|||||the holly and the ivy - natalie cole.||]|
i hope everyone had a terrific thanksgiving.
yesterday i had much thinking, and much to be thankful for. we went to my grandmothers. we ate with all of the elderly. i felt bad for some. one gent couldn't eat by himself. he had to be fed by a nurse and then there were many people that didn't have grandchildren, or children come to see them. my grandma & grandpa seem to really appreciate when we come around, especially when we bring Gavin. My grandmother goes on and on about not seeing his eyes because he's always sleeping, but she's seen them before. Her memories escape her. Ray and I both agreed that if we ever got that bad, where we couldn't eat by ourselves, we'd want to be shot. I think out of about 15 old people that ate at that time, only 3 people had families there, and my grandparents were one of the three. It's sad how it just seems like people don't make time for their families anymore. The holidays are sometimes depressing to me. I remember back when my mom's father was alive, and everyone had to be there for thanksgiving, or christmas. It was ritualistic. If you weren't there you would probably be sacrificed, but nobody ever found out because we were all there. My 3 uncles, their kids. Mom, My dad, Me.... then my Grandfather died. Slowly, at each holiday it dwindled. Granted, David always came back from Texas with the 3 girls, but then that stopped too. Uncle Bruce re-married to Deb and they started spending every other holiday at her parents house. This year we went to my Uncle Bruce's. It felt like old times (almost). Everyone has kids now, husbands. Brianne, Stacey, and I. You could tell that everyone with someone to show off was cheery. I dreaded the idea of going, but after about a half an hour there, it didn't seem so bad anymore, everything was sort of relaxed. We talked about birthin' babies. They asked me how long my labor was. It was the shortest out of all of them. They asked me if I had an epidural. I said no. They gasped. They mentioned they didn't think they could do it without some pain medication. I guess it made me feel good to know that I didn't have to have any, but they did, kind of made me feel like a stronger person. I don't know. The funniest thing all day: Everytime Hannah would look at Ray, she'd start crying! He'd wave, she'd bawl. It was hilarious.
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i'm thankful for ray, gavin, my family, friends, and you ;)