Livejournal! Dear old fiend, how have you been without my joyous company?
I know, I've missed you too.
Alright, enough creepy stuff. I was just somewhat bored at one in the morning and decided to look back at my life, my sad and uninteresting life. It's not too bad, but it's not exactly the best read of my life. Well then, what's new?
I don't really know what's new. Everything is complicated because I constantly am reminded how things keep falling to pieces around me. You know when you try really hard to make something, say, out of clay, and while you're trying to fix one part that keeps breaking, the other part falls apart, and then you get all frustrated? Well, that's kind of how my life is feeling right now. I keep trying to make it all better, but everything keeps collapsing behind my back. It's complicated and I don't want to pour out all of the juicy details of my life onto the internet in letter form, but I promise that...it's not very promising.
I have so many plans, so many wishes as to who I want to be right now and how I wish things could happen, but we must play the cards we are dealt and make something out of them, hoping to win, or not play at all. I choose to play, but I don't know how to play my cards. I feel so unprepared for everything in life. I want to learn, but who to learn from? We are all still learning, and we can only really learn from ourselves, so I guess all I really need to do is figure out how.
So many things to figure out, and I feel like nothing is allowing me to do it. It's all saying "Michelle, run run! We're all flying away! You'll miss everything if you stop and contemplate. Catch us!"
Catch you I shall, you pesky little things!