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(11 flew far and awayflew far and awayFly with the wind)

[25 Dec 2003|04:23pm]
I ripped up all your pictures,
tried to forget everything you tought me.
Remember how you used to mean the world to me?
How could you let that go like it never mattered?
Remember how we used to fight?
How you where always right?
How you never really cared,
because you where just happy to have me there?
Remember how you played with my hair?
And told me that I'd be amazing someday?
Can you look at me straight and say that I am?
Can you look at me straight and tell me this time I'm right?
What if I'm wrong again?
It never mattered before. It doesn't now, does it?
It wouldn't matter to you if you knew what I was up too...
would it?
It wouldn't matter to you if I told you where I've been.
Would it?
Remember how you used to tell me the thunder was gods way of telling you I'd been bad?
Have you been seeing a lot of thunder where you're at?
Remember how you used to tell me that daddy was comming home?
When you knew we'd spend Christmas alone?
Now daddy's never comming home again.
Are you happy that we're gone?
Are you happy that you'll never see us anymore?
Does it hurt you that I'm not what you wanted me to be?
Does it hurt you to know that I'll never be there?
Does it hurt you to remember all the things we used to do?
Remember when I was little, and you would give me eight dollars to buy your hair dye,
And I came home with new candies, fresh pop, and ice cream cones instead?
Does it hurt you to think of all this. And know that it's dead?
If I showed up on your door step tomorrow,
would you invite me in?
Or have you moved on?
Would you allow me to stay in my old room if I was on the street?
Or would you pretend you'd never known me?
Remember the glass jar you used to keep the cookies in?


(3 flew far and awayflew far and awayFly with the wind)

[02 Nov 2003|04:37pm]
I'll have detention for about a month!
Honestly, haven't we all seen a naked person before?
Like, when we look in a mirror, and what not?

(5 flew far and awayflew far and awayFly with the wind)

[24 Oct 2003|10:37pm]
At long last!
Your princess of the night has returned... with piercings!
That's right. When I got bored, I shoved holes into myself.
Pain truely *is* pleasure.

(2 flew far and awayflew far and awayFly with the wind)

[09 Oct 2003|01:30pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

I got one last letter from my mother...
Or, my ex-mother.
I've been disowned.
My father will be taking me out of school for a little while, I suppose.

I'm going to miss the muggle world. I want to go back. But, I've got nothing there anymore.
I want to send her one last letter... One that will prove to her that I'm not as bad as she put me out to be...

You know, I always figured that my parents would get back together on their anniversary........ Instead, I got thrown out of my mothers life.

(11 flew far and awayflew far and awayFly with the wind)

[05 Oct 2003|02:47pm]
[ mood | cynical ]

So I got my costume for that ball.
Everyone will be able to tell who I am.
I'm going with Z, most likely... Even though no one's supposed to know who we are... What the hell does that matter? It'll be more fun with our friends than it would be mumbling hello's to strangers.

(Fly with the wind)

I wrote this about a month ago. My dad likes it. So, I figured I have something to be proud of. [24 Sep 2003|08:09pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

Candle wax and red whine,
Candle wicks the grape vine,
Melt down from the inside,
Set back for a tainted ride,
A lost boy, a black girl,
A clever ploy, a colorful swirl,
Frightened, confused, and let down,
Singled out and passed around,
Red rose, forgotten love,
a man that glows, one that fit like a glove,
Pure, innocent, your eyes meet,
Lost, mis-treated, bittersweet,
Broken heart, ball gown,
morbid art, golden crown,
Plastered smile, hidden emotion,
plastered smile, proven devotion.

(2 flew far and awayflew far and awayFly with the wind)

[15 Sep 2003|04:01pm]
[ mood | empty ]

I have two bottles of vodka. Pain is my chaser.
I've no one to share it with.
Actually. I've got nothing... Except vodka and a blade.
So If the alcohol poisoning doesn't kill me, the blade just might.
Heh. Fuck my homework. Fuck eating.
I'm trying, I really am. It's all just too hard.

(8 flew far and awayflew far and awayFly with the wind)

[13 Sep 2003|11:18am]
[ mood | blah ]

Ugh, I'm getting sick of this school and all the people in it!
PARVATI PATIL: she's a total twit. She thinks she's got a chance with Malfoy- she doesn't even have a chance with POTTER.
HARRY POTTER: he's turned into a recluse, sadly, only one person is trying to help him... And she hasn't got the people skills to do so!
HERMIONE GRANGER: everyone thinks Granger is so perfect. She's soooooo smart. Well, they're wrong. She wasn't put in Ravenclaw, and for good reason- she's got nothing but the ability to read and copy down answers.
DRACO MALFOY: I almost feel sorry for the boy. Him and his "I'm a pure blood slytherine, treat me like a King" act is getting so old. He acts like he's superior to everyone, and doesn't deserve to get into trouble just because he's a pure blood slytherine.
CRABBE and GOYLE: heh. Enough said. They're stupid.
NEVILE LONG BOTTOM: He's so... I can't explain it. He tries to act like he knows what he's talking about, but, he doesn't know anything. And he still needs a mask.
ELOISE: Those 'new teeth' of hers aren't doing her an ounce of good. Might as well put the braces back, atleast that way she had something noticable on her face.
SUSAN BONES: What to say about Susan? Except for the fact that she likes Harry Potter... God, what's with this? The boy that lived should've died already! Jesus Christ!

I'd go on a little bit more, but, seeing as how I'm sick and tired of all of you... I'm going away.
Marietta, Cho, if you could be oh so kind... The only Owls I've gotten for the past week have been from my parents complaining about one another, and how I shouldn't visit the other... And my mother's back on that whole "You're a filthy witch!" thing again... Trying to disown me... Again.

(Fly with the wind)

[08 Sep 2003|12:08pm]
I've been so loaded with work, you wouldn't believe it.
I can't stand this. It's still early in term, you'd think we wouldn't have so much extra work yet.

(15 flew far and awayflew far and awayFly with the wind)

[01 Sep 2003|03:08pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

UGH! The NERVE of the jerk! I could bite his dick clear off!
I met Ryan, he goes to another magic school.... I can't remember which one....
Well, anyways, we met while vacationing in the same area, and I was the 'prettiest' girl he'd ever seen. We fell 'deeply in love' right on the spot. We spent a day together before deciding we where going nowhere, and, to put it quite bluntly... consumated.
He was extremely handsom, I was sure he actually loved me. I mean, look at me- how could you not?! But, alas, I recieved an owl a little while ago that stated:
"I got back together with my ex-girlfriend Hermis, I had a great time with you... But things just wouldn't work out long distance.
No 'love' in the letter, just a signature.
You give a man something every woman wants, and he pries right into you (no pun intended).
Ugh, well... Of course it wasn't actaully love, I was going to dump him within a week anyways... But *I* wanted to do the dumping. When it's my decission, no one gets hurt... Well, no one important, atleast.

(Fly with the wind)

How I love shopping! [01 Sep 2003|12:54am]
[ mood | drunk ]

Daddy bought me new robes today! My dress robes are to DIE for, oh, you would LOVE them.
Mother and I went shopping a while ago, as well, while I was staying with her. She brought me shopping for muggle clothes. I got quite a bit of nice stuff. five new pairs of the latest fasion muggle shoes, new shirts, pants. Great skirts. All the good muggle stores are selling denime skirts right now, they're so in.
I was thinking, I should keep people up to date on what's going on in the muggle world, the great guys and all. The fasions... You know, the important stuff?
I've got a great connection for liqour, ladies, if you're interested.
Send an owl. I won't be too busy, just shopping most likely.

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