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Put The Blame On Mame [Sep. 10th, 2006|11:42 am]
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[Feeling |creative]
[Listening to |"Put The Blame On Mame" from Gilda]

Ya'll don't know nothin' 'bout this sexiness!!!!! Eat that shit Paris Hilton.
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Quote Of The Day [Sep. 9th, 2006|10:47 am]
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[Feeling |geeky]
[Listening to |"Ball and Chain" by Janis Joplin]

The only tool of the average citizen--and it is a tremendous tool, when wielded with determination--is to take possesion of your voice and start decrying the loss of freedom in this country. Write to your representatives and tell them that you want the government to give back the freedoms they have stolen from us. Write to your papers, and tell them that freedom of the press isn't worth a nickel unless it serves the people. Speak freely to your friends and colleagues, and awaken them to the loss of freedom in this nation.

And when you are criticized, as you will be, remind your critics that you have a right to speak your mind. And if they shout you down, as they probably will, then inform them that if they insist on being asses, you will henceforth communicate with them with the appropriate part of your own anatomy. And turning to face them with your posterior, let them know where you stand. Let every fart count as a peal of thunder for liberty. Let every fast remind the nation of how much it has let pass out if its control.

It's a small gesture, be one can be effective--especially in a large crowd. So fart, and if you must--fart often. But always fart without apology.

Fart for freedom--fart for liberty--and fart proudly.
-Benjamin Franklin, The Dream

I <3 Ben
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I See Dead People [Sep. 4th, 2006|02:59 pm]
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[Feeling |distressed]
[Listening to |"Coming Undone" by KoRn]

Wow. What a sucky way to go. We all knew it was gonna happen one day, but that still sucks. The world was already short on conservationists and family men.

Let's be real though, just because someone is a celebrity and they died doesn't mean that person should be seen as somehow less worthy of recognization and respect. Especially if they were actually good people who were trying to do some good in the world. Honestly, how many celebrities are actually good people? Hell, how many non-celebrities are actually good people? You give credit where credit is fucking due. Fuck ya anti-whateverthefuckitisyourbitchingaboutbecausedudeagoodpersonfuckingdied.DIED, motherfucker. There are times to put aside your beliefs and causes and shut the fuck up and bow ya damn head.

But, let's be real again. The fact that he died while filming something for his daughters new TV show, is questionable. While she's cute and all, we really could give 2 shits about her. This might prove his celebrity was starting to get to his head a little. (MASTER P STYLE BAY-BAY!!)

So, let's at least celebrate the fact he went before that happened. Got damn. *shakes head*
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At School Again.... [Aug. 28th, 2006|11:25 am]
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[I am |North Harris College]
[Feeling |hot]
[Listening to |"Happy Together" by The Turtles]

School just started back up today. Blah! It would be ok, except for I wore this really hot, sexy black pumps. I even wore them around the house for a few hours to see how they held up and if they hurt. Nothing. I get to school and walk around a little bit and my feet are about to fucking DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The bad thing is I have to be up here until 3:50, and it's only 11!! I'M GONNA DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My feet will be sore for days.

Anyway, I just got out of Government II, I took the same teacher from last semester. The liberal one who says "Fuck" a lot, which I deeply appreciate. He's sorta like Lewis Black, so yeah, gotta love that.

I have American Literature at fucking 2:30, which seems like forever from now. I have no idea what I'm gonna do until then. No fucking clue. I'm just biding my time on here until I have to go get lunch at 12:30. Though I dread walking down the stairs. Fuck my feet are killing me. I'm so screwed....

In a couple of weeks, I'm gonna go talk to my counselor about transfering to UNT next fall. I wanna wait a little while so that they can stop being so busy with fuckers changing schedules and shit. I really hope to get started on that soon though. I need to get the fuck outta here.

Then a few weeks after that, I'm gonna get inventory, and see if I think that I can handle a job and school at the same time. My first semester of college, I failed miserably at this. But, it was the first semester. I'm not sure if I can handle it, since I have no idea what my courseload will be yet. But, in a month I should be back into the rhythm of things and be better able to make a pretty good decision. Because, honestly, I need the money. I'm sick of not having money for myself.

If I've decided that I can handle it, Drew and I are gonna start looking for a place together. LOL, we were gonna be looking for an apartment near our friends. But, all of them are being thrown out of their apartments. So, I'm really not sure what we're gonna do now. I guess we just gotta do us though. Fuck the friends for the time being. I love them too death, but they deserve what they're getting. If you're gonna be irresponsible and party all the time and spend all your money, that's what the fuck's gonna happen...you're gonna lose your apartment. So, ya know, screw it. They brought it on themselves. Blah! I'm so frustrated with all of them right now.

Anyway! Drew and I pretty much have a plan for everything. Of course, the plans will get changed and fucked up, as if life. But, right now we kindasorta know what we're doing.

Oh my God! When it is gonna be 12:30?!?!
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My Life As Of 8/19/06 [Aug. 19th, 2006|08:06 am]
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[Feeling |loved]
[Listening to |"Untitled" by D'angelo]

Well, since I'm actually up early for once, I guess now would be as good a time as any to update.

  • Shunda's birthday was last week. She had this birthday dinner thing. Me, Miss Darlene, Destiny and Shunda's friend Ashley all went over to Little Mexico. OH MY GOD! GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD FUCKING FOOD!!! But, I was kinda ignored the whole time. Not consciously, I don't think, but nonetheless. She has an entire life now and most of it doesn't include me. So, I'm just gonna let it be. We aren't as good as friends as we used to be, and it seems that that's how it's gonna stay. It's sad, but she doesn't seem to want to change it. So, screw it. I have a good life, I have friends that light up when I walk into the room, who ask my advice, who value me and my opinions. I have a family who needs me, a brother who emulates me, a boyfriend who adores me. I want Shunda to be a big part of my life again, but I'm not gonna put myself out there and keep getting hurt and disappointed if she's not gonna meet me halfway. I have standards for how I expect to be treated, and right now she ain't meeting them. So, I have no time for that...I'm done accomodating. If she wants to see me, she can see me.

  • JASON'S BACK!!!!!!!! It's been really fun hanging out with him again. I hadn't realized how much I missed him. I haven't ever posted a picture of Jason here. I probably should.

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    HERE'S ONE! It's he and I back in our Freshmen Year. Yep, that's when I was skinny. He looks basically the same, except more muscular now and less bright-eyed and bushy-tailed. Mama saw this picture and commented on how much we look alike, and then said something about with how my Dad is, she wouldn't be surprised if we were related. LOL, that would be awesome. That's my big brother!!

    Anyway, he's living with his new girlfriend, Denise. Now, usually I can't stand the chicks he dates. They may not hot and fun, but they have no future, not interesting, no soul. But this new chick...
    Aw, I love her!!! Her name is Denise, she's a nursing home care manager, she wants to be a x-ray technican, she's sweet, funny, interesting, captivating, hot, amazing. Just like....a goddess. Plus, according to Jason, great in bed. Which is a definte plus for him....not a factor for me because I'm not sleeping with her, but ya know. But, I'm spent some time with her, and I can't wait to spend more. She's great, and she's my new clubbing buddy. So yeah, YAY FOR NEW FRIENDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  • Sissy (April) left for college. She's off studying religious education at Baylor University in Waco, TX. It was a little hard to see her go. I've known her since she was 5, that's my girl, man. It's really like my own sister going off to college. But, she's gonna do wonderful things. Like I've said before, she's an amazing person. I am so lucky to have her in my life. She wrote me a long email the night before she left telling me how much she was gonna miss me, and said "In my heart, you're more of a sister than mary is. You actually care about what's the best for ME, and that's something I love about you!!" Awww...so sweet.

  • I really realized then that I feel the same way about her, and about Jason. They really are like siblings to me. Jason is always there for me if I need him, ride or die, ya know? Both he and April come to me when they don't want to be bullshitted, when they want the absolute truth. The three of us have a very Brother/sister relationship. It hasn't always been that way, but that's what it's evolved into. It's really cool to know kinda what it feels like to have a "normal" brother, I guess. I love Patrick with all my heart, and I would die for him in a second, but I wish sometimes I had someone to talk about life with....to give advice about girls, sex, school. But, that's just not how Patrick turned out, and that's ok. Sometimes, I need that though.

  • A friend of mine started doing drugs again. Not weed...like, real drugs. It's so sad. It's April's real sister. We realized that something was up when the chick is making $1600/month, has a $464 apartment, no cable-no internet....and still isn't able to make the rent. "Where is all the money going?", we asked. Well, Redwood and Murphy came by yesterday and asked us if "[Friend's name] is still doing very drug imaginable, because the last time I seen her she looked strung out." Son of a bitch. We figured this, but being as she celebrated her 1 year soberity about a month ago, it's really sad. And, I mean, she could have been lying about it all along, but ya know...whatever. I say, well, fine, she wants to do that shit. Then she can keep her ass right over there at that apartment. Jason, Drew, April and I decided that we aren't gonna hang with her as much, and we're not gonna enable her. Give her money. I don't chill with druggies. Hell the fuck naw. I love her, but I can't fuck with that. That's where I draw the fucking line.

  • Sammy's getting on my damn nerves, too. She's a friend who's said she's addicted to weed. Some people just have the addictive personality, I guess. Anytime she goes anywhere, she's got to fucking smoke. Jason and Denise smoke sometimes, so Sammy always brings that shit over to their place. That's fine, except for when Denise wants to spend time with me and then Sammy comes over and wants to start that shit, knowing I can't stand the smell of it. Of course, I have to leave. Like, physically leave the apartment, thereby making the point of me coming to spend time with Denise null and void. Denise didn't want to smoke the night, but I had to fucking leave anyway because fuckers HAD to get high. Pissed me off. I don't think people who do that shit realize how fucking boring they are when they're high. It's such bullshit. That stuff makes you a boring ass, unmotivated person. BORING!! Ugh...it's disgusting. You're got damn 18, grow the fuck up and try growing as a person, becoming a better one, instead of screwing up your shit and other people's shit because you have to get damn high all the time. It's stupid as hell.

  • Oh man, I have got such nice school clothes this year. All from fucking Wal-Mart too. IT'S GREAT!! They have some good, cheap ass clothes. I have skirts, and dress shirts....gonna go get some new jeans and shoes in a few days. Lots of jewel colors, rich red and purples. I look so hot. Drew practically bent me over the bed when I modeled my skirts for him yesterday, talking about he wanted to play "Boss and Secretary. Hehehe, and they produce the desired effect. Hell yeah!!!!!

  • Drew and I are doing wonderfully. I finally told him that I think he's THE ONE. He told me he'd been feeling that about me for a while now. LOL, then I went on this schpiel about how he should have told me, and I was tired of being the first one to say all the big things in our relationship, and that I wasn't fucking proposing to him when/if the time comes! He was like "Oh no baby, that's all me." and shit. Hehehe, anyway, so yeah. We're talking about getting a place together. We've already got most of the stuff planned out and even some of the rooms decorated in our minds. LOL, it's really sad! But, in a good way. It's nice to be able to dream with someone else. We are so in love with each other. I'm amazed by it everyday.
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    OH. MI. BOD!!!!!!! [Aug. 3rd, 2006|10:15 pm]
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    Vibrator that plugs into your iPod.

    I am so fucking intrigued. And fucking look at the accessories!!!! http://www.ohmibod.com/acsexories.html

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    So This Is Love... [Jul. 20th, 2006|04:51 pm]
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    Look what I made!!!

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    I don't know if I put this before. If I have, oh well, HERE IT IS AGAIN!!!!

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    LOL, I know. In the first pic he looks all passionate and I look insane. I think I was laughing at something he said. Either way, love is looking stupid together. :P
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    New Love [Jul. 14th, 2006|10:03 am]
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    [Listening to |"Single" by Natasha Bedingfield]

    Even though I'm currently attached, Natasha Bedingfields "Single" is a really great song. Holy shit, really great.

    Just to let you all know.
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    Meez [Jul. 14th, 2006|12:15 am]

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    My Life As Of 7/12/06 [Jul. 12th, 2006|05:01 pm]
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    [Feeling |optimistic]
    [Listening to |"Get Your Roll On" by Big Tymers]

    "A young girl two hands on the wheel
    I can't replace the way it made me feel..."

  • I'VE STARTED DRIVING LESSONS!! I started them last week with an adult instructor. It's been really great so far. Turns out I'm a really good driver. Today I learned how to parallel park, reverse and do U-turns. The instructor says just one more lesson and I should be able to take my drivers test and pass. YAY!! So, maybe within a month I'll have my driver's license!!! *happy jig*

  • I saw Fight Club for the first time a few weeks ago. Holy crap!! I LOVE THAT MOVIE!! See, and I don't know if I like admitting, but Drew's getting to know me too damn well. He goes "I know you'll like it, it's a psychological movie baby, you'll love it." And sure enough... *shakes head*
    But anyway, it's got me thinking a lot about SPOILER BELOW!!

    Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID)--multiple personalties. It's really cool. I mean, ya know, the disorder fascinates me. I think I want to study a bit more about it. I should buy the book "The Many Faces of Eve" or something. I would buy "Sybil," but apparently there's so controversy as to whether she was really a multiple or not. I even found a documentary about it last night, very coincidental and watched it with much interest. I really want to see some archicval footage of a therapy session with a multiple. Oh man, yes, I would pay for that...

  • Drew and I are STILL doing really great. It's amazing really. I've never had a relationship that has gone this smoothly. Things aren't perfect, obviously. I mean, I'm still having infections, so my sex life is sporatic at best. I have changed condoms, lubrication, not using loofas, changed to plain ol' soap...no scented shit. And still, infections. So, I'm gonna make an appointment tomorrow and both Drew and I are gonna see about going in for STD testing, just to be sure. I'm gonna ask my doctor how to get Drew tested for infections (men can get yeast and bacterial infections and not show symptoms). We use condoms every time, so I don't really understand how I he could be passing an infection if he has one. We've talked about it even being the chemicals he's around at work. He's a mechanic, and he's wiping things on his pants, holding his penis when he goes to the bathroom. So, I'm gonna talk to my doctor about that too, and I'm hoping he'll ask whatever doctor he needs up going to about it as well. We need to figure this out. I really can't live like this. It's insane. We're both making it alright, and our relationship actually hasn't suffered much, which proves this is more than sex. But still, this is crap.

  • How was everyone's July 4th? Mine was interesting. It was raining here, so we went to watch Fireworks in the pooring rain with one umbrella. Oh yes, soaking wet. So, if anyone ever again tells me I'm not a patriot, I'll kick their fucking ass. We got home, and much drunkeness ensued, as evidenced by my drunken LJ post. Don't worry, there were many drunken MySpace comments too. It was bad...
    I commented on my friend Jason's page that night, and I went back and saw it the other day. It's so fucked up I honestly can't even read what I wrote.

  • Speaking of Jason, he's coming back Aug. 19th!!!!!!! He's been in Hell, Florida for the past few months to get on his feet. A job and shit. I'm really excited about this. I can't wait to see him. He's one of my best friends and I've missed him so much. I really miss having someone to talk to about things. Since Elisha has deserted me with her no-AIM and cell phone calling ass. :"(

  • Just to let everyone know, I KNEW MYSPACE WAS GOOD FOR SOMETHING!! I found my cousins on there I haven't talked to in over a year. It's my Dad's side of the family. His niece and nephew.

    My cousins:
    Taylor, 17: http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=85647073&MyToken=47dbac49-74a2-437c-9012-67f1d0416d2c
    Ryan, 14: http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=78464036&MyToken=ab541ef5-2236-4209-967d-68c54394ba58

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    Oooooooooooouh Shit [Jul. 5th, 2006|01:59 am]
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    [Feeling |drunk]
    [Listening to |"Marqueritaville" by Kimmy Beffertt.]

    I sear to god I'm not dreunk. Or something like that.

    And neither is my Mama.

    We madfe a druybk phone coall to Shunda. I was funny. Andrew was here. Whaterfer.

    GOOD NIGETY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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    Myspace Racism [Jun. 26th, 2006|12:05 pm]
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    White Pride...
    You call me "Cracker", "Honkey", "Whitey" and you think it's OK.

    But when I call you Kike, Towelhead, WOP, Sand-nigger, Camel Jockey, Gook, nigger or Chink you call me a racist.

    You say that whites commit a lot of violence against you, so why are the ghettos the most dangerous places to live?

    You have the United Negro College Fund.
    You have Martin Luther King Day.
    You have Black History Month.
    You have Cesar Chavez Day.
    You have Yom Hashoah
    You have Ma'uled Al-Nabi
    You have the NAACP.
    You have BET.

    If we had WET(white entertainment television) ...we'd be racists.

    If we had a White Pride Day... you would call us racists.

    If we had white history month... we'd be racists.

    If we had an organization for only whites to "advance" our lives... we'd be racists.

    If we had a college fund that only gave white students scholarships...you know we'd be racists.

    In the Million Man March, you believed that you were marching for your race and rights. If we marched for our race and rights...you would call us racists.

    Did you know that some high school students decided to make a club for only the white students because the other ethnicities had them... they all got sent to court for being rasist but the african-american, latino, and asia clubs were not even questioned.

    You are proud to be black, brown, yellow and orange, and you're not afraid to announce it. But when we announce our white pride, you call us racists.

    I am white.
    I am proud.

    But, you call me a racist.

    Why is it that only whites can be racists?

    Repost if you agree.

    Now watch, I'll be a racist for posting this

    White Pride...
    You call me "Cracker", "Honkey", "Whitey" and you think it's OK.

    But when I call you Kike, Towelhead, WOP, Sand-nigger, Camel Jockey, Gook, nigger or Chink you call me a racist.

    Calling someone a "Honky" and calling someone a "Nigger" is not even remotely on the same playing level. The reason it's racist (and downright disgusting) for a white person to call a black person a "Nigger" is because that's what we called them while we were HANGING them. Do you see the difference? There's oppression, murder, slavery, rape, beating and genocide behind racial slurs like Nigger, Wetback, Towelhead, Redskin etc. Please explain what oppression, murder, slavery, rape, violence and genocide is behind "Cracker?" If you can explain that to me. Then....then, you might sort of, kind of be in reality.

    You say that whites commit a lot of violence against you, so why are the ghettos the most dangerous places to live?

    Because race and class are integrated. You see, the rich, white, Christian males run shit in this country. They decide where the money goes. This in turn decides where people go. POC's (People of Color: Anyone who is not white) make less money than white people in general. They are not given as many benefits by the government as white people. They are less likely, because of images in the media (run by white people) and the systematic racism and oppression they encounter on a daily basis, to be able to afford or sometimes want an education. Therefore, since Blacks have less money than whites....many must live in lower-income places, which is usually ghettos. Poverty breeds violence, as such has been the way throughout time. See: HISTORY!!
    That's why white people say ghettos are dangerous. I, personally have been a quite a few "ghettos." A white chick surrounded by those big, black brutes. Yet, here I stand. Amazing.

    You have the United Negro College Fund.
    You have Martin Luther King Day.
    You have Black History Month.
    You have Cesar Chavez Day.
    You have Yom Hashoah
    You have Ma'uled Al-Nabi
    You have the NAACP.
    You have BET.

    If we had WET(white entertainment television) ...we'd be racists.

    Every other channel is WET. Most news, sitcoms, reality shows, game shows, talk shows, etc. are expressed through a white point-of-view.

    If we had a White Pride Day... you would call us racists.

    If we had white history month... we'd be racists.

    Everyday is White Pride Day. Every month is White History Month.
    See: HISTORY!!

    If we had an organization for only whites to "advance" our lives... we'd be racists.

    Ok, lets talk about something. I know it's going to be hard for you to understand, being that you've apparently never read a history book before. But, let's talk anyway.

    Whites do not need advancing. We are the group in power. The Prez is white, most government officials are white, most members of the FBI/CIA are white (because who wants those niggers calling the shots, right?), most police officers are white, most judges are white. White people run shit. That means we make laws that benefit us, we pass legislation in Congress that benefits us (or if not all whites, at least just the rich ones). Whites have ALL the rights. We can not advance any more by joining a group. All we have to do to advance is pass a law. Whereas a POC has to join a group, be active in it, protest, petition, and possibly go to jail, to get unbiased and benefiting laws passed. Please notice the difference.

    In the Million Man March, you believed that you were marching for your race and rights. If we marched for our race and rights...you would call us racists.

    An example of the aforementioned.

    You are proud to be black, brown, yellow and orange, and you're not afraid to announce it. But when we announce our white pride, you call us racists.

    I am white.
    I am proud.

    There's nothing wrong with being proud to be white. It's when people yell "WHITE POWER" while Heiling Hitler that it becomes a problem. It is not racist to be proud to be white. It is racist to say "Teh ghettos are dangerous places because those blacks and Mexicans (not every Latino is Mexican, by the way) live there!!1!" That's what makes you racist.

    By the way. You might want to read "Lies by Teacher Told Me," "A Narrative Of The Life Of Fredrick Douglass" or watch fucking "Roots." You might be just a little less proud of your “people.”

    Why is it that only whites can be racists?
    Because racism is defined as "systematic oppression based on race" Or, more simply:


    Yes, I can see you headed for dictionary.com right now. Please notice that the dictionary definition is wrong. Please note who wrote the dictionary, what time period he lived in and what he looked like. Thank you.

    The reason only white people can be racist is that with The System we have in the US, whites are the people in power. We are in charge of all the important shit that effects peoples lives. Since Racism=Power+Prejudice, it follows that only white people can be racist. White people have the power, and the prejudice that is brainwashed into us by the media and our educational system...among many other things, to be racist. POCs do not have the power structure in our System to be racist. From this, if you're following correctly, you can also conclude that only men can be sexist.....and Christians CAN NOT be oppressed in a country were most are Christian, most importantly the top leaders. Stop bullshitting. Of course though, there is a prejudice, and anyone can be prejudice. Prejudice, regardless of who it comes from, contributes to injustice in the world. For me, at least, it is just as bad as racism, sexism, ableism, homophobia, etc. They go hand and hand. Whites, Males and Christians can experience prejudice. But, that does not mean you are oppressed in any way. There's a fuck difference.

    Now let's all go read a fucking book.
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    Pictures (Part Quatre) [Jun. 22nd, 2006|12:05 pm]
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    Pictures (Part Trois) [Jun. 20th, 2006|07:35 pm]
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    [Listening to |"Keep Their Heads Ringin' " by Dr. Dre]

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    Sam Houston. They say everything's bigger in Texas. Well, there ya fucking go.

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    Majestic Theatre (the African-American Performing Arts Center).

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    I WANT ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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    I just had to get picks of all the fatass business men in speedos. Oh my God, that was so gross. Right out my fucking window....
    Yeah, I know I'm wrong.

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    Possibly the only man on earth to look good in Speedo.

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    Just for future reference.

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    Patrick bowing to me. Man, ya know I had to get one ya'll....

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    Inside the memorial at Dealey Plaza.

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    Reeeeeeeeeal pretty old court building.

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    The Kennedy Memorial.

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    Dallas skyline.

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    We may have lost.... [Jun. 6th, 2006|01:37 pm]
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    I saw this as the name of a group on someone's profile on facebook. On the Confederacy:

    "We may have lost....but we have biscuits and gravy!!"

    It's so delightfully stupid and ignorant. But it cracked me the fuck up.

    Now back to whatever the fuck it was you were doing.
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    My Life As Of 6/4/06 [Jun. 4th, 2006|01:53 am]
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    [I am |Your Mama's pussy, BIOTICH!!]
    [Listening to |"What A Wonderful World" by Louis Armstrong]

    Well, yeah, I guess it's time for an update.

  • Drew and I have been together for almost 3 months, and things are as good as they ever were. I love him more and more each other. And, I'm honestly beginning to seriously think there's some weight to what we have, and that it's something very special....and very rare.

  • I went to the doctor for a pap smear a last week, I believe it was. Turns out I have a urinary tract infection, and after doing a culture....they found out I have bacterial vaginosis. It's a bacterial infection in the pussy. It's like....white, milky discharge and a fishy smell, with little to no irritation. Researchers have not been able to define what causes it. It could be caused by having a new sexual partner (for some reason), or it could be sexually transmitted. They gave me 2 different antibiotic pills, one of which I have to take 3 times a day. Plus I have this gel I have to insert up on pussy twice a day. This is insane. So, basically, if this shit doesn't knock it out for quite some time.....Drew's gonna have to get check out too. WOO HOO!! I've never had so much trouble just trying to fuck in my life. ARGH!!

  • I've been having lots of fun with my friends lately. I went to Sissy's graduation this Wednesday, and too her graduation party tonight. Holy shit, she got fucking smashed!!! Hehehe, and Aryn has pictures!!!! SCORE!!! Anyway, I've known her since I was 5. She has a great life ahead of her, and I know she's gonna make the best of it, and she's gonna do good things. She wants to go be a missionary and help kids in poorer countries. She's an angel, truly....I wish I was even remotely that good of a person.

  • I went to Dallas with the fam a few weeks ago to visit all the JFK stuff. It was a field trip for my brother. My favorite thing we did when we were there was to visit the Dallas World Aquarium. It was so fucking awesome! I'm very fascinated with marine life. It was great because we got there right at feeding time and got to watch all of them eat. Anyway, I have so many fucking pictures from the world trip. I'm gonna start getting them on the net and will post them when I get a chance.

    Very soon. I promise!
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    Outfit Poll [May. 30th, 2006|01:17 pm]
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    [Listening to |"Caramel" by City High]

    You can say I'm Plain Jane
    But, it's not the same
    I ain't into big names
    But, I like nice things
    I watch boxing matches
    And, the football games
    I wouldn't mind bein' an actress
    But, I love to sing...

    Poll #738856 New Outfit

    Which outfit should I splurge on?

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    Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting

    Remember that I'm a busty gal with D breasts, child-bearing hips and thick thighs. All of these outfits look good to me. HELP!
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    Hell and Chemistry [May. 8th, 2006|08:45 pm]
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    The following is supposedly an actual question given on a University of Washington chemistry mid-term. The answer by one student was so "profound" that the professor shared it with colleagues, via the Internet, which is, of course, why we now have the pleasure of Enjoying it as well.

    Bonus Question: Is Hell exothermic (gives off heat) or endothermic (absorbs heat)?

    Most of the students wrote proofs of their beliefs using Boyle's Law (gas cools when it expands and heats when it is compressed) or some Variant.

    One student, however, wrote the following:

    First, we need to know how the mass of Hell is changing in time. So we need to know the rate at which souls are moving into Hell and the Rate at which they are leaving. I think that we can safely assume That once a soul gets to Hell, it will not leave. Therefore, no souls Are leaving.

    As for how many souls are entering Hell, let's look at the different religions that exist in the world today. Most of these religions state that if you are not a member of their religion, you will go to
    Hell. Since there is more than one of these religions and since people do not belong to more than one religion, we can project that all souls go to Hell.

    With birth and death rates as they are, we can expect the number of souls in Hell to increase exponentially. Now, we look at the rate of change of the volume in Hell because Boyle's Law states that in order for the temperature and pressure in Hell to stay the same, the volume of Hell has to expand proportionately as souls are added.

    This gives two possibilities:

    1. If Hell is expanding at a slower rate than the rate at which souls enter Hell, then the temperature and pressure in Hell will increase until all Hell breaks loose.

    2. If Hell is expanding at a rate faster than the increase of souls in Hell, then the temperature and pressure will drop until Hell freezes over.

    So which is it?

    If we accept the postulate given to me by Teresa during my Freshman Year that, "it will be a cold day in Hell before I sleep with you!", and take into account the fact that I slept with her last night, then
    Number 2 must be true, and thus I am sure that Hell is exothermic and has already frozen over.

    The corollary of this theory is that since Hell has frozen over, it follows that it is not accepting any more souls and is therefore, extinct...leaving only Heaven thereby proving the existence of a
    divine being which explains why, last night, Teresa kept shouting "Oh my God!"

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    Meme [May. 5th, 2006|12:46 pm]

    Comment on this shit and I'll reply with some crap like this:

    1) I shall respond with something random I like about you.
    2) I shall tell you what song, movie or book reminds me of you.
    3) I shall name something we should do together.
    4) I shall say something that only makes sense to you and me.
    5) I shall tell you my first or clearest memory of you.
    6) I shall leave you a quote that is somehow appropriate to you.
    7) I shall ask you something that I have always wondered about you.

    LOL, do it. I'm bored.
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    Drunken Fun [May. 4th, 2006|10:26 pm]
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    [Feeling |horny]
    [Listening to |"I'll Make Love To You" by Boyz II Men]

    Last weekend, I got the chance to have a little drunken fun. It started off with some Grey Goose and coke. I had some of that......well, 2 glasses of that, and I was pretty damn drunk. I get really stupid and silly when I'm drunk. It was interesting.

    I was already pretty drunk when we left the house, but Mary, Drew, Nelson, April, Redwood and I all decided to go over to Mary's friend Angie's house to drink some more. Got there, had a shot of tequila. I was done.....completely fucking gone!

    Anyway, Angie mentioned she had a pool in the backyard, and Mary's all "REALLY?! YA'LL WANNA GO SKINNY DIPPING?!" Of course, I'm really drunk....wow, really drunk....so I'm all like "YEAH, SURE!!!!!!!!" We all proceed to take off our clothes, and jump into 60 degree water.

    Everyone kinda ran from Drew's cock, since, ya know....HE'S HUNG LIKE A HOOOOOOORSE!! It was funny as hell.

    It was very, very interesting....

    I was so fucked up.

    Almost done with classes. Not gonna do as good as I did last semester. I was sick too much this time around. I think I'm getting C's and B's.....I am so disgusted. B's and C's will not get me into graduate school, and they will not make a university want to take me. Blah.

    I finally had sex today after not getting any for 21 days. I got another yeast infection, and yeah....it put me under for a while. Not as bad as the last one though. Figured out I'm probably allergic to the lube on Magnums...had to special order off the net some large, hypoallergenic condoms. Had very, very good sex today. I WORE HIM OUT!! :D:D:D:D:D
    Ya'll have no idea how hard that is to do. Usually it's the opposite, but it was grrrrrrreat. I was satisfied, he was satisfied. But, now I'm horny again, I WANT MORE!! But yeah, he found these new hot spots on my back and the back of my neck, and my ass cheeks, actually, has it turns out. He's been playing with them like crazy since he found them....and today he used ice on them. Oooooooooh....mmmmmmmy......gggggggoddddddddd......
    It felt so fucking good. Left me craving the cock. Mmmm....I love having sex with him. The way he fucks me and the positions we use, it's just.....so amazing.

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    Rape [Apr. 27th, 2006|12:26 pm]
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    Had to watch a video of a girl getting raped in my human sexuality class today. Hands down, the most horrible shit I've ever seen.

    I swear to god if any man ever forces himself on me like he's crazy....he better kill me when he's through because I promise to god I'll hunt his ass down and kill him myself. I don't give a fuck. I'd gladly go to jail for that, are you serious? That was so horrible to watch. If no one has ever seen something like that (on video....not in real life), you really should....especially women. It just puts so much in perspective. It was a gang rape we watched too. That was just.....gangbang porn will never be the same for me again. *shakes head*
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    Thought For The Day [Apr. 26th, 2006|04:59 pm]

    No matter how old you are, I Love Lucy is still the best sitcom ever.
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    You say you're lookin' for someone.... [Apr. 21st, 2006|12:27 pm]
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    [Feeling |happy]
    [Listening to |"Isn't It Obvious" by Christina Aguilera]

    Whoa. So much has happened since I last wrote. Let me start from the beginning....

    More High School Ex-Boyfriend Drama Bullshit....I'm Too Grown For This
    Last Saturday night I was over at Mary's. Jason was talking to this chick who happens to be an ex of The Ex-Boyfriend. This chick said that The Ex-Boyfriend told her that I cheated on him with Drew. BOLD. FACE. LIE.

    He also tried to get back together with said chick, while he was still with me. So, that means the mafucker was triple dippin'. What the fuck? But, apparently this chick does lie.....alot. Whoa, like.....A LOT.

    So, Drew and I decided that we're gonna go ask around and see if The Ex-Boyfriend has been saying this same thing to anyone else, and if he has, then it's gonna get ugly. I don't appreciate when people talk shit about me. I had to deal with that crap with Falon, and I took it like a scared little girl. I am not that scared little girl anymore. I can't let this go again. His ass is mine.

    Drew has been really great with everything. He told me the other night that he wants to check this out because anything that affects me, affects him....and that he would fight for me, or fight with me. Like, we're in this together, ya know? This is something that meant more to me than he will ever know.

    I have always wanted to have someone in my life who fights for me. I have had to work and fight so hard to be who I am today. I have had to fight, I've had to learn to be leader, to be assertive, to not take shit from people. I worked so hard to be that, and I love that about me. I had to struggle and learn to love myself, and that's why I have no patience for lying and stupidity and bullshit. (Heh, and Falon, since she embodies all those things.)

    I've been through so much and I've had to bear a lot of burdens all by myself. And, for a long time, I think it should have been that way. I should have had to stand up to others by myself, because for most of my young life I let others do it for me. But now,. I've been in that "Protector of Aryn" role for a long time. I'm secure in that role. I've been way soft-spoken and I've been way out-spoken. I know how to fight for myself now, and I think it's finally time to reach that middle ground been doormat and total bitch. It's just....so refreshing and peaceful (yet slightly scary) to be able to lean on someone else. To have someone on my side besides me. I fight just as hard for the people I care about as I do for myself, and I've never felt like I got any of that back until I met Drew. It's nice to have someone fighting for me, or with me, for once...

    Goodbye, My Friend
    Jason left. He left Sunday night for Florida to get a job and car and money and get back in his feet so he can come back here. I called me the other night to tell me he's already got a job at some "Mom and Pop Pizzeria." He's a chef, so that works for him. It's so awesome though. But yeah, he's gonna be just fine. But, I still miss him already. I can't wait until he gets back.

    I realized that I'm in love with Drew. We're in pretty deep now, and he did something the other day while he was here, and afterwards I messaged him on MySpace and I was like "I think soooooooooooooomeone's in love with me...." and the next morning on Yahoo IM he asked me "What was up" with the note I sent him. The way he was talking (or the way I interpretted it, it's so hard to convey tone on the net), it kinda sounded like he didn't care, or was kinda annoyed or something. And, I should have known better to talk about something like that over the net. But anyway, we got into a little "skirmish" about it, as he says. and I was a little upset and got offline. He called me a little bit later and asked me if I was calmed down a little, and he was gonna come over later after he got done taking Nelson to work so we could talk about it and he could explain everything.

    He came over and we talked it all out and he goes "I thought you would love got the hint when I put 'love ya'." I said "Well, that's kinda something you say to a friend, not necessarily to someone you love." And he replied, Well, how 'bout this?" and he kisses me, "I love you baby."

    So yeah, we've transcended. LOL, he told me yesterday that I've been on his mind a lot. Easter Sunday, about 11pm, he comes over to my house with all this candy. Apparently a friend of ours got a big easter bag and didn't want it all. So, Drew took all the things he thought I would like. Which included truffles (Oh, heavenly things...), Nerds, some bubbles, a pink lambo hot wheels car...like the one in my default icon. Hehehe, it was so cute. It's just nice to know you're thought about sometimes.

    Yeast anyone?
    I think I have a yeast infection. Another fucking infection. I thought last night it was gonna be another UTI, but it hasn't got very bad. Just smelly discharge and itching. I was scared though. I told Drew I was scared, and what if I went to the doctor and they had to test me for STDs, and what if I had one. He goes "Then i'll be here for you, just like I was last time. I'm here for you baby." But yeah, I'm starting to think it's a yeast infection though, I've used the 3 day combo pack now....and there's been really no change. I don't know what to do. This royally fucking sucks my tits.

    I sent a membership application to The Center For The Healing Of Racism in a few weeks ago. I got a response back this week!!! I am an OFFICIAL anti-racist activist!!! The Center will be sending me updates, workshops and newsletters. So many opportunities for me to get involved. I'M SO EXCITED!!! I hope this'll be the start of something wonderful.

    My life is wonderful right now. How could I ask for anything more?
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    "The soul should always stand ajar, ready to welcome the ecstatic experience." [Apr. 13th, 2006|06:42 pm]
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    [Feeling |calm]
    [Listening to |"Take Me As I Am" by Wyclef Jean]

    So yeah, I broke down and created some new iconses, precious. *twitch* Oh, wait, what.....what happened? Hm, anyway....

    Drew and I had our first, kinda....I guess you could call it a negative experience in our relationship. I got upset about a bunch of things that happened Tuesday night when he and Jason came over, and he kind of overestimated how I would react to him getting a DWB. It was just a small misunderstanding of the other's feelings and intentions on both our parts. I had a bad night because of it, being upset and everything. It wasn't really at him, it was because of other issues that stemmed from the whole situation that happened. Ya know......past hurts and feelings. Sometimes those things are hard to let go of.

    Anyway, the next day he came up to North Harris inbetween my Government and History class, and we talked through everything and explained ourselves. It's really different for me to be in a relationship were we talk about things like fucking adults without yelling....or clamming up and not addressing the issue. It's very refreshing, actually. It gives me more confidence that this relationship can work. I know that Michael and I never really had a fight we're there wasn't yelling, or trying to hurt the other person, or being critical of them, or just shutting up after a while and not talking at all. I understand that in any relationship problems are gonna come up, disagreements are going to happen...it's just fact, period. I accept that. But, I also know that a relationship can only work if you both agree to work out conflicts in the same way. Some couples need to yell and bicker--more volatile, some need to sit down and talk about it--validate each others perspective, other couples just try to control conflict by agreeing to disagree on a lot of issues. But, I think that whatever you do....you have to be with someone who deals with conflict the same way you do. Like, a person who's volatile during conflict can not be with someone who tries to control conflict. It just doesn't work. But, I think Drew and I are a little bit of all those things. We try to understand the other's point of view, we compromise on things (I'm personally BIG on this), we see each other as equals and have equal responsibility in the relationship, and we pick on each other a lot. This was a very encouraging moment though. I'm really happy we got through that without in changing our relationship with each other at all. I'm not sure how it feels about it, but I thought it was a good moment.

    Uh yeah, last night......I squirted in my own face. What. The. Fuck? We were in the missionary position with my legs up over his shoulders, and I came really hard. All of sudden, I feel this wetness on the side of my face. I then realized that I had squirted from my pussy....up over unto the left side of the pillow I was laying on. I mean, I squirted A LOT! Holy shit, it was amazing.....funny as shit though. Drew and I were crackin' the fuck up! Got all in my hair and everything...
    LOL, I held my hand over my pussy everytime I came after that. Shit, Aryn don't make the same mistake twice. :P

    I also realized a few days ago, when I sat down to read erotica, that it doesn't do much for me anymore. My sex life is so much better than any of the erotica I read. Un-fucking-believable. Oh yeah, Drew and I have been together a month today.
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    Autism Awareness Month [Apr. 13th, 2006|01:23 pm]
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    April is Autism Awareness Month. If those of you who don't know, my brother is autistic. This is a topic that is very important to me. Please take some time out of your day to check out the following link.
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    LJ Return [Apr. 12th, 2006|11:18 pm]
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    I really feel like returning to LJ.

    Seriously. The 42 free icons are calling "Use us....Use us, precioussss....."
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    My Life As Of 4/8/06 [Apr. 8th, 2006|07:05 pm]
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    [Feeling |jubilant]
    [Listening to |"Love and Ambition" from The Ten Commandments]

  • I absolutely can not wait for Easter....I miss my family so much. I haven't spent time with them all in for-fucking-ever. My cousin is having Easter at his place, our family always gets together for Easter. I have such good memories of it. It's my favorite holiday.

  • Around Passover time each year, ABC used to show The Ten Commandments. Which is my favorite movie of all time. I first saw it when I was 3, around Easter and Passover on ABC. It really touched my life, and inspired my love for ancient Egypt. This year, however, they are premiering a new made-for-TV movie called The Ten Commandments. And uh, yeah, fuck that. Watching my version of the movie has been a tradition in my family since I was 3. So, I'm boycotting this new, crap The Ten Commandments and watching my The Ten Co
    this year, since I now have it on DVD. FUCK ABC, THOSE BASTARDS!!

  • Had it out with The Ex-Boyfriend. Oh my God, it was absolutely fantastic. That stupid fucker, I got him so good. It was fucking great. There are no words.

  • I'm doing a lot better in school. Keeping up with all my classes, staying on top of everything, and managing to have some fun. Which is interesting to me, usually when I get a boyfriend, my grades start to slip and things. But, I was determined to not have that happen this time, so maybe that's why. But anyway, since I've been with Drew....it seems like my studying has actually gotten better. He also gives me the space and time I need to do that, which is wonderful, as well.

  • My Mama is going through a hard time right now with my Dad. He's just being a total and utter jackass. I think she's going into depression again. She needs to start eating more. She weighs 97 pounds....used to weigh like 120-30. HELLO?! She needs to be eating fatty shit like every 2 hours at least. I don't see how she has the strength to do anything, but she needs to start doing that....and she knows it. But, she won't. I don't understand. She's such a child sometimes. If you know you need to do something, then you do it. You fucking get it done. Got damn....you pull yourself up out of what what ever hole you're in and you fucking do it!!! I feel bad for her, but at the same time I'm disgusted. I don't know what to do about her.

  • I believe I am falling in love with Drew. I'm trying not to fall fast, and I'm actually succeeding. It's happening slowly, but it is happening. I'm not sure how he feels about this, but I know he has said he is falling for me too. We've had several conversations about this. LOL, he told me the other day he liked everything about me. Of course, I'm all "Like what baby?" And he said "Your views on things, your playfulness, and the way you care for the people close to you." I've never had a guy really recognize those things about me before, only that I'm a hot piece of ass. LOL, which yeah, I am....but, there's so much more to me than that. But, I think I've found a keeper for quite some time (not gonna say "forever" because we've only not even been dating a month, so "forever" at this point would be slightly crazy), and since I have found a keeper....eventually I'm gonna want to take it to the next level. I just want to make sure we're both ready for that to happen before I take that next step.

  • Speaking of hot ass, aw man.....last night....last fucking night. Holy shit. Squirted 3 inches up in the air. My god, that was incredible. We've been kinda experimenting with the whole sex thing. We've been going at it kind of rough lately, and I haven't been able to get well-lubricated before he goes into me and it's been hurting me. Well, I thought that if we did A LOT of foreplay (We did quite a bit before and it was good, but I need more lubricationd with him b/c his bigger), and then got into the sex very gently and built up with the roughness...it would be easier and feel better for me (and him because I'm wetter inside), before and after. And, sure enough, 3 inch squirter, got him moaning like crazy...yep, think that pretty much confirms it.

  • OH YEAH!! I MISSED SOMETHING! My infection has cleared up. Turns out I had a kidney, urinary tract and yeast infection all together. Absolutely amazes me. But yeah, apparently I'm allergic to that KY warming gel shit. Never again will I be using that. I need to find out what it was in the lube that fucked me up so bad. What if I'm allergic to all lube? That would suuuuuuuuck. But eh, I guess I could deal with it if I had too.

  • That is all for now. MISS YOU GUYS!!
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    Sadly, this chick graduated from my high school.... [Apr. 3rd, 2006|03:25 pm]
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    [I am |My Room, what the fuck is this?!]
    [Feeling |disbelief]
    [Listening to |"American Idiot" by Green Day]

    ....and was in my French class. Holy Crap. This makes me want to hit things. I knew from the first time she opened her mouth this chick was stupid, but I never even imagined...

    Just watch the vid.


    "I don't like gay people. I don't like Muslims. I don't like abortions. I don't like anything liberal. But, other than that, I really like to get along with people..."

    Are you fucking serious?
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    Dear Fuckers, [Mar. 22nd, 2006|06:19 pm]
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    Dear LJ Administration,

    I am so, so fucking upset that the minute I decide to leave my addiction that is Livejournal for a while, you decide to implement this "30 userpics for paid accounts" plus the "Loyalty userpics" for people who have bought paid accounts before. I am so disgusted. I delete most of my userpics because I won't be using LJ as much....and then because I am such a loyal person, I now have the option of having 42 icons!!!YOU FUCKERS!! This is like holding out a crack pipe to a former crack addict. You assholes! Though, I have to say.....this is a very pleasing act of desparation to save LJ and make users pay for your shit. Much, much more effective than the paying for shitty graphics that I could steal anyway. Good job, dealers.

    Always and Fuckever,
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    My Body [Mar. 21st, 2006|07:09 am]

  • Painful urination.

  • Constantly feeling like I have to pee

  • red pimple-like bumps on pussy

  • Weeeeeeeeeeird smell coming from pussy.

  • Yellow, sticky discharge

  • Went to doctor yesterday.

  • They said it was a urinary tract infection.

  • Got antibiotics I started a few minutes ago.

  • Woke up this morning with a backache that won't go away.

  • Threw up....in my bed.

  • Scared to death I have genital herpes, since I have all the symptoms.

  • Have been worried about if that's true how the fuck I got it, since I've only had sex w/o a condom once for like....2 minutes, and there was no cumming involved.

  • I feel disgusting and diseased, it's doing a number on my self-esteem. This is serious shit, you know how hard it is to fuck up my self-esteem?

  • Terrified.
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    My Life As Of 3/18/06 [Mar. 19th, 2006|01:40 am]
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  • First of all, someone should tell me I've been putting "5" for the month of March, instead of "3." Anything else makes me look fucking crazy. I promise I'm not. What's crazy is that I noticed that at 1:40 in the fucking morning.

  • Secondly, I do believe I have a kidney infection. Constantly feeling like you have to pee, and trying to get some sleep but you can't because you feel if you relax you're gonna piss your pants? Yeah, fucking great.

  • Drew just left. He came by to check up on me. He said it was upsetting him to see me in pain and all that stuff. So, he came by.

  • He found the link to this journal, and might be reading it at some point. HI BABY!!

  • He, Redwood (April's boyfriend) and Jason also came by yesterday to help work on the roof. I was actually most impressed with Redwood, who came w/o even being asked. It's a damn shame he and April aren't compatible. He's a good kid. And, I have to say, having 3 hot, sweaty men working out in the sun for you means you're having a damn good day!

  • Anyway, my point is that Drew is beyond sweet. Close to being one of the best men I've ever known. Now that's a compliment. Absolutely mean it too.

  • OH YEAH! We are together now. We got together Monday (3/13/06). When a man calls you a "beautiful, amazing, absolutely stunning woman who's funny and smart with a great personality" and actually treats you as such a woman. Well, Aryn is not fucking stupid.

  • I am falling for him. I'm not even gonna lie. I'm trying to keep it in check though, because I'm not sure if it's safe yet. But, it is happening very slowly. Slow is good. I like slow. He told me tonight that it "weirded him out" how comfortable he was around me. LOL, which is an odd choice of words...but I'll fucking take it. It makes me very happy to know that he's comfortable around me. He also said that he's starting to "kinda" fall for me too. Which, sounds to me like he's trying not to fall fast. Which, I'm ok with that. Still, constant vigilance will continue to being observed for the time being.

  • Things seem to be turning out fablously great, however.

  • My Spring Break is almost over. One more day.....one more day. SON OF A BITCH!! ARGH!!!

  • Ok, yeah. Now, time to try to pee and then sleep. YAY!!
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    I'M CLOWNIN'!!!! [Mar. 11th, 2006|05:40 pm]
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    The MySpace of the chick The Ex-Boyfriend was talking to while he was still with me:
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    The latest comment on her profile:
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    ARYN IS CRACKING THE FUCK UP!!! Oh god, laughing in his fucking face will so happen next time I see him. HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! So, not even I week after I get rid of him, he's ditched the chick was gonna leave me to pursue. *shakes head*

    I am so absolutely amused.
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    My Life As Of 3/10/06 [Mar. 10th, 2006|02:19 pm]
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    [Feeling |crazy]
    [Listening to |"Caught Up" by Usher]

  • Drew and I are talking a lot more. Boy is totally sprung. He wants to see me like every day now.

  • We kissed for the first time on Wednesday.

  • Yesterday he came over and we just got to cuddle and talk and kiss. I've wanted to do that with a guy for so long....but never been able to do it with one. It's so weird it happened and I didn't even expect it. Very nice.

  • When he left yesterday, we were kissing goodbye....and all of a sudden he sudden he lifted me up by my waist and I wrapped my legs around his waist and we kissed, all The Notebook-type and shit. Very, romantic, sexy.

  • He is an excellent kisser. Wow, amazingly good....

  • I'm still wanting to take it very slow though. He asked me to go out with him tomorrow night. We're gonna go to dinner and a movie.

  • I'm doing very good in school. Been studying A LOT.

  • It's been paying off. My test grades are gonna be much better, I think. The test's certainly have gotten easier, anyway.

  • My Dad is being an asshole again. I'm not sure how much longer I'm gonna be able to go to school without getting a job and paying for it myself. Which, is gonna suck. But, what's gotta be done has gotta be done.

  • Haven't heard from The Ex-Boyfriend. Thank the gods. But, I did email the fiance of the chick he's after to let him know what's going on. I don't know if the chick is wanting to be with Patrick, too. But, her boyfriend is over in Iraq and can't really do anything about it. So, I figured he at least deserves to know. Plus, I really wanted to pull a total bitch move and fuck up The Ex-Boyfriend's plan.

  • Spent some time with Shunda, Drew and Jason on Monday. They all ended up coming over around the same time. It was the first time Shunda has ever got to hang out with and get to know someone who was interested in me. It was cool, I hope she likes him.

  • I got Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire on DVD. FUCKING. BAD. ASS. Shunda's supposed to be coming over today to watch it. YAY!!

  • Lastly, I got some samples of lube in my human sexuality class yesterday. I fucking love that class.
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    My Life As Of 3/5/06 [Mar. 5th, 2006|03:10 pm]
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    [Listening to |"Get Stoned" by Hinder]

  • Broke up with The Ex-Boyfriend.

  • Found out The Ex-Boyfriend was about to ditch me for his ex who is now engaged to a soldier in Iraq....a girl who is very much in love with her fiance. So, I of course, ditched him first.

  • Was highly pissed, more pissed than I've been since 10th grade.

  • Now I am just amused. How far gone....would you have to be to leave someone who was amazing to you, for someone who's in love with someone else? That is possibly, hands down, the stupidest thing I've heard of someone doing. And, I know this person. I KNOW THIS PERSON!!! *headdesk* Fucking. Idiot.

  • Oh yes, very, very amused. That is beyond stupid. LOL, wow....

  • The Ex-Boyfriends best friend, Andy(Andrew/Drew) was the one who told me about this. He said he was very pissed off when he heard it.

  • Andy cuddled with me, let me rant and rave, talked with me, let me use him as a punching bag, he kept trying to cheer me up....wouldn't let me be pissed off for too long. And....he asked me out as soon as he found out I broke up with The Ex-Boyfriend.

  • I feel so pimp. When you're ex-boyfriends best friend asks you out as soon as he knows you're single, and calls his FRIEND the "biggest dumbass in the world for fucking up the best thing in his life." That is the height of pimpette-ness.

  • I should so get an award for that.

  • Yancy called me today to apologize for being an asshole to me a few months back.

  • Yep, now, I so deserve that pimp award.

    *happy jig of glee*
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    Reasons I Am Limiting LJ Time [Mar. 1st, 2006|09:48 pm]
  • I tried writing in an actual journal yesteryday. I did it a lot when I was young, and then I found this place and that just kind of trailed off. But, I did it yesterday. And, it felt good.....I felt more free. I had forgotten how much easier it is. With LJ, I always felt I had to have a certain topic, and I didn't want to make the entry incredibly. So, a lot of things that should have got out haven't been getting out of my brain.

  • I have been discouraged w/ LJ for a while now. The service is sucking more.....LJ is on a downfall, mark my fucking words. I have become much more censored and guarded with what I write here. It has become a chore. My life is not a chore! My life is important.

  • I've also started to feel guilty about what I write about, it not being varied enough for anyone to really enjoy it, or read it. And, that's crap. I never used to get that way before.

  • My grades are slipping, so I need to focus much more on getting that straight.

  • I will be updating every now and again to discuss what's been going on in my life, some news event, or a few times just to rant about injustice in the world...maaaaaaaaaybe even post some creative things. But, daily updates with nonsense will be no more.

  • I will be contacting some of you by email with the next few days to get maybe an AIM screenname, or a cell number from you. So many of you I have mad real friends with and have come to care about you and your life as much as I don't "real-life" friends. You are my real-life friends. So, yes, phone numbers shall be had! Or, if you want my information, let me know.

  • I am thining about printing out every LJ entry ever written about putting them in a binder for future keep. LJ might not always be here, but I want my children and grandchildren to be able to read my life and my thoughts during these last 4 years on Livejournal.

  • I, of course, will still be reading and commenting on my Friend's List, though the number of people I read will be significantly reduced.....cuz I just don't give a fuck anymore. I also get a lot of news and event information from ya'll and the LJ communities. Can't cut that out of my life...

  • Yes, I have a MySpace (Shut the fuck up, Brandon...) only used for people I know in real life and a few on LJ, and no....I will not be typically blogging there. But, if you want to add me, feel free.

    Aryn Wood: Name
    'Ryn-Tin-Tin: Display Name
    crazyformyself: Username

    I love you all with every fiber of my being, with all my heart. It's been a great journey.
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    I know, I know..... [Feb. 22nd, 2006|12:25 pm]
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    It's been a quick minute since I've updated. I just haven't felt like being on LJ, or the internet at all, actually for a while.

    Some things have went down with The Boyfriend. But, everything is ok for the moment. I think we are both in an uncertain phase right now of exactly where our relationship is going and where we want it to go.

    But, it's ok, I'll write more about this another time b/c I have to get to class. But, we're doing good right now...and everything is good in my life at this moment.

    I am very, very glad for this.
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    Aryn's Favorite Movie Quotes--Part I [Feb. 17th, 2006|01:40 pm]
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    The Ten CommandmentsCollapse )

    Pride and PrejudiceCollapse )

    The Wizard Of OzCollapse )

    TitanicCollapse )

    ChicagoCollapse )

    Gone With The WindCollapse )

    He's Just Not That Into You Daily Wake-Up Call
    "If he only wants to see you, talk to you, have sex with you, etc., when he's inebriated, it ain't love--it's a sport."
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    Picture Post--Kountze, TX and Working On The Roof [Feb. 16th, 2006|03:00 pm]
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    Much Better [Feb. 11th, 2006|10:44 am]
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    Things are much better now with The Boyfriend. I talked to him yesterday, he called...and he told me he was going to buy a cell phone. I got to thinking about it, and that's probably why he doesn't call me so much. He lives with his Mama, and she doesn't have a house phone, only the cell. So, he doesn't want to waste her minutes and shit. Well, such was my theory, so I thought I'd check it out.

    He had to run a bunch of errands for his Mom, but dropped by for half an hour afterwards because he really wanted to see me. He came over and we set in the livingroom and watched the Opening Ceremony for the Olympics and chilled with my Mama. During which time he said something like "Yeah, so now you'll have a sure way to get ahold of me, and I'll have a way to talk to you...." I go "So, now that you got this phone then, I expect more calls from you." "I will...that was the problem before, I didn't have a phone."

    So, such as I figured. I'm gonna give it another week or two and see if his actions fit his words. It feels really good to be with him though, even for just a little while. I'm still pretty sick, so he told me to go get some sleep, and he held me and just talked to me for a little bit.

    He ended up calling me like 4 times yesterday, which....cool, but I hope it's not a habit. I can't deal with that shit. Once a day, or once a every few days is enough. LOL, maybe I'm too picky....

    BUT! It was really sweet, after he left my house, he called like half an hour later, "I forgot to tell you 'sweet dreams' when I was there! I know you're gonna go to sleep. So, you have sweet dreams and get some rest and get better and I'll see about coming over there tomorrow."

    If he continues this way, I'm going to be falling hard for him very soon. It scares me, and I haven't told him that yet. I'm probably gonna tell him that today if I see him. But, I don't feel completely secure yet, and I'm scared of falling for him when I'm not secure in our relationship yet.

    We'll just have to see. I'm glad his my boyfriend though, and I hope things continue to be good and we can talk about things. That's really important to me and I need that. I like to talk and think about things before making an action. I hope things work out the way I want them too. That would be a nice fucking change, and I think I very well deserve it.

    He's Just Not That Into You Daily Wake-Up Call
    "It doesn't count unless he says it when he's sober. An 'I Love You' (or any semblance thereof) while under the influence of anything stronger than grape juice won't hold up in court, or in life."
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    Word Association [Feb. 11th, 2006|10:14 am]
    What words do you associate with me?

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