|| talk too much/dont talk enough
supposed to be doing my government paper but...eehh
its been difficult. i try to make things better. but all of you know the truth.I'm not the one you see. i feel so tired, so fake.but what else can i do? i cant fall apart, not now, not again.
At least not out there.Moved so fast, Caught in a lie, Proved me right...wish i wasnt.Look at me like that again and you know its on. I let it go too many times already and i've had it. You have your piece of shit for yourself now, i gave it to you with pleasure, you should be thanking me. Why did you and your friends stay quiet when i called you out on your little stares.Thats why you looked away.Dont try to make something out of nothing, especially over someone so insignificant.
wow i cant believe i just wasted my time on that...oh well whats done is done.
*yesterday* bus rides,waiting to be happy, hallmark, not enough money, we got our way, night walks, weird people,...the perverted kind, "dad on phone",good one,*today* clothes sale, home, friends, jumping on bed, coming out of closet(literally,not that homo sexual way), hiding behind doors in the dark, scary. Dancing, laughing, lost some,found,good one,night walk, screams, run, jump, sing,one friend left, got to 2nd home, cleaned, night walk,back home ,laughing,playing guitar, writing, music, friend left.
tomorrow...hopefully filled with continuous laughter for no apparent reasons