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[01 Oct 2006|03:40pm]
true love doesn't exist. there's no such thing.
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[07 Jun 2006|11:22pm]
one minute, your life could be fine. you could be happy with everything. even though things aren't perfect, you make it through. and then, your life comes falling down. faster than you could ever imagine.

i've know since january of this year that my poor little puppykins wasn't going to live to next year. every week my family is torn apart. one day she'll be fine, the next she'll be limping. it's been a very tough six months. and sad to say, her life is being cut short. the fluid in her lungs and body is just too much for her to bare anymore.

we got biscuit when i was in third grade. 10 years. that's a long time to fall in love with a dog. she was abused before we got her and once she came into our life we spoiled her rotten. she looked cold, so lets tuck her in her bankies. which was mine but i gave it to her a long time ago. she looked uncomfortable so we would adjust her pillows. she could just sit there and we would make her feel better.

friends would come over. she loved everyone. once she got to know them. she wanted attention from everyone all the time. when she wasn't sleeping or following me around for food. i'm the biggest slob you'll ever meet. if one of my boyfriends ever came over she would STARE at them. i swear she had a crush like woah on jimmy. she's been a big part of our lives.

since she's doing so horrible, we can't stand to see her go through anymore pain. it's cruel. so tonight is her last night. tomorrow evening when father comes home my mom, dad, mandy, brian, and myself are going to take her and put her to sleep. i know it's better for her, but it's so hard that it's really here and she's going to be gone. for good. and she's never coming back. i like someone following me when i eat... i never have to clean up my mess. i love watching her eat snow. she just shoves her head in a pile and all you see is her ears. i like being woken up when mom comes home from shopping and the dog is barking. i don't want tomorrow to be the end.

maybe it would be a little bit easier if i had more people that cared about me. besides the immediate family i've got brian roy and alicia. not that quantity really matters, but it helps to have a lot of shoulders to cry on.

i feel so sick right now. my world is ending... at least it feels like it. </3
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[30 Mar 2006|04:21pm]
dear friends or livejournal:

i'm taking a break from this journal. too much is going on in my life. and i'm most likely going to iscolate myself to my close friends. those being the following.


my sister "doesn't" have ms. but now she might have lyme disease. we don't know.

things aren't looking up.

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[27 Mar 2006|10:38am]
i have to go to a wedding. i'm not sure about the dress so that why i want opinions. please and thank you.

and i would wear red or white shoes.


the red shoe is the same red as on the dress. my computer is just a homo when it comes to colors. woo!
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want a ipod?????? [22 Mar 2006|11:15am]
this is a deal of a lifetime!

a white 30gb video ipod. nice color screen. and here's what else you'll get...

the plug-in cord.
two cases. one black, one white. with screen protector.
and a radio transmitter.

the ipod alone costs $317 with tax. and this could all be yours for only $250. so we're saving you almost $70 on the ipod, plus you get the transmitter and the cases.

you know you want it. this is a great deal!!!!!!!

if you're interested... hit me back with a message. and tell your friends!!!!

♥, Nicole.
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[08 Mar 2006|07:16pm]

so today was the day where mandy was supposed to find out what was wrong with her, when she could go back to work, and so on and so on.

so what did the doctors tell mandy was wrong with her?

they don't know.

the dipshit for a doctor isn't sure what's wrong. SO she needs to put mandy through more tests. more blood work, another mri, and then a spinal tap.

that sounds AWESOME. they're going to take spinal fluids out of my sister.

doctors can all go fuck themselves. they've helped us none. AND they're going to put my sister through more pain.

today she was supposed to get medicine. instead she'll have to get more needles. swell.

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[18 Jan 2006|11:29am]

i have 179 "friends" on my myspace. and i see one of them on a frequent basis. i'm a friend of 44 people on eljay. and again, i see only one person from that list. same one on both lists.

i have FIVE days off starting friday. spend one of them with me. there's only one person i don't want to see during those days. let's hang out.

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[11 Dec 2005|11:46pm]
as most of you know, in may brian bought me a hermit crab. he had about 23004334863498 names within the first hour he was in my life. and then we settled on mr. xavier roastbeef floppy.

well xavier lived from 5.22.05-12.11.05
mr. floppy died either today or one day last week.

it's silly, but i want to give him a funeral. he was the coolest thing. and you know it. so if you want to come, it'll happen sometime tomorrow at my house. call me around 200ish for details. thanks.
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[16 Sep 2005|08:19am]
[ mood | amused ]

so who remembers whjat was wrong with brian's car???

no interior lights.
no heat.
no air.
no horn.
no stereo.
no breaks.
no right blinker.
and a whole ton of other things were broken.

and pep boys told him that his fuses were fine, so they had no idea what was wrong with everything.

and then brian took his car to diggity dan's work. and within a short time, it was determined that a fuse had blown.

so he was without lights, music, and horn for NINE MONTHS because pep fags lied to him. how 'bout that?

and so today we're going to cause a scene in pep shits. with brian, myself, and my father. ha ha! because not only did they lie to him for nine months, they broke things everytime he took his car to get fixed. and then lied about that.

point is we win.

happy 10 months. ♥ woo! today is a good day! AND I DONT HAVE WORKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! flippin' sweet.

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just a little house. [02 Dec 2004|08:30pm]
[ mood | pensive ]


i have my reasons. word.

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