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bdsm, birthday, etc. [22 Sep 2008|09:36pm]
Human Sexuality class never gets boring. 3 hours of my jaw on the desk. Today we had two guest speakers. Both over 50. Both into BSDM. Yeah, that kinky shit. They have groups! They all get together at houses and have "play parties." I've never heard discussion about floggers and nipple clips sound so normal. But, uhh, it was a really bad image, these two enjoying "sensations," as they call them [because it's actually not about pain, but extreme "sensations"].

And then we got into groups and made a penis and a vagina out of playdough, tinfoil, toilet paper rolls, straws, balloons, and glue. Three groups made their penis come with the glue. One almost got all over me. It was...surprisingly realistic.

Ah, that's my Monday night.

I think I like cooking. I like making meals for people. It makes them happy, and I'm not bad at it. I make a killer moose-head shaped pancake.

I have a lot of credit to try to get for Human Sexuality if I want out of the midterm. Got to get on it, now.

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when I should be writing an essay... [21 Sep 2008|10:15pm]
Alright, really. I hate my job. Which is why I quit. But I still have one more week and of course, my birthday is in that week. I work 3 fucking hours on my birthday. 3. And I can't switch with anyone. No one will cover my shift, and the only person who can't, my manager won't allow, because the Loss Prevention guy is coming and my records are better or whatever.

Ok, that's all I'm really going to have a fit about as far as Bed Bath and Beyond go. They just piss me off.

And I need to call Nature's Grill ASAP before someone else snags the job I want!

Hannah, though you don't have a livejournal, I'm thanking you right now for that hardcore mix you gave me, haha. It's an aqcuired taste and I enjoy listening to it every now and then AKA this whole week.

Shamu plushy is on his wayyyy. Mmmm so soft and cuddly and 3 feet long! Body pillows just don't have souls.

Everyday I discover someone new who loves Ghost Hunters. No one quite as extreme as me, but I'm kind of freaky about it so I don't blame anyone.

Aside from all that nonsense, I went hiking with Stephanie today. Arroyo's really very nice, lots to explore, I'll have to check it out there more often. We watched the Office, too, and had ribs for dinner; it was really a very chill evening. Especially considered I worked youknowwhere today. [Ugh].

I have ten million ideas for tattoos but some aren't complete, some I'm not too strong about, all of them I have no idea where to put [sorry about that, do you get it?]. So, I think I'll pass on the tattoo present from mom for an 18th bday present.

But I think the one that would win is the one of Shavo.

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[19 Sep 2008|07:45pm]
I revisited my old entries last night. I really love the purpose I'd taken of the livejournal. It doesn't really seem like a real journal at all, more like a blog. Liveblog. More like a documentation of life events, and sometimes not really even that. There's not really a whole lot of "reflection" or "expression." You know? I think because it's the internet and your friends might see it, you might [or, more specifically, I might] hold back and not really put what you're thinking, etc. Which is the true purpose of a journal.

But I mean, it is kind of nice to have a place to record happenings and inside jokes etc. But I do have a real journal, hah. But maybe my friends want to read it? I don't know, it's a nice way to keep tabs, except, not many people really use their livejournals anymore, do they? I think, like, three of you.

Shit, look at me, I bailed. Damn myspace.

Haha and what I love most about my old posts is that since I never would flat out say what was bothering me, or whatever, I'd throw in some sappy lyric. Actually, even parts where I wasn't bothered, I'd throw in some lyric. I do love lyrics, though. It's just very indie rock/emo of me. I noticed a hefty chunk was Brand New, haha. I should revisit them.

Can all three of us take a look at my icon? Haha!

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remember me? [18 Sep 2008|09:34pm]
Ok, it's really been a long time.
Like, really long.

I know it's been a long time because my last post is when I saw Emily Haines over a year ago and it I was quoting her saying something about being gay and my response was: "If I was gay I'd be in love with you!"

And, hello, we all know how that is now. Hah!

It's been a long time.

But really, I want to ditch this journal and start a new one. I feel like this one is so, I don't know, detached in a sense that I've grown so much. And I don't know, you get it? I feel like I need some blank pages.

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[25 Jan 2007|01:08pm]
it's beyond words. amazing, wonderful, beautiful come to mind but it's all an understatement.

it may not be from the music alone, but in the entire experience itself, in that i think emily haines is so amazing and at the true heart of music and seeing her and feeling her "ora" while she performed songs more... meaningful, i suppose is the right word.

she's far better live than on the record and delivers way more feeling. plus she's 10x better in person, herself.

emily: "...if i was gay i'd be in love with her."
me: "if i was gay i'd be in love with you!"

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[24 Dec 2006|11:59am]
something went down. aj confronted his parents about us. not clear on what exactly was said, but the mom has apparently lost trust with him and prayed for a long period of time. the dad is yet to know and that will be scary once he does.


so it'll go either way: up or down. this is either for better or for worse.
i'm anxious to find out which


christmas eve, and dad's coming over for dinner. turkey, stuffing, mashed potatoes, and corn. and pumpkin pie.

tomorrow a relaxing day with mammacita.

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[28 Nov 2006|07:02am]
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[09 Nov 2006|03:42pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

i would like to express my internal anger towards religious bigots and those who are prejudice to those who are not in their religion.

i am not allowed to opening date [with his parents knowing, anyway] an amazing boy who loves music and gimore girls as much as i do, who i can talk to about anything [seriously, there's never a dull conversation with this kid], who can play music like a mother, is as creative as hell. -ok, quick summary, we're compatible.

anyways, i'm not allowed to openly date him because his parents don't believe in "un-equally yoke" relationships. meaning he's christian... and i'm not.

yeah, that's fucking right, because i don't go to church and fully devote myself to christ i can't date their fucking son. and i'm so fucking upset about it. it's almost on the same line as me being black and that's why i can't date him.


him and i asked the mom if we could date, get to know eachother more so, etc, and she was very very iffy, however, was in consideration. and of course we're more than welcome to hang out at eachother's houses and in generalbe friends. but the dad... the dad hates the fucking world. the first thing he asked me was my religious affiliations.

and aj told me the first thing his dad said to him later on was "how could you even consider dating a non-christian?" and that just upsets me to no end. it's almost, like, hurtful.

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[24 Sep 2006|12:26pm]

i'm finally 16. and so is hannah.


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[20 Sep 2006|06:10pm]

normally, i'd get rid of the goddamn link thing that if you click on a goddamn picture a goddamn window for photobucket comes up.

but i'm lazy.


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[02 Sep 2006|06:33pm]
daddy


has left the building.

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[01 Aug 2006|06:44pm]
I pack today, leave tomorrow.
I'm going through Oregon to Springfield, then Portland, the place I've been wanting to go to for a while now. Then, we will see Couer D'alene again. I suppose I'm supposed to hang with some children my age there, while mom and her realty friends go to dinner. Uh.. Then, hello Seattle! You popped out Deathcab you wonderful city.

Two week vacation!

I have to decide which CD's to take. And this time I won't forget my acne care. My god, it was terrible without that stuff last vacation.

And this time I'll actually have a decent camera that lasts longer and has more space on the memory card. Fuck that other useless box with a memory card in it.

For a while there, me and mom were worried we'd have to cancel Portland due to getting shit cleaned of my grandma's house. But all is well.

We left bags out for the Rescue Mission to take, and they didn't... some one else did. Who does that? Who jacks charity bags for themselves? They better've really needed that shit.

Hah, crappy entry.

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[29 Jul 2006|10:45pm]
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this guy got sick of me after a while. especially when i got my flash going. poor thing.



writer's block is seriously the worst.

yesterday was wonderful. i saw senor epping, and jeff from the animatronics, who remembered me [well, not my name] and came up to me and talked to for a while. it was lovely.

the end.

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[22 Jul 2006|08:07pm]
my updating is becoming less and less.

buying more than one CD at a time really gives me something to look forward to. i bought three today and have already enjoyed one. gave me chills.

my social life has been fairly minimal lately, but i suppose it doesn't bother me too much. even if it was kind of a sudden decrease. it's been mostly time spent with mom, the band [every once in a while if we're lucky], and doreen, who i'm on a search with for a "scary" movie that will actually scare us. no luck so far after seeing the shining, carrie, session 9, and the diary of ellen rimbauer [the worst movie everrr].

band is very slowgoing. writing, actually having everyone for practice is hard. we haven't seen olivia for at least two months and are pretty sure we won't be seeing her. which is a shame.

vacation seems too far away. a cut away from things at home and home itself will be nice, i hope. and by then my summer reading will be over and i'll be pretty much be carefree on my trip.

and i'll have a good camera this time.

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[05 Jul 2006|07:25pm]

4th of July, pretty neat.
I ate two hotdogs, which i had been craving for a long time. They just sounded so delicious. And even though Cherisse blew them the fuck up they met my expectations.


Hannah's a rug muncher..

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[13 Jun 2006|07:19pm]
it's been forever. i never have much to say, nothing of much interest.

franklin/le meu le purr/the return show on sunday. bummerfest. it makes me sad the livery is shutting down. the return was amazing, as was franklin for short and le meu le purr.



i have much desire to finish the indie film "you me and everyone we know." we only got about halfway through before everyone started leaving within five minutes of eachother. but it was so much more than the movies you see in theaters, it wasn't glazed over in cliche love plots or violence or stupidity. it was more real than that, and had a deeper meaning.

god, two more days.

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[28 Apr 2006|08:03pm]
i haven't updated in sooo long.

no one really does much anymore. that sentence was incorrect.

well, i know i didn't post pictures of my band when we played at the calabasas rec center. it went pretty well, i'd say. the bands we played with didn't suck ass, which was nice. we made $72 that night!! off of tips!

my grandma died. most know this though. [come to think of it everything i'm saying everyone already knows]. i wasn't very upset about it; i didn't know her all that well. i mean, it's sad, but we weren't close so yeah.

this is a boring entry and i really apologize.


... it's all repetitive. there you have it.

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[11 Mar 2006|12:53pm]
[ mood | irritated ]

i'm slow to update these days. i used to post religiously.


deathcab weather today. hurrah. my favorite.

show on the 24th. calabasas rec center. and i'm sorry everyone, i told you it was free, but it's not. at the rec center they have to pay their staff, and they have to get that money somehow. so, you have to pay to get in. $7.



divorce is slowgoing. parents are stressed. can't wait till it's over.
and like fuck if dad gets 50% custody of me.


kermit the frog is pretty cool. i wish he was real.

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[02 Mar 2006|07:29pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

i got my egg-cream!
thank you mom!! i've had such a craving.



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shockvalue.

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[20 Feb 2006|11:52am]
[ mood | content ]

i had a lovely weekend.

friday: i did nothing. i sat. i was lazy.

saturday: fun. i went down to TO for band practice then they all (minus the bassist, her mom's a nazi) came back home with me and spent the night. we watched concert dvds practically the entire time. olivia and jennifer knocked out pretty easily around 2-3, but me and other jennifer (singer/guitarist/pianist) stayed up till 5.

sunday: slept till 10. watched the birdcage. me and jennifer played the piano. she took one end, i had the other, and we just improvised according to what eachother was doing. [it sounded neat]. then we hung out in my room and i took lots of pictures.


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later sunday: andrea came over. we watched homemade movies (short) and incubus. we ate a bunch, cause eating is our favorite. she took some cool pictures of me.

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