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NEW LJ. [22 Sep 2004|10:57pm]
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New Journal. I thought it was messing up on this one, turns out it wasn't. Anyways, add me pleeaseeee. I already added most of you I know, but. yeah. add me.


 


www.livejournal.com/~hope__unknown

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[13 May 2004|11:39am]
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[12 May 2004|08:14pm]
"I WISH LEI FENG WAS REAL SO SHE COULD MOAN CHINESE WORDS TO ME THAT I CAN'T UNDERSTAND"



HAHAHAHAHAHAH
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[12 May 2004|06:15pm]
[ mood | complacent ]

Today was a good day. the power went out in the cafateria. there were 2 fights. vicky got caught for "kUtT'N"
drama drama drama.
allie and kirstie humpforfree are moving in on brandis ex man. uh oh.
i saw steven today.
i know he's reading this. I LOVE YOU STEVEN
we had fun, as alwayss.
Xtine comes home tomorrrow!
yaaaaay!!!!
http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&category=15687&item=3814845451&rd=1&tc=photo
^i may get that shit. wo0ho0

'm on the phone with sarah. she rocks my world.
sabren didn't call, again. god, thatwoman. i'm going to divorce her.
(;

fatally yors,
camille

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[11 May 2004|05:56pm]

Long day. At lunch, some guy named Antwone tried to take advantage of Brandi, Sherra, and Allie. Some guys can really be disrespectful towards girls. He treated us like we were objects, and didn't care what he did to us. We turned him in for sexual harassment. Now we have tons of big ghetto chicks on our asses, because we "got their friend in trouble". Tomorrow will be a great day. Well, at least I'll get to see Steven. Hopefully. I feel bad for making him come down to my house all the time, but I realllllllllly like seeing him.
I got 2 new cd's and some shoes today.

Misfits- Vol. 2
Joy Division- Substance

 and those.

 

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[10 May 2004|06:46pm]
[ mood | touched ]

Hello loves,

I didn't go tp school today. I still have that horrid sickness that makes my thoat hurt and nose run. I woke up around 11, called Steven (who is also 'sick') and went to the post office with my mom. I came back, got in the shower, and called Steven again. He came and picked me up around 2 15, and we went to his house. It was nice. As alwayss. Then, it was time to go home. ):

I'm REALLLY dreading school tomorrow. I've missed WAY TO MUCH.
I promise myself, next year, I'll really apply myself. I don't have fun at school anyways, why not do the work.

I have 9 more days of school. YAYY.. Finally I'll be out of that hell hole.

I'm sorry you have to go another year, Gabby. You poor thing.
I've had the worst years of my life at wsms.

I realllllly must love whoever is on my buddly list.
i only have 63 people on there. i used to have 111.
fatally yours,
camille marchand.

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I'll turn you on a switch you right off. [09 May 2004|09:38am]
Yesterday was funnnnnnnn. I thought all the plans would be screwed up, because of the whole... Steven sleeping in his car and getting caught by the police. I went to his house for like 4 hours, and waited for Zach to come by. When Zach got there, we went back to Christine's and got my stuff. I had to go home, and the boys had to leaveeee. It was really sad. They held hands on the way out, so my dad thinks they're gay for sure. (:ralrigh's still sleeping like a babbbbby. she's socute

i miss chris already.
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[08 May 2004|09:33am]
Well, we went to the Starliner show last night. They were awesome, as usual. I got to go onstage and sing, when Ben presented me with his "Local Celebrity" shirt. It was awesome. I love those boys more and more with every time I see them. Steven stayed at Christine's with us until 4 30 a.m. That was fun.

I just found out that Steven got caught sleeping in his car last night when he told his parents he was sleeping at Reuben's so he could stay out longer. Our "Camille and Steven" day just went right down the fucking drain. That pisses me beyond words. We are in dire need to have a me and him day.

Well, I'm talking to his sister online, and she says he just got home. He was sleeping just a block away, in the neighbourhood. Some people called and complained. Why the hell would anyone complain about a guy sleeping in his car. He isn't bothering anyone. He doesn't have a radio/ CD player, so he couldn't have been too loud. We should've just hid him in the house, so Xtine's mom wouldn't see him. I got all prettied up for nothing.
I just talked to Steven, this all happened 15 minutes ago. He was in walking distance from the house I'm in. I could've gone and seen him . ):

Patrick, some guy I know, is trying to tell me Starliner rips off other peoples songs. hmm.. I dindn't believe it for a second. I know those guys would never do anything like that.
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[06 May 2004|09:34pm]
Robs9688: holy hack jack x (8:32:57 PM): i hate camille
holy hack jack x (8:33:01 PM): her ass is all straight edge
holy hack jack x (8:33:06 PM): and she has never heard of minor threat
holy hack jack x (8:33:08 PM): what a joke
Robs9688 (8:33:26 PM): you can be straight edge an listen to any kind of music you want
holy hack jack x (8:33:39 PM): MINOR THREAT
holy hack jack x (8:33:44 PM): PRATICACCALY INVTED STRTTAIGHE EDGE
Robs9688 (8:33:50 PM): so
holy hack jack x (8:33:50 PM): i didnt say you had to listen to them
holy hack jack x (8:33:57 PM): but you need to at least know who they are
holy hack jack x (8:34:08 PM): before you go around with X's on your hands saying "im sXe!!1!"
Robs9688 (8:34:12 PM): since when did you get to make up rules
Robs9688: holy hack jack x (8:35:23 PM): if you say your straight edge, at least know something about it first.
Robs9688 (8:35:32 PM): well straight edge doesnt revolve around minor threat
holy hack jack x (8:36:04 PM): your opinions.
Robs9688 (8:36:30 PM): yeah
Robs9688 (8:36:32 PM): they are
holy hack jack x (8:36:40 PM): okay


I DON'T THINK JUST BECAUSE YOU'VE NEVER HEARD AN EFFING BAND, YOU AREN'T STRAIGHT EDGE. THAT ISN'T WHAT IT'S ABOUT. IT'S ABOUT HAVING MORALS, AND NOT DOING DRUGS OR DRINKING OR HAVING CASUAL SEX. YOU DON'T HAVE TO POISON YOUR BODY TO HAVE FUN.
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[06 May 2004|07:57pm]
Today wasn't too bad. I cried in 4th period, that's about it. I got a new skirt today. It's really cute. I love skirts.

a note to all those dumb asses who don't actually know what SxE is:
STRAIGHT EDGE MEANS YOU DO NOT DO DRUGS, OR DRINK.
IT DOES NOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT HAVE TO DO WITH ANNNNNNYYYYYYY BANDS. I WISH YOU'D GO FUCKING STALK SOME OTHER PEOPLE AND LEAVE ME, XTINE, GABBY, AND ALEXA ALONEEEE. YOU'RE NOT PROVING ANY POINTS AND YOU DON'T KNOW WHEN SOMEONE IS TRYING TO MAKE FUNNNNN OF YOU, SHITWAD.


Fatally yours,

camille.
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Leslie's Birthday [06 May 2004|04:30pm]

Well, today is a very sad day. It would've been Leslie's seventeenth birthday. I've been trying to hold all of my feelings back since the funeral, but I let it all out today. It wasn't pretty. I keep remembering all the good times I had with her. And the bad. Some of the good times were running around in Peabody Place singing the Sex Pistols, or dancing in the front row to The Avenue. We went on walks, and talked about things that were bothering us. Some bad were walking in my room finding her beating the shit out of my wall because she was afraid for the lives of us being in the car when my dad was tipsy. I remember she was always afraid of dogs. She couldn't stand them. One night, she went on a walk by herself and a dog chased her. She was so scared. She hated bad drivers, or people screwing around while driving. One time, when Steven let Justin drive, he wasn't a great driver and she cried. Not many people ever saw her cry. She was beautiful. She never liked anyone calling her beautiful, so I always called her handsome. She was beautiful, inside and out, I just wish it didn't take me so long to realize this.

I love you Leslie. You mean so much to me. You had a huge impact on everyone that knew you. I hope now you know how many people loved you.

 

 

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[04 May 2004|07:35pm]

what happens when i get bored. my afi purse.Collapse )

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[04 May 2004|05:48pm]
in homeroom, gabby yelled across the gym for me today, and i was so out of it i didn't see her and didn't say anything to her. haha. i feel so stupid. i'm really bithy in the morning, but not too much this morning, because i didn't have to dress out for gym.
gabby wrote me a really kick ass note. i loved it. i'll save foreverrrrrr.
i got a note from sabren, also. someone hates me and gabby. uhoh. what a loss.
i'm showing everyone my tribute purse to afi.
hahah.
IM me if you'd like to see it. well, i may just post it up here later.
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music fest 2k4 [03 May 2004|02:31pm]
Friday night:
Me and Xtine went to music fest. It was pretty fun, considering we saw Zach. He's a fun guy. We watched Smile Empty Soul, Trapt, SaLiVa, and The Offspring. Yeah. It sucked. We didn't get to see much Offspring, but they were my favorite, by far. I got a really cool skirt.

Saturday:
Me and Chris went to eat with my dad. He took us to Old Navy, and I got some Flip Flops and a shirt to go with my new skirt, although I thought I got the brown skirt but it turns out i got the red one so it doens't really match my skirt at all. When we were pulling in the driveway, we saw Steven and Zach in Stevens car. They came inside and me and chris got dressed and all that, and we headed downtown. We went to Peabody Place, and said hi to Brent and Sal, then headed to Music Fest. First we watched Lucero. They were alright. Not my favorite. We walked around a little while after that, and watched Switchfoot. ahahah. Then we went to INDIGO GIRLS. That was by far the best part of the night. I love the indigo girls. They brightened my day. me and steven got ina hardcore mud fight. Of course, half way through the set it started pouring down rain and we had to run 4 miles to get to the car. Steven and Zach spent the night at my house. good times.

Sunday:
Woke up around 11. Boys had to go home. Steven came back. Right when he got to my house we all fell asleep for 3 hours. WHen we woke up, it was time to go to Music Fest for the last time. We saw the foo fighters. It was wonderful. i wore my pretty little skirt and my flip flops, and got really really muddy, but it was worth it.

i didn't go to school today. my stomach hurt really bad.
like i say all the time, I think there's something wrong with me.
last night, i started crying in the car. my dad was driving like a maniac, and i thought we were going to crash. on the way home from xtines, my dad had to pull over and check the car. we were on the interstate, and he almost got run over.
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[01 May 2004|10:21pm]
i love steven
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[01 May 2004|11:16am]
music fest was fun last night
but only because we saw zach.
i got a really cool looking hippie skirt
a "meat is murder" sticker, a "all you need is love" sticker, a " was is not healthy for children and other living things" patch, and a john lennon patch.
great fun.


wellllllllllll.
everyone in memphis needs to go to music fest and see me.,


good day,
\camille
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[29 Apr 2004|03:57pm]
[ mood | infuriated ]

some people just can't quit feeling sorry for themselves can they?
they just drag it out until they stop getting as much attention and move on to something else.
"ooh i have such a hard life"
"ooooh i'm so0o depressed"
get over it.
i used to think that until i saw some people who really do have hard lives.
lives where no one in their family cares about them. they can't afford new clothes. they're beaten. i even know some people who were so depressed they decided to end their lives because they couldn't take it anymore.
some people have NO IDEA what goes on in other peoples lives.
i was like that until i met one of my best friends whos mom died when she was nine, and her dads a fucking drunk who doesn't do shit for her.
SHE even has to pay the bills, and she works her butt of nights and weekends making sure they still have a roof over their heads.
she has to clean up after everyone in the house and gets no help at all.
i know another person whos 16 and has a baby.
she had to temporarily quit school so she could raise the little thing.
she won't be able to go out and have a good time for years and years

the point i'm trying to get across is, some little rich, spoiled, attention craving brats make their lives seem so hard, when the people who really have the hard lives keep it to themselves.
people carve stupid shit into their arms like "help me", and "waste".
it's kind of weird how they claim they want no one to see it, when it's carved across their fucking arm. they don't even try to hide it.
they show it off like it's something to be proud of. the first thing i hear when i come into the school building is " look how bad i cut last night".
i look at the small, safty pin scratches, and turn away, pretending that i didn't see anything.
like brandi says, " if you want them to stop, tell them to do it more".
She did that to Victoria, and she has yet come to me with her stories about how sad she is in almost a week.
wow. that's a long time considering i used to hear it everyday.
another little shit has been talking about me behind my back, saying i'm a bitch, just because i told her how i really feel.
at least i have the balls to say it, i don't go talking behind her back to everyone else in school.

good day.
camille.

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[28 Apr 2004|06:49pm]
today was horrible.
nothing went right.
i fucked up my 4 year plan and couldn't fund the guidance counsoler all day.
i almost got suspended, because i told some ass hole i was going to kick his fucking ass for making fun of my friend.
a teacher told me and followed me, and i just ran to my car and quickly drove away.
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[28 Apr 2004|06:32pm]
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[28 Apr 2004|06:32pm]
&stars;
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