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Happy birthday to... [Sep. 11th, 2005|03:54 pm]
Ellie
Well, yeah...long time no see? LoL...

There's nothing much to report in my life, but I do need to say a couple of happy birthdays to people, so here ya go. :-)

Belated happy birthdays go to
mariachiac,
and
sunrisingsoul.
Hope you two had a good one!

Also, a very happy birthday to
mannequin_heart;
I didn't forget! :-) I hope you have an awesome birthday. =D

everything else can wait for another update, not that there's much to report anyway. :-)
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(no subject) [Aug. 25th, 2005|09:39 am]
Ellie
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[mood |annoyedannoyed]

Being forced to wake up this early during summer vacation should be a crime. Ug.

My parents are going to see my dad (doesn't that sound whacked?) on Saturday, but I've politely declined. Two of my earliest memories are jail-related, and frankly, I don't want to have any others if I can avoid it. deanne had the nerve to try and change my decision yesterday, which was absolutely none of her business. She has *no* idea what this has been like for me, trying to remain strong--seeing my mom look as if she's going to fall apart at any second and not being able to do anything about it--and I don't appreciate having the 'you should go because you won't be seeing him for a while' guilt trip being layed upon me by someone who might as well be a complete stranger.

I wish someone was here. >_<

this entry wasn't supposed to be anything thought-provoking, but I guess these things just write themselves sometimes.
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(no subject) [Aug. 23rd, 2005|05:01 pm]
Ellie
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[mood |exhaustedexhausted]

I was given possibly the hardest task of my life just a little while ago; I was forced to tell my eleven-year-old sister that our father is being deported in less than a week, and I was the one left to pick up the pieces thereafter. I'm horrible at dealing with these types of situations, so I had no idea what to say. Her reaction nearly succeeded in crumbling my own emotional barriers, but I felt that she needed to know. If we'd waited to tell her on Friday during our visit, the chances of her being inconsolable would have increased exponentially; however, since she's been informed before hand, at least she'll have a few days to come to terms with it--as much as one can anyway, I suppose.

There are two things that really stand out in my mind about our conversation. the first is what she said about Eydie and Ruben:
"Now both of my parents are gone."
The utter vulnerability of that statement nearly reduced me to tears, but that would have probably succeeded in making things even worse than they already were.
The second thing she said was along the lines of "But I preyed so much; I even told God that all I wanted for my birthday was my dad being able to stay. I told him that I didn't want presents, or even a party--all I wanted was my dad to stay."

*Sighs*

I'm exhausted; I think I'll go and sleep for a couple days straight now.
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(no subject) [Aug. 23rd, 2005|11:04 am]
Ellie
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[mood |crushedcrushed]

My dad just informed me that Ruben will be leaving on Tuesday at 5:00pm.

I suppose I'm relieved to a certain degree, but at the same time I really don't want any of this to be happening. He'll be *gone*, which means that he *won't* be here. I know that being in jail can't possibly be fun, but I just can't...god, I really don't know. I wouldn't object to being held right now; really I wouldn't. :'(
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(no subject) [Aug. 23rd, 2005|10:50 am]
Ellie
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[mood |melancholymelancholy]

It's ten to eleven, I've just woken up, I'm hardly what I'd call 'functional', but I'm updating anyway. If you're thinking, 'well, isn't this pointless?', you're probably right. *Yawns*

I miss a certain person lots and lots; NOvember, why can't you arrive faster?

This 'certain someone'--along with certain someone's friend--will remind me to book my ticket, yeah? Not that I'm actually going to forget or anything...

I told you this was going to be pointless. Urge to go back to sleep mounting...

But I won't. Seriously.
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(no subject) [Aug. 19th, 2005|12:56 pm]
Ellie
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[mood |tiredtired]

At the moment, it looks as if my dad will be deported by September 9th. We've tried everything possible, but the lawyer fees are just too financially impractical and there are no guarantees even if we were to pursue the matter further. Who the hell has $100,000 just lying around anyway? *Sighs*

My birthday is a week and a half away; yay for celebrating like I always do by doing absolutely nothing. -_-

Kimel’s mother flew in from Guyana yesterday, and she slept over last night. Kimel seems happy to have her back, since they haven’t seen each other in over a year. I’m keeping to myself and staying out of the way as usual.

I think I'm going to go back to sleep now. Maybe I'll write a more detailed entry later or something. *Yawns*
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(no subject) [Aug. 16th, 2005|04:37 pm]
Ellie
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quiz. I was bored.Collapse )
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(no subject) [Aug. 10th, 2005|12:55 pm]
Ellie
Duhon offer puts heat on Alston

Any thoughts? Drew?
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(no subject) [Aug. 4th, 2005|01:19 pm]
Ellie
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[mood |angryangry]

Raps hope Spaniard flies

Yeah. I've had a *really* fucked up morning, and topped by this, it just makes me *extremely* angry. I really don't have the articulation skills needed to address all of it right now, but I'm sure I'll get to it eventually.

--Ellie
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(no subject) [Aug. 2nd, 2005|04:20 pm]
Ellie
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[mood |hungryhungry]

I love the sound of thunder. I have no idea why, but I do. *Shrugs*

My cousin Tasha from New Jersey has the cutest little girl *ever*. Her name's Mia, she's five-years-old, and oh my god she's just so adorable. :-D

The Raptors haven't agreed to a deal with Bonner yet? Jesus. And Luke Jackson? O__O

That be all.
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