getting ready to finally take a break and read last night when i discovered it was 3AM... had to wake up at 8:30 instead of 7:30.
all in a day's work. or play.
stayed cooped up over the last few days, plan on being in here until thursday night. house sitting for my brother in laws mother while her husband and her are in New Jersey. easy way to make 200 dollars. you know how money easily made is money easily lost? well it's true... have to pay back my sister, buy cigarettes, and not touch the rest until the week of my birthday in july, the whole of the athens friends, close and extended will be renting a house on some beach in florida, i forgot where... basicly every thing else i make will also be saved for the trip. nothing to show for it but memories and a few good hang over's.
the house i am watching now is located in downtown Winder, it's a certified historical site, but very clean on the inside... I keep making up my own history of the house, who lived here, what happened to them, why they had to move, how they passed on, that kind of thing. so i've turned this cold and somewhat dreary old home, into this full bloom nest of probably every book i've read rolled into a history of wild random events. it helps the boredom.
basicly, it would probably be beneficial to be dating at this point. not that i have been against it before... but, i want to meet a guy i havent
already met 20 times before. but that's probably not very fair...
"i want one-uh them readers, that's what i want!"
and then i'll have to, try to, you know, keep my excitement really under control... I have this tendency to see a speck of intellectual spark in someone and think "fuck, i would give you anything you want on demand if you would just talk to me about something halfway impressive."
and then i get kind of grossed out by my self, and cool it, but by that time, it's like. where did they go? 'cause i spent too much time thinking and checking my actions, then enough time actually being present and in the moment... perhaps it is immaturity?
all i know is what i want out of life so far, and that is to one day be very old, moderately wise, passionately in love, still being able to have good old earth shattering orgasms and if i can swing doing this (www.primitivism.com/nothing.htm) for at least a year...
well, you know.