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Wednesday, September 7th, 2011
10:54 pm
no one reads this baby anymore, but i just gotta say: boy does it feel nice to be spending time with someone who is really neat.

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Tuesday, November 17th, 2009
6:10 am
i signed up for one class instead of another because i missed one number
and i even thought about that before i put the numbers in WOWWWWWWWWWWW
whatever. same class different genre

current mood: pissed off

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Saturday, September 19th, 2009
9:41 pm - WASHINGTON BEATS USC 16-13

(what a crazy game)

current mood: PURPLE

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Tuesday, May 19th, 2009
4:51 pm

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Wednesday, April 29th, 2009
10:21 pm
swine flu in seattle


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Sunday, April 19th, 2009
1:27 pm
Today, Sunday April 19th 2009 marks the worst haircut of my life.

current mood: annoyed

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Friday, October 31st, 2008
11:00 am
Yesterday during lab, my friend got a text that someone had set themselves on fire in red square (main part of campus)
The article is touching, the site was and is horrific, and the pictures are something to look at,
however, view at your own discretion. It was a human.


check it.

current mood: calm

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Monday, October 27th, 2008
12:07 pm - posted again for janna. written three years ago.
Fizzing Uniqueness

She walks into the florescent kitchen, her fiery dyed red hair dancing on her head, held together with billions of bobby pins lost in her curly forest. She flops down on the dirty fake leather bench that half circles the table. I remember all of the dinners we shared, the not so great manners she gave to each and every one of her younger siblings, and the way she and Kate would howl with laughter after they talked about one of my many “boyfriends.” She begins to speak of her quaint house on Kingston, filled to the maximum with beautiful colors and collectables. Her house that she forbid anyone to turn the heat on in, and when we would come and visit we would breathe and see our breath as if it was snowing in there. She would keep talking, not leaving out the many interesting people she encountered on the ferry ride over. The odd man who sits just a little too close, alarming her, causing her to get up and find another distraction on the long wait. Her ferry rides always have something interesting lurking beneath them.
She stands up on her long gazelle legs and takes off her jacket she has had for a few years, revealing her piercing. One day my eldest sister decided she would become more unique than she already is, by piercing her neck. Janna Rose, who is deathly afraid of needles, came home one day with four eighth-inch flat dots sitting in a perfect rectangle below her hairline. Whispering, she informed me that she did not plan on telling our mother just yet and that I would have to keep it a secret. I was struck with grief about how I could keep the secret that my sister, who had always talked about her fright of needles, would pierce her neck. I never told my mother, to hold on to the trust Janna had given me. Eventually Janna told her, and after a minute of freaking out, they grew on my mom just like most of Janna’s unique life had.
Janna is my oldest sister. The one who I longed to be while I was upset about my life and the girl who’s dear friends I wanted to have so badly for myself. She, and my second eldest sister, Kate rarely included me in their games with our neighbor Alicia. I wanted to be involved with them, know their secrets, play in Alicia’s tree house, but unless they needed a prisoner, I was not allowed. Little did I know at the time, but her excluding me from their games and secrets taught me that I do not, and should not, fully depend on anyone. It may have been tough love, but now, when I look at her, in all her natural beauty standing up for herself and not letting anyone hold her back, I silently thank her over and over again for teaching me about who I can be independently. She also educated me that when older sisters and neighbors freely give you a gumball it’s likely to be infected with powder that will make you fizz and drool like a rabid dog.
She is stubborn, to say the least. Trying to persuade Janna to do something she has no interest in is as hard as trying to put an energized two-year old to sleep. Her strong will and determination fueled her through her teenage years. Around her, many of her friends were abusing drugs, including ex-boyfriends. She set the standard for our entire family to hold ourselves higher than the influence. Ironically, Janna’s first boyfriend, Johnathan Lee Smith, who is now her manager, was roommates with a drug lord. Even with this twist, she stayed clean, and says she always will.
Janna’s interesting way of life, living clean, no pesticides, chemicals, drugs, alcohol, saving paper, energy, not polluting, will probably keep her pleased with herself. If she had her way, she would live in a beautiful forest, with trees, flowers and not to mention ferry boats, which she would ride throughout her dreams. Her stubborn personality will always prevail, and her unique characteristics will continue building her. I will forever be educated with her mistakes, and with her happiness.

current mood: awake

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Sunday, March 9th, 2008
9:39 am
Being in a serious mental and physical relationship is like taking a highlighter to the pages of your life and highlighting every issue and anxiety you have ever had and making it pop from the pages.

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Saturday, March 8th, 2008
8:29 am
seattle art museum is free for teens the second friday of each month from 5-9

next friday, when devin is celebrating his birthday with me


ya ya baby

any other ideas for celebrating devin's 18th birthday?
we have that whole friday off, thinking about seattle
and dinner
MAYBE at bennihanananas



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Saturday, March 1st, 2008
8:59 am
Yesterday I got into University of Washington Class of 2012


current mood: ecstatic

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Tuesday, December 11th, 2007
2:24 pm
A newspaper article seems to lack the vocal description of my personality ahhaa
but thanks anyway Everett Herald!


see above

current mood: awake

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Monday, November 5th, 2007
9:06 pm
pomegranate seeds, bowls full
soft christmas music
good friends
old friends
improv matches

a good night.

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Sunday, November 4th, 2007
5:53 pm
Come see Meadowdale High School’s IMPROV TEAM (Alex Hanchett, Allison Shields, Danny Nichols, Jessica Scalf, Matt Landon, Alek Greenleaf and Drew "the sophomore") go against Center High School in the Hogan Cup High School Improv Showdown, Hosted by Unexpected Productions. Improv, if you do not know already, is a theater sport, similar to television shows like Whose Line is it Anyway, and Wild and Out. If you love entertainment and want to come support any of your loved ones, crushes, or just plain friends, BE THERE PLEASE! We need/want all the support we can get! Help us fill up that theater like we fill up the stands for football games and other shows at our school. The cost is $1 dollar a head and I will be happy to pay your way in if you cannot afford that. Let me (ALLISON) know in advance if you need that funding. Thank you soo much. We all love you!! the show is

current mood: accomplished

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Monday, October 22nd, 2007
4:55 pm
I went to Sam's after tutoring Jenny today after school, and before he had rehersal
and spent a short time with him
and it was so fufilling
because we just read his books
and laid together
for an hour or so
and even if its short
it means a lot.

the end.

hess so lovely.

im grateful, that even though i have migraines and other issues
i will die one day
and i should be happy for everything i have right now.

current mood: grateful

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Saturday, October 20th, 2007
12:31 pm
margaret and I went to get red robin food at 10 last night, after i had been having migraines all day because i missed a few days of medicine.
which has happened before and nothing occured so i didnt find it to be a big deal
this morning, i woke up at 7 and for two hours i had long weird vivid dreams, i felt like i needed to run to the bathroom and pour out my insides every two seconds, which never really happened, and i still have the sick feeling
ive got to go to work today though, because, if i dont, then i end up only working two shifts the entire month of october at glazed and amazed.

i cant stop thinking about him
and it feels soo good.
but hes visiting colleges like a good boy should.

current mood: uyhg

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Saturday, October 6th, 2007
6:41 am
its 640
on my 18th birthday
and im going to take the sats
then go to homecoming

life is interesting
and weird.
and i dont really want to get older right now.

current mood: exhausted

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Tuesday, October 2nd, 2007
8:18 pm
I think
that almost being in a relationship
makes me crazy
like girls who i read about
and hear about who are in relationships

i dont want to be that girl who is sad in a relationship.

id rather be sad every once and a while and not deal with guys whatsoever.


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Monday, September 24th, 2007
10:32 pm
 hell if i ever understand anything
i cant even explain it
everything is weird
from my education
to my family
everything is weird.

my dad and i run around in guilt infested circles

i wonder what people would do if they really knew what went on in other peoples' lives
like, the people they judge day by day

i hurt when people say things like im not good enough for him
even though i know they are just jealous.


current mood: upset

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Sunday, September 16th, 2007
9:06 pm
WOW people are SO DUMB
ill be surprised when they stop surprising me.

current mood: efffffffff

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