|time runs on
||[Apr. 13th, 2009|02:07 am]
i admire those people that in the past wrote in journals everyday, updates electronic resources everday (such as xanga, facebook, myspace, livejournal, etc..) i just cant do it. i waste HOURS AND HOURS on the computer but yet i cant do it. i cant regularly update a blog, i cant write in livejournal too much. i feel so self conscious about a journal or livejournal (i do have a real journal i rarely use now.. i used to use it quite regularly in the past.. recent past).
i think journaling regularly helps one reflect on themselves and the world around them. i was so motivated when i had a journal going and i updated my livejournal and my blog.. i was so efficient and my life wasnt as torn up and crazy as it is now.
anyway, a friend of some of my friends ran out of the dorm complex today and was possibly going to commit suicide. that was wild.. eventually she came back and so did the cops. they all kinda made the decision for the cops to take her off to whatever they do with suicidal people.. molly was really kinda unsure about it and kinda fragile and i dont think she was "happy" like she always says she is. maybe thats just my interpretation of it but it was interesting night to see how people react and what goes on.
i really dont know the girl well enough to talk about her and motivations, but its kinda sad she was thinking about it (and apparently close to jumping off a balcony) cause shes really pretty and seems really nice.. guess its those quiet nice ones we have to worry about? haha carrie could be next.. yeah right.
i want to get to know this girl better when she comes back, i think a subtle crush on her mightve prevent me before. i used to see her most days walking back into the dorms and stuff but she just seemed really quiet and semi-studious but now that ive seen her in her element and with her friends, its a different picture.