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It's been WAY too long. [06 Apr 2007|12:54pm]
[ mood | awake ]

I haven't written in this in over a year. lol The people that I've got added to my friend's list, most of them I cannot remember a damn thing about but I think it's pretty cool that they've decided not to delete me after all this time. Sometimes being a number is pretty cool.

So right now I'm just sort of wasting time. I'm at Morgan's house, his parent's are in Las Vegas, and Morgan is in Bellingham with James. James gets out of class at 1pm and they'll be heading back down to Stanwood, but until then, I've got this enormous house and all it's goodies to myself.

haha

And the first thing I do when I get out of bed is shower and hop on the net. Of course, I wasn't going to be on that long, I mean it. But this kid George posted a bulletin with a movie on it called Loose Change, 2nd Edition (it's this high-budget documentary from a skeptic's perspective on 9/11), and after having planned to only watch the first 15 minutes of it and skip around until the end, I sat through the first 65 minutes of it and then

FUCK. The power goes out.

So back the wasting time, bit. The film so far is fantastic, and I'm waiting for it to play through and load until that point so I can continue. I'm down to 40 minutes of waiting for it, so I think I'll catch up with myself. Off to take a super-long survey!
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I'm on the verge of tears.... [26 Nov 2005|08:03pm]
..because I've got writers block and it's driving me FUCKING HYSTERICAL! Oh damn. A very short list: What I wouldn't give to crank out one more great song, just one! Please?!
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The Devil's Rejects? [23 Jul 2005|03:06pm]
Went on a double date with Amie and one of her suitors. He is this guy she met at a party two weeks ago, and they're already twitterpated. It's cute. Really.
We went to see The Devil's RejectsCollapse ) and went to Denny's afterwards for desert. I crashed at Morgan's and he made me breakfast in the morning. :)

Going to Carl's 4th of July/21st Birthday/Going-Away party tonight. I'm camping on his property, and am very hopeful that no one stumbles into (or onto) the tent while we're sleeping. Bastards.

Oh yeah, and there are shows tonight and next Saturday night at the coffeehouse. That is all.
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Les sigh. [21 Jul 2005|04:54pm]
I went to a beach house in Birch Bay yesterday evening. Listened to a really fucking awesome band from Canada (really fucking awesome) on the way. Found Radiohead on a shelf in the house. Went out to the shore. Watched the sky turn shades of pink, orange and purple. Traded sunglasses for a different perspective. Talked to a duck. Noticed how very large and golden the moon was. Drove around Bellingham to find food. Ate at Taco Bell while listening to Kid A (yes!). Went to WWU to a spot he suggested. Sat on an abstract staircase on a hill to watch the sky. Saw a raccoon that thought it was slick. Fell asleep on the drive home.

I left out the best parts.
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Thanks girls. :) [15 Jul 2005|05:03am]
Left this evening in a Cadillac. Went to a gorgeous house with high ceilings and an incredible mountain-top view of everything from Sylvana to Everett. Spoke with a short, silly woman with a sore shoulder. Patted Ceasar on the head. Realized that bulldogs are really fast (yikes). Chilled on a comfortable couch. Watched Battle Royale. Loved Battle Royale (a lot). Changed rooms. Cracked up to a few episodes of Sealab2021. Fell asleep to Nine Inch Nails. Woke up to an annoying, beeping alarm. Came back in the Cadillac. Used a mexican blanket to keep warm on the ride. Got home at 4am.


*sigh* Tonight was innnnnncrrrredible.

[14 Jul 2005|03:34pm]


the handouts...


...and the posters.

better? email me.

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[14 Jul 2005|12:12am]


Here, Allison!

Did you want the that date, or the second one you gave me?
Email me for changes.

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[08 Jul 2005|10:22pm]


a new picture, yay!

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I can't believe my eyes! [05 Jul 2005|02:49pm]
Yesterday was all sorts of wonderful, and all kinds of painful.
My parents are crazy. Amie came to rescue me, and we spent the day at her grandma's house. I have never eaten so many yummy things in one sitting. I almost puked.

I hung out with Max for the first time in months, and it was...fun. :) He was going to teach me how to drive a stick in his little Honda, but it kept dying on us. We needed a jump, twice, then gave up.

I can't deal with all the stupid things in my life that are causing me so much damn stress. I am so very close to just packing up and leaving everyone behind. So close.



The end.
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[03 Jul 2005|01:09am]
(1)Napoleon Dynamite
(2)Saw
(3)White Noise
()White Oleander
(4)Anger Management
(5)50 First Dates
()Jason X
(6)Scream
(7)Scream 2
()Scream 3
(9)Scary Movie
(10)Scary Movie 2
(11)Scary Movie 3
(12)American Pie
(13)American Pie 2
(14)American Wedding
(15)Harry Potter
(16)Harry Potter 2
(17)Harry Potter 3
(18)Tomb Raider
(19)Resident Evil
(20)Resident Evil 2
(21)The Wedding Singer
()Little Black Book
()The Itallian Job
(23)The Village
(24)Donnie Darko
(25)Lilo & Stitch
(26)Finding Nemo
()Finding Neverland
(27)13 Ghosts
(28)Signs
(29)The Grinch
(30)Texas Chainsaw Massacre
()White Chicks
(31)Butterfly Effect
(32)Thirteen going on 30
()I,Robot
()Dodgeball
()Universal Soldier
(33)Lemony Snickets A Series Of Unfortunate Events
(34)Bridget Jones Diary
()Bridget Jones: The Edge Of Reason
()Along Came A Spider
()Deep impact
(35)KingPin
(36)Never Been Kissed
(36)Meet The Parents
()Meet The Fockers
(38)Eight Crazy Nights
(39)A Cinderella Story
()The Terminal
()The Lizzie McGuire Movie
()Passport to Paris
(40)Dumb & Dumber
(41)Dumb & Dumberer
(42)Final Destination
(43)Final Destination 2
(44)Amityville Horror the original
(45)Halloween
(46)The Ring
(47)The Ring 2
()Harold & Kumar Go to White Castle
(48)Practical Magic
()Chicago
(49)Idle Hands
(50)Ghost Ship
()Hellboy
(51)Secret Window
()I Am Sam
(52)The Whole Nine Yards
(53)The Whole Ten Yards
()The Day After Tomorrow
(54)Child's Play
()Bride of Chucky
(55)Ten Things I Hate About You
(56)Just Married
(57)Gothika
(58)A Nightmare on Elm Street
(59)Sixteen Candles
()Bad Boys 2
(60)Joy Ride
()Seven (SE7EN)
(61)Oceans Eleven
()Oceans Twelve
(62)Sin City
(63)Identity
()Lone Star State of Mind
(64)Bedazzled
(65)Predator I
(66)Predator II
(67)Alien V.S. Predator
(68)Independence Day
(69)Cujo
()A Bronx Tale
(70)Darkness Falls
(71)Christine
()ET
(73)Children of the Corn
(74)My Boss' Daughter
(75)Maid in Manhattan
()Frailty
()Best bet
(76)How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(77)She's All That
()Calendar Girls
(78)Being John Malcovich
()Sideways
()Finding Julia
()Maria Full of Grace
(79)Mars Attacks
(80)Without A Paddle
()Event Horizon
(81)Ever after
(82)Forrest Gump
()Big Trouble in Little China
(83)X-men
(84)X-men 2
(85)Jeepers Creepers
(86)Jeepers Creepers 2
()Catch Me If You Can
(87)The Others
( original)Freaky Friday
()Reign of Fire
(89)Cruel Intentions
()Cruel Intentions 2
()Cruel Intentions 3
(90)The Hot Chick
(91)Swimfan
()Miracle
(92)Old School
()Ray
(93)The Notebook
()K-Pax
()Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
()Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
()Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
(94)A Walk to Remember
(95)Boogeyman
(96)Eternal Sunshine Of a Spotless Mind.
()Hitch
()Back Door Sluts 9
(97)The Fifth Element
(98)Star Wars Episode I
()Star wars episode II
()Star Wars Episode III
()Star Wars Episode IV
()Star wars episode V
()Star wars episode VI
()Troop Beverly Hills
()Swimming with Sharks
(99)Trainspotting
()People under the stairs
()Blue Velvet
()Sound of music
(100 both)Parent Trap
()The Burbs
(101)SLC Punk
(102)Meet Joe Black
()Wild girls
(103)Clockwork Orange
()The Order
(104)Spiderman
()Spiderman2
(105)Amelie
(106)Mean Girls
(107)Shrek
(108)Shrek 2
()The Incredibles
(109)Collateral
(110)The Fast & The Furious
()2 Fast 2 Furious
()Sky Captain & The World of Tomorrow
()Closer
(111)The Sixth Sense
(112)Artificial Intelligence
()Love actually
()Shutter
(113)Ella Enchanted
(114)Princess Diaries 1
()Princess Diaries 2
()The Graduate
()Constantine
()Million Dollar Baby
(115)Mallrats
(116)Party Monster
()Detroit Rock City
()The Goonies
()Y Tu Mama Tambien
(117)Pulp Fiction
(118)Wet Hot American Summer
()Crash
(119)Empire Records
(120)Notting Hill
(121)Pretty Woman
(122)Pirates of the Carribean
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Awwwwwwesome. [02 Jul 2005|01:35am]
Today was the best day in a long time.
Parts of it were great.


The end.
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more fun stuff. yay. [29 Jun 2005|12:07pm]



hmmmm...Collapse )

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fun stuff. [28 Jun 2005|11:56pm]


Your Passion is Purple!


You've got a ton of passion, but you don't always wear it on your sleeve.
If something truly excites you, you let your inner intensity shine through.
But otherwise, your passion tends to morph into energy ... which you never lack.
You're a balanced woman, knowing when to turn on the fire in your heart.




What Color is Your Passion? Take This Quiz :-)




Find the Love of Your Life
(and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.




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Your Scent is Mango


Sultry, sweet, and mellow

You enjoy every moment of life!


What Scent Are You? Take This Quiz :-)



Find the Love of Your Life
(and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.




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Men See You As Understated


You are an intreguing mix of girl and woman.
You're feminine, quiet, and a total mystery to most men.
Yet they often feel the urge to protect you, even if they don't know you.
You *are* a flirt, but you usually only flirt with those you know well

How Do Men See You? Take This Quiz :-)


Find the Love of Your Life
(and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.







i'm so bored.
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I don't think this will work out. [12 Jun 2005|03:18pm]
I had told Amie to be truthful with me, all candidness welcome, before I asked her.

What about me makes it so easy for people to sell me out?

I’m not sure exactly when it happened, but I found that the few people I’m closest to are not close to me at all. Hence, my question.
Lately I hear it, and Amie’s answers, in my head when I think of the people in my life.
Her answer? People don’t take me seriously. Because I’m not afraid to smile, or to speak and listen to everyone, to entertain, to make people laugh, because I’m always moving, always on the go, people think that I won’t slow down enough to notice when I’m being taken advantage of. As if I won’t notice when I’m being directly insulted, and even so, when I do, they think that I’m too busy being senseless to do anything about it. With the exception of a few friends I have, It’s not until I get quiet and look bothered that I get respect. If it makes things easier, or more conveniant for them, they could ditch me with out batting an eye.
Some feel they can throw me away at any time. Some are so sure that I'll return to share a laugh, after they twist knives into my back. I’m not sure if some even care. Depressing.

I need a drink.


Each time I try to focus on something still, it moves.
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EVERYONE IS A FLAKE. [01 Jun 2005|10:44am]
[ mood | PISSED OFF. ]

EVERYONE is a FUCKING FLAKE.

These people are liars and unreliable.
I feel like I'm the only one who can stick it out through the drama and bullshit, without changing my point of view to make things "easier".
These people are fucking cowards.

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i love you! [30 Jan 2005|10:09am]
[ mood | excited ]



have an awesome 18th!

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[24 Jan 2005|08:11pm]
[ mood | small bit hott. ]

You turn on a spindle.
You are so much looser now
but you're not explaining how
you gained such new repose.

I touch the clasp of your locket.
With its picture held
some secret you wouldn't tell,
but let it choke your neck.

So we imagine a darkness
where all shapes divide,
solids changing into light,
with a burst of heat so bright.

Well fine, don't you do what I want you to.
Don't degrade yourself the way I do
because you don't depend on all the shit that I use
to make my moods improve.

Near a sea of pianos,
there were waves of chords
that crashed against the shore
in one huge and pointless roar.

And there were girls bringing water.
Like a dream, they came
to cure the fever of my brain
and soothe my burning throat.

And they made me a necklace,
hanging beads of sweat
on a string of my regrets,
and placed it round my neck and they were singing,

"Don't you do what you've wanted to.
Yeah, don't destroy yourself like those cowards do
and maybe the sun keeps coming up because it has gotten
used to you and your constant need for proof."

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fuck. [15 Jan 2005|11:32pm]
[ mood | irritated ]

have not updated in so long.

decided to speak without using contractions for awhile.

*shrug* do not ask.

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today has...somewhat sucked. [04 Jan 2005|10:04pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

the sky tonight is incredible. i wish i could concentrate on that, rather than my stupid problems. more like josh's. half of the time, i hate having a heart.

started feeling upset. grabbed my glass of orange juice.
tilted my head back, and right as i went to take a swig i happened to look down at my drink...and there was a fruit fly bobbing up and down on the surface. it was....odd.

i'm so very f***ing tired!!

dont like the fuck-word? then dont read! [04 Jan 2005|01:40am]
[ mood | kind of sad. ]

today's lows and highs:Collapse )

key points:
-Ngoni (the fuckhead)
-5 hours of sleep
-a quiet DC
-cancelled musical(?)
+peppermint mochas
+sara and foster are awesome
+cute friend wants forrest!!
+joshua is sex(y).


it's late. i should sleep.

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