[PRIVATE POST, YAY!]
Okay, well, let me lay this out for myself, at least.
Yuki dumped me. He gathered up all of my crap for me and told me it was over. I did next to nothing to stop that.
Hiro says to go to talk to him. Fuck, even Seguchi wants me to talk to him. I want to talk to him too. Well, I want to do more than that, I want to be with him again, and not miss him so much anymore.
Oh, fuck, but I miss him. I miss him and I love him and this drives me crazy.
I will go talk to him. I'm just not ready yet. I know that if I go now, I'll see him and cry like a baby and lose what's probably the last chance I have.
I really just want to forget about him. I can't and if people won't let me forget, then fine. FINE, FINE, FINE.