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Is it a game? [12 Sep 2005|02:11am]
I have moved on from this spot.

My logic has an error, as if that makes any cents.

See if you can find me, it should not be that hard.
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[07 Sep 2005|12:44am]
I don't know what I want, but then again, who does?
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[07 Sep 2005|12:24am]

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[06 Sep 2005|11:37pm]
I fucking smell like milk!

That's it I hate my job, time to find a new one.
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[06 Sep 2005|12:22pm]
Just let the poison spill, spurt from your throat.
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[03 Sep 2005|11:13pm]
Why does nothing ever work. Everyone starts too close to the last one, and they both fuck each other up. I hurt them all, and they all hurt me, but mainly, I hurt myself. My wound never heals, it begins to, but then gets ripped open again. My body feels covered with these holes. It is all so fucked up, god damnit. And my fucking head always feels like it slitting open. Sometimes I just really fucking hate my life. {insert string of me ranting purly in vulgarity here}


Fuck this, fuck you all, fuck me.
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[28 Aug 2005|11:09pm]
One day I will just go completely insane.

I will break and that will be the end of it.
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[21 Aug 2005|12:24am]
The night is cold, and no amount of cigarettes can fill the hole in my stomach that you being gone has made.
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[18 Aug 2005|02:49am]
I will be holding the cigarette forever, it always burning, you always being there, next to me.


Goodnight, it is just a long goodnight, not goodbye.
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[17 Aug 2005|01:26am]
I had my first taste of self mutilation to-day,

and I must say,


I really liked it.
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[15 Aug 2005|11:30pm]
And suddenly the world turns upside down again, and my feet land flat on the ground.
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[06 Aug 2005|02:50am]
Can someone please just make this all go away, I am so tired of the games, the pain, the not knowing anything, ever, please.
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[04 Aug 2005|10:30pm]
I baught a pair of sunglasses, they are tinted yellow. I really love wearing them because I look at things and nothing feels real, it all looks like a movie. It's as if the world is gone, and I have gone with it.
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[01 Aug 2005|11:48pm]
How the fuck did that just happen?

This is so fucked up, I can't even recognize her anymore.
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[30 Jul 2005|11:35pm]
I always feel like I want to vomit, as if I could pruge myself of all these feelings and thoughts, and feel nothing, if only for a little while.
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[25 Jul 2005|10:54am]
Why can you never save the ones that you love?
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[07 Jul 2005|05:26pm]
I am floating. Through the air. Am the air. I am floating.

I am not floating, now I am falling, weighed down, no longer able to keep afloat.

And so I fall. And for a time, it is much like floating again.
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[27 May 2005|01:59pm]
You scored as Materialist. Materialism stresses the essence of fundamental particles. Everything that exists is purely physical matter and there is no special force that holds life together. You believe that anything can be explained by breaking it up into its pieces. i.e. the big picture can be understood by its smaller elements.

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Materialist

100%

Existentialist

94%

Modernist

88%

Postmodernist

81%

Cultural Creative

50%

Romanticist

50%

Fundamentalist

31%

Idealist

0%

What is Your World View? (updated)
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[24 May 2005|10:36pm]
How strange it is to wake from life into a dream. As if I were taking the first breath after a coma.

As I open my eyes, the images in my head are still there as I look at the people standing around me. They are talking to me and I try to understand what it is that is happening, but I don't. Nothing makes sense. Everything is new. I don't know who I am, where I am, what is going on, who these people are, or why they are acting so strangely towards me. And then I understand.




And for a moment I lose the world, and it loses me.
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[12 May 2005|11:55pm]
I have so much to say, but I don't know how to say it.

I can see so much, and I love it. I want to show the world what I can see, but I don't know how to do it.
I am afraid I will forget it, and then it will be all lost forever. And so I will tell you here, this is a good place to start.
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