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[23 Nov 2004|10:38am]
Over a month and I don't have the desire to update? Pathetic. I know you've been long awaiting for the arrival of my newest post so here it is.

No matter how much I struggled to see it, I've realized that I never really liked how I was at Kearney. Yeah, so I was a little more laid back, not caring about how everyone saw me. Tell me you've never thought, "Do I look ridiculous acting like this?" or maybe it was, "Should I stop being the person I am to make some new friends?" I don't care if I'm best friends with all the girls on my cheerleading team because I know that if I called up anyone of the people I call my friends they'll listen to me and try to help me. I also know that if they have a problem, of any kind, they'll call me and ask me for help if they need it. I also think that some part of me has died with the end of this summer coming around. Things happen, people get hurt, and no one cares. Part of me will never open up to someone again and part of me will show no matter what. Like it or not, it's me. So have I changed? The answer is yes, but is it for the worst? I don't think so. I think the naive, innocent girl, you all thought I was has changed to a not-so-sheltered, determined teenager that's going to find respect from someone before letting them in. Or maybe the fact that I'm still young and care about what I look like when I'm acting foolish. Can someone act stupid without looking completely dumb? Yeah, they can.

So the majority of how I've been acting thus far has been challenged by the words of one of my closest peers, You know who you are, I don't have to tell you. I've been thinking, "What if she doesn't like me if I do this?" or "Is this a part of me thats changed?" I don't know which part of me she was talking about but these are the few aspects I've noticed. I'm little bit more materialistic, and vain but I go to Aquinas. Hell, call me a conformist. Live with it or don't. You choose, but just know that no matter how polite or kind I act everything I've just said will be in the back of my head.

By the way: This isn't in anyway directed towards one person, a few have addressed me about this situation and felt like it was time to show everyone my side of the situation. So here it is, for the world to see. I'm actually going to make this a public post so it shows all I'm not afraid to face anything anymore. Bring it on.
7 Step inside | march in the procession of empty hearts

[30 Sep 2004|10:06pm]
George Bush is a crack whoree!!

13 Step inside | march in the procession of empty hearts

[04 Sep 2004|10:01pm]
Everyone who reads this has to fill this out!!

Danielle is ________.
Danielle thinks a lot about _______.
When I think of Danielle, I think of ________.
I want Danielle to ________ me.
If I were alone in a room with Danielle, I would _______.
i think Danielle should _____.
Danielle needs ______.
I want to _______ Danielle.
If I could describe Danielle in a word: _______.
Danielle will never ______
Danielle can ______ my _______.
I hope Danielle never _____.
I _____ Danielle because _______.

And leave your name cause staying Anoymous is stupid.

kthnxbye <33
7 Step inside | march in the procession of empty hearts

[16 Aug 2004|12:36pm]
There's a hole in my ceiling...
2 Step inside | march in the procession of empty hearts

[01 Jul 2004|10:47pm]
i want everyone who reads this to ask me three questions, no more no less. ask me anything you want. then, i want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything. {As seen incoatsxcutexwhoa's journal}</span> 
7 Step inside | march in the procession of empty hearts

[31 Dec 2003|08:31pm]
sucks to be you is you can't read this cause who knows I could be stealing your man {well not really} ask to be added and we'll see.
30 Step inside | march in the procession of empty hearts

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