Holidays are never really holidays are they? I have a whole week off, but ya wanna know how i'm spending them?
* Coursework (x2)
* Homework (x4)
* Making exam time tables (x6)
That is not a holiday i tell ya!! But the bright side is, i'm going to a friend's tomorrow, around 1pm, four of us are gonna be there scoffing our faces at our food fest and watching Bruce Almighty - not my choice, i was forced. They wanted the others, as well. But i stood firm in my denial, i am soo NOT getting so scared when night comes i need to wake up my 10 yr old sister to sleep on my bedroom floor (what happened after the Ring, both times i watched it). But i feel guilt in one thing, and one thing only. I'm lying to my parents. I'm not allowed out at all, day or night, especially not the cinema, friend's houses, fast food places etc. So i told them it was Olga's 16th birthday, and that it would be her last one with me being there as we were all going to different colleges/sixth forms after may, and that she had come down town when it was my birthday. Blah, blah, blah.
I've got a dentists appointment at 10am, as has my mom, so we're going there then straight down town. But i'm going to my favourite place in the midst of the shops, the LIBRARY! whoo, lets all get excited, it is actually one of my fav. places, so peaceful and i always get excited to coming back home if i've picked out a few good books. And then at 12, i'm olga to go get ice cream and cake then we'll go back to the bus station, meet the others, catch the bus to her house. I'm a little worried i might see my mom when getting cake and ice cream, i sorta told her i was meeting olga at 3:30, so i could come home later.
I've composed a list of over 100 books i want, from the public library, you can order them, so i'm going about 5 books each time i go there. I'm a little excited over that. Strange, i know. But reading books, is a really cool thing, you sorta take peeks into different worlds and other people's lifes, it makes me want more outta life.
I applied to a grammar sixth form, but i'm really confused about were i should go after high school, i've narrowed it doewn to only sixth forms, so i've got a choice of 3 ...if they all accept me, which if i'm lucky they will. Something really puzzles me. I am constantly worryin' over my furture and that my grades aren't good enough, but when i look at other people i wonder what the hell they're gonna do. Their grades are soo not good. Mine are pretty good, all passes, i'm hoping for all As and Bs, maybe an odd C. A friend's dropped like three subjects and is still getting, Ds and Es. She's always out with her b/f trying out new ways for sex, and another's sorta doesn't come to school that often. I love my friends at times, for all their support and help. But one particular friend, continues to offend me, she's one of my closest, she is actually the one whose house i'm going to tommorrow. She really weirds me out. Lets get all gossipy and whiny shall we, coz i'm in the mood for it.
Friday, i had my very very long hair loose, but a little of it tied back to keep it outta me eyes, and in English, Olga picks up a strand of hair, starts playing with it, i tense up becoz i'm waitin for a insult. And sure enough when i tell her to get off, she's all, "but it's so messy and eurgh." okay, i'm not like the idiot girls in my school, who are always armed with a brush, mirror and their make-up bag, but it wasn't actually all that messy. And she is ALWAYS telling me and others, but mainly me how much better at history she is than me. Which sorta pisses me off, and a hell of a lotta others, i need history, i need a fuckin pass at least if i'm goin into law. She should just keep her "oh, i'm so good's" to herself, coz no one is bloody interested.
I am soo gonna pass every single one of my exams with a B or a A, *i hope* lol
that's my rant for the week.