|| pissed off
keep thinking so low of me, its just more fuel to my fire baby.
you know, you're supposed to be able to count on your family, and man i sure can. -sarcasm :D- that shit is over now. you guys will no longer bring me down. i know better. its 2005, which brings me one year closer to life on my own. keep it up. throw more nasty and hurtful words my way :)
but on a happy note things are looking up for me. im content, for the first time in nearly two months. i have a lot of things going for me, so im going to do my best to focus on the positive and keep my head straight. things happen, the strong always recover, ending up stronger than they were before. no longer will i be looking back, because it hurts way too much to, even though every so often i get in that mood like "why god, why???" lol i know better now. no more depression. hurt makes you do crazy things, and it makes you feel emotions you know arent true (well okay maybe they are a little true). it drives you to over-analyze, and just feel so much hatred towards everyone, especially yourself and... just yeah im going to stop now. positiveness :) i know now that i have to accpet things for what they are, because i cant change whats already happened because if i could, believe me i would, in a million and one ways. all i can do is just focus on the future, its looking really bright, nothing like the blackhole ive been in for quite sometime. my grades have been phenomenal, (minus yucky midterms but it didnt affect my final grade so :p) im in love (yes sickening i know, it makes me gag every now and then but its nice sometimes) i have my best friend back (well sorta... shes so far away!) and i have amazing friends who are there for me in each and every way possible. yeah i bet you're jealous. :)
so now that im all cheery im going to go work on my tons of AP english work :( booo!