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Sunday, July 25th, 2004
10:45 am - Aww!
You guys have been so sweet! A ton of you actually AIM-ed me saying it wasn't my fault about what happened and cheered me up, claiming that you missed me already. You guys really are something.

But, you know, as much as I love this name, I'm still going to have problems with a certain someone, so I'm making a new name. You know, because I don't have enough already. xD!! Plus it'll be nice to have a friend's only journal again.

And my new name is furious_pink, if you're interested. Adios!

current mood: amused
Saturday, July 24th, 2004
5:27 pm - Not a big deal...
So the week has come and gone...and I won't explain it. Something as beautiful as it was shouldn't be described. Maybe perhaps I still have a shred of hope over my relationship with all you wonderful people and that you can understand.

But it's time to say goodbye. I'm not going to make a big production this time, though. I'm going to say this plain and simple. I'm gone, and perhaps just for a little while because I still care for you all. It's just...I'm affected by my own problems. Affected by a past that likes to shove it's way into my face.

The reason I never came on this week was because why should I brag about my girlfriend? I do love Katherine, but if I were to go on, do you think I would honestly talk about nothing else? Why would I hurt any of you over it? And for Godsakes, do you understand she's the love of my life? I've never met anyone like her and now that I know her, why should I make any of you upset by counting the ways in my journal or IM box when she is here?

The point is, I'm not perfect and a very few selected people who shall remain nameless (although I do know I've already been bashed immaturely in their posts) like to point it out. I'm sorry your life is miserable, but you choose it to be miserable, all right? It was not I who waved a wand in your eyes and casted a curse on you. It was yourself when you decided that I could never share happiness. It was you that decided not to be happy. Not me.

I would go into detail of what these people have done to make me choose this...but I won't. Unlike them, I will be the bigger person and walk away. Now, running away isn't always the best choice. It never is...but sometimes in this case, it's the best because what else is there?

By the way, isn't it silly to be bleeding furious at someone for not going on the internet because they have guests over? Especially if my sister was on? I'll let you decide that one. Already a few of you agree, so, at least I'm not taking crazy pills. xD

It's a very silly reason for me to go, but hey, people are immature like that. If any of you want to AIM me, you know where to find me: NavalChieftain

In the meantime, I'll catch you all later real soon.

current mood: sleepy
Saturday, July 17th, 2004
7:58 am - OMG!11!!1! NOOOO!1!1!!!
MaritimePhysic: YOU HATE ME.
MaritimePhysic signed off at 7:57:49 AM.

OMEN

current mood: amused
6 loves |*| <3
Friday, July 16th, 2004
8:22 pm - Oh, hell! Why does this always happen?!
Havana's package came in yesterday. It was very, very, very thoughtful of her. :) Thank you so much for the drawings, honey. They are *gorgeous.* Also, I've witnessed Nellie McKay's music before, but never the full C.D. I have to thank Havana so much for (dare I say it?!) burning it for me (shame on me!). I love Nellie's voice and talent. Very good music to listen to at...anytime. ;)

Today I watched 'Frida' in the early morning. I love that movie for the setting and wonderful acting. It's just feels so believable, especially the characters and chemistry in the movie. I'm not sure how to say it. Plus Sam and me like making cheap jokes at some of the parts. xD Yes, we're horrible.

Mom's back home, too! She seems fairly happy to be back home in Buffalo. She made a fuss over Sam's hair since she cut it today at the mall. (Her hair's shorter now with bangs. It looks really pretty) and gave the family small tokens from the trip. I received a silver-sterling bracelet with turquoise pieces and it's SO gorgeous. It's very dainty, as my mother put it. I love it.

Also I need to make my buddy layout for Havana and Sam. We've all decided to pick our characters from our favorite comic book series. (Havana with Harvey, Sam for Jean.) MUST. COMPLETE. NOW.

current mood: mischievous
7 loves |*| <3
Thursday, July 15th, 2004
12:22 pm - Well, I'll be...
Fifty-four comments on my last entry! You people sure had many embarrassing crushes. xD (I SHALL NEVER TELL MINE. NEVER.)

So today totally sucked. I was suppose to get out of the house today, but the most evil stench arose from my bathroom. Thus we figured out the toliet needed a new seal. Oh, the joys of waiting for a plumber here in New York. >|

On the plus side, my dear mother will be back and we'll finally be able to live like a normal functioning family. xD Also, Katie is swinging up here for a week, so that'll be funny. She has to watch me work at the church this Sunday. xD

Havana's so right. xD The Trio (as I call Havana, Sam, and me) have picked our favorite comic book stories. It's funny that Havana's favorite is Batman, Sam's is X-Men, and mine is Spider-Man. We rock.

current mood: happy
10 loves |*| <3
Tuesday, July 13th, 2004
10:08 am - Jump right in! Don't be scared.
Okay. What is your worst crush on a celebrity/fictional character of all time?

Comments may be left under anonymous, but what's the fun in that?

And be honest, or I'll seriously think you're messed up. xD

current mood: amused
65 loves |*| <3
7:12 am - 'Cause youuu gottaaa have friiiends!
OH, picture contest. Everybody wins, because I love you all.

SO! Totally feeling awesome about all the support I received from my last entry. Thanks, guys. I mean, I didn't know that many (especially my heterosexual amigos!) were very supportive towards my preferences in the men and ladies, and said I shouldn't care what others say. The geek in me would like to put references in this, but I don't want my ass blown off with a shotgun, so, thanks. xD

What is it today? Tuesday? :::pauses::: Yeah. xD I have to clean today. All day. It sucks. (Such intelligent words I produce.) Today is also the sad day of the death of my couch that I've had for six years in the basement. Today it will be sawed in half and thrown away. I've taken many naps on that couch. :::pauses and nods head::: Lots and lots of naps.

current mood: relaxed
2 loves |*| <3
Monday, July 12th, 2004
2:33 pm - Some information!
I just want to add a note...

If any of you who added me as a friend are homophobic or don't like the idea of a girl liking other girls (or guys like other guys for that matter) and it drives you nuts, de-friend me. I'm serious. If my lifestyle sickens you that much, I don't want to engage in any talk of why my preferences are revolting or my behavor is odd. The last thing I need is somebody to look at me like a freak. I'm a human being, okay? So what if I'm bisexual? That doesn't make me less human. That doesn't mean my choice in either guy or girl is strange.

I will not tolerate being looked at like some abnormal creature at some freak show. If you're going to be a horse's ass about it, I won't deal with it.

current mood: pissed off
33 loves |*| <3
Sunday, July 11th, 2004
2:39 pm - "Puppies, puppies, puppies!"
CONTEST IDEA, HUR HUR!

wishiwaspretty87: xD; Peter and Harry: ::jump into Mar's lap:: xD
Naval Chieftain: DOOD! PUPPIES!! xD!!!
wishiwaspretty87: xDD
Naval Chieftain: xD! You and I should have a puppy farm. xD
Naval Chieftain: And our only puppies would be Peter and Harry. xD


i_hear_violins and I have decided that two puppies for our puppy farm is not enough. Thus we need more puppies. What's a puppy? A cute celebrity/character. (We're fucking insane. :D xD)

Whoever can produce the cutest picture of a 'puppy' under the comment button wins...SOMETHING.

current mood: amused
28 loves |*| <3
Thursday, July 8th, 2004
5:19 pm - YAY.
Okay, we have zee winner. After asking many people what they thought was the most hilarious image listed, I have decided who earned the title.

And the winner was...



...chicha for her display of this:

(JUST TO SCARE YOU ALL)

I'm going to have another contest tomorrow. I'm such a whore. xD

current mood: amused
9 loves |*| <3
6:50 am - "Truly manly men do NOT dance."
So, joy to the world! I scored highly on my report card in my classes. This means I will not suffer from paranoid fear of my grades when the mail comes at 1:30 P.M. every day, and thus, I can continue on enjoying and savoring my summer until September.

...Except when I have to get working on my homework to Mr. Parker, who's my history teacher for next year. (Unfortunately, he doesn't look anything like his name.)

OH! About the images! I'll select the winner in the NEXT entry. xD I just like to update, or I get grumpy.

And if I ever meet a Kate-Bosworth-bashing crazy fangirl ONLY because she has a THING for Orlando Bloom, I might have to punch her in the face.

current mood: sleepy
14 loves |*| <3
Wednesday, July 7th, 2004
7:10 pm - Crazy-Madness Part II
Whoever posts the most random, and quite possibly, the most hilarious image under a comment wins my heart a cookie. And the title of...:::pauses:::...PRINCE OR PRINCESS OF THE DAY.

current mood: silly
30 loves |*| <3
9:55 am - Crazy-madness...
Did you know you can actually watch extreme dodgeball on a T.V. network as if it's a real game? I stayed up until 1:30 A.M. watching it with Sam. xD

This is what happens when you're on summer vacation. xD

On the next agenda, I love my pink lipgloss I got! :D

You know, because pink lipgloss is the most important thing in the world EVER...Collapse )

current mood: amused
13 loves |*| <3
Tuesday, July 6th, 2004
9:46 am - WTF? xD
WTF? Some radio commerical said that the Geico lizard is going to be at a live car convention. ...I'm sure that would will be an interesting show. xD

50 facts you didn't know (OR DID BUT I'M LAZY) about mio.Collapse )

current mood: amused
6 loves |*| <3
7:07 am - Hm.
Today's just one of those days where you wake up, and end up wanting to go back to sleep for a very long time. xD

I guess it really doesn't matter anymore. I'm just sort of tired with everything and hate how things have become sometimes. I mean, yesterday at midnight, I laid on the couch listening to 'Heart-Shaped Box' like a lullaby that hoped to get me to sleep as I laid in my depressive state.

I wonder if I should just blow this popsicle stand for awhile like my sister...but then, it wouldn't really matter because I'll end up looking like a drama queen, and everything will always end up the same, anyways.

Yay for angry, depressive, yet hopeful music, right? xD

You know, I guess I really just don't give a damn anymore about anything. You know the feelings, I'm sure. Where you keep on trying and trying, and nothing just sticks because you're the one with the bad set of cards. Or how you just kind of give up on any emotion because you know it'll screw you up in the end, even when you try your everything to please everyone. I got people who are mad at me and I got people who just can't be here anymore. I don't know which is worse...

I kind of just want to see a day when everything's just okay again. I won't, but, whatever. I guess in the end, I knew things like this would happen. I just didn't want to be there when it came.

A simple kind of life...Collapse )

current mood: morose
6 loves |*| <3
Monday, July 5th, 2004
5:22 pm - Yesterday's News
Isn't it funny how a person can be forgotten in just a few moments? How funny it is when someone can just be gone the next after a few lingering thoughts? How someone can be yesterday's news?

It doesn't matter anymore. I'm happy. I'm really happy, and that's all that matters. I shouldn't be looking back anymore. And this is it. This is my time to shine and be free, you know? These are the greatest moments of my life, and you know something? ...I really haven't been very happy for a long time until now.

So, forget about me like you just did. I'm okay...and I'll be okay. I can finally walk on my own now and I'll never look back. I can just hope that the better half of me is there and will always be there for me because I'll be there, too. Like the sun will always rise, I'll always be there for the better half because I know it won't run.

So, goodbye. I know I wanted everything to be simple, but that's not going to happen. At least, it can't for me because I'm not that kind of girl. I know I'm often upset or disappointed by what happens, but I know in my heart that it's what I want. It's what I need.

Goodbye.

current mood: relieved
12 loves |*| <3
6:30 am - To the top!
Eesh, I think I'm running out of things to say. xD There's a first, huh?

July 17th should be interesting. Katie's coming out here to New York! That means I have to help my dad clean up around the house with Sam. (He's actually painting our room...BLUE! xD.) The last time I had a friend over from so far away was when my childhood best friend Ally was here, and man, we had a blast. I mean, all three of us are really wild, so...xD You can imagine us.

:::looks around::: Seeing Spider-Man II with Sam today! Wish us luck. xD

current mood: sleepy
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Sunday, July 4th, 2004
7:34 am - ^_^
Happy birthday, Havana! (porcelain_wings) I hope you have a great day.

Everyone should check out seaspirits for some really awesome icons. It's not your typical icon community, where the icons are biased. They have some good stuff in there. Plus, apster and i_hear_violins are some of the nicest people I know.

Thanks. :)

current mood: rushed
6 loves |*| <3
Friday, July 2nd, 2004
10:54 am - :D
Please fill this out for me, and I'll do one for you. I swearz it!


1) What celebrity do you think I look most like?
2) What TV character (any show) most reminds you of me?
3) What movie character most reminds you of me?
4) What TV show resembles my life best?
5) What movie resembles my life best?
6) What song makes you think of me?

:D

current mood: amused
22 loves |*| <3
Thursday, July 1st, 2004
7:08 am - Best. Movie. Ever.
Since I did one for 'Van Helsing,' and Havana asked so nicely, I'm going to write a review on everything that is 'Spider-Man II.'

Hiding my review behind a cut because of the mucho, mucho spoilers!

Go, Spidey, GO!Collapse )

current mood: mischievous
4 loves |*| <3
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