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New name is made.... [10 Jun 2005|03:05pm]
Alight my new Lj name is _M_a_j_i_k_

Add it bitches....
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new name [10 Jun 2005|07:34am]
Well I'm in first hour right now. Nothing really is going on. I slept like shit once again. There's just way touch shit going on at the moment. To much on my mind once again...

Argh...shoot me or something. I''m just getting really tired of people and this world. Tire of life and etc.

So I asked Vince about what I heard and shit and yeah no response, so yeah if thisshit is true you better watch your back. I swear, if I see him it's over...

Final Decision
Never thought of this
Can't get this out of my head
This pain is just like an addiction
Lock away my heart in this prison
It's time to make this final decision
And end all of this loneliness

Walk with me away from this place
Into this magical forest
As this darkness holds me like an addiction
The hate inside me steadly grows
As my soul is lost in the after-glow

Take me out of this misery
Losing my mind, dying inside
My heart filled with loneliness

Take me home
To my palace of disgrace
And watch my wings turn to dust
Unable to fly with these broken wings
Unable to hear those angels sing
Lost in this lust, nothing but loneliness

The hatred holds me like an addiction
It's time to make this final decision


Alight well I think this is also going to be this last entry in this journal...so yeah I'll let ya all know what my new Lj is....

- Jeckyl
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Grounded [09 Jun 2005|05:47pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

Well people I'm grounded for a bit so i won't be on here for a while. Yeah shit's just all fucked up...

Peace bitches...

Oh and Vince dude what the fuck? You wanna fucking beat my ass huh? Bring it bitch..I'll fucking beat your god damn ass in. You'll regret the day you made tthese threats boy...You'll regret it...

I don't know anymore..I'm tired of everyones shit...


ALL OF YOU FUCK OFF....



- Jeckyl

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Communtiy Service..joy? [06 Jun 2005|09:30pm]
[ mood | gloomy ]

Well I went to do some of my communtiy service today. it's easy as hell. I'm doing work fir the Lions club golf outing this weekend. So alls it is , is setting up shit and sorting out shit. Easy as hell. Only 18 more hours to go.

Ariel is going to talk to Vince and try and convince him to write in paper that the weed and pipe are his so I can get these fucking charges dropped.

I'ms till worried as all hell..

- Jeckyl

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Why...does this happen to me? [06 Jun 2005|12:54pm]
[ mood | gloomy ]

Well I didn't do shit this weekend I slept in till 6:30pm on Saturday and got up ate and went back to bed really. Sunday I woke up at 2pm and just sat around the house trying to figure out what the fuck to do about these new charges. I'm not going in for the drug test today i told my mother I wouldn't oass it so there would be no point in takin me. Vince stoppedby to get his shit, argh the only way to get this shit dropped is for him to admit to the police that the weed and the pipe are his. Which i doubt he will do, which means i am fucking screwed for the rest of my fuckiing life. oy. Just shoot me now please?

I need help on this one everyone. I really don't know what to do. I could be going back to juvi anytime Westland police decide to put me back. Shit is looking grim.

Lyz if you read this I need to talk to you about some shit. i wrote you your note (lol).

My cell phone is not at\ctive at the moment. Well it is but I don't have access to d\it. You can call it if you want and leave me a message or just call my house. If you need the number call my cell it'sin the message on it.

Shit's just all fucked up in my life and I'm tired of it. I know I fucked up on everyhting and I have no one to blame but myself. So fuck myself I'm a loser....

As you cna tell I am not in the bets of moods. this week and the next few weeks are going to go by slow as fuck. Wonderful more shit added to my life. I just wish i could die or just start this life all over agian or something.

I slept like shit last night...er.

I'm in 5th hour right now we're working on a skit thingy. it sucks there's only like 12 people left in here.

Blah, lunch was um interesting today. Someone gave me a smoke bomb so I lit it and threw it somewhere in the lunch room. ha shit was funny only good thingt hat has happened today really.

Alight I have nothing really else to say.

Nice knowing you all....</3 - Jeckyl

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Fuck this shit... [05 Jun 2005|02:33pm]
[ mood | worried ]

Fuck life, fuck myself, fuck everything and everyone. I hate myself, I hate this life. Why can't I just fucking die all ready? I would just be so much be so much better off dead...

This weekend has totally sucked. On Friday I went to the Bean with Lyz and Daniell. It was pretty fun. Up there I ran into Vince and met his girlfriend Beth. She's nice, after that Vince came to stay the night. He wanted to walk to up 7-11 at 2am in the morning so we did. Bad idea....

I got fucking arrested that night. Wonderful. I got chraged with three things, breaking cerfew, poession of weed and possession of a pipe. Fuckin a...I had no idea the fucking drugs where on me. So yeah that just went well with everything. So I had to sit in the police station for about 2hours. It sucked a lot. My parents came and got me at 4:30am.

Vince was arrested also for possession also...and distbuting to a minor. So yeah I'm in violation of my bond and everyone I could go back to juvi now till July 18th(my next court) or I would have a $10,000 bond. Ha. Like anyone would bail meout this time.

I'm so fucking worried right now. I don't know what;s going to happen. Here's what's going on for now I'm going in for a drug test tomorrow and hopefully I'm a get these new charges dropped. Thye need to be.

So now with myB & E case I automatically get probation joy...

Someone just shoot me....please?

Life sucks.

- Jeckyl

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Crazy times.. [01 Jun 2005|12:24pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Well tech fest was absoulty crazy as hell. I went for all three days. it was sweet. Monday I think was the best day though. Mos Def was the main Dj at the end of the night. Very good. I did get fucked up to the pointwhere i couldn't stop moving.

I had fun though. Artimis, Vince and everyone else did also. Speaking of Vince di get to go. We kidnapped him. Yeah he stopped by yesterday for a few hours. I guess he once again got kicked out of his house. Which sucks.

Gothy, Lyz and someone else I forgot whom (opps) came by also to chill for a bit. We hung out on the trampoline which was interesting I guess.

Today I believe I'm going to go to the bridge or go somehwere with Artimis and everyone. Not sure though.

I know I have gayass attendence recovery again today. Ah it sucks.

I slept like shit once again. Still tired as all hell.

Blah, I'm so tired of this damn school. Only 2 more weeks left. Which is good.

At the moment I'm in 5th hour. Nothing special going on. Seniors are taking their finals. Tomorrow is their last day. Crazy...

Alight well I'm done with this for now.

Peace niggies..


- Jeckyl

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Dance the night away.... [30 May 2005|12:59pm]
[ mood | sore ]

Well this weekend has been fun thus far. I've been down at Tech fest all weekend. I went down on Saturday with my parents and then met up with Lyz, Gothy, Artimes and his friend Shakes. I went with Shakes and Artimes ysterday. Probably going with both of them today also.

Thursday Amber came over. It was fun =).

Nothing else has really been going on.

I'm sore...

- Jeckyl

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Blaze on motheruckers [25 May 2005|02:44pm]
[ mood | bored ]

Well this is gay I'm in 7th hour right now. My whole fucking project was deleted off the damn computer so I talked with my teacher and she's not going to hold it against me. Alls I got to do is all the rest of the work given and I should be able to pass the class which is cool. But on the birght side I don't have to do a project now. So the next few weeks are pretty laid back for me. w00p w00p.


So today I might go hang out with Crissi and Jay. Not sure though.



So about this weekend. I know I'm going one day I think Saturday to tech Fest with my family. And I was going to go back down there with friends the other two days. But everyone is going fucking up north so I may not be able to go the other two days. Which would really suck. So anyone wanna go with me on Sunday and Monday? Or meet me down there on Saturday?



Cost is $10 or $25 for a three day pass.
Location: Heart Palaza



Hm, weather is suppose to be raining also. WHICH IT BETTER NOT OR I WILL KILL SOMEONE> Oh well it rained last year and everyone still went. It was actually better...ha.



As for myself I've been doing okay I suppose. Been tired lately which sucks. It's odd I need sleep badly. Blah...



Nothing really has been going on this week thus far. Sitting at home sleeping mostly. The usuall.



So yeah I'll update later maybe...if anything interesting happens.



Peace bitches..



- Jeckyl

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blah nothing... [23 May 2005|05:39pm]
Yes finally my fucking phone works again! Same number as before..if you want it ask..=). I'm ust happy it fucking works now...

So yeah school was um interesting. Out of it most of the day...But yeah things went uh well? Sure let's with that.

Nothing important is going on really. My weekend was boring mostly. Only fun thing was hanging out with everyone on Friday.

But..this weekend will be different...

TECH FEST(Fusion Fest)...is this weekend motherfuckers....can't fucking wait.
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It's party time and where the fuck are you? [21 May 2005|09:51am]
[ mood | calm ]

Well yesterday school was shitty. Once again I missed first hour. I also lost my sweet flower I made. it changed colors and I lost it....damn. I'll just make another one.

Hm, then around 10:30pm I went and hung out with Gothy and Lyz. We were going to go to the Bean to meet up with Vince but he left so we stopped at riverside and picked up Artimes and Satan. It was cool seeing them again. After that we went and picked up Brandon so he could do us a favor. He did it...thanks man.

So then we went over to Ambers for a bit then my momther came and got me around 2am.

I had fun...

How did you guys like them illos?

Lyz: Hey hun, I hope everything worked out well with your car and the telling of your mother. <33

Yeah she accidently backed up into a car...It'll be okay :).

AH! TECH FEST IS NEXT WEEKEND!

I can't fucking wait. It's going to be wicked. Although it's $10 a day or $25 for a three day pass. I'm just going to buy the pass. Another plus is my father is one of the sponsors well the company he works for is. So I can VIP passes also.

He brought me home a box of glowsticks that has about 500+ glowsticks in it...I'm happy.

As for today I might go up to the mall for a DDR tourniment. Or I might go hang out with Matt. Since I havn't seen him in a while.

I got System of a Downs new cd...(can't remember if I said this all ready). It's fucking crazy.

Blah, that's it for now..

- Jeckyl

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Look he's alive [18 May 2005|06:23pm]
[ mood | blank ]

Damn my highschool is gay as hell. They made med rop my fucking first hour. So yeah I'm screwed in court now. Because I automatically fail that class. But if I get the grad up to passing then by state law they can't take away the credit. So yeah...

This pass week nothing has been going on. For those fo you that have tried caling my cell phone the piece of shit has bokre. There is absoulty no sound on it. So I went to the Sprint store today to get it fixed and they had to order a new phone for me. it comes either on Friday or Saturday. I have to go back up there to pick it up..

Chris(Sawyers) got his new truck. 87 Bronko. It's honestly a piece of shit. But hey it's used so it's good I guess. It stalled on us today...

Amber might be moving next year which is extremely gay. I would be sad if she did. her paretns are being stupid so...

Oh news on Detroits Tech Fest aka Fusion Fest now. There is a fee to get in this year. It's $10 a day or $25 for a three day pass. It goes on next weekend. Memorial day weekend(28th-30th).

Who's all going? I am...

Mat is going to cali for a week. i think he leaves in 2weeks. He's going to visit his old hood. Hope ya have fun man.

Schools almost out which is pretty cool. I still havn't done any hours of my community service. But I got till July 18th to get it all done.

Kottonmouth kings - Clutch Cargos on July 9th. Ticks $17.

Insane Clown Posses new cd "The Calm" came out yesterday. They sound liek hippies on it. Ha. But it's decent.

Twiztids new cd "Man's Myth" comes out on my birthday June 28th which I think is sweet.

Alight well there's a nice little update for all of you.

As for myself I've been shitty as usual. Still can't sleepa nd still feel lonely as fuck. Oh well. I'll live...

- Jeckyl

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I hate court... [13 May 2005|10:15am]
[ mood | frustrated ]

Well I was wrong I have one more court date which is gay. The judge said he wants me to do 20hours of community servie, another drop(drug screen) and bring my grades up.

So i go back to court on July 18th for my final sentencing. Most likely the case will be dismissed.

He said I might have to drop or might not have to. Which is no problem either way...

So yeah 'm about to go out and eat then off to fucking school. Woo? So much fun...

Tonight Vince and I are going to try and get out to the bean or whatnot. We'll probably just end up going to the carnival in GC park if it doesn't rain out...

My computer is fucking lame...there's a pop up every 4fucking seconds..


Oh and....

HaPpY FridaY tHe 13th...Is luck with You?

- Jeckyl

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Last court [12 May 2005|08:35pm]
[ mood | worried ]

I have my last court date tomorrow at 8:30am..

Wish me luck...

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As life goes on we slowly die... [11 May 2005|12:45pm]
[ mood | bored ]

Wow I am not in a good mood. I slept like shit last night. And i can't get someone out of my god damn head. It's fucking driving me crazy. I'min Japanese class right now. Suppose to be working on a repoert....how fun? But i have it done all ready at home so there's really no point in me being in here. Now is there?

Any way this week has gone by pretty fast i guess. Been trying to catch up on sleep. Er, havn't really hung out with any one lately. No one has been calling to hang out so. I'm thinking hopefully I can hang out with vince on Friday and Matt sometime this weekend. Anyone want to go with me to the Gardne City Carnivalin the park this weekend?

My court is in two days. Bit worried but I have a feeling things should go well. Chances are my case will be dropped which will be good for me and everyone else.

I hate feeling lonely all the time. Even when i did have a girlfriend is till felt lonely what the fuck is up with that? I'm weird yeah I know.

Blah I'm going to try and get up to the Bean this Friday see what's up over on that side of town...

My life is as boring as it gets people. Nothing hasbeen going on.

And with that i shall end this...

Don't die form boerdom.

- Jeckyl

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Hey! Look an update! [09 May 2005|12:41pm]
[ mood | blah ]

Nothing really has been going on. Hung out with Nick and Dustin all weekend pretty much. Went over to kaitlins house on Saturday for her party. It was pretty fun.

I'm in sixth hour rihgt now. We're researching shit on castles...boring as hell.

I've been doing all right I suppose. Been tired lately and lonely. No one wants to hang, everyones always busy or some shit.

I was late once again for first hour. Er, oh well I think I have to make up about er...30 some odd hours. Damn..that's gay.

As for today I'm probably just sitting at home once again unless someone actually wants to chill. We'll see.


Tech fest is almost here. End of this month. May 28-30. Heart Palaza. Who's going?

- Jeckyl

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Dance the night away [07 May 2005|01:09pm]
[ mood | awake ]

So today is Kaitlins and Amandas party. I'm going to go to Kaitlins most likely. Because she asked me first. =).

Um, as for today I thought I was going to hang with Matt but I guess not. Oh well maybe later we'll get together who knows?

So her pary is from 6pm - Midnight, anyone wanna go with me? Just gimmie a call I guess.

Hm, I found a car I like since I get my own next year.

- Jeckyl

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Got a new car! [06 May 2005|06:44pm]
[ mood | happy ]

School went fine today..nothing special went on really. Urgh I ahte the Print Tech room it's gay.

So yeah we just got back from the Doge dealership. Dustina dn I got a car.

A 2004 Dodge Stratus Rxt. Fully loaded color black. I'll post a picture of it up soon. But it's sweet.

I get my own car next year. But for now we must share says my parents.

Later today i think I'm going up to Pandemonium or something. Going to go meet up with vince and see what he's up to. Tomorrow I'm going to Kaitlins party from 6pm-12am. Should be fun.

Bryan(Ballz) is going to bring by Aciddrop or whatever it's called. A new beat program for me. So I can get started on making more hardcore techno music..<3

- Jeckyl

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Shits fucked up.. [05 May 2005|10:07pm]
[ mood | high ]

This week is going buy I'd say pretty slow. School is fucking gay as usuall. I have to be seperated to Mr.N's room to do my final project in 7th hour. SInce there's only for in Matorjas room...

Damn...shits all fucked up with my friends. James and I are fucked up, Vince and I are fucked up, and today fucking shit went down with Matt and me. And Matts boy and Nick and Scotty. Fuck...this ain't cool...

So Matt and I are hanging out Saturday to get shit straight. Also I get to go over to Kaitlins house for her birthday party..Fun times...

As for me I'm shitty as usuall. My life is still boring, depressive, and full of rage at things...I'm getting a short temper lately...Odd?"

I'm just really getting tired of coming home each day....

- Jeckyl

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......So lonely [02 May 2005|09:53pm]
[ mood | lonely ]

Well I just got home from Vista Maria with Chris' youth group. It was pretty cool. The gils where nice, few of them where juggalettes. So yeah things went well.

There's a concert coming up which I actualy think I'm going to go to. Kottonmouth Kings will be at Clutch Cargos on July 9th. Ticks are on sale now. I think they're $17...

I'ma buy mine ticket sometime during the week.

Well school was shiity as hell. Although i got to see my Aunti Boo during second hour. It was law day today so they heild court in teh lirbary. It was odd few of the people I knew. Ha. My aunt helps with the court system so...

The rest fo school was shitty as hell. I found out shitty news. Amber has a new boyfriend. Some kid named Brian. I guess Amanda hooked them up. This sucks a lot. We where going to get back together but I guess that pan has gone to hell.

The thing that hurts the most is she couldn't tell me herself. She had her friend Krystal do it for her...=\.

Fuck relationships...

I didn't sleep very weel last night. Couldn't sleep really. Don't know if it was the fact that i slept ll day or whatever. Saturday was a fun night. Hung out with my brother and Nick and Nick.

That's pretty much it...

- Jeckyl

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