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guess what I did Saturday!!!!!!!   
09:47am 24/12/2007
 

YEAH. I got married.
 
     

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Guess what I did last night   
12:43am 24/10/2007
 
mood: content
If you guess anything other than, "You ran into Tom Brokaw while walking out of the Bruce Springsteen concert?" you're fucking WRONG!
 
     

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Work complaints, you know.   
06:04pm 06/08/2007
  Some issues I didn't know existed have cropped up in my work. Actually, I knew they existed but I haven't had them challenged in a while.

1. I do not like strangers touching me.

Two older men touch me at work. It's nothing inappropriate, but it still makes me very uncomfortable. One is my general manager, and he pats everyone on the back. What makes this exceedingly uncomfortable for me is that he does it even when I'm already walking away, so he has to actually reach and make an unnatural motion just to pat me on the shoulder. It disgusts me and I don't like it at all. The other...I think it's just his thing to try and get in everyone's pants. Larry said I should talk to my general manager about how uncomfortable it makes me that the second guy touches me, and he got pretty annoyed when I laughed at him.

Some of my coworkers gently put a hand on my back or shoulder when they're coming up behind me and want me to move. That's okay. I've known them for a little while and recognize it as a friendly, "Hey, get the fuck out of my way." There aren't ever any creepy overtones. When someone did that the other day and I didn't freak out, I realized that my problems with my GM and the other coworker are more serious than I thought.

2. I don't respect any authority that doesn't deserve it.

Again, talking about my GM. He is a condescending, smarmy bastard. Last week, I was working the lunch shift. He and another woman from the office (sales, I think) sometimes have people for lunch when they are trying to sell them things. I tried to bring them menus, and he shook me off with a, "We're fine, hon" and wave of his hand. Not five minutes later, he sat down at a table with another man. About five minutes after that, I heard an annoyed, "Rachel, could we have some menus, please, hon?"

They didn't get me a nametag for about two weeks. And since I only have one work shirt, clean laundry is hard to come by when I have a wonky schedule like this week. As he walked by me today, he said, "You know, I got you a nametag." I said, "Yeah, I did laundry and forgot to put it back on. I'll get it tomorrow." "yeah, okay, just make sure you wear it." We BOTH started walking away, and then he reached out and patted my shoulder. UGH. I actually shuddered when he did that.

I'm also starting to have this problem with my manager, as well. She just got the manager position a couple weeks ago. She has a tendency to disappear, walk into a situation, and start criticizing everything you're doing wrong. Most of the time, these wrongs are on their way to being corrected, or they aren't entirely my fault, or they aren't my fault at all.

A week ago yesterday, she sent my friend and coworker home early because we were dead. I really didn't want her to go; it was 9 am on a Sunday morning. I figured we'd get slammed at 10...when church got out. And we did. My manager had told me to come find her if we got busy. We got slammed and I went looking for her and couldn't find her, so I started taking care of everyone myself. About 10 minutes later, as I was carrying a tray of food out, she said, "RACHEL! That table hasn't even gotten their drinks yet! Why haven't they gotten their drinks yet!?" I looked at her and said, "We got really busy and I went looking for you for help and I couldn't find you anywhere."

Kind of like the time she lectured me for not carrying a tray. I am hypoglycemic. It is very mild and is very manageable. I just have to eat regularly and take care of my body and I'm good to go. She got mad at me for carrying two plates (one in each hand) and going back for the third instead of carrying them on a tray. "Why aren't you carrying a tray? Isn't the kid eating?" "I have shaky hands and I would have dropped their food!" again, on the way out of the kitchen carrying things.

Probably I'll get a lecture on not being respectful enough soon. Cool. My job is run like a madhouse. If I didn't like the people I worked with so much, I'd quit.

Oh, and I sprained my wrist a few days ago and haven't had the chance to really rest it. So I'm doing this all on an increasingly aggravated injury.

Any advice for any of these problems?
 
     

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Question.   
04:26pm 02/08/2007
  If I have an ear/throat infection, will drinking alcohol kill it?

Question:

Is 4:30 too early?
 
     

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A lesson in reading ahead in the pattern.   
01:47pm 19/07/2007
 
mood: frustrated
I was all done with the four repeats of Chart 1 for my Icarus shawl (I cut out the fifth repeat) and thought I was all ready to start Chart 2...NO!!!

I still have a billion more rows of Chart 1 to go because the next line of the directions says, "repeat rows 19-34" once before you begin Chart 2"

KLS;AJFKLDS;AJKJGK;ASFD. FUCKING STOCKINETTE STITCH IN LACEWEIGHT ON SIZE 3 NEEDLES AND AT LEAST 250 STITCHES SDJKLAFJDSAFJ;QF.
 
     

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test   
05:58pm 20/04/2007
   
     

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Hi, my name is Rach   
03:23pm 10/04/2007
 


I like Dr. Pepper even though it's bad for me and I go to school because I know it's good for me.
 
     

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I think I'm gonna suffer through it.   
11:04am 01/04/2007
  Last winter, I bought this beautiful merino/tencel blend roving. The perfect greens, soooooooo soft, the spun sample felt like velvet when I knit it up.

I fucking hate spinning tencel. I think I'm gonna suffer through it in a minute when I'm done with my current batch of merino.
 
     

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I need a diary. You've been warned.   
11:58am 29/03/2007
  I spent years thinking I wasn't good enough because I am not as naturally good as my friend was at drawing. Years. even after we had our falling out, I still didn't think I was good enough. I went to college and that only made things worse. My very first class was a 2D design class, and there was only one other freshman in the class. The other freshman had been the Art Goddess of her high school, so that left me as the odd person out. I took art classes in high school, but I didn't have a teacher who actually taught. She would have us pick an object and draw it. It was easy enough, but she never took the time to tell us what we were doing wrong or how we could improve. She spent all of her time in her office and telling us to "Sh! If you're using your left brain to talk, you can't use your right brain to draw." Those critiques my first semester in college were self-esteem crushing. I had never, ever had a critique before, and now the teacher wanted us to have these weekly? He taught the class as basically a painting class, which only added to my general feelings of worthlessness. If you can't draw, you can't paint. And I couldn't draw for crap. I took a drawing class the next semester, and a photography class last semester. Now I am in Intermediate Drawing and Photo II. My drawing has improved greatly. I'm never going to be a fantastic drawer, but that's okay. I don't expect greatness from myself in that field. I am a decent (perhaps even good) photographer, but I still have a lot to learn. I am a good knitter. I can tackle any pattern. I am good at spinning yarn. Those are my skills, not drawing.

I have had a hard time coming to terms with this. I see photography in the same light as I see poetry. Give anyone a camera, and they will think they are making art. An overly grey picture of your friend smoking a cigarette with a typical expression on their face is not art. A forty stanza free verse poem about how much you hate your life is not art. Both will be readily accepted into my high school's literary magazine, and both will be called art. Knitting is like that, too. Knitting square dishrags for 20 years doesn't make you an artist. Yes, you are making something. You're even making something useful. I prefer, well, things that are pretty. I love my cabled arm warmers in the prettiest variegated green. I love the looks on people's faces when I say yes, I did make that. It still isn't art. Not to anyone who doesn't make things, anyway. I like to spin yarn. I am good at it. That is probably the only one of my activities where I actually feel like I am making art. I'm not making avant-garde art yarn full of coils and slubs, either. I'm making run-of-the-mill, I'll-probably-make-socks-out-of-this yarn. And it makes me feel good to make something that other people can't make. Here is this skill that took me a while to learn, and I'm still only in my beginning stages of this. I finally found my skill.

I'll probably go on a rant tomorrow about how I hate it when people sit around and talk about their art and call themselves artists.
 
     

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baby sister, you got me!   
11:22pm 25/02/2007
  Step 1: Put your music player (iTunes or whatever) on shuffle.
Step 2: Post the first line or so from the first 20 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song.
Step 3: Have people guess the songs.

1. there's one more dead in kansas, and it's probably your wife.
2. doesn't really matter if you're on the run, it seems like we're meant to be
3. he knew he didn't belong but he went along
4. i lost myself in a familiar song; i closed my eyes and i slipped awayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
5. you float like a feather in a beautiful world
6. if i go there will be trouble, and if i stay it will be double
7. a hotline, a wanted ad, it's crazy what you could've had
8. i'll always remember you like a child, girl
9. the nerve of your hometown
10. things got bad and things got worse, i guess you know the tune
11. if she's gone i can't go on, feeling two foot small
12. mother, father, i'm here in the zoo. i can't come home 'cause i've grown up too soon.
13. so if i send it to you, you gotta promise to keep it whole
14. and do i really have a hand in my forgetting?
15. i was feeling insecure; you might not love me anymore.
16. if i could make a wish, i think i'd pass
17. d-u-m-b everyone's accusing me
18. switch on your electric light
19. i cut my fingers on the way
20. my little girl, we would have been so, oh nevermind

now there's a fucked up list of the past few years...
 
     

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Today was really good.   
05:40pm 31/01/2007
  Monday and Wednesday are Art Days. I have photography in the morning and drawing in the afternoon. Today was going to be Super Maxed Out Art Day. I had photography in the morning, a Student Art League meeting at 11:30, and I was supposed to have drawing in the afternoon. I got there and found out that class was canceled, and we were supposed to leave our homework on the table.

It was the first Student Art League meeting of the semester, so mostly it was a meet and greet and settle on some goals for the semester. The vice president talked about how she really wanted us to do community service as a group, if it was something we were interested in. We were overwhelmingly in favor of community service, and I said that I would go to my high school and talk to people. We had an 80 hour community service graduation requirement, so I knew I could ask around and get excellent contacts.

First I went to talk to the Campus Ministry Director, since she's in charge of all the community service and knows who to talk to for what. I told her that we would prefer it involve art somehow, and that one of our ideas so far was to paint a banner for the kids at Children's Mercy. She handed me a pamphlet with all of the different groups in KC, and put stars next to the groups that could possibly want us to come help. One that I'm really excited about was a group home for kids who had been taken away from abusive families.

The art teacher is new. She started the year after I graduated, so I walked up to talk to her and said that I was Sarah's sister. She talked to me for quite a while and when I told her about Children's Mercy, she told me about how a friend of hers wanted people to paint ceiling tiles so that kids going into surgery would have something nice to look at. She also said that she wanted to have an all student show at Miege, but she needed help, and wanted to know if any of us would want to go talk to her AP studio class about what it's like to be art majors in college. I really hope we can do that, but I don't know if anyone in the group would care much besides me, since I'm the only one who went to Miege.

The rest of the day was kind of weird. I went around to visit teachers that I had liked. I never think about the impact I might make on someone else. Usually, I'm too busy thinking about what they did for me. Today when i saw Mr. Anderson and Mr. Creach, I realized that I really did affect them somehow. Both of them told me that they still listen to the mixtapes I gave them on the last day of school. Mr. Creach told me about how he's been wondering how to incorporate "Sir Duke" into his classes. Senior year, when we were studying love, we were asked to bring in songs about love. It didn't have to be romantic love, so I brought in "Beautiful Boy" by John Lennon. I couldn't remember what number it was on my mix CD, so we had to go through the first couple seconds of all of them. Everyone freaked out when the first couple seconds of "Sir Duke" came on, and a lot of people wanted to hear "(Sittin' On) The Dock of the Bay". Mr. Creach said that his classes were all kind of in a slump. It's been gray and gross, and I bet everyone all just wants to be at home. That made me feel great that he still remembered that day and that day meant so much to him. The thing that really got me, though, was when he said he was still figuring everything out and finally getting a hold on what he wanted in life. I said, "Oh, that's cool. You're still young, you've got time to figure it out." He smiled so hugely and genuinely and thanked me for saying that, and told me that he really feel like an old man. He's only about 40. It was such a natural thing for me to say, and it made him so happy. I saw Mr. Anderson, and he made me sign his list. He keeps a list of all his former students that come back to visit him. Both of those teachers really helped me out senior year. I looked forward to their classes, and I didn't look forward to anything about high school.
 
     

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self portraits!   
01:00pm 15/11/2006
 





 
     

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01:58pm 30/09/2006
  She takes just like a woman, yes, she does
She makes love just like a woman, yes, she does
And she aches just like a woman
But she breaks just like a little girl.
 
     

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Which would make the better yarn choice?   
01:30am 29/08/2006
  I want to make this sweater:

this one this one!!Collapse )

and I was wondering, which would be a better choice of yarn, Cascade 220 or Mission Falls 1824? I've never tried the latter, and am going to go look at colors and see how it feels tomorrow. Which one holds up better? I've never knit a garment out of Cascade, but hear it wears like iron.

Discuss. :)
 
     

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I'm so happy.   
01:42pm 08/08/2006
  I made something I'm actually proud of.Collapse )

God help me if I can remember the Kool-aid recipe, though. There are bits of green, and I thought that would be ugly so I dumped a ton of different reds, pinks, and one packet of orange on top, and the result is the green is still there, but it's a muddy green brown and looks like leaves changing colors. Oh, it makes me really happy. I might have to make a hat out of it.
 
     

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Okay, I need a job and came up with this idea:   
07:18pm 15/06/2006
  And I'm asking for your input, because I don't know how to go about setting it up! And not to sound like a snob or anything, but if you don't know what montessori schooling is, I don't want to hear anything like "You can't do that! They won't just add a class for you!" I have reasons listed below as to why this might work. But, if you don't know what montessori schooling is and you want to know, I'd be glad to tell you. :)

When I was younger, I went to a montessori school. Every day after recess, my teacher would work on cross stitch with us. One summer, she taught a bunch of girls how to crochet. That teacher isn't there anymore (and it's a good thing, because she had no patience...) But now the kids don't have crafts!

So I was thinking, maybe I could go there and see if any of the kids would be interested in learning how to knit and kind of arrange that. It would be easy and a nice supplement once I do get a real job, and help tide things over until I get one. When I went there, we had a guy come and teach this optional tumbling class, so I think this might work. Also, I went there for years and they still remember me, so that is in my favor, too. I'd definitely be going for 8-12 (the school only goes up through 6th grade).

I want to have a plan completely laid out to present to Miss Kelly (the teacher of the kids I'm targeting) and/or Mrs. Swanson (the principal), but I'm thinking I should go to Miss Kelly first so she can guide me through this.

I was thinking an hour on a set day of every week, and chargin $10 per kid per clas and then supplies. I'd use acrylic or cotton yarn, so the supplies would be kept as minimal as possible. Is that too much to ask? Too little? I've never done anything like this, so I don't know what the right amount would be. Parents with kids - what would you pay for a "class" like this?

I was also thinking kid/beginner friendly projects like scarves and wristbands and purses and stuff like that. If anyone else has any suggestions, let me know.

And above all else, good idea? Bad idea? I asked my best friend, and as a non-knitter (is there a name for them?) who didn't go to montessori school, she didn't really have an answer or think it would work. I don't know if it's just because she doesn't know much about either, or if it really is a terrible idea.

Thanks everyone who made it this far <3 <3 <3

cross posted to
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And I'm asking for your input, because I don't know how to go about setting it up! And not to sound like a snob or anything, but if you don't know what montessori schooling is, I don't want to hear anything like "You can't do that! They won't just add a class for you!" I have reasons listed below as to why this might work. But, if you don't know what montessori schooling is and you want to know, I'd be glad to tell you. :)

When I was younger, I went to a montessori school. Every day after recess, my teacher would work on cross stitch with us. One summer, she taught a bunch of girls how to crochet. That teacher isn't there anymore (and it's a good thing, because she had no patience...) But now the kids don't have crafts!

So I was thinking, maybe I could go there and see if any of the kids would be interested in learning how to knit and kind of arrange that. It would be easy and a nice supplement once I do get a real job, and help tide things over until I get one. When I went there, we had a guy come and teach this optional tumbling class, so I think this might work. Also, I went there for years and they still remember me, so that is in my favor, too. I'd definitely be going for 8-12 (the school only goes up through 6th grade).

I want to have a plan completely laid out to present to Miss Kelly (the teacher of the kids I'm targeting) and/or Mrs. Swanson (the principal), but I'm thinking I should go to Miss Kelly first so she can guide me through this.

I was thinking an hour on a set day of every week, and chargin $10 per kid per clas and then supplies. I'd use acrylic or cotton yarn, so the supplies would be kept as minimal as possible. Is that too much to ask? Too little? I've never done anything like this, so I don't know what the right amount would be. Parents with kids - what would you pay for a "class" like this?

I was also thinking kid/beginner friendly projects like scarves and wristbands and purses and stuff like that. If anyone else has any suggestions, let me know.

And above all else, good idea? Bad idea? I asked my best friend, and as a non-knitter (is there a name for them?) who didn't go to montessori school, she didn't really have an answer or think it would work. I don't know if it's just because she doesn't know much about either, or if it really is a terrible idea.

Thanks everyone who made it this far <3 <3 <3

cross posted to <ljuser=knitting>
 
     

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yeah.   
12:11pm 25/04/2006
 
mood: okay
Take this quiz, post the results, and see how much things have changed since then.

3 YEARS AGO TODAY (April 23)

How old were you?: 16

What grade year were you in?: 10th

Where did you go to school?: bishop miege.

Where did you work? nowhere.

Where did you live?: kansas.

How was your hair style?: dyed red
Did you wear braces?: nope.

Did you wear glasses?: yes

Who was your best friend?: hope

Who was your boyfriend/girlfriend: didn't have one.

Who was your celebrity crush?: davey havok

Who was your regular-person crush?: mike judge.

How many tattoos did you have?: none.

How many piercings did you have?: two (ears once)

What was your favorite band/group?: afi

What was your worst fear?: losing all my friends

Had you smoked a cigarette yet?: no.

Had you gotten drunk and high yet?: no.

Had you driven yet: no.

Had you been to a real party yet?: no.

Had your heart broken?: yeah


HA HA HA!!! LETS SEE WHAT YOU ARE NOW !!!!!


How old are you?: 19

What grade are you in?: freshman in college

Where do you go to school?: umkc

Where do you work?: hobby lobby

Where do you live?: missouri

Where do you hang out? everywhere.

How is your hair style?: natural

Do you have braces?: nope

Do you wear glasses?: yes

Who is your best friend?: ali and hank!

Who is your celebrity crush?: elvis costello

Who is your regular-person crush?: my boyfriennd

How many piercings do you have?: same two.

What is your favorite singer/group: elvis costello. the band.

What is your biggest fear?: growing up. (well said baby sister)

Have you smoked a cigarette yet?: yeah

Have you gotten drunk and high?: yeah

Has your heart been broken?: yeah
 
     

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baseball is for fags.   
06:37pm 08/03/2006
  in history: i didn't know i had maggie may on my computer.
thraknarrrrrrrrr: whats that?
in history: that song by rod stewart that everyone knows
thraknarrrrrrrrr: bitch, do i look like everyone to you!
thraknarrrrrrrrr: heh sorry, just kiddin about the bitch thing.
thraknarrrrrrrrr: i mean that like...everyone's the bitch. you know. the world.
in history: hahahaha.
in history: of course you look like everyone, mothafuckaaaa
thraknarrrrrrrrr: naah uh, i got a stupid haircut
in history: really? now i bet you really do look like everyone.
in history: (jay kay)
thraknarrrrrrrrr: everyone's a fag
thraknarrrrrrrrr: thats why i look like them
in history: fag!!!!!!!!!11111!!!
in history: don't touch me, i might catch gay!!
thraknarrrrrrrrr: bitch you couldnt catch a cold
in history: are you insulting my baseball skills? because i could school your ass any day.
thraknarrrrrrrrr: psh, i dont go to school. schools for baseball playin fags
in history: you're right.
in history: that's why i don't play baseball.
in history: it was a bluff.
thraknarrrrrrrrr: me too.
 
     

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will you do me a favor...   
01:45pm 27/02/2006
 
mood: angry
...AND SHUT THE FUCK UP?
 
     

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home accents? more like home ACK   
03:37am 26/02/2006
 
mood: sleepy
So, I got a job. I am a cashier at Hobby Lobby now. It's alright. I think I'll bore you, my grand total of no viewers, with stories about work. I work at the Hobby Lobby in my old neighborhood and the neighborhood that my high school is in, so I see people I know quite a bit. It can be fun, it can be hectic.

I managed to ring things up wrong all day today. I don't know what I did. All of our Valentine's Day stuff is 90% off, and an old woman came with 5 tubes of $1 candy. It ended up being $1.07 or something like that, but somehow I managed to ring them up as $947. I DON'T KNOW HOW THIS HAPPENED. Or why I kept doing it all day. I just don't know.

People also kept forgetting their stuff. Today three bags were sitting on the floor next to me all day waiting for their owners to come get them. One woman had other stuff in her cart, and left her small bag of knitting needles. Another woman had a toddler and forgot her ugly iron stuff, and I forgot to give to to her because my dad and sister were in line after her and I was too busy trying to look good. Another woman had two carts (TWO CARTS!) full of stuff and so I'm not very surprised we forgot her bag. It took forever to ring all that up!

Kids are pretty cute, but Jesus Christ. Parents, who also don't read this, watch your kids. I know you can't be 100% all the time, but good lord. Recovering the store is bad enough, but I found out the first day, the part you have to really look at in every aisle is the kid level part. And oh yeah, if you changed your mind about something, DO NOT throw it down anywhere in the racks of stuff by the register. Hand it to me, say "I changed my mind", and I will put it in a basket and someone else will put it away. Today I said the f-word in front of kids. OOPS.
 
     

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