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And now I wonder how I was made...My arms, my legs, my heart, my face. My name is Driftwood.
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NEW JOURNAL. [04 Jan 2005|08:34pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

____cataclysm It was time for a change. Add it.

noun 1: a sudden violent change in the earth's surface [syn: catastrophe]
2: an event resulting in great loss and misfortune; "the whole city was affected by the irremediable calamity"; "the earthquake was a disaster" [syn: calamity,catastrophe, disaster, tragedy]

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A circus complete with all fools [02 Jan 2005|12:42am]
[ mood | its freezing in this room ]

Sometimes my friends and I are really sneaky in a good way, and we plan an Alice In Wonderland themed surprise birthday party for Claire. I had a lot of fun, and I think Claire did too. It took a lot of effort but it was well worth it. The Alice costume that we made turned out really well, and I've grown fond of wearing garter belts. Lots of sliding, bruises, frozen hot chocolate, tutu, costumes, hamock, dance party and the slumbah party. I'm extremely tired from last night...kept waking up to vh1 and it was annoying. I like sleeping in a room full of my friends, it reminds me of summer. Kicked people out at 6 in the morning, got a couple hours of sleep. I like watching people wake up, it's so amusing.

I hope everybody has a good year, especially if 2004 wasn't your cup of tea. I don't get what all the hype is about bringing in the new year, but I hope it's a good one. I'm feeling self conscious and it's really lame. Sometimes I get sick of myself. Talking today was really nice. Stayed in the same position for about 3 hours. Then took a break, came back, and did it again. I have a bug bite on my jaw line and it's really quite selfish of the bug to bite me there. My infatuation with hip bones continues to grow...

My skin is almost as pale as my new petticoat.
Sometimes I realize that I'm really bored. So I hide behind my fake tulips. And it makes me feel better about myself.

Existence well what does it matter?
I exist on the best terms I can.
The past is now part of my future,
The present is well out of hand.
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Sitting, sleeping, unaware [28 Dec 2004|11:25am]
[ mood | content ]

I hope everybody is having a good break and had a good Christmas and all of that stuff. I've been too lazy to update but that's ok because nothing important has happened. And I'm still too lazy to put up pictures, so maybe later today that will happen.

Yesterday I accomplished a lot. Finally got california rolls and CATERPILLAR rolls with Claire, went to Tempe with Devon and Claire and got a sweatshirt and 3 CDs, found the Burger King in Fountain Hills which made us feel like a million bucks, made 2 U-turns (not very gracefully, but that's beside the point), didn't get lost all night, went cruisin-yeah that's right- and totally scored some boizzz, and I think that's about it.

This break has been pretty good to me, except a little boring. I got a Polaroid camera for Christmas and it excites me a lot even though it's nothing special. I really have nothing of interest to write about. OK GOODBYE.

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[24 Dec 2004|11:43pm]
"Last month, a religious fanatic in Taiwan decided to reach out to a previously neglected group of heathens. At a zoo, he leaped into a lion's den and began trying to convert the beasts to the Christian faith. "Jesus will save you!" was one of his oft-repeated exhortations. The lions seemed enraged by his appeals, and it was only through the heroic efforts of the zookeepers that the crusader was saved from martyrdom. Let him serve as your anti-role model in 2005, Leo. Work diligently to spread your good intentions; be brave in promoting your high ideals; ramp up your powers of persuasion to a new level; but don't waste your time trying to win over dumb beasts, bad listeners, and narrow-minded dogmatists."

Ha. I like my horoscope for this week.


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[22 Dec 2004|01:26am]
HOME. Update later, I'm not sure I'm even updating now. Utah was a blast, I had so much fun and it was so nice to see Rachel again. I'm too tired for this. Tonight was kind of just "bleh". Whatevz.
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Know I could remind myself. [14 Dec 2004|09:38pm]
[ mood | excellent ]

I love feeling so apathetic towards Midterms, it's really unfortunate. Speaking of unfortunate, Sara, Devon, and I are going to be reading Lemony Snicket's Series of Unfortunate Events and I'm really excited; now I have something to do on the plane.

So, I stole this from Claire's livejournal. And you guys should do it too. (she said don't use the words "love" and "hate" because she's better than every one else or something).

I like...

light cologne or perfume-ish scents, the holiday season, vibrant colors, jeans, flamingos, guitar pick scraping noises, singing, kisses on the forehead, being lifted up when some one hugs me, really long discussions with good friends, random acts of kindness, old people, babies (when they aren't crying), affection, notes, heating pads, sincere compliments, holding hands, clothing with intricate details, silly rhymes, laughing to tears, crying to laughter, crying in the middle of the street with 2 of my best friends in the middle of the night, antiques, seeing people after getting home from vacation, children's books, seeing a big word and realizing I know what it means, the concept of ghosts, threatening to beat up people, tackle hugs, hidden meanings, criminology specials on TV, the moon, little things that remind me of people, fresh ocean air, pretty under garments, sneezing, these 3 flowers; fuschia, lady slippers, snap dragons, snow, new experiences and people, the feeling of excitement, being comfortable in a group of guys, color schemes, listening to 1 song on repeat, songs that hold sentimental value to me even if nobody else gets it, unique makeup and fashion design, math + / - =, that pi never repeats itself, faint lipgloss, thinking about the future, finding shapes in the clouds.

I do not like...

cold fingers or toes or ears, jealousy, degrading terms, rejection, condescending people, humidity, people obssessed with sex (especially at the age of 16), the word "pussy", people fishing for compliments, people that won't open up to any one, lies, new car scent, the smell before rain, the word "panties", people that use the word "stress" way too loosely, girls in mass quantity, empty promisses, knots that don't come undone, soggy cereal, the feeling when you have to sneeze and you can't, drugs, sometimes being a girl, the fact that I never know when I'm going to get my period, cuts, needles, failure, itching feelings, gaining weight, fear of choosing the wrong path in lots of situations, being ditched, hypocrites, going to take a bite of food and dropping it on the floor.


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You've got some teeth in that stare [12 Dec 2004|02:14pm]
[ mood | productive ]

I'm sick of feeling like I have to fix problems and like I have to save the day, and it's my own fault. No one else depends on me for that feeling, I've forced it upon myself. I think sometimes people unintentionally involve me in their problems and then I feel guilty when I can't save them. I don't want to be in the middle of things anymore.

I shouldn't complain because this weekend was one of the best I've had in a while. Choreographed a Spice Girls dance with Pear, Sara, Devon, and Carly because we're 12. We performed that shit, oh yes we did. Danced for a few hours previous to that with Sara and Pear and put on glittery whore makeup which I kept forgetting that I was wearing. How embarrassing. Glitter really hurts to take off when its all over your eyes. Yesterday I went to so many different places during the day to get Christmas gifts, and I still need a few more for people. Wish I could've slept over at Devon's last night but due to my 4 hours of sleep the night before and running around all day I wasn't up to it. Nice to visit, nonetheless. Umm last night was really good. <3

Utah is in 5 days, and I'm really excited. I just realized that we haven't seen Rachel in about 7 months. We're long overdue.

Thanks to every one who listened to me vent this weekend, I needed it.

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Please. [07 Dec 2004|04:45pm]
[ mood | here we go ]

Dear mybestfriends,

I'm not very good at confronting people, most of you probably know this, or now have learned something new about me. Sometimes I don't see problems even when they surround me because I'm extremely laid back and not much bothers me. At all. One thing I can't stand is losing friends. And I'm not about to let it happen. If you feel like me and you are growing apart, talk to me. Please, that's all I ask. If you try and talk to me and I just don't get it, make me listen. I'm a really good listener, I promise, I won't even interrupt you if you have a problem with me, as long as you tell me about it. I'm not afraid to share my opinions on anything, so just talk to me, and I promise it'll be for the best. A lot of people think that I can't be serious, but I can, and I wish more people could see that. I love having talks with people about anything, really. I agree with statements that have been made recently, I miss some of the old feelings that I used to share with all of you, and I want them back. Some of my friendships have gotten stronger, and you know who you are I hope. But, I can't stand the thought of any of my friendships getting weaker. Yeah sometimes I'm busy, but so is every one else, so don't think I'm purposely ditching any one or making up excuses not to see any of you, because trust me, that's not the case at all. I just don't want to see any of my friends lose trust or faith in me and I don't want to become distant with any one that I have in my life right now. I'm not allowing comments on this entry, so if you have something to say to me, about anything, tell me in person, not on livejournal, IM, email, phone or anything. I'm going to stop allowing comments for awhile because I want to talk in person for a change. And if any of you think I'm mad at you, I'll punch you in the face for not reading this and for being stupid. :) <3 ILOVEYOUALL.


Con-nec-tion [05 Dec 2004|09:37pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]



LOLZ FIRE. I'm so excited to be able to look like an ESKIMO in 2 weeks. I can't wait to see cold weather. I'm excited for my hands to freeze. However, it's barely even cold here and I'm already shivering, so this should be interesting.

This weekend was excellent, barely did anything exciting, but it was owsome.

Oh yeah, I'm addicted to Hershey's Smore's Bars now, I think they are maybe the best food item on the planet. Give me them for Christmas ok?
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I need you so much closer. [30 Nov 2004|10:46pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

I don't want to be seen as a pretty thing
'Cause it's the pretty things that we're always breaking...
And now she whispers into the mirror, "I'm broken."
Oh doctor, doctor, can you fix me, can you fix me?
Oh Pretty Baby, you're so naive -- but it comes off so cute
We don't want to fix you
We love you just the way you are
The butterfly pinned to the page
The nightingale locked in the cage -- won't you sing for me?
Sing for me, uh-huh
Yeah, we love you just the way you are
Crushed beneath fashion magazines
Trampled by circus pony dreams -- won't you kiss me?
Won't you kiss me?

Don't worry, I just love those lyrics a lot, don't look into them so much.

I feel very accomplished tonight, probably because I don't have homework and I saw lots of pretty art today and ate lots of good food. Tomorrow is a half day, and my math project is working out really well except that my fingers go numb for a half an hour every night. Goodnight <3

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Look [28 Nov 2004|09:51pm]
[ mood | my fingers are freezing ]

Dear Devon,

As much as this picture hurts my soul,


Sarah and Claire I guess
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Please don't slow me down [27 Nov 2004|12:08pm]
[ mood | content ]

The room is on fire, and she's fixing her hair. "You sound so angry. Just calm down, you found me."

This four day weekend has been much needed, and I'm glad that it's not over yet. I've seen a lot of my family these past couple of days and I've seen my friends for a good majority of it. Attempt 3 at going to the zoo failed again this weekend. Maybe next weekend... I have 16 AA batteries sitting on my desk, so it's time to start using my camera some more.

Thanksgiving was a good one this year, probably because Halloween was so lame. I hope everybody enjoyed themselves. I ate too fast and within five minutes I was full with over half of my food still on my plate.

Went to a picnic yesterday with Claire, Devon, and Gramma Penney. They all brought food...I brought myself. And blankets. It was really nice until it got too cold to be outside. I'm excited I get to see Sarah Penney this weekend I feel like I never see her anymore.

There were some good shows about murderers on last night...mmmhm. Damnit I thought this entry would be exciting, but it's really not. OK. It's taking me a really long time to get ready today.

And the hair growing process begins. :) Have a good Saturday everybody.

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Have Mercy [23 Nov 2004|10:00pm]
[ mood | envious ]

I love Danny.

For joining The Misfits.
And for being a big enough loser to make this.

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[21 Nov 2004|10:42pm]
[ mood | calm ]

And it wasn't going to be like a moon trip- There was three of us going, but we couldn't all go on the same ship. We had to go one at a time with a day between us. I had to go first, and it was the thought of passing through all that black space, all the darkness with nothing in it, and then being the first one to land there, all alone... I knew it was supposed to be all dark around,with just a red surface. But what if I got there and it was light, all civilized and populated and stuff?

If you could wish for anything right now, and have it come true, what would you wish for? Mine would be to bring back summer and all the feelings associated with it.
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Public Service Announcement [18 Nov 2004|10:00pm]
People, please stop pretending that you know everything there is to know. You just don't- It's not possible. And you really bother me. You aren't better than any one else for any reason whatsoever. Just stop. Thankyou.

Anyways, I've been cleaning out my room because it's a "fire hazard" and I'm finding lots of interesting things. Lots of old memories, some of which aren't even mine, but I still know about them. That's kind of weird.

Sometimes I wonder if people are being genuinely sincere when they tell me things. Goodnight.
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Sara G! I made this post for you, then you sign off! [17 Nov 2004|09:58pm]
[ mood | awesome ]

Destruction.Collapse )
And no, I didn't just make that for fun. It was for a project. For some one else.

Rise Against last night was so awesome. I love them so much, and I enjoyed the company I was with. It was just a good concert for numerous reasons. Tonight was my last SAT class and I did surprisingly well on the practice new SAT that we took which makes me feel better about failing the Spanish test earlier today. Tomorrow I get to talk to freshman and then parents of middle schoolers and it's going to make me feel important for once. I hope my DC trips works out, I really want to go back. Oh yeah being arrogant and condescending isn't cute.
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I suck at life [13 Nov 2004|11:21pm]
Hmmm. I keep on letting people down this weekend...

Goodbye ghetto superstar.

Let's danccce [11 Nov 2004|09:08pm]
[ mood | awake ]

I've decided that I want to lose at least 5 pounds soon. I don't know by when. I just feel really gross lately so I'm going to do it. No more soda, no more fast food, no more junk food. I really need to exercise more. This starts tomorrow. I'm sticking to it. So shut up.

The picnic was nice today, kind of short though. Last night was pretty fun too minus SAT class. I like hanging out with Rex, I never get to so it's nice when I finally do. I still feel like people are being stupid and anti-social for no good reason. And when somebody said that we haven't changed in a year today at the picnic, that was a complete lie. I just don't understand why people act like its such a huge deal to make time for other people, and then when they agree to hang out, they don't have fun and make it really obvious that they don't want to be there.

Nonetheless, this day off was really nice. I don't want to go back to school tomorrow. I'm really excited to see Rise Against...and that's about it.
Damn I'm really boring.

I hope the weather gets colder this weekend.

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Smeared black ink [07 Nov 2004|08:19pm]
[ mood | I smell like garlic ]

This weekend was more than satisfactory. I think I only got ditched a total of 1 and a half times.

Accomplished a short picnic at the Railroad Park wif 2 of mah girlz. Then saw fireworks on the way to the Sugar Bowl so that was neat. We saw this child that looked like an oompa loompa. We thought it was a girl for a really long time, then discovered that his name was Axl, thus making him a boy. It was creepy as hell. Went to the hospital parking lot and sat and I spun around and stuff. It was really nice out. Went to the other park. That was nice.

SATs were yesterday morning they sucked, but the garage sale afterwards made up for it. Devon and I got soeme matching things, we're so cuhyoot. Yesterday I saw Saw with Maegan and Sara and we laughed through a lot of it. Parts of it were creepy, and the ending was actually really good, but the acting was so terrible, I couldn't get over it. I got stuff to make my pro gay marriage shirt so I'm excited. Uh last night was good. Lots of people ended up at my house. Sat around and talked and listened to some fly beats, headed over to the park. For the second night in a row. I really love parks a lot. People ended up at my house again for ooh lets say 20 minutes, then I went to sleep. EVENTFUL.

I hope it rains some more this week, but not on Thursday. PARINAZ ELAHI I want to see you next weekend please? Don't fail me now.

No school Thursday, HURRAY!

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Eff that Ess [03 Nov 2004|04:20pm]
"We want the greatest good for the nation, as long as it's compatible with our personal well-being. Let's be intelligent: we can go far. Let's do what's necessary, not the impossible. Let's determine once and for all the acts of power and cruelty that will be useful to us, in order not to have to repeat them. Let's scale the benefits so that the people enjoy every taste they get. We can make a revolution very quickly, but tomorrow they'll demand more and more and more, and then we'll have nothing to give if we've already done and given everything..."

Well this sucks.
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