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[Saturday: May 14th, 2005 @ 2:33pm]
Once a cheater. Always a cheater.
I only speak the truth.
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[Wednesday: May 11th, 2005 @ 10:30pm]
new livejournal bitches.
you can add me if you want, it doesnt mean that I will add you back.

_summerair

add moi.
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[Wednesday: May 4th, 2005 @ 4:02pm]
i fucking hate my friends.
yah i said it. so get used to it. fuck i hate you all.
i dont think there is any way for me to like anyone. you guys all suck and lie and are fucking stupid as hell. so fuck you and fuck off.
minus Kara.
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[Monday: May 2nd, 2005 @ 10:38pm]
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Kara MacIntyre is so beautiful. Shes everything I hoped for and everything I need. I love her to death. And I couldnt dream of a better friend. She never pisses me off and never makes me mad. She always makes me laugh and always listens to me. Im always there for her and I hope that she knows it. The last month has been so wonderful and I hope that we have millions of more adventures together. I really hope that I move into an apartment with her. It would be so much fucking fun. God Im happy.
I Love Kara MacIntyre
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[Friday: April 22nd, 2005 @ 12:39pm]
I am dead serious. Does ANYONE want to come hitch hiking with me? No fucking joke. I really want to go and I dont want to go by myself. I want to get off of PEI and leave this fucking province. PLEASE. Preferablly in a week or so. In time to get a few bucks. COME ON!! SOMEONE??
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I wish I won that pumpkin. [Monday: October 11th, 2004 @ 5:49pm]
[ mood | horribly sad. ]

The show was fucking weird.

Man. My camera is so big.
The flash on this is friggen blinding. All of the pictures look as if they have been taken with all of the lights on. When in fact...all of the lights are off. I will get better at the taking of pictures.
For now.
Chara.
The Fully Down.
Shotgun Rules.
A few of my own pictures.
my camera runs on coal.Collapse )

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[Thursday: October 7th, 2004 @ 12:06pm]
I think I have finally come to a conclusion.
I think. I think. I think.
Maybe Im going to give up.
Maybe Ill move on.
Maybe Im going to move away.

I dont think I really have come to a conclusion yet.
Everyone should have a person that they can tell all of their problems too. And that person should be able to help you. But.
What do you do, when all of your problems are that one person. Who do you talk to? What if you dont trust anyone else? What if no one else is smart enough to help.
GAH
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[Tuesday: October 5th, 2004 @ 5:37pm]
FUCK THIS FUCKING SHIT!!
I know that I havent said anything for a long time. Thats because I was stupid. Im always stupid. Im fucking done with everyones bullshit. I CANT take this anymore. Im sick of feeling like crap and dirt all the fucking time. Im SO SICK OF IT. Im seriously moving away as soon as I get my next paycheck. Since I suck at school, Im going to drop out. Im going to move to Ontario and live with my aunt and uncle until I can find a job and move out on my own. Im starting all the fuck over again. I dont need your guys`s bullshit anymore. You just drag me down and make me feel lower then fucking dirt. And I cant take it anymore. All I wanted in the world was two things and I cant even get them. Thats fucking pathetic. Im done with EVERYONES BULLSHIT.!!
FUCK YOU ALL !!!
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[Thursday: September 16th, 2004 @ 7:47am]
i quit
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im real sorry...... [Sunday: September 12th, 2004 @ 7:20pm]
to many people read this that I dont want to so....



you could also leave a comment on why you should stay on my friends list cuz some people are leaving.
Bye
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and the truth is....baby your all that i need. [Saturday: September 11th, 2004 @ 4:45pm]
im still in a horrible mood.
i dont know why. i just cant shake this feeling from me.
i feel like no matter what i do, ill screw things up.
i feel like not seeing anyone.
i feel stupid.
i cant even look at myself in the mirror without bursting into tears.
i cant do anything.

baby. blind love is true.


on the plus side of things.
wait. there is no plus side.

ive got nothing to prove. for its you that id die to defend


i have to go and clean my room now.
what a life i lead.

i wanna lay you down in a bed of roses.
for the night ill sleep on a bed of nails.
i wanna be just as close as, the holy ghost is.
i wanna lay you down, in a bed of roses.
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[Thursday: September 9th, 2004 @ 5:00pm]
i have no idea what to do anymore.
this whole life thing is so stupid.
i really just want to crawl into a whole and die. i really do. i think that would make everyones life alot easier.
im pretty sure this is the most depressing day of my life.
i hate my life. i cant do anything without screwing up. i dont want to be like this anymore.
o god . i sound like Conor.
how do you change something that you dont think you can? or how do you fix something that you know you cant? i think everything might be ok. if i kill myself. or run away.
problem solved.
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[Thursday: September 9th, 2004 @ 7:54am]
i just went against anything i ever said.
everything just went down the drain.
i was so close to having it all, but now, its fucking gone because of what we did.
FUCK I HATE MYSELF!!
im pretty sure school today is going to be hard.
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in the event of an emergancy, please suck my dick..... [Tuesday: September 7th, 2004 @ 9:08pm]
school was today.
close to killing myself....not really but thats alright.
I hate school so much.
I saw Andrew Watts though.
I had a good day minus the school part....

Chicken Day and lots of laughs.

Guess what everyone? I have nothing to write about.

Im A New Breed Of Cool.
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smash apart what you created. [Monday: September 6th, 2004 @ 12:09pm]
so summer is over.
tomorrow is school.
I only have one thing left to do before my summer is over. Climb the Cornwall Water Tower. That is in my plans for this evening. Then I have completed my summer.
I have done alot this summer. When I look back really fast, I havent really done anything. But when I actually sit down and think about it, I did alot. I had alot of fun.
<3
my summer in a nutshellCollapse )

yup.
so in closing I would like to say.

so long sweet summer
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you can go. just take me with you. [Thursday: September 2nd, 2004 @ 10:53pm]
so apparently I have alot of things to think about. Im pretty sure Im done trying to be what everyone wants me to be. I cant be what everyone wants. Because what everyonme wants is different. Im done trying to be perfect. I cant be obviously and thats not good enough for you. I guess I dont treat my friends the way you want me to treat them. Ever hear the phrase "treat others the way youd like to be treated". Maybe thats the answer to all of your problems right there. Maybe if you treated me like you wanted me to treat you, then we would have any problems. I know that I lie to you constanly. But has it ever ocurred to you why I lie? Maybe if you didnt pick me apart with every little thing that I do, then I wouldnt have to lie to you. Maybe if I could make one choice without you being mad at me, then I wouldnt have to lie. Im always scared that youll be mad at me. Im never going to be perfect enough for you. Ever. And that couldnt bother you any more. If Im not as great as you, then I guess theres no point in being my friend is there?. I guess I treat my friends like shit. I might treat you like shit, but I dont treat other people like shit. Maybe if you didnt treat my like crap, then it wouldnt come full circle. I guess I have alot of crap that comes along with me too. I barely give you any crap and you know it. I barely ever hang out with you anymore. Whys that? Because I make stupid choices, I lie and you dont like the person that I am.
To you, theres more bad things to me then good. I dont know about that. Im pretty sure that Im awesome and you just cant see it. You cant stand the fact that Im friends with him. Well guess what? GET USED TO IT!!. Cuz Im pretty sure hes been more of a friend in the last three days then you have ever been.
Who was there for you while you cried for three hours straight?
Who was there for you when you failed English and wanted to go kick the shit out of that fucker?
Who was there, to hug you and give you dry clothes and a place to sleep after you jumped into the harbour when you were drunk?
I WAS.
theres a horrible friend RIGHT THERE. sarcasm in case you didnt notice.

I dont know.
I guess we were never meant to be friends. You cant stand the person that I am. And I guess since the world revolves around you, then thats the way it has to be.

Just to let you know.
Im extreamly sad and I do love you.

PS. I do love you.
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take my hand and never let me go.... [Thursday: September 2nd, 2004 @ 9:04pm]
Excuse me while I fall apart. Dont flatter yourself, sweetheart.

So.
Im leaving for Grand Manan at six am. Grand Manan is a little island off the coast of New Bruswick, past St John. It takes five and half hours to get there. Grr. I dont want to go.
Thanks to Kaley though, I now have a dress for the wedding that I dont want to go to. It should be easy to dance in, at the dance that the couple isnt having. My cousin is gettin' hitched. Nice Christian wedding....snore.
I havent even packed yet.
These are the things I have and dont have packed.

- clothes.
- bathing suit.
- dress.
- makeup and such.
+ music, diskman and extra batteries.

Alright. So I only have the music part down. Like I said. It takes and hour and a half to get there. I need something, other then sleeping, to do.
I hope its a remotely fun trip. I know that when I get back I get to go to the drive in. I hope Im not to pooped for that.

I was in a horrible mood today. Really bad. I was upset because its the last weekend of the summer and Im not going to be here. I have to spend it with my family. I know that sounds horrible and mean, but Id really like to spend it with my friends. But I got an awesome phone call from Aaron, telling me he wishes that I have a good trip and that they will miss me and stuff. I suddenly got into a good mood. I love it when people care about me as much as I care about them. Thanks Guys !!.

Monday I am going to hang out with Sara. I was supposed to yesterday, but I was hitchiking to Souris and back. Eek. But It should be fun.

School on Tuesday or Wednesday.
Better not be Tueday. Grr.
Anyways. Better get to packing.

I am Vindicated.
I am selfish.
I am wrong.
I am right.
I swear I'm right.
I swear I knew it all along.
And I am flawed .
But I am cleaning up so well.
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself.
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[Thursday: September 2nd, 2004 @ 12:42pm]
The Ultimate Kissing Survey

Age of first kiss: I really cant remember.

Number of people you've kissed: I can count on two hands.

French kissing is: hot when its with the right person.

The worst kind of kiss is: bad breath ones.

The best kisser you know: Im not at liberty to say.

The worst kisser you know: that guy on the beach.

The celebrity you'd like to kiss: Lindsey Lohan!! holy hot!

Friend you would like to kiss: Im not sure I want to say.

Favorite movie kiss: uh...Im really not sure.

Do you kiss on the first date? Ive never had a date

Eyes open or closed? I kiss with my eyes closed at first. but then I open them to look at the person.

Average number of kisses you get a day: I get a kiss from my mom everyday. But other then that it depends.

Ever kissed a friend's boyfriend or girlfriend? yes.

The last person you kissed: I cant say.

Best placed to be kissed:

Have you kissed someone of the same sex? Yes

What about the opposite sex? Yes.

Do you consider kissing cheating? No.

The longest you've gone without a kiss: Im not really sure.

The kiss you regret most is: That guy on the beach. GROSS

Kissing in public is: ok as long as you cant see their tounges or what have you.

Tongue rings are: I have one, so hot.

Two girls kissing is: HOT

Two guys kissing is: HOT


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dont scare a person with knives.... [Thursday: September 2nd, 2004 @ 12:03am]
[ mood | REALLY HAPPY ]

Im pretty sure I just had the best two days ever.
Best last Chicken day also.

Aaron and Ashley came over yesterday (Tuesday). Then we walked to Macdonalds. Had Chickens. They were awesomely good. Then they surprised me and said that we were going hitch-hiking. Thats something that Ive wanted to do all summer. So we walked up the Ave. It started to effing downpour. It was great though. Then Roger picked us up and drove us as far as he could because he had to work. Then we walked a little more and got picked up by a very nice man. He drove us to North Rustico. Then we walked up this big huge hill, and this kind elderly woman picked us up, and drove us to Cavendish Boardwalk. It was alot of fun. At this point we still had to get home before seven. Its about six-ten. So we started our journay. To our luck, we found someone who was going RIGHT to Charlottetown. So that was awesome. Aaron and Ash missed theyre drive back out to Savage Harbour, so we all went to Aarons house and slept the night there. It was alot of fun. We made KD and talked till like 2.
In the morning we woke up at lunch time and then we sat and talked and stuff till around 2. Aaron all of a sudden goes "Lets hitch - hike to Souris." and we agreed. The reason we went all the way to Souris, is because they have the best fries in the whole intire world. So in about four drives, and four hours, we finally made it to Souris. Then we had to get back *tear*. We made it back to Savage Harbour in about three drives in three hours. Aaron and Ash then preceeded to drive me home. Which is where I would be now.
I had so much fun in the last two days it could make up for my entire summer. I finally have something to talk about when someone says "How was your summer". I still have to go to my cousins wedding this weekend in some Island off the coast of New Bruswick. Its going to take five and a half hours to get there, which I dont want to do. GAH. But I MIGHT have fun. I know that when I get back, Im going to the drive in, so I will have fun there.
Anyways.
Im so done.
Feet hurt.

PS. NEVER EVER scare a person with knives.

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[Monday: August 30th, 2004 @ 2:34pm]
[ mood | ehhh ]

ok. Ive had enough of this fucking bullshit.
Dear Darlene........Collapse )
Now that I have that out of the way.

Im at my grandmothers house. Waiting for her to get home so that she can take me shopping. Im so excited. I love her.
I love alot of people right now. Im in a good mood. I wish that I wasnt going away this weekend. I wish that I was going camping with my friends. I hope that I get to go to Basin Head before school starts.
EEEE !! School. Im really excited.
I have to go now though.
xoxox.

Ps. I love stuff.

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