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[21 Oct 2006|11:06am]
So Ryan and I broke up last week. No big drama or anything.

I haven't talked to him since. After about 1 week, I emailed him. Then I sent him a text 2 days later. When he didn't respond to that, I changed the status on Facebook to "We aren't speaking", and he confirmed that.
When I told Kalen, she started laughing. And then I was laughing too, because it is funny. Funny in a sad way.

It sucks because I wanted to still be friends, but if that's how its going to be then fine. I can't get myself hung up on stuff like that.


In other "news", last weekend was fun. I went to Monterey with James and his friends. James and I took a drunken adventure down to the beach, and I have scrapes to prove it. We didn't get very far in our adventure, but it was fun.
Being drunk is fun. Adventures are fun. Put the two together and it's super fun.

I've been spending a lot of time with him. I definitely like him, but I just feel like I'm supposed to be single for a while before I start a new relationship. I guess what I need to do is just enjoy life and take things as they come.
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Lets try this again... [05 Oct 2006|12:00pm]
I haven't used this (or any journal) in a long time, but I kinda want to again.

So I'm at Cal Poly (SLO). I'm still adjusting, but I'm enjoying life.
Classes are fine. Kinda boring at times. And I suck at Calculus. I think it's going to kill me. If I suddenly stop writing, contact the police and let them know that Calculus murdered me.

I've made a bunch of friends in my building. There's the guys in the room next to me (Dom, (surfer) Will, and Evan. On the other side of the building there's Scott and Brent. Then there's Amy, who I share a bathroom with, and Alli, who lives upstairs. Then there's Jordan and James (who went to St. Francis). There's also Garth, who I have speech class with. There's also AJ, and a few other guys I don't know too well. I will try to get pictures soon.

There's definitely a few cute guys in my building, and they all seem nice.

I miss home a bit too. I miss my family and my bed. I miss my old friends.

Ryan and I decided to have an open relationship. I haven't talked to him since (2 days?). He called me, but my phone is stuck on vibrate, so I just got a message.


Everything's just a bit weird right now.
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[25 Dec 2005|12:52am]
It's been a sucky Christmas.
I spent half the evening sleeping.
I can't eat anything. I feel sick. I can't even enjoy the chilli or tamales.
Someone asked me "Where is that handsome boy?" refering to Ryan.
My dad asked me to bring in the santa gifts while he was changing Lucas. I said no, and I swear I heard him say "fuck you"
I can't do it. I'm not ready. All the magic of Christmas is being taken away. Even though I know that santa is my parents, it's an awesome feeling when I see all the santa gifts. And being the one to put them there would ruin that.

Why does everyone want to ruin Christmas for me?
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Friends Only [30 Nov 2005|09:36pm]
I've decided to make my journal friends only. I need this as a place I feel safe to say what I feel, and I can't do that if I don't know who's reading it.
So if you care to know what goes through my head, leave me a comment, and I'll probably add you.
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Hey Sexy Lady... [14 Jul 2004|08:58pm]
[ mood | my throat hurts ]

Okie doke. Last night, I couldn't sleep, so I was bugging Ashley. She was laughing and talking loud and Liz and Gisella kept coming in telling us to be quiet. Finally, I decided to stop and then I was bored and couldn't sleep, so I decided to text David. I ended up getting on my computer to talk to him more. He sent me some pictures of him. The famous "Tuna Boy" AKA David...Collapse )

Today, we went to California Adventure with my Italian cousin, Gisella. It was pretty fun. The longest line was about 30 minutes. I went on the Tower of Terror. I was laughing the whole ride. lol. We left by 6. I was ready to leave by about 4. I'm so not a Disney theme park person, being spoiled with Michelle's KABCness.

It's funny sortta. I hadn't talked to David on AIM before, but now that we chatted last night, he IMs me like almost as soon as I get on from being "away." I don't mind that, I just don't have much to say and I don't want dead IM time. You know... that akward "silence."

Yeah, well, I'm bored.
Oh anybody know if CDs from here work in CD players from other countries? Cause DVDs from here won't work in Europe and stuff... different coding or something.

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Out of controoooool! [14 Jul 2004|09:13am]
Hey. I dunno if I mentioned my I_climb_trees journal, but yeah. I have another public journal.
I've been doing not much. Went to Soak City on Monday. That place is so small and I burnt my feet. Yesterday I got a Slurpee. Today, I'm going to California Adventure. My cousin from Italy is here and it's cool. I'll update more later.
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Crazy Coke Addict [09 Jul 2004|12:23pm]
I'm so weird. I poured myself a glass of Diet Coke and I think to myself How can this really have 0 calories?? I decide to look it up on the internet. Well it actually has less than half a calorie per 100 mL, but it does have some calories. FDA regulations say it has to have less than 5 calories per serving to be considered 0 calories. blah blah blah. Well then somehow I end up on a site talking about how Diet Coke does all this bad stuff to you and it's making everybody sick and die. blah blah blah. So I read through that for a bit and all the "official" people say it's completely safe. Why wouldn't they? They get more money if it's "safe." But so I don't know what I believe. Oh and they said that Diet Coke actually makes you gain weight blah blah blah.
So I read all this and take a sip of my Diet Coke. It tastes so good.
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[09 Jul 2004|12:00am]
[ mood | hyper ]

Hi I'm happy. Guess who called. Yes. That's all. I'm happy. And hyper. And Ashley is here. And we're so totaly cool. Yep. I've been crazy like all night. Ashley and me want ADHD.

Oh P.S. It's amazing how one little action can make someone feel a gazzilion times better. So go that extra step. You might just save someone from a horrible fate with some tiny gesture.

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Beliefs [19 Mar 2004|07:26am]
I feel like writing about my religious stuff right now.
I was baptized Christian. When I was younger, I went to church almost every Sunday with my grandma. I went to a camp with that Church once (or maybe it was twice). I went to a Christian school from 4th-8th grade. Now I'm going to a Catholic high school.

I have met a lot of 'Christians' who don't act very Christ-like. For one, at that camp I went to, I was sad cuz I hadn't gotten any mail from my mom. One of the girls said something like "Maybe it's because she doesn't love you" in a bitchy voice. I don't think I was even 10 at the time.
And at that 'Christian' school I went to, there was a lot of things that people did things that I don't think would be considered Christian. And it wasn't just the students. I found out recently that just before I started there, the P.E. coach molested two boys there. Instead of firing him and letting people know what happened, they asked him to retire and dedicated the fucking yearbook to him!!
I also had teachers there who told us about how Catholic's weren't Christian. There was a lot of stuff that went on there.
There's a lot of people who make a big deal about the fact that they're Christian, but then they are the biggest hypocrites. They preach about how we should do this and that and then go do the total opposite.

All of those things make me not want to be considered a Christian. I don't want to be associated with people like that. I know I'm not perfect and no body is, but some of those people would act like they were above everyone else because they believe in Jesus... How fucking amazing. Cuz you know, it takes a really special person to believe something.


The only religious type thing I can say I truely believe is fate. If something was meant to happen it will. And everything happens for reason. Every person I will meet in my life has some purpose in my life. Everyone will affect who I am. There's no one I will meet in life 'accidentaly'. And every event has a purpose too. There's no escaping fate.

So with TJ, there was a reason I met him and a reason I've known him so long. There was a reason we broke up. And if it's meant to be for us to be together longer, it will happen. I don't know what my future holds, but I really hope TJ will be there.
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My promises [17 Mar 2004|03:52pm]
I wont...
Lie.even about small things ("A relationship based on lies and deciet is doomed to fail"-Lex on Smallville)
Be lied to.
Intentionally cause pain because I've been hurt. ("Don't do damage"-Dad)
Play mind games.
Ignore my friends for a guy.
Be abused. (emotionally, physicaly, etc)
Hide my feelings.
Be ignored.
Do something I dont want to do.
Tell everyone everything. (I might tell everyone something or someone everything though)
Keep secrets. (Ask and I will tell)

I'll add more as I come up with them, but thats all I can think of for now.
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[28 Jan 2004|10:49pm]
I'm gunna own my own private island. It's gunna be an oval shape so the sun rises on one side and sets on the other. My house will be on the sun set side with huge like the side almost all windows so the sunlight from the sunset shines in. And you'll be able to go out on the beach there. Oh yeah... it will be a sandy beach, not rocky.
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with a taste of your lips I'm on a ride... [14 Jan 2004|11:33pm]
[ mood | hyperish ]

hi I remembered that last week, I was at my sister's school to pick her up and some little girl came up to me and was like "I like your necklace" and I said thanks and that was it.

Today was boring again. I can't wait till Saturday. Katie's getting her tounge pierced Friday, I'm going out with Chirstine Friday, driving class Saturday, TJ, Kalen & Brian, and Loryn & Marc Saturday, Sleepover to gossip about the boys, Brunch for my sister's birthday Sunday, and the rest I dunno. Oh and somewhere in there, I'm gunna sleep.


surveysCollapse )

I talked to Brian for thie first time one on one...Collapse )

Today, we talked about vagina piercings. How exciting. And we were arguing about them. And Katie's getting her tounge pierced Friday I think.

Oh yea. Mrs Hoy's class was so boring. I read a magazine and was still bored cuz I finished it so I tried to sortta sleep. I dunno if she realizes how boring her class is. How sad. And Kalen and I texted all day and I sent like 20 messages during Spanish class. Fun.

Kalen and I were post whoring and she embarassed me. sortta. not really.

Yea well my padre keeps looking at me and its like 11 30 so I should get going to bed. I'll try to update again tomorrow. Night!

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today is.... [14 Jan 2004|12:04am]
[ mood | excited. ]

...4 months since me and TJ met. Isn't that so cool? I'm happy!

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[13 Jan 2004|11:58pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

look at this tree...
tree

It broke. Last night. My dad thought it was an earthquake. I didn't know anything happened till he showed me this morning. Then Ellen, our neighbor came over and was asking what happened cuz she heard the noise too. So yea. I found out that we're probably gunna have to have the whole tree removed because its rotting out. =/ This tree has to be atleast a hundred years old and thats under exagerating it. I remember when we moved in over 6 years ago, we tried to hold hands in a circle around the tree and with three people, we couldn't reach all the way around.



tree fungus
the disease in the tree.
birdbath
it fell so hard it pushed the birdbath straight down instead of off to the side. notice how it broke.

so yea. besides that whole thing life has been pretty boring. Kalen has a date with Brian Saturday. We talked about getting eaten out at lunch today. I met Veronica today. Me and Kalen met her in Old Town. That was fun. Kalen has pictures.

perfect guy surveyCollapse )
Oh yea and that reminds me of what we did in religion. We talked about the perfect husband and stuff. I wanna write down everything I thought of in here. hehe.

look! They sleep!
See everybody? It's Kalen and Loryn, sleeping in my bed.


oh yea these are funny...
How to be funny
How to be romantic
How to be persuasive

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[11 Jan 2004|03:31pm]
ok last night me and Kalen and Loryn went to Old Town. We arrived at like 8. So we bought tickets to Chasing Liberty and then went to Hot Wings to eat. Kalen ordered in a British accent and Loryn was laughing. We played the Mexican Name Game and Kalen screwed it up. Ok so like each person gets a name and one has to be Arted. So basicaly, you do a clapping thing, and go in a circle and say iif and your mexican name. Kalen was Arted but she said Artez then she said I Arted. =/ Its supposed to sound like I Farted and you're like yelling it so its funny.
The lady took forever to get us our check. Then we walked back to the theater. We were scared that it'd be full, but it wasn't. We ran to the back of the theater and sat down. I was like "Let's go in the back row so we can make out!!" And then we sat down and I like put my arm around Loryn and yea. Kalen went to the bathroom and bought us snacks. I got Red Vines. Yup.
So yea. The movie was good. Kalen loves the guy. I don't know why. There's nothing special about his face and his body isn't that special either. Oh yea TJ called when we were in the movie, but I didn't get to talk to him. Fuck, I've barely talked to him for the last three weeks and its no good. I don't like it at all. Yea um... here's Kalen's song to Raul.

Whoa oh oh
Ooh hooh
No No No

See I dont, know why,
I liked you so much
I gave you all, of my trust
I told you, I loved you,
Now thats all down the drain
Ya put me through pain,
I wanna let you know that I feel

Fuck what I said, it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents, might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you ho, I dont want you back

Fuck what I said, it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents, might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you ho, I dont want you back

You thought, you could
Keep this shit from me, yeah
Ya burnt bitch, I heard the story
Ya played me, ya even gave him head
Now ya askin for me back
Ya just another hag,
Look elsewhere
Cuz ya done with E

Fuck what I said, it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents, might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you ho, I dont want you back

Fuck what I said, it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents, might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you ho, I dont want you back

Oh-oh, oh-oh, uh-huh yeah
Oh-oh, oh-oh, uh-huh yeah
Oh-oh, oh-oh, uh-huh yeah
Oh-oh, oh-oh, uh-huh yeah

You questioned, did I care
You could ask anyone,
I even said you were my great one
Now its, over,
But I do admit I'm sad
It hurt real bad,
I cant sweat that, cuz I loved a ho

Fuck what I said, it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents, might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, it didnt mean jack
Fuck you, you ho, I dont want you back

Oh-oh, oh-oh, uh-huh yeah
Oh-oh, oh-oh, uh-huh yeah
Oh-oh, oh-oh, uh-huh yeah
Oh-oh, oh-oh, uh-huh yeah
Oh-oh, oh-oh, uh-huh yeah
Oh-oh, oh-oh, uh-huh yeah
Oh-oh, oh-oh, uh-huh yeah
Oh-oh, oh-oh, uh-huh yeah
Oh-oh, oh-oh, uh-huh yeah
Oh-oh, oh-oh, uh-huh yeah
Oh-oh, oh-oh, uh-huh yeah

~Eamon


Yea well Kalen and Loryn are gone now. They had to go to do something for school. Some family people are over. I dunno quite how they're realted, but whatever. I'm gunna make a new LJ later cuz I want one for like feelings and things like what I'm gunna do when I'm a parent (I think of that alot).

I love my British accent.

Oh and I somehow got into these pro annorexia communites and I'm like awww how sad. These girls are so obsessed with their weight and what can I do to help them. I remember being 'anorexic' for like 3 days once. It involves so much thought about food and its no good. Its not healthy.
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i dunno [07 Jan 2004|10:31pm]
[ mood | full bladered ]

Hey so um what have I done the last few days? Basicaly, it was boring.

On Monday, I got in trouble cuz I forgot to check into my study hall. I didn't really forget, I just didn't go. I've gone to study hall about twice this year, and never had a problem before. I was lucky cuz I had a good excuse. I was working on my project for English. Mrs Fanara was like well so and so checked in, why didn't you? I was like I was so busy getting the stuff together that I forgot to go check in. So yea.
And then I was up till 1 AM writing a paper on some dead guy and then I couldn't sleep cuz I was thinking. I set my alarm for 5 so I could have time to finish it in the morning. At 7, my dad came in my room and I wasn't happy. It turns out my clock was off by 12 hours. I worked on the paper and printed it out around 8 30. By the time I got there, I was like an hour late. And I couldn't find my class cuz they were in the library. We were getting our PSAT scores back. I'll write about that tomorrow.
Today we had our extended lunch with a DJ thing. it basicaly sucked. The DJ was basiacly a guy with turntables and disks. And then I went with my dad to Whole Foods and we ended up buying stuff to make Fetuchinne Alfredo. It came out pretty good, but they don't sell Coke there and it sucks. I watched the OC. I like Seth (still). Now I hafta pee and sleep. Night!

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Stollen from Loryn. pinkrazi [06 Jan 2004|01:10am]
[ mood | really, really tired ]

.FIRSTS.
First best friend: Sarah Orton i think
First car: none. I'm a lame ass. turning 16 in 5 months and still no permit
First date: Kyle. Last year. prob late Sept or early Oct.
First real kiss: I think like Dec-ish last year. Jon =/
First break-up: Scott? thats not a 'real' break up though. it was 5th grade ok?
First screen name: blackzip
First self purchased album: no idea. probly Nsync
First funeral: my great grandpa. I was like 4
First pets: Mickey and Minnie, my goldfish
First piercing/tattoo: i had my ears pierced but they closed. that was like 5th or 6th grade.
First true love: You know.... I could write like an essay for this question and still say nothing. It seems like a question that you can't really know until something happened to that 'true love' so for now I'm just gunna skip it. I think you'd either hafta be married or that person like died to really know someone is your true love.
First enemy: Jasmine? She couldn't hang out with me cuz "I made her not eat" WTF?!
First big trip: What counts as a 'big trip'? I flew to Minnasota alone when I was like 6.
First musician you remember hearing in your house: That song...."I'm a bitch, I'm a lover. I'm a child, I'm a mother. I'm a sinner, I'm a saint..."

.LASTS.
Last cigarette: NEVER
Last car ride: Home from getting books and microsoft works or something
Last kiss: any kiss was like today. boyfriend kiss was like 2 weeks ago i think
Last good cry: i dunno
Last library book checked out: actually that was today!! but before that, it was like 1998! I'm so serious. And it was never returned.
Last movie seen: Something's Gotta Give
Last beverage drank: Pepsi
Last food consumed: part of a Chocolate Orange
Last crush: I always hate that word. It full on started last night. Jeremy Sumpter.
Last phone call: TJ called me at 10:14:42 PM and we talked for 12 min, 27 sec.
Last time showered: this morning
Last shoes worn: my white kswiss for school
Last cd played: No Doubt Hits CD
Last item bought: a cup of noodle soup and a coke
Last annoyance: stupid history paper
Last disappointment: christmas
Last time wanting to die: ive never seriously wanted to die
Last time scolded: huh? i dont get scolded
Last shirt worn: my boys size large undershirt and my school blouse
Last website visited: LJ.

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[04 Jan 2004|10:06pm]
ehhhh ok. Yesterday me n Kalen saw Something's Gotta Give. They showed Jack Nicholson's butt and they showed the old lady completely naked. ew. It was really long. My mom got mad.
Today we tried to make copies of my winter formal pics, but we couldn't then we went to Target and I bought Kelis, Fefe Dobson, and No Doubt.
Then I went home. I got an icon from Kalen for my LJ and I'm gunna make a Peter Pan layout. My dad's making me go to bed now so I'm gunna go. I have my winter formal pic to post, but I needa upload it and I forgot the password so I'll deal with that tomorrow after I finish my 5-7 page paper at the last minute. Goondight. Oh and Jeremy Sumpter is perty.
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[03 Jan 2004|05:47pm]

Fuck you LJ. Yea I haven't been on here really for so long. I updated like twice, but never read anyone else's LJ. I did that today. I'm too lazy to comment now, but oh well.

So yea. It's been 2 weeks since I've seen TJ and 8 days since I talked to him. =/ Its a good thing I have Kalen to entertain me and my newest friend, Loryn (pinkrazi). Yea this whole week has been interesting. I'll tell you about it.

Friday... went to Old Town with Kalen. She decided she wanted to tag along with me and TJ on Saturday

Saturday... TJ called. His mom said he couldn't go out cuz he was sick and had to get up early and whatever. Kalen and me went to Paseo. Peter Pan was sold out and it was cold and crowded so we decided to go bowling. Yea we saw Loryn and Marc there and Kalen asked for the lane next to them. Then we went to Islands and there was absolutely NO wait on a Saturday night. and we got the 4 person booth. And thats were Kalen called Sara. She called her pretending to be a police person. She said that her (Sara's) parents had been in a car accident. Then Kalen called her back saying she was kidding and blah blah blah. Then Sara texted me.
Sara: That wasnt cool.my friend died in a car accident earlier this year. even ask tj. i never said anything like that to you.
Me: What are you talking about?
Sara: Ask ur stupid friend
Me: Im sorry, i dont have any stupid friends so i dont know what your talking about
Sara: Try the one who just called me sayng that my parents got in a car crash
Me: They did?!? Im so sorry. I hope they're ok. I was in a car accident once. We got a little dent in the bumper.
Sara: It was a prank and it wasnt funny at all
Me: Oooh a prank! Like those times you called me?
Sara: Yah but i never said anything mean to you
Me: I never said anything mean to you either
Sara: Your friend said my parents like died!!!
Me: They like died?!? Was it like a near like death experience? Like wow!
Sara: U bitch
Yea wasn't that nice? I ended up spending the night at Kalen's so I couldn't get signal to text her back. We hung out and watched Cruel Intentions. It was good

Monday... went to my dad's. Straightened Daniella and Ashley's hair. That took like all day. Then we went to Islands and went bowling.

Tuesday... I forgot. I was at my dad's though till like 4. Then I went back to my moms.

Wednesday... about 7, I went to Kalen's. Then we went to the Kikorian and pissed off everyone watching Peter Pan cuz we were late and we went to sit by Marc and Loryn. Then we went to Loryn's house. Then Subway. Then 'snuck' into my dad's house. Then went back to Loryn's. We sat four of us on her twin bed in the dark with her brother being annoying outside the door. Then we watched Finding Nemo and I fell asleep before the fish met Dory.

Thursday... We woke up. Put on makeup. got 'food' at Jamba Juice. Drove down Colorado Blvd. It was SOOOOO messy. Then we went back to Loryn's and played Crazy Taxi and James Bond and took weird pictures (see Kalen's LJ sweet_rebelion_). We were really bored. Then Kalen's mom picked us up at 5 and took me home.

Friday... Went to Paseo with Kalen and Loryn. I saw some people that know TJ. We had fun.

Saturday... Did homework. and now I'm about to leave to meet Kalen at Paseo. Loryn was supposed to come too but Kalne said she hasta go to dinner with her dad or something. Atleast I'm not seeing TJ cuz then it'd be weird cuz she'd have no one to occupy her. I wanna see him tho. =/

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[02 Jan 2004|08:43pm]
hi! lookie me! i'm on lj! hehe!

I'm at the IMAC store in old town with Kalen and Loryn. Yea. We're just hangin out.

Yesterday was New Years Day. And the day before was New Years Eve!! Cuz you know, not everybody knew that. Yea me and Kalen met Loryn and Marc at the Kikorian where we saw Peter Pan (second time for me). We slept over at Loryn's house and had fun. I don't have time to go into detail right now so i'll do it laters. Bye!!
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