Wed, Feb. 9th, 2005, 10:56 pm
Add it, learn it, love it..
real update there.
Entry #2, and it's going to be a bit more positive.
So, school.. it wasn't that bad, honestly.
M.I. is probably my favorite class, only because of the people in it. I sit next to Ellie, and not too far away from Spinner. And for the record, monogamy: a little bit more complicated than you'd think. haha.
Other than getting in trouble for talking too much, the class is great.
So, I talked to Manny today, apologized for the whole incident last year. After thinking this summer, with the help from others, they made me realize what a jerk I was. I wish it would've never happened, I should've just ended things with Ash and never hurt Manny like I did.. and Ash as well.
I also apologized to Ashley. That went a lot better than I expected. She actually listened to me, and didn't yell or run from me when I was finished. We talked for a good 5 minutes, and she accepted my apology.
And while we're on the subject, Ash and I are not together. We hugged yesterday, but that was only because I asked her for one, just because I felt if we hugged, then I knew she really didn't hate me. Just straightening things out before rumors start going around, afterall, it is Degrassi.
I do have a crush on someone, however. Yes, I know it's early in the term, but I've kind of had my eye on this person for a while. Just my luck, she's taken.
Not much I can do about that.. so yeah.
Well, Joey just called and informed me he's staying later than expected at the dealership, so I have to go see what I can make for me and Ang for dinner. It's time like these I wish I knew I could cook.
Hey, so call me trendy, trend whore.. whatever you want to, but I finally got one of these things.
They're not too shabby, I'm sure it'll be better once I figure everything out.
So, lately things have been intresting. It's like I feel like I'm not myself.. I mean I'm myself but I have 20 million thoughts racing through my head. Like now, why would I randomley be up at 6 am? I mean I'm not that excited about going to school. Why would I? I mean I love seeing my friends, and it is a new school year.. but Kwan.. Simpson.. Ms.H, oh man, talk about a killer trio.
Joey's talking about getting me a tutor if I don't do well the first semester since my grades kind of dropped last year. A tutuor? I don't think it's that necessary.. It's not that I'm dumb, more that my will and motivation to learn are pretty much non-existant as of now.
I just want to have a clean slate, nothing bad on my mind. I'm working on it, I'm going to take some actions in the next few days and apologize to those I feel I have to.
"I'm starting to fashion an idea in my head
where I would impress you
with every single word I said.
Would come out insightful or brave or smooth or charming
and you'd want to call me
And I would be there every time
you'd need me
I'd be there every time...
But for now I'll look so longingly
For you to want me"
But seeing as how time is just flying by in this entry, I suppose I should go jump in the shower, get ready for school.
See you all there.