I don't know just the feeling of getting older and looking back at my early twenties as I advance into my later twenties I feel like I'm wasting my life. I don't have a very high opinion about myself, and if I want to get any where I need to change that and fast. Why is it that I can have some of the best advice for my friends and I can see all the good in them, but when I step in front of the mirror all I see is a failure? I really wish that I could find a time machine and go back a few years knowing what I know now and have my life go in a different direction. I was so happy just a few years ago for the first time. With that being said all the time and effort I've used to make myself unhappy I need to work twice as hard to make myself happy. I mean don't get me wrong I have a pretty good life, I have family and friends that love me for me, and I have a great job that I enjoy, I have a dog that I love like a child (she's my fur baby lol, I just like saying that I'm not that crazy.) Maybe I just need a good outlet to tell my feelings to again. I just don't want to come on here everyday and say oh wah my life is crap blah blah blah.
That is going to be one of the steps in my self improvement. I need to realize that no matter how bad I think things might be that there are always others that have it much worse then I do. For most instances things really aren't as bad as they seem. I don't want to say that I don't appreciate the things I have in my life because I do. I guess if life were easy and we always got what we wanted or things always fell into place easily then life would be too easy and unsatisfying. I don't know as I read over this I think to myself man girl are you bipolar or what? Alright I'm going to sign off now before I make myself sound more like a ungrateful spoiled brat. =-/
Well hello my poor neglected journal. Life is just flying by and before you know it you have a neglected journal. Where to start? Work is great and crazy busy just the way I like it. The family is great, my brother will be starting high school in the fall, that statement makes me feel so old. I'll be turning 26 next Friday. My best friend's father passed away on Thanksgiving last year and we're all still trying to cope with the sudden loss of a great person. Father's day this year to say the least is going to be hard for everyone. I'm finally going to take the time to do somethings to better myself. I'm not getting any younger so I better get a move on it. There's no point in waiting any longer it's not going to get any easier.