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Saturday, July 5th, 2003
2:47 am - Private Journal Entry (written July 4th, after Elijah and Dominic chat at the Gypsy)
Elijah and I are finally starting to pick up where we left off, I think.

Its still so weird with him, I still don't know what I'm supposed to do, and I've still got all this guilt that I can't seem to let go of -- but he's been really good about it. I think he knows I made an honest mistake, and I hope he realizes that if I had any idea how badly I'd have hurt him I would have never let myself go to that bar...

But we're starting to be okay again, and after what seemed like forever I'm able to hold him again, and wake up in his arms, and feel his lips against mine. It feels almost new again, at least for me, because I don't think that before all this happened I really understood my feelings for him.

I mean...I knew they were different, and new, and nothing I had ever felt for anyone before, but I don't think I truly realized how deep that river ran, or how much I would do (or not do) just to see him happy.

And so we're going to dinner tomorrow night, our first real date. Its my first real date ever, as a matter-of-fact, in the past twenty-six years of my life, all the people I've been with, I've never had a proper date... I'm not even really sure what to do with myself. I think on the way home tonight I will stop again at the florist's. Madame Malkin, the owner, seems to like me (which probably has something to do with the fact that I've taken Elijah a single rose every time I've seen him since the night I screwed up -- I probably give her half her business now) and perhaps I can ask her what I should do on a proper date. How to dress, how I should act...I feel like a schoolboy again, looking forward to the first day of school... And I guess this is sort of like that, starting something new... Elijah and myself making our relationship real, I guess, and proper.

Even just the desire to properly court someone is new to me, its always just been...well...definitely nothing 'proper.'

I really only hope that I don't make a fool out of myself for being so nervous...I'm sure Elijah will make me feel comfortable, as long as I don't act oddly because of my nerves or excitement.

And you know, the more I think about it...the more it strikes me that I don't even mind if he's not ready to be intimate with me after our date like he suggested. I think...I'm honestly more excited about us going on an official date than taking him home afterward.

I wonder if its possible for me to have changed as much as I'd like to think I have in such a short span of time.

current mood: excited
2 Broken Chords | Play me a tune
Wednesday, June 25th, 2003
2:36 am
OOC-ish. :D:DCollapse )
3 Broken Chords | Play me a tune
Tuesday, June 24th, 2003
2:08 am
OOC: This happens Monday evening/night.

Elijah goes to speak with Dominic.Collapse )

current mood: nervous
Play me a tune
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