||[Jan. 5th, 2007|09:59 pm]
So even someone that I never got on with before shows some concern, it means more than they might think. Things are so fucking messed up, today has been the first day I haven't cried since new year, I just feel so fucking empty. I've basically lost the two people who I cared about the most.|
Situations like this show you that the people who you trusted the most, can hurt you the most. It's a pretty horrible thought. It has also taught me that the people who said they were their for me, only are when it suits, and when they are happy, no one elses problems could matter any less.
This has been the worst start to the New Year, building up a friendship is going to be the fucking hardest thing I'll ever have to do, but I can't not.
I was supposed to move out to Edinburgh for a few days so get away from this place, but I can't till next week, which is fucking shit.
Writing this update is harder than I thought, fuck it.