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May 25th, 2011 ~ 12:32pm
]


Can you lie next to her
And give her your heart, your heart
As well as your body
And can you lie next to her
And confess your love, your love
As well as your folly

And can you kneel before the king
And say I'm clean, I'm clean

Chorus:
But tell me now, where was my fault
In loving you with my whole heart

Oh tell me now, where was my fault
In loving you with my whole heart

A white blank page and a swelling rage, rage
You did not think when you sent me to the grave, the grave
You desired my attention but denied my affections, my affections

Chorus

Lead me to the truth and I will follow you with my whole life
Lead me to the truth and I will follow you with my whole life
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[
May 8th, 2011 ~ 1:59pm
]
"Have you ever had one of those days where nothing all that monumental happens, but by the end of it you have no idea who you are or what the hell you are doing with your life? Do you ever have one of those days?"
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[
February 14th, 2011 ~ 9:22pm
]


I am forever and ever going to hope this is how you feel. But I hope you didn't make the wrong decision and i hope you treat her a lot better than you treated me (which won't be that hard cause you treated me like shit haha).

But today, I was actually happy that I didn't have to deal with the expectations of Valentine's Day. I'm happy. I'm on the right track in school. I have tons of fun. I have the best friends in the world.

I wish I didnt waste an entire year and fuck up so much after we broke up, but what's done is done and I feel a lot older and wiser after it all.

Happy Valentine's Day!
xo
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[
May 23rd, 2010 ~ 9:17pm
]





i fucking miss you.
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"You also have to realize - we're not sixteen anymore." [
March 30th, 2010 ~ 2:06am
]
I used to always talk about how i was growing up when I was younger...funny, what do i do now that i'm grown up?
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thxmiley. [
March 8th, 2010 ~ 3:34am
]
"You love me, you like her."
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[
December 31st, 2009 ~ 10:36am
]
the only thing my lj is good for nowadays is recapping the year...

with that said, bye 2009!Collapse )

You may tire of me as our December sun is setting because I'm not who I used to be
No longer easy on the eyes but these wrinkles masterfully disguise
The youthful boy below who turned your way and saw
Something he was not looking for: both a beginning and an end

- Brothers on a Hotel Bed, Death Cab for Cutie
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[
December 26th, 2009 ~ 7:18pm
]
I keep thinking of how much I love talking to you, how good you look when you smile, how much I love your laugh. I daydream about you off and on, replaying our conversations, laughing at funny things you said or did. I’ve memorized your face and the way you look at me. I catch myself smiling again at what I imagined. I wonder what will happen the next time we’re together. And even though neither of us know what the future holds, I know one thing for sure: you’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me. ♥

[
December 16th, 2009 ~ 11:28pm
]
i hate ex-girlfriends, especially ex-girlfriends who are still best friends with there exes. like, really? stop. just stop.
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facebook. [
December 14th, 2009 ~ 3:53pm
]
me: <(")
him: ...
me: its a penguin!
him: i can see that.
me: its cute. i like it.
him: i like you.




i think i'll keep himmmmm =]

[
December 14th, 2009 ~ 2:54pm
]
You want to know what happiness is? It's waking up in the middle of the night for no reason, shifting under the blankets and feeling the heat of the person next to you. You turn around and see them in their most peaceful, innocent, and vulnerable state. They breathe as though the weight of the world lays on anyone's shoulder but their own. You smile, kiss their face in the most gentle manner so as not to wake them. You turn back around and an involuntary grin forms on your own face. You feel an arm wrap around your waist, and you know it doesn't get any better than this
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[
October 21st, 2009 ~ 11:19pm
]
just a small town girl, living in a lonely world
she took the midnight train going anywhere
just a city boy, born and raised in south Detroit
he took the midnight train going anywhere
♥ ♥ ♥
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[
October 18th, 2009 ~ 5:07pm
]


well, didnt see this one coming.
i likelikelike a lot ♥
its so nice to start anew
=]
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[
September 23rd, 2009 ~ 10:38pm
]

Bottom line is even if you see 'em comin' you're not ready for the big moments. No one asked for their life to change, not really, but it does. So what are we helpless? Puppets? No. The big moments are gonna come, ya cant help that. Its what you do afterwards that counts. Thats when you find out who you are. You'll see what I mean.



please tell me this isn't happening to me.

[
June 21st, 2009 ~ 7:35pm
]

"What if he says, “I’ll do anything just to have you.” Would you buy that? What if he says, “I promise to live with you for the rest of his life.” Would you belive that? What if he says, “I love you more than anything in this world.” Would you actually say I love you too? What if he says, “I promise to give you anything that can make you happy.” Would you say I need you? What if he says, “You’re the one I love & I`ll never let you go.” Would you love him too? Then, what if one day he says, “I didn’t mean to say those things, I can live without you.” Would you be able to survive without him? — Maybe some things are said, but can never really be promised to be done & thats what hurts the most."

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[
June 16th, 2009 ~ 4:02am
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I'm losing you and its effortless.
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[
May 5th, 2009 ~ 4:12pm
]
...WHY do i have to leave!?
i know i'm going to have an amazing summer, i love jersey and everythingggg...
but i can't believe its the end of freshman year already
:(

I really can't believe this school year.
amazing♥
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[
May 3rd, 2009 ~ 7:06pm
]
bye freshman year.Collapse )
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and there it is. [
April 19th, 2009 ~ 12:01pm
]
"So when the sun comes out over his face and he drops his armor and has that grand realization, when he touches that grace we all search for and occasionally find, when he realizes that there's nothing to be afraid of and there never was, that's good. That's a good, good thing. And it doesn't matter who he says it back to, because the doors that keep us apart are always stronger than the bonds that tie us together. The person he says it to -- and I mean, this is huge -- is less important than the fact of him saying it. "Know what? You're right. Fuck it. I love you too." There is something softer, stronger, realer and more solid, behind his smile as he says it. Loving makes us more beautiful."

[
April 2nd, 2009 ~ 1:47am
]
"Did you ever think that things didn't work out between us because we weren't friends?
i'm over it, but still, its very very very very true story.
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[
March 24th, 2009 ~ 11:35am
]
why am i so unmotivated to do things?
i've dug myself into a rut, and i don't know how to get out.
i definitely need summer, right now.
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[
March 16th, 2009 ~ 2:10am
]
so apparently everyone decided to update at the same time, and by everyone i mean the 2 people (literally) who still occasionally use livejournal. oh well, it has motivated me to update as well...except not really cause i'm only doing this to put off my ridiculous chemistry assignments. fabulous.

i'm over being dramatic. and i say this, but a week later i'm sure i'll be knocking someone's door to bitch about stupid things. either way, at this moment, i'm over having drama in my life. i accept myself for who i am because i really do love everything about myself and i accept other people for who they are whether or not they were terrible boyfriends/friends, bitches, stuck up, etc. etc.

with that said, i will list what i have come to believe in/realize since my last update back in February:

1. people are meant to be together. evidence: danny cwiek and danielle lepore. legit, dated since they were in 6th grade. broke up before college. are now back together. they make me believe in love, or something like it.

2. brain surgery isn't that big of a deal. evidence: mark got out of the hospital less than a week after having his head cut open. go him.

3. brain surgery sucks. evidence: mark is in full recovery regardless of him having his head cut open. but now he can't drink, smoke, or run. really, i could go without the running part, but drinking and smoking!? gah

4. dating a boy on your floor = super bad idea. evidence: as much as we go back to being friends, it never ends well because we just end up hooking up again and fucking each other over with mixed signals and too many feelings. and now i have to live with awkwardly seeing/hanging out with him since we have the same friends/live on the same floor.

5. bonfires are the coolest things. evidence: 4 strangers, 2 six flags employees, a couple of beers, and a bonfire. subtract the bonfire and it would have been awkward and probably not that fun. add the bonfire, and everyone's happy.

6. i can say no to alcohol. evidence: i served as DD (designated driver) over the weekend. i was asked if I wanted a beer and I politely turned it down. yes.

7. i actually like english/writing evidence: maybe its just cause chemistry sucks major balls, but i'd rather read for my english/lit classes and write my papers for my english/lit classes than anything else. I enjoy my lit classes, they're fun and interesting. maybe i'll be a lit minor, who knows.

8. six flags (particularly six flags management) sucks major balls evidence: you really don't need any evidence for this one. the company is spiraling down the drain, and they are choosing to lose the employees who are going to make it better.

9. jersey forever evidence: i was considering applying for a couple of internships/jobs/RA positions this summer in California/Maryland/DC/New York, and then I realized...why the fuck would i want to leave? I absolutely love jersey and my friends and I don't wanna miss out on what could possibly be the best summer ever. fuck those jobs, there's always next year. i refuse to grow up.

10. i love college evidence: duh, self explanitory

...i think i'll cap it at 10. i could keep going, this chemistry stuff is just not happening, but i feel like i may just get repetitive

and for those of you who haven't heard, i have a hearing this week (probably wed) about the illegal harboring of alcohol in my room. if i'm found guilty, i'm going to jail. just kidding. it just sounds fun to say i'm going to jail. but if i'm found guilty, I get to go to AA meetings. sweet, i guess I'll get a head start on being an alcoholic.

life is fabulous and everything in between.
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[
February 18th, 2009 ~ 2:18pm
]
apparently i am the rule and i'm not the exception. haha.

ever just sit and realize, "wow...i really fucked that one up."?
true story.
oh well.
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my.life.isn't.real. [
February 13th, 2009 ~ 11:59am
]
so i did a myspace survey a while ago....one of the questions was, "If the last person you kissed was in the hospital in ICU right now, how would you feel?" really...and now i know.

pleasepleaseplease be okay. i don't know how to handle this.
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I wake up saying, I'm still alive; a miracle. And so I keep on pushing. [
December 22nd, 2008 ~ 10:31pm
]
its been four months.
i'm different, but still the same.
i'm not sure.

i love college. you probably think it's the whole "no parents, so i get to live irresponsibly" thing i dig. it's just the opposite actually. well i mean, i do live irresponsibly, but for once, i feel responsible for my own life. i can make my mistakes, do things i wouldn't do with my parents looking over my shoulder, and then reap in the consequences - good or bad.

i feel lucky, free, and at peace.

but being home does make me realize, there are some things you simply just can never run away from.

well, happy holidays.

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