8/8/08 01:27 pm
Also don't go see sisterhood of the traveling pants 2. I know you were going to but trust just don't.
My article is late - which means i don't get paid till its visible online. "Working" for five days on something I have barely started just proves I am a master procrastinator.
Lordy, i had a whole section written out to the cum Dumpster who commented on my last entry a few days ago. He called me a cunt. But what I wrote wasn't very nice and it stank of self-righteousness. I am annoyed when people assume that i post something to sound like a smart ass. My last entry was written so i could remember the crystallography process and not look like a tool in my lab all the time.
Or maybe he was commenting on the whole general cuntness of my Jivejournal.
I like the word cunt- its the last great swear word. Everything else is over used. Fuck is a common whore. Shit is learned in the seventh grade. However cunt has this great sound to it. Its the Kuh sound and the UNT. Flat and sharp just like my nine blade (lolz I mean my special edition Hobbit pocket knife- it has Smaug on it, the wings open to a double blade and it kicks ASS). Ok that whole appreciation of the word was completely stolen from Babylon Heights.
I'm also a little disappointed at the insult. OOH i'm a cunt. with an exclamation point no less. yeah thats what my boyfriend says before we have sex, so i guess i'm insulted?
The truth is that this summer has kinda sucked because of my probation in the states. I can't smoke up, i mean i could and drink lots of cranberry juice and golden seal but I don't want to risk it. I also have a restricted license for a year. And there is always family biznez drama. But...
everyone around me absolutely loves me. I feel incredibly lucky. I'm constantly being praised. I have a boyfriend who loves me. Friends who think I'm cool for who I am and parents who will worry about me. And my sister who will do anything for me. Ok I sound like an asshole but I am so incredibly grateful.
I feel like a loser for not turning this article in on time but its unimportant compared to the people in my life. I miss my friends at school who I love just as much but right now I feel so cuccooned in comfort and safety.
A few weeks ago I felt so restricted, like alot of my people here were crowding me and I couldn't get space. Then There was a prison scare. Also I felt like a retard at my internship while my partner did all the work/thinking. And I flipped out on the people who cared the most for caring too much! I've got my head on now and thankfully didn't say anything I would regret.
I've also made amends with a few people, or tried to. I did a few things last year that I won't specify but I really wasn't proud of. I tried to write a few honest apology emails, one relationship is mended and I think I damaged another too irreparably. I don't think I tried to make amends with the guy who called me a cunt, since I'm pretty sure I know who he/she is and I could give a flying fuck.
Guilty Pleasure: barabara streisand in the sixties.