it's very very exciting--especially since this is the year i have been waiting for. This summer i have exactly figured out who i want to carry with me in my life, and the people who frankly don't matter to me at all. I guess i sound pretty pessimistic but i have definitely seen changes in my old friends, and myself. I still live with a ton of life and happiness, but this summer i have definitely realized that life becomes a lot harder as you get older. There are always so many complications and disappointments along with the good stuff. Something good always has to get messed up...something you think you're going to have forever. I miss the people who used to mean so much to me, i really do, but the people they are becoming isn't who i want to be. I used to think that popularity was such a huge deal and that the more friends i had, the better. But really, i only actually hung out with like 20 of them, half i didn't even really love, so what was the point? You should be with people who make you happy. Trust those who are worthy. My best friend is christa hoen. We get on each others nerves sometimes, but she is the one person i trust the most. She just puts so much time into the people she loves, instead of wasting it on people she doesn't really care much about. She can make me laugh so easilly and we don't ever hesitate to say how we feel to each other. We were meant to find each other i know it. She is constantly there for me, her family is my second, and i'm so comfortable around her. Now, having only one best friend doesn't really bother me. If you have that ONE person in your life, i think you're pretty much set.
I've also realized that love hurts like a bitch. When you put so much into someone else, and then lose them. It takes out a piece of you too. I keep telling myself that everything will be okay, cause it will, and i'll be okay. But sometimes it's alot easier said then done. I know that when you lose love with someone else, you have to find it inside yourself. It sounds so stupid, but it's really hard to be happy when there's so many things in your head and you don't have someone to just hold you and listen or know exactly what you mean. But love is so over used. The word, i mean. So many people believe they have had love, or loved someone else, but you don't know love until you really really feel it. It's not like a little crush, or even a big crush.. it's like a constant feeling, when you have it--and when you don't. I used to pretend that i wasn't in love, it seemed like that was the way i could get over everything. But that just made it harder, it hurt more. So now i am trying to get used to the fact that i am in love and can never ever possibly get it back. So i just have to come to terms with that i guess. Sometimes i feel like i have a mask for certain occasions and only a few people know me, really. I guess this is just me randomly writing everything i feel at this exact moment. It actually kind of makes me feel better....
Anyways, I am 17 and a SENIOR at west bloomfield. this is so crazy. i feel so young but so old at the same time. When i was little i always used to think about how there were 12 grades, and that got me going crazy. I didn't think about college then, just about these 12 unbelieveably long years where i became a graduate and ended my "school career". (except not really) It used to seem so far away, but now in just a month i will be attending my last year of high school...of my (our) home turf. It is definitely a surreal feeling and it hasn't even started yet. wow. okay i'm really done. byee.
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