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i dont i dont i dont.

Jan. 30th, 2007 | 10:26 pm

i dont care.
i dont want to care.
crap i care.
i dont want to!

i dont want to care.
i dont want to want anything.
from anyone.
crap.
yes i do.

fuck.
what do i do?
i forget, and stop caring.

forget.
stop caring.

ok.

ok.



ok.


i can do this.
i can forget and stop caring.

sure.
sure i can.

no i cant!

yes i can.

and i will.

i dont need that.
him.

i dont need it.
so ill forget.
and not care.

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ahhhhh.

Jan. 3rd, 2007 | 12:38 am

im watching the show ill be working on for co op.

im scared shitless, scccaaaarrrrreeeeddddd shit less.


scary scary scary.

ah gawd.

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Tarot Card Reading

Nov. 14th, 2006 | 04:13 pm
feelin': goodgood

So i got my tarot cards read today... it was really freaky stuff.
I beleive in the whole psychic thing so that made beleiving this easier.
But she said some really interesting sutff about my love life, and my parents and that im going to travel soon.
Also to be open to new experiences and to follow my gut and watch out for conflict with chris.

obviously this is just good life advice but she was more specific.
she also said that there will be some new dudes coming into my life....
id got get yours read if your into that sort of thing or are even curious
its really neat.

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the end.

Oct. 15th, 2006 | 04:09 pm
feelin': sadsad

you cant marry a one night stand.

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tonight, tonight

Oct. 6th, 2006 | 03:02 am
feelin': done.

and everytime i do.
i lose a little bit of me.

or become a little bit more of what im supposed to become.

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untitled.

Sep. 18th, 2006 | 06:00 pm
feelin': discontentdiscontent

i was at school three hours and it was awful.

i went to sheridan becuase i wanted to be a camera operator or an editor.
im not being an art director and next year im going to york to get my degree in case i want to teach.

being an art director and going to university are the easy way for me to do something in my life that i might be some what satisfied with.

i wanted to be a fucking DOP or an editor....thats what I wanted to do but i never got signed onto projects for any of those roles.

so i could be missing my calling, or fulfilling it and i dont really have a way of knowing either.

my program doesnt teach art direction either, so getting an art direction co-op is just that much harder becuase i dont go to ocad.
because i dont go to art school.

i AM an art director....right?
i work on projects as a set dresser and art diretor and art directors assistant which is alot more i can say for my peers who work as art directors.

ill be fine, i always am.

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looooong weekend....

Sep. 18th, 2006 | 10:32 am
feelin': lethargiclethargic

so i worked on a shoot this weekend and sunday was a 15 hour day.
and then i came home and ssllllllleeeeeeeppppppptttt and had this awful, horrible, confusing bad dream.
ah!

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back to school post

Sep. 12th, 2006 | 12:52 pm
feelin': goodgood

so my first class was at 3.
i spent some time getting my outfit together and then spilt my LATTE ALL OVER MY SELF.
lame.

but other than that things went well.
yay.

i want kraft dinner.

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so there that is

Jul. 25th, 2006 | 10:09 pm
feelin': complacentcomplacent

heres my consolation prize:

im not a total scum bag for life.

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wolfe island lover

Jul. 22nd, 2006 | 10:07 am
location: home
feelin': longing

im really going into some hard core cottage withdrawl.
i havent been in like a month, and it sucks balls becuase i love that place more than any other place in the world.

wolfe island- its the only place i ever wanted to be!

but its not going anywhere.

and im going up with chris soon so itll be ok.
my parents just left for a week!!

balls!!

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