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You know I don't want to be clever, to be brilliant or superior. True like ice, true like fire--now I know that a breeze can blow me away. Now I know there's much more dignity in defeat than in the brightest victory. I'm losing my balance on the tight rope--tell me please, tell me please, tell me please...

If I ever feel better, remind me to spend some good time with you. You can give me your number--when it's all over, I'll let you know.

-- "If I Ever Feel Better", Phoenix

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{ if this ain't love, then how do we get out? 'cause i don't know. } [3/5/2009 @ 9:28pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Thursdays.Collapse )


{ tell it to my face. } [2/21/2009 @ 11:15pm]
[ mood | angry ]

To those of you who are pretty sure I deserve all of this,
Here you are. I hope you're happy. I hope you're fucking happy.

{ the lord gives } [11/21/2008 @ 10:11am]


Salamat Po.
Sa wakas, umabot narin ako. ♥

{ wolf in sheep's clothing. } [11/19/2008 @ 1:01am]
I guess some things just never change.
I always have to be in some kind of trouble,
one way or another.



Will it ever stop?
Aaaahhhhh shit.

{ strange duet } [11/11/2008 @ 5:11pm]




Helloo! Would you listeners like to listen to 'NARRATIVES' on 'THE COUNTDOWN'?

Text NUVOTE[space]NARRATIVES and send to 29107, or YM it to nurocktalk.

Thank you for all the support! More updates about the album to come soon.


PS. Comment here and recommend music for me to listen to and download!

{ 1 2 3 and } [11/9/2008 @ 4:11pm]
[ mood | giggly ]

Monday, Oct. 6, 2008
* Fil14 'Batang Rizal' Paper
* Com100 Final Project Construction


Tuesday, Oct. 7, 2008
* OFFICIAL PANIC DAY

Wednesday, Oct. 8, 2008
* Psy101 Final 3:30-5:30PM Sec Lec C
* Fil14 Final Project Submission


Thursday, Oct. 9, 2008
* Th121 Final 1:30-3:30PM Escaler Hall
* Com101 Final Project Submission


Friday, Oct. 10, 2008
* Com100 Final Project Submission



FREE AT LAST MOTHERFUCKERS!
PARTY LIKE A MAD WILD BITCH!

{ crackadoodle. } [11/8/2008 @ 12:06am]
[ mood | stressed ]

Monday, Oct. 6, 2008
* Fil14 'Batang Rizal' Paper
* Com100 Final Project Construction


Tuesday, Oct. 7, 2008
* OFFICIAL PANIC DAY WAIT IN RETROSPECT NAGPAPANIC PA AKO

Wednesday, Oct. 8, 2008
* Psy101 Final 3:30-5:30PM Sec Lec C
* Fil14 Final Project Submission

Thursday, Oct. 9, 2008
* Th121 Final 1:30-3:30PM Escaler Hall
* Com101 Final Project Submission

Friday, Oct. 10, 2008
* Com100 Final Project Submission

Okay, the real bitchslapping process starts tomorrow. I will not be intelligent about this. At all.



God, Lindsay Lohan is a woman after my own heart. So much candy and heterosexual fanly love. Idk why I started to like her a lot more all of a sudden, seriously, she can do no wrong in my eyes. Snatched off ONTD.

I AM GOING TO DIE WE ARE ALL GOING TO FUCKING DIE

P.S. Holy shitmuffins, these new screencaps make the idea of watching Twilight so, so almostappealing.

{ seemingly near to the end. } [11/5/2008 @ 4:06pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

Monday, Oct. 6, 2008
* Fil14 'Batang Rizal' Paper
* Com100 Final Project Construction

Tuesday, Oct. 7, 2008
* OFFICIAL PANIC DAY

Wednesday, Oct. 8, 2008
* Psy101 Final 3:30-5:30PM Sec Lec C
* Fil14 Final Project Submission

Thursday, Oct. 9, 2008
* Th121 Final 1:30-3:30PM Escaler Hall
* Com101 Final Project Submission

Friday, Oct. 10, 2008
* Com100 Final Project Submission

I remember I was religious about making this kind of checklist back in high school, but for some reason, it doesn't hold the same kind of value for me anymore. A lot of things have changed about the way I started handling finals week, and everyone's schedules indicate different times and different levels of stress.

Still, I will feel a certain form of satisfaction being able to strike out all of these items by the end of the week.

So what're you guys gonna be up to this sembreak? AHEM GAB AGUILA WHERE ARE YOU


{ the real you? } [11/1/2008 @ 2:24am]
[ mood | angry ]

You said it wouldn't hurt anymore.

You broke your promise.
Why should I keep mine?

{ we interrupt this program to bring you breaking news } [10/30/2008 @ 8:50am]
[ mood | cheerful ]

Happy birthday Enzobenzo And Gorgeous!Rain <3







EPHESUS has just released the first single from the new album, entitled "NARRATIVES", on national radio!

Tune into NU 107.5 FM anytime soon, because the song will be receiving regular airplay!

For more information and listening access to the song itself, visit EPHESUS on MySpace. We're hoping to release the album itself soon, so keep in contact, boys and girls!




I'm aware of how much I sounded like my brother for that plug. OK, back to the real world now.

{ i haven't had time to study for psych all weekend. lalo na anything theo-related. } [10/28/2008 @ 1:13pm]
[ mood | complacent ]

But really, all that's been taking up my time and energy is studying, crapping blood regardless of how hard the teachers are on me. It's only when I get to sit down in really weird and noisy places with little to do that I start thinking about the few things that make my life a little less bland.

To think, I've been a regular bar patron since I was fifteen years old. Sometime in my junior year of high school I joined a band that was once entirely made up of boys at least four years older than me, and while gender still doesn't make much of a difference, age has in a good few ways. I've had to move on from the regular high school band scene activities of auditioning for fairs and recording rough copies of demos to playing a gig at least once every two weeks in a variety of establishments and recording album-quality music in a studio that's been producing for a number of bands, some of which are becoming more known in the mainstream as we speak.

It's in the bars, however, that I unconsciously find myself reflecting on the idea of how much being in this industry, even in the shallowest level, has already become an essential and inseparable part of my life. Ever since I was still underage, I haven't been doing much but thinking--sometimes I drink, but not often, because I never feel like it when I'm alone. The boys usually hang out with their friends and their girlfriends; recently I've found an invaluable gig companion in retrosnap, whenever Angulo is also part of the lineup.

Things like these are so hard for me to share. My peers relate more easily to the bands that were born from their own circle--bands that jam for fun and make appearances in school events. I'm not the kind of kid who repeatedly shoves an iPod at my friends on a regular day and says, "Hey, you should listen to this now, we'll be releasing an album as soon as mixing and mastering are done!", and sometimes even the people who find the export mixes on my playlist don't believe what they're hearing--studio quality, hindi ba?

Some of them actually know that I play a little music, and that I know how to sing in tune for the most part, and they say, "Uy Peep, invite us naman to your gigs!", and all I do is smile and nod and wonder how many of them would give up a Saturday night more appropriately spent in Rockwell or High Street to go to an almost unknown bar in Paranaque or deep in the Q.C. area to be surrounded by the stifling smell of smoke in an environment they'd assume they'd get mugged in, just to watch me play a fifteen-minute-set of songs they don't know.

Don't get me wrong--I've never been ungrateful for all the opportunities we've received, and living this sort of lifestyle enforces the fact that you can't be picky with the places you go and the money that you're paid, if you ever really are. Things this year, in particular, have been going really well for reasons I'll talk more about later. I'm not so naive anymore--I've grown up in a lot of ways I'd have wanted to grow into eventually.

But some things are really hard to get into at first, for one reason or another. Just take it, I guess. It's all part of the experience, and it's what comes with the choice.



Comment here and I will
a) Tell you why I friended you.
b) Associate you with something -- a fandom, song, color, photo, etc.
c) Tell you something I like about you.
d) Tell you a memory I have of you.
e) Ask you something I've wanted to know about you
f) Tell you my favorite userpic from your list
g) In return, you need to post this on your own Livejournal.


{ asa pa u! } [10/19/2008 @ 6:36pm]
[ mood | hungry ]

Dear Birthday Santa,

Here are a list of simple things that would make my life easier for my second-to-the-last birthday before adulthood:Collapse )


Please hear my intercession! I swear to God I've been crapping blood good. And I've even been losing weight. There's not much else I need anymore, and even in that aspect I'm nothing more than a little kid with a sweet tooth.

I love you all the same,


Peepay

PS. It took a while to register that Sir Rosar
and Aneka are father and daughter O_O


{ tap, tap. } [10/16/2008 @ 11:36pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]

Another sunrise over the ocean,
With the transit of youth underneath my feet.

We took the past and scattered the ashes,
Oh, the future's taken a hold of me!

Do you remember when we were younger?
As a child, is this what you had dreamed to be?

The revolution in animation,
When the future's taken a hold of me;

We're starting over, we're starting over again!
It's been so long--come on now, take it from the top!





Things are gonna change,
I said things were gonna change,

But I know your head's gonna keep its files
so vagrantly arranged.

Things are gonna change--
come on now, take it from the top!


{ warning signs. } [10/9/2008 @ 6:50pm]

Save yourself
Because the only
thing that matters
is that you get away
from the pain
and the thought
of losing your mind.
Don't blame yourself;

It was everyone around
who made you act this way.
There's the stage
and your chance
to watch it go down.

Don't fake yourself
into ever, ever
thinking about yesterday.
That was then, this is now;
don't call it undone.

Don't take what you've been dealt,
you can exit out the back
and make your getaway

before anyone can see
the damage you have done.

This time is the last time,
so be here, here now.

This time is the last time,
somehow make it through.

State your case.
You've got everyone's attention,
what can you say?

Thanks, or forget
what you've been given.
Take your place;
Do you think that you deserve
the best of everything?

We don't get why you're here.
Can you figure it out?

This time is the last time,
so be here, here now.
This time is the last time,
you've got to get away.
Oh, I get lost in the thought
of losing you.

You've got to get away.
I know it's a dream
but it must be true.


Wave now, goodbye.
It's the lesson
that you've been given.
You can always move on
to better things.


This time is the last time,
so be here, but be here now!
This time is the last time, somehow!
This time is the last time,
so be here, but be here now!
This time is the last time...
Somehow make it through!


{ we turn the lights off to find our way out. } [9/25/2008 @ 12:36pm]
[ mood | sick ]

Pipay,
when are you ever going to get it right?

{ another little adventure. } [9/8/2008 @ 10:41pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

8/8/08. Just got the VISA yesterday. All packed and ready to go. Hello Tokyo, Peep here.

I'll see you all next next week! Hope you have a good time back at home.


{ INTACT-style self-evaluation. } [9/6/2008 @ 6:43pm]
[ mood | awake ]

Fill in the blank: 'College has made me __________.'Collapse )

Now that the unnecessary things are done being discussed, back to worrying about the horrors of Theo and Fil and the impending status of my VISA.

Happy birthday Mia ♥

For your additional entertainment:
http://www.scifi.com/scifiction/originals/originals_archive/shepard8/index.html
I've been into a lot of post-apocalyptic things lately, but Y SIR ANDREW Y.


{ myuu } [9/3/2008 @ 3:04pm]
[ mood | cranky ]

Some Povedan survey, taken from Patch.Collapse )

I have two long tests this week and still all I'm worrying about is that VISA. =^;~;^=


{ waiiiiiii } [8/31/2008 @ 10:25pm]
[ mood | rushed ]

Happy birthday Harry Potter Erica Silva. I miss you and I wish you told me that you were leaving earlier than you did. ._.

... so I just got a call from my very radioactive dad this afternoon, and I only found out now.

I'm going to Tokyo! FRIDAY NEXT WEEK.

visa visa visa letter of request visa visa visa DAMMIT visa visa visa

{ free hugs ateneo } [8/29/2008 @ 10:01pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

Hello world, life has been pretty much okay as of late.
I had a great time at the Lifehouse concert getting my brains fucked dead, thanks to God, another loan that I'll probably have to pay off during sembreak, and Jao's shrewd business skills/good timing. No worries, it was all worth it. To all of the people I was able to bump into, especially Nate and Mr. Kabab, it was nice seeing you again, and I hope you had as much fun as we did.

And thanks to Anna San Juan, here's our documentation:



Free Hugs!Collapse )

+1 CELEBRITY HUGCollapse )

Final Hug Tally: 204 FREE HUGS
Thank you so much, Ateneans!
Have a great day! ♥

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