i moved on but it's still weird to think of him with someone else.
does that happen to everyone once you get out of a long term relationship?
i don't want him or anything.
would rather no one else have him either.
HAHHA HOW SELFISH.
i hate myself sometimes.
I probably need to do this more often. I feel like I have plenty to say & no real outlets to say it.
So, hay! I'm Robyn. I work 2 jobs, 7 days a week. I live with my cuteass boyfriend, Randall Wright. :)
I'm about to be 22 which is scary for me because I haven't even begun to figure out what I want to do with my life. &&&&& uh, today is the last day Ethan & I will ever talk. Ha.
HOW IS EVERYONE ELSE?!
i am no where near ready to see other people.
no one besides him makes me feel like i do,
& no matter how hard i try, i can't seem to fall for anyone else.
have you ever known what's best for you for a long long time,
but ignore it because the happiness you feel is greater than anything else?
because, i'm going through that right now.
we haven't been together for quite some time, but still act like we are.
i'm not even sure WHAT we are, let alone WHO i am without him.
just some stupid party girl, i guess.
i wish we were either together together, like OFFICIALLY,
or just not together at all. i hate being stuck in this weird limbo phase.
he keeps telling me how much he wants me to move to austin with him,
& i want to, but.
what if we're both better off alone? or separate would be the better term.
but also, what if by not going, i miss out on the best thing to happen to me?
what if i lose my great love, over something silly like the fights we have?
i'm just so confused about everything now & i hate it.
a dope ass apartment @ seville place with my besties L;
laikyn hilborn, eric miley, louis deleon & david steddum-
MAY 1ST; IT'S ON!
i can't wait, i'm so fucking excited. i love these people so fucking much & living together is going to be soooo fucking fun >.<
laikyn and i went & bought all our kitchen stuff todayyz
and tomorrow we are going to get our living room stuff! FUCK YES.
i love my life right now, dudez. ferrealz.
I LOVE YOU ALL!
I know no one cares about this but me, but Ethan took me to see Legally Blonde the musical last night, and it was amazing! :D the best valentine's day i've ever had, def. best BOYFRIEND i've ever had ;P
Anyways, Legally Blonde was sooo good! I got to see Laura Bell Bundy perform as Elle and I am SO excited that i did. Man. Best night of my life. May 1st he's taking me to see Rent! :D it's gonna be my second time, but i'm sure this time will be a million times better cause i get to see Anthony Rapp and Adam Pascal perform in person! :D:D:D
never have i loved ethan more than when we got me tickets for both those shows. AND i got him a DS and a game and an ipod for HIS valentines day. haha. i'm so happy we love each other enough to spend money on one another !
i'm sad. all the time, now.
the only person who makes me feel any better is ethan.
and he's obviously not around all the time.
not as much as i would like, anyways.
i wish it was summer,
and we lived together already.
i think falling asleep in his arms every night is what i need to do.
god, i love him so fucking much.
we're getting married :)
well, haha, not any time soon obviously,
but we WILL. i've NEVER felt like this about anyone and i know in my gut that if i woke up in that boys arms for the rest of my life, i would be justtttt finneee.
straight up went from a post about my feelings of being sad,
to a i love ethan post. ha!
If your FAGGOT ASS says ONE MORE THING about me OR Ethan, I swear to fucking god I will kick both of your fucking asses. It's one fucking thing to start shit, but when you fucking tell his SISTER that shit?! that gets back to his mom?! are you fucking KIDDING ME?! it takes some really fucking low, IMMATURE people to talk shit about someone FOUR YEARS YOUNGER THAN YOU. FOUR FUCKING YEARS. You're both supposed to be fucking ADULTS and in case you didn't notice? WE'RE NOT IN FUCKING HIGH SCHOOL ANYMORE. Seriously. If I hear that you say one more thing about either one of us, i KNOW you know that I can kick your little ass, cause I sure as hell have made you cry before. AND YOU. i have PLENTY of fucking shit that I could say about you. So how about you not test me because I know you both know me well enough to know that if you piss me off enough, i can be the worst thing that has ever happened to you.
so shut your fucking mouths and be adults for once. no one has even fucking THOUGHT ABOUT either one of you since we stopped being friends, so how about you keep our fucking names out of your god damn mouths. GROW THE FUCK UP, IDIOTS. You both mean absolutely NOTHING to Ethan or me and we're going to fucking keep it that way.
SO SHUT THE FUCK UP AND STOP TELLING PEOPLE THINGS THAT ARE OBVIOUSLY NOT TRUE TO TRY AND MAKE YOUR BORING ASS LIVES SEEM MORE EXCITING.