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40 jaggy snakes theres no such thing

[15 Sep 2007|05:32pm]

1.  Sign Maker
2.  Medical Secretary
3.  Bank Teller........oh god!!
4.  Postal Clerk
5.  Health Records Professional
6.  Picture Framer
7.  Furniture Finisher
8.  Editor
9.  Hairstylist
10.  Upholsterer

and i had to include number 11 because it made me giggle....

11.  Magician  :D

so basically i'll either be a very creative admin person, or a very organised creative person.  ha.  
proper update when i'm not so cold and hungry!

xox 

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[02 Sep 2007|12:55am]
[ mood | crushed ]

just got home from my night out.
it was ok.
apart from everything reminding me of him, and not being able to think of anything else.
colin came to meet us too, and it was nice to see him :) 
they both tried their best to cheer me up.
and i tried to be cheery.
but inside i felt like dying.
we had to walk past the litten tree to get to the cash machine.  and i found myself looking in, trying to spot him.
it was only this time last week that me and sarah went in for drinks after the cinema, and he served us and was all cute and nice to me.
im wearing his t-shirt now. 
and im crying so hard it hurts.
i want him back so badly.  
i want him to give me a cuddle and tell me everything will be ok.
but its not ok.
because he doesn't love me anymore.

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[17 Jun 2007|01:10am]
AND I JUST BOUGHT TICKETS FOR ME AND DAN TO SEE RUSSELL BRAND IN BLACKPOOL ON 13TH JULY!  
hurrah hurrah.
:D
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[02 Jun 2007|08:06pm]
aaarrrggghhh.  rant rant rant.
change of plan again this weekend.
dan met me after work yesterday and we went for a drink with tony and david before we were supposed to go and get our train to millom.
dan couldn't really be bothered to go, and asked if i wanted to just have a night out instead...which i agreed to, as i felt a strong urge to get drunk and dance, haha.
so we went home and got changed and met up again an hour or so later in town, along with matt and catherine :)
went to the litten tree first for a couple, then trekked about a bit fnding somewhere that wasn't mentally busy, and ended up in keystones.
they've put sofas outside ready for the smoking ban which is cooool.  i like it.
stopped off at kfc quickly for some food as none of us had eaten, and then to the ring o' bells, which i was scared of going to as it looks like a bit of a 'locals' pub.  but it was actually ok...and the owner seemed quite fun.  although he looked like he would murder us if we caused any trouble, eek!
left there some time after midnight, and no-one else wanted to stay out which was a bit gaaay.  so we went back to matt and catherines for a little bit, had some cider and watched big brother, hurrah hurrah.
caught a taxi back home at 1:30am ish, with the coolest taxi driver ever.  haha.  he was ace and we gave him a big tip and he was all cute and concerned thinking we'd forgotten our change :D awwww.
had a nice lie in this morning and woke up feeling fine despite the amount i drank last night.  dan, however, did not feel well at all.  deary me.
we went into town for a little bit, it was soooo busy and really hot.
had lunch at revolution...but theyve changed the menu and its not nice anymore :( gay.  and the bar guy was a tosser.
had a bit of a wander and then came back here.
dan left at 7.  which has kind of annoyed me a tiny little bit.  
we were supposed to be spending the weekend together at his mum and dads...but now because we stayed in lancaster, he doesnt want to stay over another night.  fair enough i suppose he's tired from last night...but its not like we would have been going out or anything.
and now im stuck in by myself because hannahs at work and mum has gone to visit simon and joanne in suffolk.  if i'd known sooner that he wasnt going to stay then i could have gone with her...i havent seen my brother for almost a year :(
grrrrrrrr.
i'll never understand boys.

xox
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[09 May 2007|09:55pm]
[ mood | happy ]

had a lovely night tonight.
dan picked me up from work and we went straight to the cinema to see spiderman.
eugh.
such a disappointment, it really really wasn't very good at all.
and i want to smash tobey maguires face in.  
especially when he was walking around thinking he was the best.  argh!  he makes me ill.
i liked bruce campbell though, teehehe.
afterwards we went to the litten tree for a couple of drinks and a go on the quiz machine, hurrah hurrah.
i am seeing him again tomorrow which should be fun.
he shall be cooking my tea whilst i lie in bed and watch hollyoaks.  FUN :D
went shopping at lunchtime, oops.  and ended up buying a cute red summery dress from internacionale, and a black and silver halterneck from new look.  lovely.  
so looking forward to the weekend already.  i need a rest!
oo.  also.  its mine and dans deal or no deal on sunday!!  
pjs game.
must watch :)

xox

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[01 Jan 2007|03:36am]
& i hate this year already :(
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[24 Dec 2006|10:19pm]
[ mood | loved ]

christmas eve has been mostly spent watching rubbish tv, playing burnout, listening to slade, being cold, drinking wine and being amused by the christmas tree lights :D
love it.
 


:D    MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE    :D


xox

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[20 Nov 2006|09:49pm]
[ mood | lonely ]

SHUT UP KATIE MELUA SHUT UP! 
ahem.
todaaay has been gaaay.
work was so so so busy and i keep getting asked to do 5million things at once and its like...give me a break!  i've only got one pair of hands!
forced to go on the 11:30 lunch again, grrr.  im pretty sure you're supposed to have a break if you work over 4 hours in a row, which means that if i have the 11:30 lunch then i should get a 10 minute break in the afternoon too.  meanies.  
ho hum.
bought 'fear and loathing...' after work.  another johnny depp film to add to the collection :]
i was looking through my holiday pictures yesterday. 
desperately want to go back to florida :] 
must save up lots.
some guy who went to my high school has been talking to me on msn...its weird how age doesn't matter when you leave school.  back then, the older kids didnt want anything to do with us!  hmhmhm.
watched saw 2 last night, ooooo i loved it :D definitely have to see number 3 now!
think tonight shall be a 'hostel' night.  excellent.
im cold & alooooone :(

xox

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[19 Nov 2006|04:42pm]
[ mood | content ]

i love sleepy lazy days :]
yesterday i braved the madness that is lancaster-on-a-saturday.  
i hate prams & crowds & old people, grrr.
STREET RAGE!
meant to start my christmas shopping but there were too many people in the way so i gave up and bought some dvds for myself instead :D ha!
i got 'hostel', 'saw 2' and 'final destination 3' so that i could have a proper horror-fest.
sadly i got distracted by x-factor and im a celebrity :x   ...so i only ended up watching final destination before falling asleep.
today was spent being lazy in pyjamas, and then attempting to tidy my room a bit. inbetween several cups of tea & biscuits.  lovely.
i was meant to be going to the friary quiz tonight but charlottes not going anymore so i decided to stay in and plan christmas and watch films instead, hurrah!
i need to buy all of my christmas presents asap so that i don't end up spending my money on things for myself instead :\
i love the weather at the moment :D
cold & rainy & frosty & leaf-y.  
it means its time for hot water bottles & scarfs & gloves & soup & cuddles & pyjamas & sleeping in & snow & other things that i love :D

xox 

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[02 Nov 2006|11:17pm]
[ mood | sick ]

i am dying :(
i feel like rubbish.  throat is on fire, nose is being gay, headache and shivery-but-hot-feelings.  GAY.
and to make it all that little bit worse, work was horrible.
had a stream of horrible customers.  why do people take things out on me when its clearly not my fault? 
:(
old people are the worst, they seem to think that the bank procedures don't apply to them.  grrrrrrrrrr.
oh well.  only tomorrow to get through and then im off til wednesday :] excellent.
shame im gonna be ill for our saturday-night-extravaganza...but im sure the durham-crew-reunion will still be just as brilliant :D
went to walkabout tonight with sarah and helen to spend our pub quiz winnings.  hurrah!  let hmv-dave come as he is a part time quiz contributor, haha.
we managed to get a drink + 3 courses + sides each, all for £50.  brilliant! 
now ive got to do my packing for the weekend, eugh.  i just want to go to sleep.
works gonna be a nightmare tomorrow...my voice is nearly gone.  im going to diiiiiiie.  gay.

have a nice weekend everyone :]

xox

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[30 Oct 2006|09:04pm]
[ mood | amused ]

oh.my.god.
i think i have an alcohol problem!
colin invited me out to the pub quiz last night, so i decided to go as the weekend had been pretty rubbish up until then.
met up with him, mitch and mitch's girlfriend gina.  we were later joined by charlotte, callum and danny so make up 'team wick...pub quiz extraordinaires!'.  haha.
it was a halloween themed quiz which was fun, and although the questions were pretty hard we managed to do okkk.
slowly got more and more drunk, it was nice catching up with callum as i hadnt seen him for aaaaages.  they kept buying me large glasses of wine.  bad bad bad.
anyways!  at the end of the night, they read out the order of the teams...how they've done in the quiz.  and oh my gosh, we came second!  and won a bottle of wine!  
we were far too excited.  and drank it there and then.  colin, mitch and gina left so we had more wine.  and more.  and decided that putting mini cheddars in other peoples wine was fun.  yuck.  and then danny put his toe in callums wine...ew.  
have no memory of getting home, although apparantly i made charlotte walk with me :\  oh dear.

getting up this morning was so hard :'( 
i slept in and so had to rush to get ready.
was nearly sick in the bus stop...attractive...but managed to make it to work in one piece.
I AM NEVER DRINKING ON A WORK NIGHT EVER AGAIN!
oh gosh.  there were a few scary moments when i thought i might vomit on the counter, but i soldiered on, haha.
balanced twice with no errors  <--- proud!
starting to enjoy work now :]
and found out that no-one likes this guy whos apparantly been slagging me off.  so thats good.
don't feel like i fit in yet, but it always takes me time so thats ok.

met up with charlotte and callum for lunch which was nice.  laughed about the drunken antics of last night, teehehe.  
was glad to get home finally tonight, had a bit of a sleep and now feel much better.  i think ive learnt my lesson.
4 days til durham :D

xox

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[26 Oct 2006|09:38pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

rarrr.
had such a nice lie-in this morning, and oh god i needed it!
it was nice just sitting about doing nothing for a while.
went out at about 3-ish to meet charlotte in town.
she bought me tea and cake <3 lovely.  and we had a big chat about boys and all the drama thats going on right now.  ohhh my.  our lives actually rival eastenders.
charlotte went home at about 5-ish and i wandered around for a bit before going to meet hmv-dave for a few drinks.
i feel sick about going to work tomorrow :( 
theyre going to throw me on the counter and i don't know a thing!  
rubbish.

xox 

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[09 Oct 2006|08:17pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

i HATE work.
today was slightly better though as the new boy started, and i was put in charge of showing him the computer training thing.  poor boy.  
discovered that he loves blink almost as much as i do :) so we had lots to talk about.
and also, he knows eeeeveryone that i do!  its queer that we've never met before.  he even knows charlotte.  weird.  
so we sat upstairs all day and slagged off work.  his first day and he already wants to leave, haha.
we made a pact though, that if one of us leaves, the other will follow.  i'm so happy to have a partner in crime.
they put me on reception again by myself for an hour today.  scary scary stuff.  don't like it.  

last night was quite fun.  met hmv dave at the bus station, and then sarah came along a little bit later.
missioned to walkabout for the pub quiz.  we did well....but lost....devastated.  
i'm so pleased im friends with dave :D
i finally feel like maybe i can actually make friends all by myself, without relying on other people, hurrah!  
and new-boy-from-work text me before to say i was 'awesome'.  awesome.
so although work is crap and i hate it, i have lovely friends who i can have fun with and who make it all better.  

9 days til pay day.  love it.

OH.  and sarah MADE me a giraffe!  i love her :D

xox

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[05 Oct 2006|09:52pm]
[ mood | tired ]

NUMBERWANG!
love it.
today was baaad.
drank 5 cups of free hot chocolate :O
and then later had the worst headache ever, how rubbish.
spent some time downstairs sat with natalie and naila who are both lovely.  i feel better when i sit with the newer people as they do things a bit slower and so i don't feel as scared!
train home was packed as usual, so i had to sit next to some guy.  and he started talking away to me.  no-one ever speaks on the train so i was a bit :\ but it made a nice change from everyone ignoring each other and looking annoyed if someone dares to sit next to them. 
oh yeah, on the bus into town this morning, there were some HORRIBLE kids.  there was a big group of them who were standing at the front of the bus being...annoying.  then one of them got a phone call from a girl who wanted to make sure she got on the same bus as them or something.  
and do you know what they did?  they all crouched down so that they couldnt be seen, and the bus pulled in to this girls stop.  she asked a kid right at the front if her friends were on...and he said no...so she didnt get on.  and then just as the bus was pulling away again, they all stood up and started laughing and pointing at her!  i felt really bad for her, poor kid, the look on her poor little face :(
her 'friends' spent the rest of the journey laughing and saying it was her own fault.  eugh.  i hate children.

the durham gang are off to see alan carr tonight :( so jealous.  i hope its really awful!  :P
im gonna watch a bit of scream and have an early night.  i love tacky horror films :D
non-uniform day at work tomorrow, what to wearrrr.
can't wait for the weekend, i need a break.

xox

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[04 Oct 2006|09:12pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

how embarrassing.
yesterday i went to wilkinsons in my lunch break on a mission for cheap tights.
i was in a rush so i grabbed the first ones i saw and got out.
only to find out this morning that i'd picked up stockings, argh!
and since i had no others, i had to wear them, and thought they'd be alright until i could get to the shops again at lunch time.
except they weren't special hold up ones and kept falling down, so i had to hold onto them until i'd gotten into town and could take them off in the bus station toilets!  i must've looked like a right idiot!  hahaha.
of course there were no shops open in town that early in the morning, so i used some elastic bands to fashion them into hold-ups, special.
but when i went out on my lunch, one of them decided to come undone :'( so i was like, ARGH...GRAB!  i can only imagine how it must have looked, teehehe.  
i am ridiculously cool, yes?
work was...quite bad.
task for today was to read through this huge training file and make notes and whatnot.  mmhmm.
i imagine i'll be doing that tomorrow aswell :\
on the upside though, people are talking to me a little bit more :)
i hope they realise im just a bit shy and not completely ignorant!  
left at just after 5ish again today which was good :)
fell asleep after tea, so so sleepy.
early night tonight i think.

xox

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[03 Oct 2006|10:11pm]
[ mood | happy ]

my bus was late this morning, which meant i missed my first and second train.
luckily there was one at 8:30 which got me to preston just in time!
spent the morning in the training room doing computery type things, it made me sleepy.
in the afternoon i went downstairs and did a bit of observing and a bit of helping out.  counting and things.
building up the courage to ask about a transfer tomorrow :\ although im not holding out much hope of them ok-ing it.
made sure i left at just after 5pm tonight so i wasnt stranded waiting for trains and whatever.
dad picked me up from the station and i was home in time for hollyoaks.  what a novelty!
planning on going to durham when i get paid at the end of the month :D can't wait!
will be brilliant to see everyone again.  


ME AND VIC ROWING ON ULLSWATER!
GOOD TIMES :D
but orange is definitely not a good look.

looking forward to saturday night out aswell :)
hmv gathering.

xox

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[02 Oct 2006|08:58pm]
[ mood | content ]

this weekend has been brilliant :D
had the best lie-in ever on saturday morning, i definitely needed it!
went into town in the early afternoon and missioned to hmv to demand my wages, rrr!
there was a payslip there for me, it looks like they've given me half of what i'm owed, and the other half has disappeared somewhere, hmmm.
ade gave me his phone number on the way out so that i can meet everyone on saturday night for his leaving do :)
i'm looking forward to it lots actually!
its nice that even though i was only there for 2 weeks, they still want to be my friend.  so hurrah.
had a bit of a look around town afterwards, bought THE topshop black star necklace...except a copy from au naturale which cost me like £10 less.  score!
the boy got an early finish from work, and so arrived in lancaster at 7pm-ish :)
we went straight to the hest bank pub for a drink and a catch-up which was lovely.
walked home and picked up a chinese on the way.  perfect.
watched rubbish tv and attempted to watch chasing amy but i fell asleep about half way through it, how rubbish.
lovely to spend time with him though :) i love last-minute decisions!
on sunday we got up and ready and got a lift into town at 12.
had a wander around the shops, i bought some bargain beads from new look, a 'tilly and the wall' cd and i got a book bought for me about teddy bears, ahhh.
we went for a drink in the friary and put on lots of good music, hurrah :)
then it was on to bella italia for our lunch/tea.  it was lovely!
we were going to go to the cinema to see clerks 2, but they aren't showing it in lancaster, TRAGIC!!  
so we got on the bus and, dropped our bags off at home, and walked to the hest bank.
it was fairly dark by this time and quite scary as we walked along the canal and theres no lights.  
had a drink and some profiteroles in the hest bank, lovely :)
felt raaather drunk by this point as we'd been drinking all day.
it started pouring down as soon as we stepped outside afterwards, so we went to the chippy and got a tray of chips to share for the walk home.  romance.
we were nearly home when suddenly chris stopped and picked something up from the floor which was just hidden slightly under the hedge.  
a carousel!
oh my gosh, like a proper little carousel with horses that winds up and plays creepy music.  just on the side of the road!
so i made him carry it home for me, where we wound it up.  it didnt work at first, but then all of a sudden it just started spinning.  it was like the exorcist i swear!
my sister screamed when i showed her, hahaha.'
i still can't get over how queer it is!  
i reckon its gotta be haunted...
we stayed up far too late and continued drinking into the night, which wasn't the best idea considering the awful time we had to be up this morning to get me off to work.
felt terrible when i woke up, hungover, gay.
chris walked me to work and we said our goodbyes.  its rubbish :( but at least we've seen each other fairly often.  and its been brilliant every time :)
feeling more solid than ever at the moment.
work was ok.
i stayed upstairs and did computer training stuff all day. 
perfect for a hangover, and unlimited free hot chocolate, brilliant.
however, i wasn't allowed to leave tonight until 5:45pm, i was a bit annoyed to be honest.
my next train wasn't until 6:10pm, which would have meant i'd have missed my bus in lancaster if dad hadn't come and picked me up.  so i wouldn't have been home until getting on to 7:30...how rubbish is that?
i have to ask for a transfer this week if this is gonna be a regular occurence!
sarahs coming home for the weekend so we're gonna go and do the pub quiz on sunday :D can't wait.

xox

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[29 Sep 2006|10:05pm]
[ mood | relaxed ]

i had a half hour lie in this morning, caught the later bus, and still managed to get my usual train.
so i've been getting up at 5:30am for nothing, grrr.
work was okkk, i sat with a few different people and did some more computer training.
theres a girl who also lives in lancaster at the bank, but she left today, oh no!  
but before she went, she made me a little pack of stuff which might be useful which was really lovely of her :)
got let out 'early' this evening but my train was delayed again when i got to the station.
then they decided to change the platform so i had to go alllll the way over to the other side of the station. 
then this train pulled up, going in the wrong direction and with the wrong destination on the front.  i asked, and it was my train but they just couldnt be bothered to change the destination, hmph.
and then, i stood up in the bit between the carriages on the train, in front of one of those pull down seats so that i could sit down once the train got moving, but about 10 people decided to get on and stand in my bit, and this man pushed me out of the way and his wife stole the seat that i'd been closely guarding, how rude is that!!  i actually hate people.  
and to top it off, it didn't leave until 6pm because they were waiting for extra staff!
deary  me.
i'm beginning to think that all my preston-bad-luck is some sort of sign that i shouldnt be there!
but at least its the weekend now and im so glad :)
treated myself to a bottle of wine and some chocolate, perfect.
got to go to town yesterday as hmv still haven't paid me and its been over a month since i started.  i think they've done it on purpose because i left.  grrr.

xox

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[28 Sep 2006|10:05pm]
[ mood | okay ]

today has been a bit better than yesterday.
got on with the parts of my computer-based training that actually work and i finally have a username & password that work so i don't have to rely on other people signing me on all the time.
at lunchtime i went on a wander to find a half decent sandwich.  on the way i was accosted by one of those charity people who try and sign you up to give money each month or whatever.  the guy started off all nice and friendly and whatever.  but then when i tried to explain that i havent got any money at the moment and haven't been paid by my new job etc etc, he got really nasty.  he basically called me a liar, saying, "well you work in a bank so i find it very hard to believe you have no money".  and not in a jokey kinda way.  he was mean.  and then he just said, "bye" really abruptly and turned away.  it really annoyed me, who does he think he is that he can just assume things about me!  grrrr.  
anyways.
after lunch i had a bit of a play around on one of the systems on the computer so i was a bit more familiar with the processes i'll be using when i'm actually serving people [argh!].  
then later on i sat with a really lovely girl who chatted a lot about what her role was and what kind of things i'll be doing after all my training.
didnt get out until about 5:25, but my train was delayed so i didnt miss it.  
mitchell and webb tonight was brillllliant :D 
& now i'm watching dogma which is even more brilliant.  bloody love jason lee.  and alan rickman.  and kevin smith.
last day of work before the weekend tomorrow.  and it couldnt come any sooner. 

xox

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