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[27 Oct 2011|05:57pm]
knitandtonics.blogspot.com

new blog to chronicle my crafting and artsy things. enough with this emo stuff yeah? agreed. :)

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[10 Aug 2011|11:15pm]
i just want something, anything, to be excited about like i used to be. i feel like im just, floating. when people ask me how life is or whats new i say "eh, nothing. life is life." i am blah.
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[07 Jul 2011|04:17pm]
a simple, beautiful night with people who love me and understand me. one of those moments i wish i could bottle up and save for when life is too much to handle. i had the most wonderful birthday.
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[10 Jun 2011|03:07pm]
convo between sam & i about mumford. you can guess which one i am.

"ohh the piano player is cute!"
"you're kind of cute? or our kind of cute?"
"what does that mean?!"
"you know.. tight pants, crazy hair, just came from the art gallery, tattoos..."
"ha yeah.."
"a beard.."
"ok youre right."
"oh and a beanie."
".... i hate you."
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[24 May 2011|05:45pm]
so tired of flakey people. id rather just be home by myself.
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[02 May 2011|07:36pm]
ive been taking this herbal supplement thats supposed to minimize pms but its not helping! i feel like a crazy person.
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[21 Apr 2011|05:30pm]
i want to name my daughters harley & lyric. not sure about boys yet. i share purely because i am bored. i have no desire to have children anytime soon.
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[09 Apr 2011|07:55pm]
"... it's not long before a strange sensation begins to wash over me. Warm and unexpected, it's unlike anything I've ever felt before, and yet familiar somehow, like something I experienced without really knowing it. Yet how can that be?

Then it occurs to me; I am experiencing peace. A quiet yet substantial peace. And I believe it's coming from God. Part of me wants to grab hold of it and cling tightly, but I have a feeling it will vanish like a vapor if I do. And so I just sit there and breathe it in, hoping it will simply become a part of me."
-Finding Alice, Melody Carlson

If you want to get some insight into the mind of a schizophrenic read this book. I just finished it. its heart breaking and beautiful but an easy read. Really it reminds me of some of the people I work with on a daily basis that refuse to eat or take meds sometimes because of their illness. so good.
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[03 Apr 2011|08:50pm]
last summer we were in oc, at seacrets. my aunt said "Sarah, I dont even know what your type is. look around here and tell me who youd go on a date with." apparently i scanned the entire bar/club, then pointed to the guy behind the bar with tats & a mohawk. i said "id go out with him. he looks like he'd be interesting to get to know." i dont remember this but its true. i like to keep things interesting.
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[03 Feb 2011|08:54pm]
do you know how happy you make me?! my god im so happy.
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[26 Jan 2011|08:30pm]
just found a walmart giftcard which i used to buy britney spears. & a few other choice childhood jams. :)
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[28 Dec 2010|06:04pm]
i need someone to just, tell me what to do.
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[07 Dec 2010|03:22pm]

i cant remember the last time i had a dream that woke me up so terrified i didnt want to go back to sleep because i was scared i would see what i dreamt again. seriously, i woke up at 430 (30 mins before i usually wake up) and all i wanted to do was be cuddled & hugged i was so upset. it was kind of crazy and even thinking of it now makes me upset!

so i went to atlantic city this weekend. overall it was a lot of fun! One of my oldest friends asked me to go to formal as his date. with a free trip to a city, delicious food, beverages, a limo & a little gambling who would say no?! there was def some drama, including kicking our door in because our friend locked us out. let me just say, the locks on hotel doors? they dont do crap if you really wanna keep someone out.. im pretty sure its the most angry ive ever been in my life. but im an optimist so i think overall i had a good time :)

&on the way home we listened to rave music the whole time we were in jersey. keepin it classy.

alsoo i figured out what tasty treats im making my friends for christmas. i am SO excited. i really think the do it yourself lifestyle is for me. id much rather take the time to make things myself than buy them! so who wants some delicious treats?! thursday ill be home all day baking & creating & decorating a tree for a work decorating contest. i cant wait to just have the house to myself and the day to do whatever i want! ill have christmas vinyl & cds on repeat. or at least for an hour or two (im not a big christmas music person.)

also i really want to learn to make patterns so i can make this scarf :


happy holidays friends!
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[15 Nov 2010|04:46pm]


its crazy how the issues you face when you enter adulthood become so much more intense. i thought having my boyfriend cheat on me and stupid roommate fights and getting C's on exams were the most dramatic things. now just a few years later im trying to face and support my friends through divorce, alcoholism, pregnancy vs. abortion, unemployment, life altering surgery, suicide, marital difficulties. its just amazing how you think life is so hard or dramatic, until you hit this. and i truly think that these life struggles are the most intense & serious of my life. it makes me question my own morals and forces me to love on people despite the most fundamental differences in our beliefs. my heart breaks for these people.

i dont even know how else to say it. my heart breaks.
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[11 Oct 2010|03:29pm]
i love cuddling, and cat naps, and hockey, and fall. jusss sayin
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[01 Oct 2010|07:21pm]
applying for jobs online and phone interviews oomg ridiculous. i was in heels in the rain and i fell mid sentence. im sure i made a great first impression hahah aaahhh frustrating.
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[01 Jul 2010|03:03pm]
theres more to life than parties. i want to better myself and really laugh like i used to.
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[09 Jun 2010|01:11am]
i am ready to be humbled and heart broken. bring it oooon india.
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[29 May 2010|08:45pm]
so my friends are all working and i started watching the stanley cup finals without them but realized that wouldnt be fun cause then ill be rewatching it in an hour. soo i had to force myself to come upstairs and decided to try to reorganize my room. in the process i found this book that i wrote in i think 9th grade. theres a page that says to list anything that comes to your mind that you dislike and this is what i wrote:

hot weather, rap, school, cussing, Limp Biskit, wannabes, snobby preps, spinach, raisins, boring books, spanish, mr. rose, shorts, my legs, Britney Spears, bees, mosquitos, orange, yellow, grapefruit, soda, cookie crisps cereal

yeah im not sure WHAT i was thinking. this is what i spontaneously said i liked:

a bug's life, thunderstorms, blue, purple, my new blue reeboks, candles, lavender, afghans, spring, Jon (my boyfriend at the time haha), Charlies Angels, American Eagle Outfitters, church, clarinet, science, butterflies, Hawaii, New Orleans, cross stitch, crochet, painting, writing, reading, rock, snow, swimming, Elmo, Buzz Lightyear, hot chocolate, Jesus Christ

ahaha i am so different now. also why is jesus last? so wrong of me.

this makes me want to go out and buy a new one to fill out for me to look back on in 10 more years.
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[20 May 2010|11:21pm]
it never gets easier growing apart from people but its part of life. why is it im the only one that can seem to understand that? i refuse to feel guilty when any relationship is a two way street. but i look like such a jerk because im realistic about things. its sad i suppose but such is life. you cant change it so why get upset? i am grateful for any amount of time i have with my friends but in the long run theres so few we will stay close to . lets be real here.

ps i splurged and bought myself a new camera for india which is TWO WEEKS AWAY GAHHHH
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