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(no subject) [Feb. 25th, 2006|11:24 am]
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OpeniTunes/iPod or Windows Media Player to answer the following.

Go to your library.

Answer, no matter how embarrassing it is.

How many songs? 1599.

What is playing now? "Defying Gravity" from Wicked.

Sort by artist:
First artist: 2gether.
Last artist: Yolanda Adams (Kairos cd).

Sort by song title:
First Song: "(I Can't Get No) Satisfaction" - Britney Spears.
Last Song: "Your Stories, My Alibis" - Matchbook Romance.

Sort by time:
Shortest Song: "Intro" - New Found Glory (0:37).
Longest Song: "The Story So Far" - New Found Glory (26:36)....UGH, I really dislike New Found Glory.

Sort by album:
First Album: "'Nysnc" - Nsync.
Last Album: "Your Favorite Weapon" - Brand New.

First song that comes up on Shuffle: "This Love" - Maroon 5.

Song Name:
How many songs come up when you search for "sex"? 1 ("God Save The Queen" - The Sex Pistols)
How many songs come up when you search for "death"? 24 (Mostly Death Cab For Cutie)
How many songs come up when you search for "love"? 81
How many songs come up when you search for "you"? 323
How many songs come up when you search for "why"? 5

What is playing now? "Dancing Through Life" - Wicked.
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(no subject) [Feb. 4th, 2006|12:02 am]
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Basically, these two things are what it all comes down to..it's just taken me a while to finally realize and accept them: 1) NEVER let people take advantage of you and 2) Don't trust easily.

I am SO SICK of breaking my ass for others only to be stepped on the very next second.

I'm sick of having to be the one to call, instead of being who's called (Mind you, I'm not talking about everyone. Some people do actually have the decency to call me first, but there are a select few, a few that I really thought cared about me which is why it hurts so much, that are never to ones to call me first). Anyhow, half the time I call these people, they're busy anyway. Why is it that I can make time in my life for them, but they can't do the same for me? And if you think this entry is about you, it probably is.

Why am I feeling like I'm no longer accepted? What did I do to deserve this? I hate feeling left out and I hate feeling like who I am is no longer good enough.

Whatever, seriously.

I hate that I feel as if I'm cast out because of the relationship I'm in. Why am I being punished for being happy? Shouldn't you, if you are my "friends", be happy for me?

I'm sick of being the only girl.

I'm sick of having obnoxious friends who only do it for attention and because of it, drive people away. Again, this isn't about EVERYONE of you.

I feel like I have no girlfriends anymore. I feel like there are only about three or four people I can really trust, and about one person I can depend on no matter what. Now, I'm not complaining about this person, because I am SO GRATEFUL for him. My only point is that I don't understand what happened to everything else. What happened to me that made people fall away from me?

I don't know. This week's been an emotional one, and tonight was one of the worst ever. It was supposed to be great. I was looking forward to it all week. Matt and I were going out to dinner for our 2-year anniversary. Except, it was nothing like I thought it would be. A HUGE factor that caused that was me. And I know it. I got sick real bad tonight. I made it to dinner, I thought of staying home, but I'd been so amped about it that I went. The minute I came home, I threw up. And I know I was in a bad mood because of that. After that ordeal, came the ridiculous/has-no-idea-what-he's-talking-about conversation from my dad, which pissed me off even more. A) It was so far off the map because of ridiculous assumptions and B) It was inappropriate and could've been held later on when Matt wasn't there. It also felt like Matt was really mellow; I blame myself for that too. I just really dislike myself tonight A LOT. I wish I didn't have the problems that I do.

And I really am SO SICK of people(again, not everyone). But seriously, fuck yourselves because I'm done being nice. I'm so sick of doing things for people and then when I ask for the SAME favor, they just can't bring themselves to do it; it's such a goddamn chore.

I really hate that it's come to this. I hate when this part of me if brought out because I like being optimistic, I like doing things for people. But I've been pushed too far.

I feel so helpless.
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(no subject) [Jan. 20th, 2006|11:37 pm]
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[mood |tiredtired]
[music |Ashlee Simpson // L.O.V.E.]

So, I posted this survey a while ago and recently came across is again and so, here it is. Enjoy!

You know the drill - fill out all the questions in a comment. Then, post this in your journal so your friends can fill it out about you.

» I died from suicide:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:

» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Clothes:
» Mannerisms:
» Family:

» Be my friend?
» Have sex with me?
» Lie to make me feel better?
» Spread rumors about me?
» Keep a secret if I told you one?
» Loan me some cash?
» Hold my hand?
» Take a bullet for me?
» Keep in touch?
» Try and solve my problems?
» Love me?
» Date me?
» who are you?
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(no subject) [Jan. 18th, 2006|08:43 pm]
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A - Available? Nope.

B - BEST FRIENDS: Quite a few. Obviously my favorites are Danielle, Matt, Ryan, and A-Mac...you know, maybe some others.

C - CRUSH: Matthew Alan Anthony Limpert is probably the hottest boy ever.



F - FAVORITE BAND? Hmm, I have a few. Maybe Something Corporate/Jack's Mannequin at the moment.

G - GUMMY BEARS OR WORMS: Well, it depends. If the worms are the sour kind, then the worms. If they aren't, then the gummy bears.

H - HOMETOWN: Brick.

I - IF YOU COULD MOVE WOULD YOU? Probably, if it were into a house directly on/across the street from the beach. Obviously the 5 minute drive to the beach that I deal with now is just too much to handle.

K - KIDS: I will have them, I'm just not that sure on the number.


M - MILK FLAVOR? Chocolate...or "Cocoa Milk", as Matthew says..because he's so cute.

N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: 4, 3 sisters (2 older, 1 younger) and an older brother.

O - ONE WISH: That I'll always be happy in life.

P - PHOBIA(S): Crickets, spiders, rejection, getting fat...etc.


R - REASON TO SMILE: Love, friends, music..etc.

S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD: I can't even tell you because it was sung by some person on the American Idol auditions lmao.


U - UNKNOWN FACT ABOUT ME: I'm not so sure what I want to major in, in college. Lately, I've been thinking more along the lines of fashion design, fashion marketing, interior design.

V - VEGETABLE YOU LOVE: You name it, I most likely love it.

W - WORST Habit: Hmm, I don't see this as a bad habit, but I do crack..like, my entire body A LOT. lol.

X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: I don't recall ever having x-rays done.

Y - YUMMY FOOD: Chinese.

Z - ZODIAC SIGN: Capricorn.
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(no subject) [Dec. 30th, 2005|12:06 am]
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[mood |frustratedfrustrated]
[music |Avril Lavigne // Nobody's Home]

Haven't had an actual update in a while. Does it really matter though? Nope.

Excuse me for only being able to handle so much..Collapse )
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operation: shogun. [Aug. 11th, 2005|01:16 pm]
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Before I begin, remember: non-livejournal owners can post comments here as well.


Here's the deal, I'm really trying to make it convenient for every single one of us because I really want all of us in attendance. Because some people will not be home at the very end of August, I've decided to try to schedule it between the beginning of September and the first day of school. So, I'd like to know if you guys would be able to make it on Monday, September 5th at 8 PM. It's really important that you all let me know if that works for you. I would like to try and make a reservation once I know how many are coming so please let me know ASAP. The only people that are incapable of letting me know (which may or may not be a problem) are JB and Pasquale, but hopefully we'll find out by next week when they return from their adventures a la Italia. That made me sound sophisticated. Anyway, it's no big deal if you can't make it on that date. It doesn't neccessarily have to take place before school starts. I was thinking that if it doesn't work out before the first day of school, we could go on the first Friday or Saturday after school starts. Like I said, please let me know ASAP. If you don't, I'm not going to confront you about it because I'm leaving it up to you to inform me. If you don't, we'll just go without you. kthnx!

BTW, I'm not sure if some of you realize how much food you get there, but it is a lot so it's well worth it. They start you out with soup and salad. Next, you get shrimp, vegetables, fried rice, lo mein, and whichever entree you chose. Not all at once, but not too far apart either. It's basically as fast as the chef can cook everything. Finally, they give you ice cream which you can choose out of about 5 flavors? I don't really remember, but it's all included. Also, the chef entertains you with the food as he cooks it (i.e. making volcanoes out of onions, throwing food at you that you have to catch in your mouth..etc.) I'm just trying to stress how much fun and worth it it actually is.

You can tell how badly I really want this to work out.

Alright guys, I'm done. Again, please let me know ASAP whether or not you'd be able to make it on the aforementioned date. Thanks.

I feel really business-like.

P.S. Start saving up your money because their Pina Coladas and Strawberry Daquiris are amazing...and festive.
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please read and respond. [Aug. 9th, 2005|01:51 pm]
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I think it would be fun if we could get everyone together toward the end of August to go to the Hibatchi bar at Shogun, sort of as an end of summer thing. I realize the bill will be HUGE, but I figure the best way is to have everyone pay for what they order. If we were to split it equally, some people would get jipped by paying more than they have to depending on what they ordered. For example, I always get the Hibatchi vegetables. Obviously, mine would be cheaper than someone who ordered Hibatchi chicken or steak. So if we all pay for what we order, everything will be fair. I really want to get EVERYONE together for this. During this summer, there have been seldom times when we're all together, and I mean EVERY SINGLE MEMBER of the crew in attendance. So, everyone get in touch with me and let me know if you'd be down for this and then we can decide which date would be the best for everyone. I promise it will be extremely fun. Leave a comment here, i-m, text, or call me. LOVE.

p.s. Even non-livejournal owners can post a comment here. It will be logged as anonymous so make sure to sign your name at the end of the comment. kthnx.
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(no subject) [Jul. 2nd, 2005|11:11 pm]
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result of boredom.Collapse )
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(no subject) [Jun. 2nd, 2005|09:50 pm]
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[mood |crazycrazy]
[music |BBMak // Out Of Reach]

Because my past entries have been rather emo,
here's a little something to lighten the mood..Collapse )

You know the drill..fill it out here, then post it in your journal.

Goodnight <3
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(no subject) [Jun. 1st, 2005|08:51 pm]
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[mood |discontentdiscontent]
[music |Kelly Clarkson // Behind These Hazel Eyes]

What is with everyone and living in the future lately? That's all I hear about. STOP! Look around. Enjoy today. Enjoy right now, this very second. Love every minute of every day. Seriously.

Take the time to enjoy everyone's company; no matter how much we fight eachother or make bitchy remarks toward eachother. No matter how much we make fun of eachother or antagonize eachother. Because I, as well as every one of you, know that we all really do love being around eachother. Otherwise, we all would've stopped hanging out a while ago. Each of us loves that we are part of the crew; no matter how much we get annoyed with Pasquale's idiotic statements, or Flynn's blatant ignorance toward everything that can breathe, or Devon's habit of quoting everything that has ever aired on Comedy Central, or how obnoxiously loud we all are when we're together. We LOVE it all and I'll be the first to admit it. So stop worrying about what the future holds. Stop pretending that you can't wait for it to come. Live for today. Live for the good times that have passed and the many more to come with the people you love. Because Matt, Hague, Flynn, JB, Devon, Hilary, Buddy, Pasquale, A-mac, Layton -- I fucking love you guys. You're all my bestfriends. And next time we all hang out, and I mean EVERY SINGLE ONE OF US is present (because that hasn't happened in a while and it makes me upset), we need a huge group hug.

Why is everything all of the sudden complex? What happened to the care-free, stressless, spontaneous fun? I swear it was here until a few days ago.

I can't handle it.

Nobody can tell, but really, I'm suffering inside.

I hope this isn't how everything and everybody is going to be from now on. If so, I'm headed for a breakdown. It's just too stressful. I don't want to cry myself to sleep anymore. Everything needs to go back to being completely normal. I need it to...badly.

I need the summer. I need amazing times with the crew. I need to laugh so hard that I cry.

Well, I guess I'm done with my rant-type-deal. Comments would be nice. I want your thoughts on everything. Even if you don't have a Livejournal, please still comment. This is mainly being addressed to the crew because I know some of you read this. At least, I think you do.

ilovemyfriends. I truly do.


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