Haven't posted in FOREVER, because I just don't have the time and Twitter is so much more convenient :P
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if you haven't yet. hehe
Anyway, point of my post is to release one of my frustrations over the past MONTHS concerning my FANDOM (yes.. I know, fandom. Too much probs in my personal life anyway so don't even want to talk about it here.)
Ok so at first I was like Ok nvm, I'm pretty sure even if the lawsuit is in favour of SM Ent and JaeChunSu looses, in some way or other, HoMin will eventually leave SM and join the 3 because they have always ALWAYS said they would love to be together till the end as 5 members, DBSK.
But...few months later, when theres new on about more of their solo activities AND the announcement of JYJ and even A CONCERT, I started to feel very uneasy. I decided to not to think about it and to kust keep my faith...
BUT NOWWWW....IM GETTING TOO DEPRESSED LOOKING AT JYJ FANCAMS. FUCK IT. And I don't think HoMin actually wants to even reunite
anymore. Thats coz till now, only JaeChunSu has somehow viewed their opinion on the fact they still want to continue as DBSK, but HoMin? NONE. And i do not believe SM is telling them to shut up and not say a word. If Suju members liek Heechul can talk about Hangeng on his cyworld and if leeteuk can say Hangeng's name on PUBLIC TELEVISION (on music bank), WHY CAN'T HOMIN? Unless they don't want to say anything which is the thing that is worrying me....I mean, I'm a Yunho fan and I've always believed that no matter what happens, judging from Yunho's personality, he would do anything to keep the group together. I have always though of it that way, but I really don't know now.
I actually have this feeling that HoMin doesn't even want to continue as DBSK anymore. Or to put it in another way, Yunho and Changmin wants to stay with SM to continue DBSK, but JaeChunSu wants to leave, thus disagree in view...and so..THIS HAS HAPPENED?! Ok this is only my presumption. I know that I should really want till the truth comes out., But then again, DOES THE TRUTH EVEN COME OUT IN THE ENT B
USINESS? I presume not.
So arghhhhh I really don't know what to feel anymore. I think I need to accept the fact that DBSK has broken up just that they haven't officially announced it YET. The chances of JaeChunSu reuniting with HoMin is becoming....impossible. The longer it takes for the lawsuit, the harder for them to reunite. And the more plans that JaeChunSu have for themselves, the harder HoMin can join them again....
DBSK has been my BIGGEST FANDOM EVER in my life since I started fangirling (um..back in the w-inds. days was the first era lol) and so I really REALLY hope that they are still together after this. I just hope for it. I've always said I will keep my faith with the boys, but its really hard to do that juding from the current situation. Just..whatever happens, I just hope all 5 members are HAPPY. I think I will be emo for at least a year or so IF DBSK does really broke up, and I'm actually mentally preparing myself for this day, incase I FAINT from the news.
DBSK, Saranghae T_T
p.s. if i see another clip of Jae crying again, I SWEAR I WILL WAKE PPL UP coz I will be sobbing like crazy. DAMN IT, JAE </3
^ I WANT THIS BACK, AS SELFISH AS I AM....