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Nov. 8th, 2009 | 01:25 am
mood: rejectedrejected

driving home tonight, just past dusk, the city lit up before me like the towering mountain of light that it is; a beautiful sight that surrounded, cushioned and massaged away all of the blows i was dealt throughout the day. i thought about how i had climbed that hill with you. anger may have forced me out of the house, but it was something else entirely that impelled me to grab your hand as i danced out my newly leased front door. the unnaturally clammy cold of the summer night; it shook me. the newness of our fondness; you moved me. the heat from the exercise made our palms sweaty and our breathing laboured; we held on for dear life, and we made it up that hill. at the top we declared ourselves leaders and we tore apart the town: north, south, east and west, searched out the prettiest and slammed down our flag. we stayed for hours, king and queen of the city of the hills. you described our kingdom with a tenderness generally reserved for a lover. you knew her curves, ins and outs, her strongest and weakest, secrets, trap doors, whys, histories and even her futures. and tonight, slipping out my exit - in that moment, in the retrospection of that memory, in the sight of our kingdom, i understood how i had managed to let myself become so obligated, to become such an obligation, and i didn't even care. and then i felt the pressure of owing and not owning. of wanting and not having. the tether. and i choked on it, gasped for air, and waited silently for the light to turn green.

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listening to "Wonder - Colin Meloy" on Blip

May. 4th, 2009 | 08:22 pm
music: http://blip.fm/~5lpl1

it's weird and it's wonderful, dear...

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listening to "Suzanne - Weezer" on Blip

May. 4th, 2009 | 08:18 pm
music: http://blip.fm/~5lp6q

memories.

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listening to "Toothpaste Kisses - The Maccabees" on Blip

May. 4th, 2009 | 08:16 pm
music: e Kisses - Th

whoa. i like this. it's disgustingly sweet.

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listening to "Naomi - Neutral Milk Hotel" on Blip

May. 4th, 2009 | 08:09 pm
music: eutral

i'm watching naomi, full bloom. i'm hoping she will soon explode into one billion tastes and tunes .

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listening to "These Days - Nico" on Blip

May. 4th, 2009 | 08:06 pm
music: http://blip.fm/~5lo2i

la la la la la la laaa laaa.

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listening to "Real Life - Joan As Police Woman" on Blip

May. 4th, 2009 | 08:02 pm
music: - Joan As P

it's true what they say about me, that i’m out of my mind, but i think that you like it.

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listening to "Nantes - Beirut" on Blip

May. 4th, 2009 | 08:00 pm
music: http://blip.fm/~5lnk7

what does this remind me of...?

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listening to "Blizzard of '77 - Nada Surf" on Blip

May. 4th, 2009 | 07:58 pm
music: of '77

the more it shakes, the more i have to let go.

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listening to "Norwegian Wood - Jamie Findlay" on Blip

May. 4th, 2009 | 07:56 pm
music: Wood - Ja

kinda pretty. jazzy and all reminding me of how much i've ever left behind.

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