________________________.safety.in.numbers.

72nd__ @ 2008-05-26T19:59:00

2008-05-26T23:59:56Z

i move into my apartment in one week.
crazy crazy crazy.

i love my new job.

i'm back to being sort of blonde.
it's not terribly enjoyable.
i want to dye it very, very badly.

the further i get out.

2008-01-02T00:14:06Z

recap of 2007:
-meeting ivan and completely falling in love with him: his sarcasm, his ability to understand me when no one else can, his unlimited supply of random topics and conversation, his composure and confidence. simply him. things were amazing in the beginning but it would only last for a month or two.
-going snowboarding for the first time with ivan and durk and durk's girlfriend and not wanting to do it again for a couple more years
-john being relentless about wanting to get back with me and trying to convince me to break up with ivan, only for me going directly back to him after ivan and i break up and sketching out big time and trying to get as far away from him as i could.
-spending a ridiculous amount of time on micheles porch with ricky, angie, bk, and chris ross doing nothing but drinking and smoking my lungs away; then spending another ridiculous amount of time at jeff&tims smoking my lungs completely away and making my liver want to fall out of my body
-turning ninteen and spending it with all of my dear friends (who all in retrospect i don't talk to anymore, save dmitri and ben and ricky); ivan made me cry on my own birthday and it was not right; and i got drunk every night of my birthday week.
-the month i spent in complete purgatory waiting for my relationship with ivan to get better only to noseslide far too quickly. i finally walked out on him and didn't look back in april. i only slightly regret it, since it put a damper on us talking again for an entire summer. but i think i gained more confidence because of it.
-getting suprisingly really close to gabby for a couple months until she moved to rochester for the summer.
-getting the ohm tattoo on my foot. it was completely spontaneous but completely necessary.
-andrew and i getting far too close even though i did not want anything more than a friendship in him (despite misplaced kisses) and finding out he had lied about ivan hating me the entire summer in an effort to keep me to himself. therefore, i never want to see him ever again.
-adopting zelda and ratcat!
-getting severely close to cassie barnes and spending basically every second with her this summer. literally. it was amazing. i don't know how i would have survived this summer if she wasn't there to entertain and listen to my constant stream of babble.
-going to long island to visit marybeth for her birthday with angie, josh, and maggie. it was an interesting weekend. basically, i don't think i'll be back to long island any time soon.
-going to nyc to see wicked with mommabear and connie.
-the hookups: josh curtin, adam verone, scott, john.
-i incidently quit smoking cigarettes. but it didn't last terribly long.
-campfests with cassie, tom and alex.
-alex. oh what to say about alex. he was exactly what i needed at the very exact moment i needed it. however, i also needed more than he was willing to give and i ended up giving my heart to someone who couldn't accept it. in conclusion, my love life's story. he also knew me better than i knew myself and i ended up falling for him.
-cassie and i were suppose to go to westchester to visit josh but ended up cancelling and going to the beach because of the alex situation. i don't regret it.
-water safari!
-the concerts: seeing incubus, oar, brand new, and augustana.
-meeting jarrod during the ending phases of the alex situation and consequently throwing myself into a relationship far too quickly, as i always do. everytime i think about the months i spent with jarrod, i just feel like i wasted time. i don't think i ever felt anything real for him. as horrible as it sounds, i really think he might have just been a transfer relationship to help me get back to myself. i really did waste so much time. i did have fun with him, however. and i did go to temple for the first time because of him. however, despite all this, there are simply too many negatives about this relationship. i am really glad our relationship ended like it did, although i wish it had happened a lot earlier. i just cannot believe he thought i was cheating on him, but what do i really expect.
-finally saying goodbye to ivan as he moved to california sometime in july. this is terribly inconvienent because we had just connected and starting being back on okay terms.
-going back to my sophmore year of college and really liking my roommates, although i was really scared about moving in with strangers for the entire summer. i met so many people because of them and i am really glad i took the chance and moved in. case and point, zac. zac, who i will forever be indebted to considering he listen to all of my stupid rambles and never judges.
-pledging and rushing pi delta chi. something i only slightly regret, considering the pi chi girls i could do without, save a couple. however, it introduced me to the itk boys and phi psi; as well as realizing that you can only really take someone at surface level and don't expect any more.
-pi chi formal was so very nice. i'm so glad mary was my date.
-the disappointment which followed meeting and confessing my crush on jake. as well as the awkwardness which follwed meeting ryan and him wanting to "talk to me."
-getting two flat tires in the span of a month.
-the past few weeks have been spent with mike, but i don't think it will carry to much of anything else. he's so cute, but i think he's far too sketchy to expect more than just a hookup from. even though we've had many conversations and i can hope against all facts, i don't think that we're going to be more than what we were before i sketched out.
-i signed the lease to my apartment with mary. i'm really excited but not at the same time. i'm going to be lonely, i can feel it already.

72nd__ @ 2007-11-24T21:48:00

2007-11-25T02:49:31Z

i've decided i'm going to try to be a good little updater and update on a more regular basis. however, i've tried this technique in the past and it has failed miserably. hopefully try number three will work out better.

to start:

the past couple days i've spent with my grandma and uncle frank and such family in rochester celebrating thanksgiving. instead of being family friendly, i ended up reading three books and watching the america's next top model marathon. i'm such a good niece/grandchild/daughter, i know, i'm aware. but the plus was that mom sprained her ankle on monday so it was really fun watching her hop along grandma's house to get anywhere. and i got to go shopping, even though they didn't really have much of anything at greece ridge mall. oh, and zac cried. that was interesting to say the least.

jarrod and i have talked basically every night since we broke up but it's not really going anywhere. basically, i try to start a conversation to see how he's doing, considering he's still someone i consider one of my best friends, and he ends up asking me twenty questions about why i don't or can't be with him. it's a big game of ring around the why did you break up with me rosie. lovely. i don't know how much more of it i can take; but suprisingly i've been patient with it so far.

i don't know if i want to hook up with scott. we haven't talked since our awkward buzz kill last thursday before the break. he still hasn't responded to my text i sent on monday. that boy is no good, i tell you. very, very attractive, but no good. i suppose we'll see what happens when school starts again in t-minus two days.

i bought tickets to go see brand new / thrice / me without you in december with murrbeth. it is going to be such an amazing show. i cannot, cannot wait. this will be my fourth time seeing brand new and i've always wanted to see thrice. best yet, it's at washington avenue armory so i can sit and enjoy the show if i cared to (and i care to).

i miss my friends. i cannot wait to go to college on monday. miss miss miss.

oh, and i got my second flat tire in a month last monday. i think i have an unrecognized enemy.

x o

ps. i'm starting a strict financial schedule on thursday. wish me luck or threaten me into financial submission; either will do.

72nd__ @ 2007-11-14T00:31:00

2007-11-14T05:38:13Z

it's been so long i don't know where to start.
my last update was the first of october.
it is now the fourteenth of november.

i'll start with this:

mary and i signed the lease to our apartment on spring street. it's a gorgeous place. i get the big bedroom. and i cannot wait until june so i can move in and have all my summer girls over for wine nights and they can sleep in my big bed and we can cook breakfast in the morning and then go do a double at brooks. i don't really want to have big parties though, since too many things could get broken or stolen, and i don't really want the cops to come. i talked to mary about it, but she still wants a good amount of people to come over (like 15). i don't know. we'll talk about it. but i cannot wait. cannot cannot cannot wait. this means i'm really going to have to save money this summer so i can afford to stay there since it's so expensive. so....i'm really going to have to NOT spend extra money. i don't know how i'm going to do it.

jarrod and i broke up last thursday. well, actually, we broke up the thursday prior, or "went on a break" to be technically correct. he accused me of cheating on him and I told him that until he came to his senses, we weren't together. and a week later, after much debate (and accidently making out with scott at spike's halloween party), i came to the decision that i don't want to be in a really serious relationship right now when i didn't give myself the time to get over ivan, or alex, for that matter. so..it's over. i know he's upset. he texts constantly and tries to get me to see him...but i don't know if that's the right thing to do right now. the worst part is that even though i know i love him, i'm not feeling the way i usually do when relationships fail. i know he's in a lot of pain and misses me, and i miss him too, but definitely not to the same extent...nor do i feel like i did when ivan and i broke up, or alex and i stopped seeing eachother. i'm scared of what this means. i saw him on monday night because he brought over my previously broken buddha keychain and we talked awkwardly outside of mills for a couple minutes. but..i don't know. he still texts me that he loves me and i don't know if it's right for me to respond.

one of the downsides of breaking up with jarrod is that i feel like i've lost who was my best friend. i still have mary, yes, but she's not as reliable in being unbiased as jarrod was. and i feel lonelier now too. but i think that's more because i'm used to having him around constantly and going to sleep with him next to me at night. but, i'm glad i have kaitlyn still to sleep in the same proximity as. but the fact that i don't like the thought of sleeping alone scares me. i want to be able to sleep alone and not think about it twice.

another thought that scares me is the scott situation. after we made out on saturday night at spikes, he asked me to come over, i declined and we made plans for the next day. of course, i cancelled, and we made plans to meet on thursday for dinner. and thursday, i brought mary along with the semi-not-date-date and scott brought his roommate. and we went to a really run-down chinese restaurant in oneonta and it was kind of awkward. i mean, i've never, NEVER, talked to scott sober before. let's say awkward. and afterwards, he came over and watched me play zelda for an hour, and then we watched tv, and then a movie. and the entire time, i felt SO awkward. and i know he felt the same way. but he's so cute. so cute. and then he left and kissed me and told me to call him the next day. so i did. and he wanted to me to come over but i fell asleep. and i haven't really heard from him since monday night. so...i don't know. i mean, i'm not going to be in a relationship with him but i would like to hear from my crush a little more than every couple days. whatev. i need to learn how to play hard to get some day.

zelda has once again overtaken my life. luckily, jake and zac put up with this and will come down spontaneously and watch me play for a couple minutes, mock my skills, and leave me to sulk.

i need to stop skipping classes. especially critical thinking and progressive rock. i seriously hope i get the schedule i created for next semester. if so, i would start classes everyday at noon; with them ending at eight thirty on monday, wednesday, and friday; and three fifteen on tuesday and thursday.

alex is coming home this week and said he'd call so we can hang out. i'm trying to convince myself that he won't call so i won't be disappointed when he doesn't. this plan is failing miserably.

basically for the past month, i've been going to classes, work, and jarrod's house. mary and i signed the lease to our apartment on spring street, which is damn expensive. i've spent every night with jarrod. i went home mostly every sunday to have dinner with my parents since i feel like since i'm actually going to have my own apartment next year, i'm really not going to see them at all. so i'm trying to spend as much time with them and in college as i possibly can.

last last friday; jarrod and i woke up really early and had to drive to albany and got lost looking for the amtrak. and then when we actually got there, we had an hour delay for our train to get into the station. so we had to wait around and that was completely boo'ed. and then we finally got on the train and i fell asleep so i wouldn't get sick. and i woke up and we were there and it was nice. so we found a taxi and went to his aunt's house, which was huge and she has doormans and elevator operators galore. and she's really nice. she brought us out to lunch/dinner and then told us to go have fun for the rest of the weekend and gave us stomp tickets and all-day metro cards. and i had my first pop-up which was delicious. so we ended up walking around nyc for the rest of the night and got lost in the subway system and street system. and it rained and it was not nice the first day. we went to canal street, which was sketchy at 6 PM, and walked up and down 8th st. and east village and astor's place. and then we finally went to stomp and i fell asleep waiting for it to start. but it was SO good. nice nice nice. and then we got some food and went back to his aunt's house. his aunt's non-boyfriend was there and she fed us ice cream and talked and then went to sleep.

last last saturday; we got up early again and went to breakfast with his aunt and his uncle. and his uncle is SO much like my uncle jimmy. and then his uncle took us on the subway down to 8th street again and said goodbye. and then jarrod and i went to the museum of sex and it was spectacular. the bottom floor is dedicated to fetishes and has videos of people who think they are horses, people with balloon fetishes, eating fetishes, etc. and they had a huge chart on the floor describing every fetish and how they pan into eachother. amazing. and upstairs was a room full of porn though the history. and it was so interesting. every decade had a porn that was made during it and it was interesting. it finally ended with the paris hilton sex video. weirddd. and then the next room were displays of condoms through the centuries, dildos, dildo machines, blow up dolls, and strippers though the centuries. and then we got some goodies at the gift store and walked around nyc for a while. we fought about the subway system again and stupid things and finally ended up at a three story barnes and noble, which is my dream come true. and then we got in a big fight. and i found lots of books. and we finally made up and got some food at an organic store and ate in the middle of union square while a marching band played. and then i found a two-story forever 21 and spent too much money. and then we ended up going back to his aunts and out to dinner for the night and then to rent. and rent was amazing live. so good. and then we ended up walking around times square and there were many tiny japanese girls in halloween costumes in times square. and then we got his aunt a present (strawberry shortcake) and went back to her apartment and sat on her terrace and talked about our drunken stories and ate some shortcake until it got too cold to be outside. and then some silent fun.

last last sunday; we woke up far too early for the third day in a row and his aunt made us breakfast. then we went back to the amtrak station and got on the train. i read the entire time. and we got back to albany and went to crossgates and went shopping. and then we went back to my house and had dinner with my mom and told her about the weekend. and then we went back to jarrod's apartment and went to sleep.

last last monday; i don't really remember what happened, but i'm sure it involved classes, mary, and jarrod.

last tuesday; classes. then i'm sure jarrod came over and mary did as well and we went to walmart and then burger king and met up with phyllicia so i could say goodbye to her since she was moving to florida the next morning. and i gave her a burger king kids' toy as a going away present. and then jarrod and i went back to his apartment and went to bed.

last last wednesday; halloween! classes and work. and then got ready to go to jen's halloween party. i was harry potter! ... or a griffindor. in any case, jarrod came over dressed as bruce campbell. and we drove over to jens and i asked him to not be all over me at the party, which i guess i said rather mean and he took big offense to it and wouldn't talk to me for the rest of the night. but i had a really good time at jen's. gump and chachi and fetter and all of itk was there, as well as most of the pi chi girls. i met mary's friend amy and dana. kaitlyn and jeannete were there and i played beer pong against jeannette's VERY older boyfriend (who's also in itk). and i got drunk. and then walked back to jarrod's. and jake texted me asking me to come back on campus and i accidently told him i missed him as a friend and shit broke loose the next day.

last last thursday; jarrod drove me back to campus for classes and i forgot my cell phone so i asked him to bring it up to me when he had his classes. so i went to class. and i came back and he gave me my cell phone, but he had looked through all of my text messages and had saw that i told jake i missed him. so he was PISSED. and he left. and i went to more classes and then he called and we met up outside of the library; where he told me he "knew for a fact" that i was cheating on him (which i was not!) and told me i was acting sketchy and it seemed like i didn't want to be with him and everything like that. so i got upset and we got in a big fight in a public place. and finally i told him that until he decided he was being an asshole, we were on a break. and walked away and did my fashion project for two hours. and then i went back to my room and hung out with zac and kaitlyn and everybody. and of course, jarrod texted and said that he was sorry but i didn't let him off the hook.

last last friday; classes and work. then mary and i went to itk and although i thought it was a halloween party and dressed up as a mafia girl, it was not. so mary and i ended up in fetters playing flip cup and i flirt texted chachi far too much and jack let me borrow his siddhartha book. and i got drunk and mary gave me an id so we went to the pub and i was suppose to meet up with scott but his friend got sick so he couldn't. so we went to the pub and i saw adam verone for the first time in a while and talked to him for a long time. and the bathrooms in the pub are really weird. there are two toilets, but no walls or doors inbetween them? and then mary wanted to go to the alley but i went home instead.

last last saturday; work all day and then i went to itk and hung out in fetter's room for the entire night. at first, i was going to meet up with mary and go to amy and danas, but ended up staying at fetters. and i played flip cup, which is basically all we ever do in fetters room since it's way too crowded in actual itk to go out of fetters room. and then i drove rebecca back to campus, and got ready for halloween party number two (i was michaelangelo, the ninja turtle). and we went to spike's halloween party and it was SOO much fun. all of my friends were there and there were TWO very nice looking naked men running around spikes house. amazing. and scott and i hung out all night and flirted and it was wonderful. and chris dezi hit on me even though he kinda has a girlfriend. or whatever he wants to call it. and josh and i made up and we're not fighting anymore and he has lots of complain about in his life. so that wasn't fun. and then when the magical hour of 2 AM came around, spike wanted everyone out. and scott and i ended up making out on the stage. and he wanted me to ditch zac and go back to his dorm room. what a smooth talker. but we made plans for the next day, zac and i went to sals for pizza and i saw jenny :). and then we walked all the way back to campus up the cow path and it sucked balls. i thought i was going to get mugged. and then i collapsed into bed.

last sunday; work until four. went back home and saw grandma's new kitchen which is HUGE!! and then had dinner with mom and dad and zach and connie and then went back to my dorm.

last monday and tuesday; classes and such things. i'm sure i hung out with kaityln and molly and sarah and zac and such people all night.

wednesday; classes. work with paula. and then i went to the pi chi meeting and then back to my dorm room and hung out with skyler and jake and molly and sarah and kaitlyn and all.

thursday; classes. met up with jarrod and broke up with him for real. more classes. came back and hung out with marybeth until scott called to go to dinner. then he picked mary and i up and it was an awkward night alltogether. went to a really sketchy chinese place and then scott came back to my room after and watched me play zelda and such things and it was weird. and zac and jake and everyone decided to stop by which was even more awkward.

friday; classes. work. went home and watched "reign over me" with momma and cried and slept.

saturday; work from ten to eight thirty. then i went home, took a shower, told fetter i'd come to the shots around the world party (but didn't). told spike i'd come to his house show (but didn't). watched a movie with molly and sarah. spike texted me to come over, once again, but i missed the bus. andy got jumped coming back to the dorms, so we all went up and gave him snacks and he was still drunk and it was hugtime.

sunday; work from ten to four. then i went home and picked up my tie-dye clothing from the summertime and ate dinner. came back to the dorm room and made some necklaces while talking to zac and molly and sarah and kaitlyn. then some zelda. and some sleep, which was interrupted by jarrod texting to see if i missed him.

yesterday; skipped critical thinking to choose an outfit. went to music theory and listened to 'lucy in the sky with diamonds' for the ten billionth time this semester. skipped progressive rock. went to albany with grandma and kyle and joshie and abby and cassie. gram bought me far too much at american eagle. and i bought far more than my finanical status should have allowed. and then i came back and got some dinner with zac, watched heroes, talked to jarrod outside of mills and played zelda. jake came down and i made him a hemp bracelet and molly, sarah, kaitlyn, jake, and i had interesting conversations like we always do. i think we're starting a routine of coming into the common room at eleven each night with crafts and talking about random events.

today; classes. mary came over and we had dinner and hung out for a long time. and then jake came down and we played zelda. and now molly and sarah and kaitlyn and i are having random conversations and i'm listening to eric clapton and must go to bed soon since it's 12:30 AM.

although i know i don't want to be with jarrod, i'm still lonely. i think it's for the better, though. i feel that if i can get through this numbness and loneliness, i'll be a better person and be able to have a serious relationship at the end. i just want to be able to be alone and be happy with it.

life is too short to be anything but happy.

oh, it's what you do to me.

2007-04-03T02:28:20Z

i miss;

the beach.

brett.

old friends.

bffs.

loverface, also known as bronchitisface right now.

ciggarettes.

angie not being sketchy.

mary slutbeth.

playing pong with people older than 14.

dmitri aka gandhi and benjamin.

terri.

cassie barnes&noble and the summer girls.

jessie & the random, random nights and adventures in his car with panther.

new york city.

shopping adventures [notice the remarkably happy face]; if only i could save money...

life is pretty lovely;
ivan and i have something of a loose relationship where i simply show up whenever i feel like it but we don't bother calling each other everyday or a plethora of other normal relationship characteristics; i'm not going to lie, it's not what i expected our relationship part two to be like, but things are amazing most days.
i am currently on spring break so i've been spending the past three days catching up with my family.
i'm getting particularily close to gabby; i'm pretty sure she calls me once every twelve hours and i'm constantly at her house with sean.
angie has been acting pretty sketchy lately which is noticeably unpleasing; but if she wants to lose her best friend and gain a fraud twin, that's her unwise decision.
i have so many boxes of unwanted clothing to give to the salvation army; i wish cassie was home so i could let her sort through all items i wasted money on.
work is officially going to take over my life this week starting tomorrow; doubles, doubles, doubles.
i'm in dire need to go to a concert since i got screwed out of taking back sunday and who knows if i will see fall out boy; and yes, although i've been to many small shows around oneonta [including spike's house show which was pleasing] they don't compare to real shows.
i love my roommates, crilley, josh curtain, adam verone, and all the wonderful people at college and cannot wait to see them all again in less than a week.
i wish i could get myself to call jessie because i miss him terribly; however, i cannot seem to ever get myself to pick up the phone and call the people i miss the most.
i wish gabby and phyllicia would stop fighting and call a truce for once instead of putting me in the middle [although i am officially neutral and should be referred to as switzerland by now]

and i absolutely cannot wait to get three more tattoos [hip, ankle, back]; i need to start a financial schedule.

72nd__ @ 2006-08-25T13:36:00

2006-08-25T17:39:38Z

i have to keep telling myself it's over
because it seems that i'm going to just go to his house tonight
and things will be back to normal.
he'll hold me
and i'll love him
and it will be the way it's suppose to be.

not like this.

not where i can't stand to be by myself.
not where i don't even want to go to college anymore
and i can't stay in my dorm room because i feel so alone.

i just needed him to be by my side.
to make me feel safe, like he always could.

but he didn't want the same.

and i don't know if i can be his friend
without doing things i can't do.

i just want him to feel the way he did a month ago.
and i pray to god he misses me as much as i miss him.

i've never felt more alone before.

72nd__ @ 2006-06-28T12:27:00

2006-06-28T16:36:50Z

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the pros and cons of rain:

PRO
-in SMALL AMOUNTS of rain, i love just lounging around & being able to do nothing because i don't feel like it. or just lie in bed all day because you can't go outside.
-yep...still can't think of any more.

CONS
-it makes necessary bridges collapse so i can't get from east meredith to...the world.
-even if i could get to the world, i'd get a ticket for driving in emergency conditions.
-landslides? no thank you.
-it makes it impossible to spend my entire day off with my love like planned.
-waking up at 4:30 AM is not as fun as one may think; especially when one is woken up to get to higher ground, only the path to get to said higher ground is flooded so it was all for not.
-i'm boredboredboredboredbored cause i can't leave my freaking house.
-it makes my hair frizzy!

in conclusion...
fuck rain.

PS. I'M LISTENING TO COUNTRY. ON AN AM RADIO. SOMEONE SHOOT ME. OR RESCUE ME VIA HELICOPTER.

72nd__ @ 2006-01-13T11:50:00

2006-01-13T16:50:03Z

i want my digital camera back. but there is no way i'm going to buy a $50 camera that i know i'm going to beat the crap out of.

. : basics : .
[ .001. ] first name: alexandra
[ .002. ] middle name: beth
[ .003. ] last name:
[ .004. ] nickname(s): xela, allie, al, alejandra, leechbate, rocky, slacker
[ .005. ] gender: female!
[ .006. ] age: seventenn, almost eighteen and i can't wait
[ .007. ] birthday: february nineteenth, nineteen eighty-eight -- only a month and 6 days away...i think. i can't count sometimes.....
[ .009. ] hair color: i always dye it almost like black and it ALWAYS want to turn back to red. so i'm pretty much going to give up pretty soon on dying it.
[ .010. ] eye color: green and blue and brown
[ .011. ] race: irish and german
[ .012. ] do you wear glasses or contacts: both but i hate my glasses for the most part because i feel constricted because if you've ever worn glasses you know there's only a small amount of space that you can actually see with them on and then the edges are blurry and it's stupid.
[ .013. ] do you have braces: no but i used to have a retainer and headgear for a couple years until i broke the retainer and refused to wear another one cause my teeth were like point something away from being perfect. whatever.
[ .014. ] is your hair long or short: it's in the middle and it doesn't want to get any longer and it's really making me mad cause some days i look like mrs brady.
[ .015. ] where were you born: oneonta new york
[ .016. ] current location: right now i'm in the library of my school. but i'm usually in east meredith new york. that's where my bed is, anyway.
[ .017. ] zodiac sign: pisces and i love it. the sign is just too cool.
[ .018. ] how many languages do you know: i'm suppose to know spanish...
[ .019. ] nationality: aaamerican cheesee is goood
[ .020. ] bad habits: i bite my nails when i'm nervous and play with my hair and forget things ALL THE TIME.
[ .021. ] piercings you have: i have 7 in my ears
[ .022. ] piercings you want: i'm thinking about getting my belly button pierced but that would hurt FAR TOO much considering i am a baby and i want to get my tragus pierced but that would hurt as well.
[ .023. ] tattoos you have: none. i have henna on my feet!
[ .024. ] tattoos you want: i want either a dragonfly or a crazy sun on my hip
[ .025. ] today's date: friday the thirteenth!!
[ .026. ] the time: eleven thirty in the morning? noonish?
[ .027. ] ready for a bunch more questions? i have 20 more minutes to waste and then i'm done with this

. : family : .
[ .028. ] mother's name: christine
[ .029. ] father's name: charlie
[ .030. ] step-parent's names, if any: none. it would be too weird to have step parents.
[ .031. ] brother(s)'s name(s): zachary
[ .032. ] sister(s)'s name(s): no sisters. maybe sisters from another mother
[ .033. ] favorite aunt: my aunt connie aka my like half mom
[ .034. ] favorite uncle: i don't really have a favourite uncle....well maybe my uncle jimmy but that's about it.
[ .035. ] favorite grandparent: i like all my grandparents equally
[ .036. ] worst relative: my uncle frank. i had a nightmare about him once and he's just creeping me out all the time whenever i see him
[ .037. ] best relative: my aunt connie again. i love her
[ .038. ] do you get along with your parents: for the most part
[ .039. ] does anyone in your family understand you: zach. we have like esp sometimes i really creeps me out when we think the same thing and then say it and then it's like WOAH GET OUT OF MY MIND.

. : pets : .
[ .040. ] do you have any pets: yeah like 20. monkeybutt and emma and bembet and sid vicious and grey cat and foolish and smooshieface and some angelfish that no one likes and some goldfish that are like a foot long each
[ .041. ] what are their names: oh yeah i kinda answered that question up there.
[ .042. ] what kind of animals are they: monkey and emma are dogs and the rest are cats
[ .043. ] do you want more animals: i kinda want another cat but that's just me
[ .044. ] what kind: ....a cat.

. : school : .
[ .045. ] are you still in school: yeah i'm in school right and and i will graduate
[ .044. ] did you drop out: no but a drop out [even though he didn't sign the paper yet] just came into the library. dropping out is such an easy way out. it's cowardly and anyone who does it i can't respect. especially if they are fully capable of bringing up their grades or completing the year. ESPECIALLY when it's their senior year.
[ .045. ] current gpa, or last gpa you got: i got a 3.0 in west civ and a 2.0 in psychology and like a 90+ for high school
[ .046. ] favorite grade: probably either 10th or 11th cause it's when you first start to drive so you have this whole new freedom and you can hang out with your friends whenever you want and not have to ask your parents so you're never home.
[ .047. ] least favorite grade: 7th
[ .048. ] favorite teacher ever: dr hendley
[ .049. ] least favorite teacher ever: mr zagata and mr horey
[ .050. ] favorite subject: english or photography
[ .051. ] least favorite subject: earth science and biology and chemistry
[ .052. ] do/did you buy lunch or bring it: buy lunch it's like pizza everyday
[ .053. ] play any sports on the school's team: tennis for one year and softball for like 3 years and soccer for one year
[ .054. ] do/did you do any extracurricular ativities: photography is practically an extracurricular activity
[ .055. ] are/was you popular: was you popular? that's not even grammatically correct. but yeah i guess so. i don't really have major problems with anyone.

[ .056. ] favorite dance: the spanish counting dance that julie and i made up last night. moshing and just hopping around is pretty fun too though.
[ .057. ] favorite memory: all the times that i drove around with jessie late at night or coming to john's house really early in the morning and hanging out or hanging out with megan anytime or when james and i invaded delhi or anything with ashley.
[ .058. ] least favorite dance: the chicken dance. it's so silly.
[ .059. ] least favorite memory: when my grandpa died and my grandma was just like "don't worry about any of this when i die cause it's going to be soon. just give everything to whoever they want and dont worry about burying me" it was really sad and i didn't want to hear about it.
[ .060. ] most humiliating moment: i haven't really done anything terribly humiliating except when i fell at brooks infront of the soda machine and like hurled the broom and dustpan across the restaurant and twisted my ankle. not only was that embarrasing but it also hurt very bad.

. : favorites : .
[ .061. ] number: 72 and 12 and 16
[ .062. ] clothing brand: i don't really pay attention to brands
[ .063. ] shoes: my jedi shoes or my gold flats or my pink heart rainboots
[ .064. ] saying: NOT "whatever floats your boat". HATE IT.
[ .065. ] tv show: fosters home for imaginary friends!!!! or sex and the city or family guy
[ .066. ] sport: tennis
[ .067. ] vegetable: broccoli mmmm
[ .068. ] fruit: grapes mmmmmmmmm or strawberries...more mmmms
[ .069. ] movie: ghostbusters!
[ .070. ] magazine: seventeen or cosmogirl. oh i really like ellegirl
[ .071. ] actor: idk i don't really care about those kinds of things. other than i HATE nicolas cage and kevin bacon. they scare the crap outta me
[ .072. ] actress: ummm still don't know or care.
[ .073. ] candy: pop rocks!! they're SO good you have no idea. OR pixie sticks
[ .074. ] gum: juicy fruit. nothing beats it
[ .075. ] scent: country apple by bath&body works
[ .076. ] candy bar: twix
[ .077. ] ice cream flavor: cookies'n cream soo good
[ .078. ] color: green or yellow
[ .079. ] season: fall
[ .080. ] holiday: halloween! so much fun. and the candy....
[ .081. ] band: oh god so many. brand new...coheed...nightmare of you, eisley, fall out boy, boys night out...
[ .082. ] singer: brandon boyd of incubus. he has, hands down, the best voice i've ever heard.
[ .083. ] group: isn't that the same thign? weezer.
[ .084. ] rapper: haaaa. uhh let's just go with icp because they kinda rap.
[ .086. ] thing in your room: bed or futon
[ .087. ] place to be: top of the world or joh'ns house chilling out or jessie's death car with him
[ .088. ] radio station: 94.9 KROCK!
[ .089. ] tv channel: 32 - comedy central
[ .090. ] junk food: cheetos
[ .091. ] overall food: macaroni and cheese [walmart brand] and salt&vinegar chips and french-style green beans
[ .092. ] store: salvation army!
[ .093. ] shoe brand: converse i guess
[ .094. ] fast food: taco bell
[ .095. ] restaurant: bella pockets
[ .096. ] shape: spirals
[ .097. ] time of day: around noon
[ .098. ] country: switzerland
[ .099. ] state: new york
[ .100. ] boys name: riley, aiden
[ .101. ] girls name: ada, lilly
[ .103. ] video game: resident evil
[ .104. ] shampoo: garnier frutise
[ .105. ] board game: life
[ .106. ] computer game: sims
[ .107. ] car: my car! it's so much fun.
[ .108. ] music video: anything by coheed. they have so much fun in their videos
[ .109. ] swear word: damn
[ .110. ] word: overdose
[ .111. ] month: august
[ .112. ] cartoon character: edwardo from foster's home
[ .113. ] scary movie: 28 days later. so good.
[ .114. ] team: who cares.
[ .115. ] possession: like the possession of emily rose? umm maybe my futon or mars volta poster. yay!

to be continued.

i've got stains on my tshirt and i'm the biggest flirt

2006-01-12T17:42:18Z

truth or dare?

72nd__ @ 2006-01-06T13:14:00

2006-01-06T18:20:48Z

50 things you might not know about me

1. What is your middle name? beth
2. How big is ur bed? queen. it's so freaking comfy i never want to leave it
3. What are you listening to right now? the super mario bros theme song in my head
4. How many cars have you owned in your lifetime? 2! my silver baby and now the blue accident prone car
5. What was the last thing you ate? pizza and pasta salad and potatoes and a cookie ♥
6. Last person you hugged? kenny before he left
7. How many hours of sleep do you average per night? umm probably about 7 or 8
8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? my mom to tell her i'd be home by 11
9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? face & hair. i'm not going to lie and say like personality.
10. Do you want children? maybe someday but not anytime in the near 10-15 years
11. Do you drink? not often. only when leejay makes me good stuff.
12. Ever get so drunk you don't remember the entire night? nope
13. Hair color? dark brown even though it wants to go red all the time
14. eye color? it turns colors all the time
15. Do you wear contacts? yeah and they're a big pain
16. Favorite holiday? halloween!!
17. Favorite Season? fall
18. Have you ever cried for no reason? yeah i'm moody
19. Last Movie you Watched? mr & mrs smith? at least i tried to watch it for the 50th time
20. What books are you reading? diary by chuck p.
21. Piercings? 7 in my ears
22. Favorite 3 movies? eternal sunshine, gangs of new york, ghostbusters
23. What were you doing before filling this out? looking at crafster.org and looking at tattoos with donald
24. Do you own any pets? too many
25. Do you chat with other people online? i'm usually only online for like 5 minutes and then i get broed
26. Dogs or cat? dogs?
27. Favorite Flower? lillies
39. Have you ever been caught doing something you weren't supposed to? every time
40. ever loved someone? of course
41. Who would you like to see right now? jessie
42. Are you still friends with your ex? two of them. one of them i'm dating.
43. Have you ever fired a gun? nope
44. Do you like to travel by plane? NO
45. Right-handed or Left-handed? right
46. If you could be with someone right now who would it be? you know
47. How many pillows do you sleep with? like 5 and a body pillow
48. Are you missing someone? jessie :[
49. Do you have a tattoo? not real ones
50. Do you still watch cartoons on saturday mornings? only fosters home!! best show ever!!

72nd__ @ 2005-09-29T22:43:00

2005-09-30T02:44:36Z

don't be jerks. do it :)

Your name:

Take a stab at my middle name : ______________

Where did we meet? _____________________

Do I believe in God? _____________________

How long have you known me? _________________

Do I smoke? __________________

What was your first impression of me upon meeting? ____

Color of my eyes: ________________

Do I have any siblings? ____________________

What's one of my favorite things to do? ___________________

Do you remember one of the first things I said to you?________

What's my favorite type of music? ____________________

Am I shy or outgoing? _____________________

Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules? __________________

What's your favorite memory of me? ______________________

Any special talents: __________________________

What sports do i play? _______________________________________________

If there was one good nickname for me, what would it be?__________________________________

If you and I were stranded on a desert island, what one thing would I bring?_________________________

Am I the kind of person that would stick up for the underdog, or bully?____________________________

My worst quality? _____________________________

Do I like Coke or Pepsi? _________________________

Is there an evil twin living in me? _________________________

If you could change my FIRST name, what name would you chose for me? __________________________

Why do you think I was placed on this earth? ______________

Do I drink alcohol? ________________________

What is my favorite color of clothing to wear?___________________________________

What do you think about me? _____________________________________________

72nd__ @ 2005-04-26T22:14:00

2005-04-27T02:21:43Z

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