||[Nov. 12th, 2006|07:40 pm]
I realized today how incapable I am of letting someone tell me something nice. I cry when Mrs. Todd tells me how amazing she thinks I am. I cried when I read the letter of reccomendation Mr. Shroeder wrote for me. I cried just now when langston told me I was "beautiful, inspiring, intelligent, and awesome".
I don't understand why it hurts me so much to hear things like that.
God I feel so rotten right now. I just want to throw something or scream or take it out on someone. Unfortunately it seems like Langston got the brunt of that one...like he always does. WHY am I so horrid. I need to stop being such a terrible girlfriend. Why do we always take our hurts out on the ones we love the most?
love-ology, kiss-ology, stay-ology, please-ology..
love-ology, love-ology, I'm sorry-ology, forgive me-ology
oh, an incurable humanist you are
oh, forgive me, forgive me-ology