LJ deletes it if I'm inactive for a certain period of time, but I don't think I'm ready to let go yet. Despite the fact that I'll never update it with anything substantial again.. I just want to go back and read it all, and absorb the person that I was a year ago and the person that I am now.
I enjoy it when people update my journal for me because I gave them my password and they have it written down on a post-it underneath their desk. Or perhaps in a drawer, underneath the trayliner that holds their mechanical pencils and vibrators (-COUGHCAITLINCOUGH-)
... so feel free. Open game to anyone who knows my password.
Ugggh. I feel so exhausted, like I was so winded just walking around during class change. I just want to get biology over with and try to sleep when I get home. Maybe I'll go out tonight, I don't know, it depends on how much better I feel, if I even do feel better. I used all the cold medicine I had in my bag so I'm living on cough drops and water, haha. At least my head isn't killing me and my stomach doesn't hurt like yesterday. It's just a bad cough and some congestion, I think I might have a sinus infection again though, because it hurts when I move my head a lot. Like I can't turn around without getting dizzy, which is kinda scary really, but oh well.
This weekend is going to be hell, trying to do my bio paper. Tomorrow morning I have to work and that afternoon/night I'm not sure what I'm doing (going out, if I don't do that tonight). I think I forgot how to type, the cold meds are fux0ring with my mind. Haha.
-yawn- Okay, I guess I'll do some timed writings, since I have nothing else. Damn, ya got me Mrs. Squire >_<
Some situations in life are purely hilarious to me. Specifically when you know someone is totally disillusioned by something they perceive to be reality, and you know that they're living in fantasy land. All you want to do to them is try and beat some sense into them, and you can't. And everything they say makes it worse. You want to laugh at their stupidity, you want to cry at their misconceptions, and what's funny is that this isn't a division of the classes (mature vs. immature people), because it happens to everyone. Society has evolved in such a way that we are backstabbing. We will do anything we can to attain goals, and to crush those of others. Every person has the capability to be deletariously mean, or nasueatingly sweet, which is a choice made every day by every single person, whether they are aware of it or not. The reason such a thought provoking entry was just made is because I was reading through some old conversations with some friends of mine, specifically a recent one (okay, not so recent, like a month ago), which just made me disgusted all over again. The same feeling I had when the conversation was actually happening. I meant every single thing I said, I suppose it just came off the wrong way.
So here's some food for thought: it's always better to be prepared before doing something, so the next time you get really upset with a friend, or with a family member, or with anyone or possibly anything, think about everything that's going on. Take into consideration that you're sometimes just as insane as the person you want to strangle. There's too much betrayal and disgust going on, it's time to learn to get along and just let things slide. Maybe the world will be better off for it.
♥DANIELLE ALEXIS LAWLER♥ GETS HOME FROM NEWYORK IN T-MINUS...1HOUR AND 10MINUTES.
<# CAITLIN MARIE SILEO <# RETURNS from California in like ¡20¡ minutes!
EVERYBODY SAY, "w00t w00t HUZZAH!!!"
oh and a bunch of other people get back from their
fabulous spring break vacations today too, because we all return to the
humdrum routined life of school tomorrow. which i suppose i'm happy
about, because i'm so exhausted from the break.
but you guys seriously
that's like 9 weeks.
which is like, a quarter.
holy shit :-\