||[Mar. 4th, 2007|11:45 am]
I went into it pretty excited and a little nervous, because I didn't really know what all we would be doing.
Thursday, got up at 530 so I could be there by 630 (I'm slow...don't you know this?). Right before I was getting on the bus Caleb goes "where's your sleeping bag?" ... awesome.. still in my car with my dad, now at home.. Anyway. Bus ride there we were pretty much not too talkative, tired..etc.
We got there, met our groups, went to our sleeping cabins. I set all my stuff down and we were all talking to each other, and I asked the cabin if anyone had any extra blankets or anything I could use since I forgot my sleeping bag, and this girl, Ashley, the leader of All-American, who I had never met before, was like "don't worry! you can use my sleeping bag!" This girl, I knew for five minutes, was willing to give up her comfort for mine? Wow.
We had a speaker, and he talked about the Ripple Effect. How everyone is effected by the ripple effect, how it can be positive or negative and how more often than not it's negative. But then he went on to say that we control the ripple effect, that we can stop a negative ripple effect or change it into a positive one. A really cool concept, one that I def. plan on using.
We went through all our different activities, got closer with our groups- I have never ever been so open with strangers. But that's the other thing, we went into it nearly complete strangers and I feel like I left with 10 or so more close friends. The things we've all experienced, it was amazing. I felt like their stories reached out and grabbed at my heart strings. Maybe because I'm a little sap, or maybe just because that's how it works. I shared my own stories with these people, broke down and cried in front of them, and was comforted and helped by them. We all got especially close after the skits. Wow. The last one really got to me.
The second day, I got up early so I could go to Sunrise Sharing. More group activities and another speaker (my group missed the first 10 minutes or so because we were having a discussion and didn't realize..). This speech was really powerful too, about what you can say without saying, about what we tend to focus on.. etc. The last two things with everyone were so powerful. I can't even begin to explain what I felt. At the very very end.. I was crying so much but it felt great.
The bus ride home was much more different. We were calling each other out, laughing, dancing, taking pictures, just being more open with everyone we had just met.
I really do feel like I have the power to change where I'm going, to control it, and more importantly, to help and change and reach out to others. I'm going to use it. I'm going to apply what I've learned here. I'm going to try to be more confident, more appreciative, more optimistic and open.
This is getting pretty cheesy but...
I am going to do whatever it takes to paint my perfect picture.