I am so tired today T.T aha it prolly doesn't help I got kinda baked this morning.
This is the first day I have to do my position without someone looking over my shoulder the whole time.
I haven't fucked up yet and I did everything I was supposed to so yeah <3
Im just tired and ready to go home.
Im taking my first spinning class today at 5:30. Imma go check it out to see if I like it before I pay 150 bucks for the next 3 months. Im going to take a spinning class 4 days a week and a yoga class on friday, Im excited. I just really want to get into shape and if Im blowing all this money on other shit I can affort 150 bucks one time for 3 months. And it's not a contract so I dont have to worry about fuckin up my credit some more if something happends...
So this weekend was pretty good, besides blowin all my cash ahaha. I went shopping of course :P. I got these cute white cropped pants, a cute white top and some awesome new shoes...and some jewelry and some shirts for Ventura, ahah I spent like 100 bucks at the mall T.T Im bad. Then we went to the faire Saturday night and spent like 75 bucks on rides and food >.< I binged so bad ahah I ate funnel cake, carmel apple,churro, nachos, italian sausage,hot dog...thats it I think, now of course I didnt eat them all myself, Ventura gobbled most of everything I had a couple bites though and thats all you need ahaha...damn funnel cake is so good >.< it had rasberries and whipped cream and powdered sugar roflmfao thats so awful.
Then on Sunday we went to the movies and spent like 30 bucks ahaha god. We saw 1408, it was pretty cool, I think Ventura liked it more than me. He thinks its better than Hostel II...it was, Hostel II sucked ahaha. Then I dunno what Ventura spent his money on. He paid rent bought himself some pants....food, he bought lotsa food. Ventura likes to eat good sometimes I do too but it's not because Im hungry I just want to taste it aha. I perfectly fine with carrots and yogurt...maybe a turkey burger patty for dinner so I get some protien. But lately I dont eat that much, Im tired of eating and tired of being fat...if I was skinny I would be a model right now and raking in the dough...everyone tells me go be a model anyway, but I dont want to be the fat model that got skinny, I dont want anyone to know that I was fat ahaha.
I was hanging out with this guy Ross that I know, I met him on myspace and we have hung out a few times now...he's always trying to get me to do stuff with him...like he bought these 3 tickets for a concert that he want me to go to with one of my hot girl friends...for one no girl that I am hanging with wants to go out with a harmonica playing, sign language majoring dork :P for 2 I dont have any girl friends, the only I had stopped calling me about a week ago and I have no idea why...3 wtf would I want to go out with someone else besides my boo on the weekends, we both work all week and the weekends are ours, so Ross is an idiot for trying to get a girl who is hella taken to go out with him...it's starting to get on my nerves actuly. Like on Fri, he wanted to hang out and smoke a j, so I tell him what my plans are and to meet me at the mall. Well when we are hanging he tries to get me to go buy fabric with him to sew his bag so it's not so dorky. Fuck that shit, I am not going shopping for any fucking cloth to sew a bag for a dork that I have hung out with a few times, specially since it woulda been a HUGE hassell...what an idiot, who the fuck does he think he his asking me to change my plans for him...sheesh.
So I like have no friends here...I had one but she just stopped calling and I can't call her b/c her phone got turned off and she doesn't have any other # for me to call her at...totally lame. I dunno wtf her problem is...I am so tired of this forever friends bullshit quest, I swear Im the only one who can't find good friends who want to be friends for years...whatever, I guess other people just make complications for you, in my experience most my friends have taken advantage of me and then just left when I was useless...so who needs that shit aha.
Im going to be 22 in like 2 weeks...22 aha I remember writing in my journal when I was like 16...it seems like yesterday but man has it been hella days...crazy how fast my life is going by now. I can't wait till I am finally all the way situated and have a normal life. Work at a job for years live in the same place for years...oh god would that be nice, I havent lived any where for a year since I was like 16 aha. Im tired.