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(no subject) [Jun. 18th, 2004|11:14 pm]
Lily Evans
[Current Mood |annoyed]

Petunia is already driving me absolutely bonkers and summer holidays haven't already begun. I wish she would just...move out with that pig Vernon.

So far my summer holidays are going absolutely horrid.
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(no subject) [Jun. 5th, 2004|01:56 am]
Lily Evans
[Current Mood |content]

Well, I have packed and I will be heading home later today. I should be sleeping, yes, but I can't. I cannot believe the term is over and people have graduated and I am now a Seventh year. I cannot believe it. Ludo graduated and I already miss him! Hopefully I will see him over summer break and of course during all breaks.

I'm feeling much better lately, which was good since we had exams. Needless to say, I received perfect marks on all of my essays and exams. I was extremely proud of myself and I know my parents will be just as proud.

Petunia is getting married in July, so there will be hectic rummaging and errands being run within the next few weeks. Not to mention my fitting for my dress. I'm not pleased about being in her wedding, but as we are sisters despite how much I despise her, I am stuck with the duty of maid of honor.

You are the last thing I am going to pack, journal, in case I need to write something important on the way home. Remus is coming home with me for a bit, or was it all break this time? I don't really remember. I suppose I'll find out on the way home tomorrow!
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(no subject) [May. 30th, 2004|09:20 am]
Lily Evans
[Current Mood |stressed]

Exams are quickly approaching. In fact! They're tomorrow. No surprise that I cannot enjoy my birthday.

Happy 17th Birthday to you Lily, darling. Hope you enjoy your gift of studying in the library for the rest of the day. Mum and Dad did send me a lovely card, some flowers and lovely necklace. They're much too good to me. I have to start packing soon as well. Going home...and looking towards my last year here at Hogwarts. It's very hard to believe...very hard indeed.
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(no subject) [May. 10th, 2004|03:06 pm]
Lily Evans
[Current Mood |distressed]

So, after staying up until nearly 3 a.m., I have finished most of my essays for my classes and caught up on reading assignments for my classes so I'm no longer behind. I can't believe I fell behind! I'm never behind! I am blaming my other duties, which is not an excuse. Academics come before Prefect duties and tutoring. Come to your senses, Lily Evans. I, of all people, should know this.

But, I suppose much like Marlene, my mind is always wandering; going back to that evening in France. I keep pressing work on myself, trying so hard to get work done and work hard to keep my mind focused away, but it wanders. When I sleep at night, I hear the screaming and the crying for help and the look on Marlene's face. My wrists still hurt occassionally when I write. I've seen Madame Pomfrey about it and she says the tendons are still strengthening as are the muscles and bones. My back burns every now and then. Again, it's just the healing process despite the medicated potions and creams Madame Pomfrey used. It's slow and painful and working hard is not helping as much as I thought it would.

I feel awful for Ludo. Professor Flitwick has shut down the club he worked so hard to plan and organize. I've thought of addressing Professor Flitwick myself, but when I try, he just shakes his head and shoos me out of the classroom. I feel responsible despite how many times I've had it pounded into my head that I shouldn't feel that way. How else am I suppose to feel. Now the Ministry is getting involved and I'm so tired of it. Why can't I just swallow a potion down and forget everything? Alter my memory with a quick Obliviate spell? Wouldn't it be better? Things would be better; it would be easier.

My parents finally found out and are in a tizzy. They were extremely displeased that I didn't tell them right away, but how can you tell your parents something like that? You can't. There's no easy way around it and there never will be. I ignored it and asked when Petunia's wedding was. They said they would tell me in person for fear that someone would find out and ruin the wedding. I fear they're beginning to lose trust in the wizarding world. I don't know what I'm going to do if they decide it's not safe and keep from returning to Hogwarts. I won't have a choice as I'm not of age yet.

Things are getting a bit odd as the year comes to an end...just a bit odd.
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(no subject) [May. 9th, 2004|09:38 pm]
Lily Evans
[Current Mood |swamped]

If sixth year is this hard, I'm going to be drowning in seventh year.

So much work and I feel so sick.

I hope my Mum enjoyed the card and small gift I sent her for Mother's Day.
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(no subject) [Apr. 30th, 2004|01:04 am]
Lily Evans
[Current Mood |drained]

In exactly one month, I will be seventeen and close to moving out of my sixth year and onto my seventh and final year here at Hogwarts. In all and complete honesty, I'm rather...scared. One more year of learning and obtaining knowledge of the wizarding world and I will be off on my own. I decided I want to work at the Ministry and must speak with Professor McGonagall about my future. I think an Auror would be rather exciting. But I really don't know. I suppose I should decide eventually.

Easter break was both eventful and uneventful. Everyone, well not everyone, but it certainly seemed that way, was staying at my house. Mostly because Remus' birthday fell on break and we decided to go out. I think I wrote about that at some other point.

I feel horrible. Marlene seems to be avoiding me. I don't blame her. Every time I see her, I want to cry. I suppose what happened is something neither of us will ever be able to forget...or push to the side either. I really don't know what may happen.

I'm so tired; so tired of studying and reading and writing. Please Merlin I want these tests to be over with and the end of year come.
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(no subject) [Apr. 12th, 2004|11:28 am]
Lily Evans
[Current Mood |good]

Poor journal! I have neglected you far too long. I suppose I didn't really want to write anything more from the last time I posted.

Easter Break has been rather lovely thus far. I met with James, Remus and Sirius on Wednesday evening to celebrate Remus' birthday. How they got me into such a loud and smelly club in London is beyond me. It was nice to see them. I was a bit sad as we could not get a hold of Peter nor Marlene! I did send them both owls with some goodies for Easter. I hope they get them and enjoy them.

Dinner was lovely and Remus seems to like his room. I'm glad nearly everyone was here for Easter dinner. Petunia brought over Vernon who was, of course, rude as rude can be. But we managed to deal and my father was ever so nice for bringing the loud git down a few notches. However, Petunia and I did get into quite the shouting match that Mum ushered outside into the conservatory in which we continued for nearly an hour. I even forgot what it was about, but if I could have, I would have gladly hexed her into next week! I hate my sister.

It's quiet now. The boys are all asleep. Mum and Dad went to visit my aunt. It's a lovely day trip for them she and uncle are just in the next county over. There were far too many people who were going to be at the house, or I would have dragged the others along and gone with them. However, I think there's some apple cinnamon muffins left, so I may just go have one with some tea.
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(no subject) [Mar. 28th, 2004|06:27 pm]
Lily Evans
[Current Mood |guilty]

[Private/Breakable to Marlene, Remus, James, Sirius, Peter and Ludo]

I have tried all too hard to push what people are saying aside. Tried to tell myself this really isn't my fault; I shouldn't worry about this and just try and help the group get caught and punished. But I can't. No matter how hard I try and think about something else...

What happened is my fault. I should have been paying attention to what I was doing and not the buildings and things the students were showing us. And Marlene; she would have never gotten taken had I not made a scene. I wonder if she hates me for what I did; for what happened to her.

I should have never gone on that trip. I knew about the groups there, but I never thought something would have happened. I think Rabastan was right. I think everyone is right. People like me...we just don't belong here; in this world. We're not like everyone else. We're...normal...in a sense...but I'm not normal.

I have rounds tonight. I think afterwards, I'm going to retire early.
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(no subject) [Mar. 25th, 2004|12:32 pm]
Lily Evans
[Current Mood |okay]

Everything is fine...well as fine as one would expect it to be. Marlene and I are...healing. I know I am quite sorry to anyone who has attempted to ask me about the trip, but I would rather not speak about it just yet. Whether it be good or bad. I'm sure with time, we'll want to talk about ...things.

I've already spoken with most of my professors and will be returning to classes as normal tomorrow, even though it's friday. Madame Pomfrey asked if I would want to take another day, but I've missed all too much as it is and cannot afford another day.

I think I may try and make lunch. I'll just be about a half hour late.

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(no subject) [Mar. 18th, 2004|01:07 pm]
Lily Evans
[Current Mood |excited]

I'm so excited! I can't believe we leave tomorrow! I have to finish packing and get some more stuff together and brush up on my French. There is so much to do and so little time to do it in, I'm afraid.

I have my books in one bag and my clothes and shoes in the other and my good robes in another bag. Then there's another bag with my toiletries and so forth. Certainly cannot forget those as those are rather important. I've got to remember to grab some sugar quills and other snacks for the tip. Marlene, we are going to sit together right? I have something to tell you, anyway! It's rather important..well..I suppose, but not too important, but important enough.

Ludo, this is a brillant idea! Though I have to admit the snarky attitudes of the students who are not going are becoming quite unbearable.
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