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[Monday,
September 4th, 2006]
[ mood | chipper ]



long story short
the camp job didn't work out
my doctor told me that if i didn't quit
i would be in hospital
so yea...



but.... things are exactly as they should be
my apartment is currently the exact way that it should be
everything makes sense now

i am in love with this
smiles

[Monday,
July 24th, 2006]


screw the fincial interview

i have a job in the middle of buttfuck nowhere
teaching kids and having campfires
that's right bitches

i'm escaping to the woods
and getting paid.
Reply | 1 | smiles

[Monday,
July 24th, 2006]


so tomorrow i have an interview with a finicial company
that sells life insurance and stuff

i have no idea about money
i don't have an ounce of insurance
other than car insurance because it's super illegal to not

oh man, i really hope it's a guy who interviews me
i can flirt with them, and that tends to work for me
(i know, that's bad. but i know how to flaunt the little i've got to get ahead. sue me.)
but with my luck, it'll be some fat chick who will hate me


i've been researching so much my eyes feel like they're going to dry up
this whole course is just killing me.
i'm so beyond behind scheduale
well, 2 weeks behind
but that's huge right now

i've never been so stressed out about stupid mundane things as i am recently
i need a break
or a huge bottle of wine
Reply | 2 | smiles

[Tuesday,
July 18th, 2006]
[ mood | lonely ]


this is clearly shaping up to be the worst summer
i'm having zero luck finding a job that pays me enough to be able to survive
i'm killing myself trying to get this course work done
i live with people who make me want to stab my foot
and i have no real friends
and i think that's the shittiest part

last summer lauren and i were hanging out all the time
possibly because we were the only friend each other had

now there's all kinds of people around
and you'd think that would be cool
and it is, for parties and stuff
but it means that everyone always has something better to do
and no one wants to sit with me
even though that's really what i need
just someone to talk to

and it's no so easy as to just call someone and ask them over
i've tried

and over the weekend i had far too much time to think
my life is honestly falling apart
i'm all alone
i always have been
and i should really stop trying to fool myself
i always will be
Reply | 3 | smiles

[Monday,
July 10th, 2006]

Hey you!

i have a very strong hatred for people who will do anything for attention
including making light of crutches that help people through a day

it comes across as bitchy

i'm done with making apologies about it though

eating disorders, self injury, and drug addictions really aren't so easy. and perhaps one of the most hurtful ways to get attention.
either stop faking these problems for attention, or stop looking for attention from me.
Reply | 1 | smiles

[Saturday,
July 8th, 2006]


does anyone know of any places in the hrm that are hiring????

please
smiles

[Tuesday,
July 4th, 2006]

i need a job
desperatly
my hours just got cut back dramatically....
to like $50 a week
ugh


i'm tempted to move back to halifax for the summer

but, i have no place to stay

if things don't get better by this time next week
i really don't know what i'm going to do
Reply | 4 | smiles

[Monday,
June 26th, 2006]
[ mood | blah ]


oh, i would kill for some girls time

i need some girlfriends

badly
Reply | 3 | smiles

[Sunday,
June 25th, 2006]

Scott MacDonald,
when you see this please call me
i'm going through some personal shit
and i need to talk to someone
9025420676
Reply | 6 | smiles

[Saturday,
June 24th, 2006]
[ mood | annoyed ]


last night i went out with a girlfriend
and dave went out with some of his friends
and he went out dancing
(which he will NEVER do with me)
with this really sleezy girl
who is always all over him
he didn't get home until 2 hours after the bar closed

this morning
before i was awake
he told me he wanted to go hang out with her at the market
where she works on saturday mornings
he said he was going to go pick us up something to eat

that was two hours ago

i work in 2 hours
and i really wanted to spend this morning with him
not by myself

i'm so angry
and hurt
and frusterated
and embarassed




can't you tell from my angry face??
smiles

[Thursday,
June 22nd, 2006]
[ mood | high ]


i hung out at the park yesterday with my puppy
and i got my first real tan ever!!!!




unfortunatly, its on my chest and shoulders
so, i apologize for the boob shot
unless you like that sort of thing
in which case, eat your heart out babe
smiles

[Wednesday,
June 7th, 2006]
[ mood | excited ]


amber and i are escaping to halifax for the day tomorrow
we're catching the 10:30 bus
and enjoying mimosa's on the ride
and then we're shopping and drinking all day
and getting the last bus home

it should be good
smiles

[Tuesday,
June 6th, 2006]
[ mood | crappy ]



ok, so maybe i over reacted a little bit
and i can't really stop loving that boy
even though right now it seems it would be easier

i really hate my life right now

i really wish that i had some time to work things out with the boy
and that he wanted to work on the things which he said we have to work on

and i wish i had friends in this shit hole town
who i could go out for beers and hash some butts with
and talk
and i wouldn't need to explain everything to make this make sense

where did my true friends go???
smiles

[Wednesday,
May 31st, 2006]
[ mood | crushed ]



i'm never falling in love again
i know i've said it before
but this time i'm serious

it just hurts
smiles

[Wednesday,
May 10th, 2006]

i'm working this summer as a nanny
fucking booommmmbbbbb
smiles

[Sunday,
April 30th, 2006]

dave ended up coming up on thursday
i just took him back to wolfville
and he's coming back on wednesday

we had a perfect weekend
i love him
Reply | 2 | smiles

[Wednesday,
April 26th, 2006]
[ mood | crushed ]


i've never had a boyfriend that took me anywhere
did anything special with me
nothing

so, i decided to take matters into my own hands
and i planned dave and i a really nice vacation

i'm house/cat sitting for 10 days in halifax
and so dave and i were going to come here
and take advantage of an apartment in the city

i had all these plans made up
we were going to go to the museum
and the art gallery
and all these other cool places

but now i'm here
alone
Reply | 10 | smiles

[Tuesday,
April 11th, 2006]

last friday night
with the theatre girls
Reply | 2 | smiles

[Thursday,
April 6th, 2006]

2 out of 3 exams are done
phew
i have a break now until april 25
oh, sometimes being in theatre is just too great
smiles

[Friday,
March 24th, 2006]
[ mood | content ]


my landlord showed up unexpected this morning
to install our new dishwasher
but then said they wouldn't do it until we cleaned the apartment
so, instead of working on my huge seminar this afternoon
i had to do a top to bottom cleaning of the apartment
including finding and dragging a vacuun cleaner to the place
and that sucked
a lot
(and they're not even going to be able to actually install the dishwasher until monday now)

but my apartment is the cleanest it's been since the summer
and i'm having a little bit of a crush on it
i love it
smiles

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