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[Wednesday
November 9th, 2005
10:17am
]
wow. they changed lj. this is new.

so. its wednesday. this week has been pretty busy. i had my second interview at pac sun. and i got the job! yay. and today i have to go out there... got an sga meeting to. then probably going to go hang out with someone... dont know yet. and tomorrow me and chels are driving all the way to palm bay to get ashley and c's brother. should be an interesting weekend. no school friday thank god.

so saturday night... joey shows up at my house. it was a nice surprise... i must say... good to see an old friend.

life is so ironic.

sean has been odd lately. the past couple of days have not been good. it seems like he doesnt want to be around me. i think he doesnt feel seccure in us like he used to. i dont know. maybe he'll get over it.


so i close my eyes let the whole this pass me by, there is no time to waste, asking why i'd run away with you by my side.

traffic was a bitch this morning. but it's ok because i got my mcdonalds.

there are kids jumping around coach j's computer....weird things happen in here. mostly because practically the entire football teams skips in here. i know its a fun class and all but jeeze.

i hate myspace.
2 bless the norhtern stars & the broken road

[Tuesday
October 11th, 2005
2:11pm
]
[ mood | angry ]

i'm so irratable it isn't even funny.
if one more person blames me for something they didn't do, i might scream.
everything is driving me crazy. i can't wait to just go home and watch a movie with sean.
i am really fed up with this place and all the people in it.
any suggestions?

1 bless the norhtern stars & the broken road

[Monday
October 10th, 2005
9:45am
]
[ mood | calm ]

so my mind has been pretty out there lately.
me and sean had a bit of a falling out... but its all better now. I've definatly realized that we need to talk through everything. so last night I went to his house and after he admitted lying to me over something stupid, there was quite a bit of rational conversation and hopefully things will be better now.
mid-terms are over thank goodness.
scohol has been different since wednesday. if anybody hasn't heard yet, wednesday a the junior varsity football game Schaffner Noel was struck by lightening and passed away. please say a prayer for his family and the families of all injured by the tragic events taken place.
life is definatly a bit of a mystery, and it is never known what may be around the corner, don't take it for granted.

this weekend was pretty fun i guess. thursday me sean chels and ash went to see corpse bride, which wasnt bad. later brant, nick, kenny, wesley, chelsea, ash, and sean came over and we had a fun little night of drinking. then the rest of the weekend was pretty much filled with me and wesley being bored and driving around and having some good old fun at the pool hall.

i guess thats all.

1 bless the norhtern stars & the broken road

[Tuesday
September 27th, 2005
10:34am
]
i just decided that people just aren't worth it.





i want to be anywhere but here right now.




&heart
2 bless the norhtern stars & the broken road

[Tuesday
September 27th, 2005
10:31am
]
[ mood | aggravated ]

i definatly just had to fight with greg for 10 minutes in the hallway just to get my freakin' cigaretts back. and now he is "very upset with me" because i won.
suck. my. dick.

1 bless the norhtern stars & the broken road

[Thursday
September 22nd, 2005
10:14pm
]
[ mood | bored ]

so. i know it's been a whiile. i've decided to re-take up livejournal considering i sit in school with nothing to do constantly and just look at stupid webpages. i guess it's time.

the past couple of months have been interesting to say the least.
summer was fun. ended way to quickly.
i made a little mistake towards the end with sean. yea, we broke up again. and i went out with john for a good month. and then i realized how incrediably stupid i was for that and eventually, with a little work on my part, we got back together. and now were good. john is incrediably pissed at me but he'll get over it. him and his ex are back together..... i really miss mom though. and i'm like not allowed to go over there so it sucks.

uhm, school has been crazy. lot of work, little play. i actually have pretty easy classes except for my 3rd hour, but that alone is driving me insane. i have photography, easy... american history hon, easy... and student government, which is easy but there is SO much to do constantly, along with stay afters... so it sucks.

Ash is going to UF this weekend to see JM. hopefully she'll have a good time, even though she is going to be completely miserable when she comes back. thank god today is friday... no idea whats going on tonight though. i think sean is coming home with me and then chelsea has to go to work and she'll probably come back out around 9ish and hopefully stay the night at my house. Kenny and Nick and Brant said something about coming by for a while but that probably won't happen. They'll just most likely end up hanging out at John's as usual.

My grandmother comes down tomorrow afternoon, cool i guess, i've missed her but i still really don't want to give up my whole weekend. Selfish I know... but hey.

I forgot my lunch money today but greg gave me a dollar because he loves me oh so much. and i already spent it on snickers... opps.

I got a puppy a couple months ago. His name is spence and is now 6 months old. He got neutured and had surgery on his eyes yesterday. He looks like he's in so much pain. Its sad.

Mom goes to aruba on the 6th. yay. That will be a nice little vacation... right after mid-terms and we have a bunch of days off so thats cool.

i know this is nice and long. but i had a lot to talk about.

court just walked in... talk to everybody laters.

2 bless the norhtern stars & the broken road

[Wednesday
May 4th, 2005
8:48am
]
you know what would suck.

living your life in the shadows of someone else.

i wouldn't do it. would you?
4 bless the norhtern stars & the broken road

[Tuesday
May 3rd, 2005
10:55am
]
this world is stupid.

i have an ap world history tesing in an hour. and i don't see the point in taking it. i know i'm not going to pass.
we can't even leave until the time is up. that's liek 3 hours. maybe even four. meaning i may be in school after school.

gay.

this morning i woke my mother up and caused Lou to fall out of bed.
it made my morning.
3 bless the norhtern stars & the broken road

[Monday
May 2nd, 2005
10:38am
]
Today is Monday. We officially have 4 weeks of school, with no days off, no half days, just monday-friday, nothing but school. That sucks.
This weekend wasn't to bad. Didn't go to school on Thursday, half day.. got my mom to let me stay home. Didn't do much, wanted to hang out with sean, but he ended up going to Aj's and deciding not to come. Me, Keyla, Pat and Nick went down to Commercial beach, hung out in Pat's old Apt building... it was fun, we were nice and fucked up. Got up the next morning, Sean came over, we hung out most of the day and did nothing. Then we went and played pool. Then Keyla came and hung out for a little, and brought me home. Saturday morning I went shopping with my momma, had lunch with her and Lou, went to Ashley's for a while, walked down to Greg's house, Sean came and got us, went to his place for a little, went to dinner, saw a movie, got some ice cream... and then Greg went home and I stayed at Sean's. Had to get up early, he had to go to work. Went home, went back to bed until like 1, then laid around and watched movies all day.
the weekend was pretty good.

i got new sneakers and they gave me a blister. it hurts.

the day is already half over with. i hope the rest of the day goes this fast.

tomorrow is the ap world history exam. definatly not going to pass.

lunch time. yessss.
3 bless the norhtern stars & the broken road

[Thursday
April 21st, 2005
8:35am
]
I finally got my computer back!
and now my computer at home is not working. something is up with bellsouth. I have to call them today...
So yesterday was 4 20, how was urs? Mine was not to bad, we skipped, but no smoking for katie. Yesterday was very nature filled... went to quite waters in the morning, went to the beach, and at like noon went back to my house. then went to the big park.... climbed a tree, swung for a while, went on a miny treck through the bushes, then me and sean went back to my house. later we went down and laid at the pool because i wanted to look at the stars.
I hurt my wrist a couple days ago. i think i might have carpel tunnel. it really really hurts, and has for a while, but now it's worse than it has ever been. i should get that checked out. but probably wont.
tomorrow is friday. thank god.
no more gym in the morning, back to the afternoons. i must say, i'm happy i won't have to get up so early, but now i'm going to have to seriously alter my after school life. i was kind of getting use to having sean come home with me all the time. oh well.
i'm sitting in english. everyone is taking a test. i finished. i hate this class now. its always so long.
this morning sean and junior went over to san michelle. those asses. so i could have slept later and had my mother bring me in late, i would have if i had known that sean wouldnt be here before school. shit head.
la di da la.
i'm booreeeedddd.
i hate school. i hate school. i hate school.
28 days of school left!
thank god...

i can't wait until summer.
2 bless the norhtern stars & the broken road

[Sunday
April 10th, 2005
10:35am
]
[ mood | hungry ]

it's sunday already... sadly. i really do not want to go back to school tomorrow. thank god summer is almost here. so friday after school everyone packed in keyla's car and we eventually ended up at ashley's just hanging out, they smoked, but me and ash felt like crap so we just laid down and relaxed for a bit then everyone left and the plan was to go play pool later, but that never happened. so, seeing as i already didn't feel well i just decided to stay home and sleep. last night sean, jr, and myself went to go play pool. i suck, but it was fun learning. i'll get better eventually!

so now i'm up earlier than i wanted to be and i have nothing to do.

i'm listening to this cover of the sublime song what i got, by 311. it's funny. theres not instuments used its all do do doo's and beat boping and shit. i like it.

i've been playing tetris for like an hour. im freaking. bored.

2 bless the norhtern stars & the broken road

[Friday
April 8th, 2005
8:48pm
]
"I like rice. Rice is great if your hungry and want 2000 of something."

"When someone hands you a flyer, it's like they're saying 'here, you throw this away'."

"My friend said to me "You know what I like? Mashed poatoes," I was like, Dude, you gotta give me time to guess. If your going to quiz me, you must put a pause in there."

"I bought a donut and the guy gave me a recieipt for the donut. I don't need a receipt for the donut, I give you the money, you give me the donut, end of transaction. We do not need to bring ink and paper into this. I can not imagine the senerio where I would have to prove that I broughrt a donut. Some skeptical friend. Don't even act like I didn't get that donut. I got the documentation right here."

"I got a Reese's candy bar. If you read it, there's an apostrophe. The candy bar is his. I didn't know that. Next time your eating a Reese's and some guy named Reese comes up to you and says let me have that. You better give it to him. I'm sorry Reese, I didn't think I would ever run into you."

"On a traffic light green means go and yellow means yield, but on a banana it's just the opposite. Green means hold on, yellow means go ahead, and red means where the fuck did you get that banana at..."


Rest In Peace Mitch Hedberg
2 bless the norhtern stars & the broken road

i'd kill for you, i'd do some things that i know you wouldn't do [Friday
April 8th, 2005
10:20am
]
[ mood | blah ]

so it's friday. doesn't feel like friday. this whole week has just seemed to drag on.
today i'm feeling indecisive. it's really rainy out.
all i want to do is sit and lose myself in music.
this morning i found that last night, even after sean told me he wasn't going to do acid, he did it anyways.
i'm not really upset about it... atleast it was safe. it didn't even do anything anyways. sucks for him...
jr did it this morning. and he is feeling it i'm sure.
i think everyone is going to go play pool tonight.


a subdued silence/undisturbed/by the sound of your breath
so carefully/brush your hair/back from your eyes
in steady sequence one by one/ he slips away
so close your eyes/ and sleep to dream
i'm by ur side/ the words to speak/ we'll set our course/ and make it through
no matter how far i go/ my heart remains with you
and i'm not sure/what i'm looking for
but it's clear to see/ the purpose of my exisistance is laying here in front of me



man oh man. i really hate school. i have not missed any days this week. aren't you proud?
i would be. i think keyla is leaving after 2nd. maybe i'll go along, though i really should stick around for geometry.
i know i'm probably not going to school on 4 20. and most likely not next friday either.


i would like to go to a show this weekend. maybe saturday? or even sunday night? if anyone is going out to pis, let me know.

i really really need to get some chocolate into my system. i'm in one of those moods, that's all it would take to make me happy right now.

1 bless the norhtern stars & the broken road

[Tuesday
April 5th, 2005
8:25pm
]
So I'm just sitting around. It's tuesday.. only. it seems like it should be so much further on in the week. i think this whole time change thing is really messing with my head. it feels so much earlier... times just kind of getting away with me.
i can't wait until summer.

im really bored. i should probably do some english work. i have to write a compare and contrast essay that i was supposed to do last week and i have to write a poem to a loved one.. i don't even know the guidlines or anything. oh well.

got my report card yesterday.. didn't do so hot. geometry is really fucking with me. and i ended up with a c in health somehow and a c in spainish... which i kind of expected.
i guess it's whatever.

lalala. really boredddddd.

i guess i'll shower and go to sleep.
2 bless the norhtern stars & the broken road

[Thursday
March 31st, 2005
10:48am
]
ok so today is thursday. not much happening.
i have to clean my house tonight which i really do not want to do but whatever.
thank goodness tomorrow is friday. i need the weekend. just to relax. this week has been pretty hetic, seems like i always have somthing to be doing.
i have to write a compare and contrast essay tonight for english. i don't even know what i want to compare and contrast. have any suggestion? god i feel like i'm in 3rd grade again.
i am changing this layout. theres just to many things that bother me about it.
next.


bells bout to ring
laters...
the broken road

[Wednesday
March 30th, 2005
9:01am
]
i can't decide if i like this layout or not.
do you?
6 bless the norhtern stars & the broken road

[Tuesday
March 29th, 2005
8:00am
]
In first hour, taking notes, have a new teacher. He is an ASS! I don't like him I want Ms. Lopes back.
Spring break is sadly over. It was fun while it lasted. Spent most of it at the beach, some of it in pompano.
Got an IPOD for my birthday. I love that thing so much.
Been going to the gym early in the morning... every morning. It's not to bad.
Me and Sean are back together.
i really have nothing to write about.

tis all.
3 bless the norhtern stars & the broken road

[Tuesday
March 15th, 2005
7:56am
]
[ mood | blank ]

I woke up with the biggest headache this morning, dreading the day that follows. The headache still hasn't gone away, and my day hasn't gotten much better, though Andrew did help a little this morning. I get to school and Junior is already bitching about how he wants to smoke and leave, yes, thank you, I am trying to quit that shit you know. Then there was ofcourse no talking between me and Sean, whis is expected but I still wish I knew what to say to him. The look in his eyes when he looks at me kills me, but there is nothing I can do I suppose. When it rains, it pours. At this point, I'm no longer even hyperventilating. One of my favorite tools in writing is to let the characters move so far into fear, sadness, or panic that they come out on the other side. Usually they end up numb or just start laughing about it all. Right now, I'm numb. The way things have been going lately it's no surprise. I've been told and to learn to love, to open myself up and let the fear of getting hurt esacape, well my friends, that is what I did. Now what? I'm left loving someone who doesn't love me. A complaint everyone hears a lot I'm sure, but it's new to me. I've never been in the position where I had to see the person I am completely in love with on a daily basis. There is so much more to everything at this point, I see new things I never saw before. There seems to be a pain behind his eyes that I can't help, but he won't let me help. I'm trying I really am. I want to help, I want to be there, but I don't know how. He seems he doesn't want me to. I feel like I had a mental breakdown last week and this is just the calm after the storm. Everything is actually pretty ok at this point, I just miss him. I was talking to Andrew last night about everything. I mean everything, Sean, the future, family, life in general. It made me see a few things. I know life is not going to wait for me, I have to live it while I have the chance. You never know what is going to happen, hell tomorrow I could wake up and walk to the bus stop and get hit by a car. Life is an unexpected roller coaster ride, with twists and turns and how well you can handle it detirmins if you get sick or have the time of your life. I've worked so hard the couple of days so I could keep him off my mind. Everytime I stop thinking about him, someone mentions the whole situation. I understand that I'll come out of this fine, I know that I'll just be stronger and have another expierence on my list, just for the time being, I hate it. I remember once I was talking to him, and he told me I didn't know what love was. Maybe I don't, but I know I can't live without him, but I'm sure trying. Maybe I'm just lonely, I'll just keep myself busy for another day and maybe tomorrow will be better.

i. hate. school

2 bless the norhtern stars & the broken road

[Monday
March 14th, 2005
10:30am
]
[ mood | irritated ]

I'm not a Prep, I just dress well.
I'm not a Poser, I just like Punk music.
I don't ignore you, I just don't give a shit.
I'm not a bitch, I'm just honest.
I'm not insecure, I just don't trust you.

1 bless the norhtern stars & the broken road

love = pain, pain = death, love = death. transitive property. [Monday
March 14th, 2005
8:22am
]
so this weekend was great.

On Friday Ash, Myself, and Junior chilled for a little. Then me and A and Jm and Joey went to Kava bar, just chilled, played some cards. It was good. Saturday we celebrated Juniors birthday. Everyone just laid around at my house and watched movies, did the usual what-not. Then A, me and Jm went out to PIS. Jm's friends band, The Undisputed, whos lead singer was incrediably sexy, and if i had the chance i would so rape, was playing. Then we went to a party, met up with Joey, went to Kava bar again, then eventually went home and to bed. Sunday, laid around all day, wanted to go to the beach, eventuall Erica came over and we walked out to PIS for Fallen and Copesetic and Madelyn, there was this band Sarcasm, from New York, they were pretty good. Some music just sounds better turned up. I love just going there and chillin, talking to people, watching the bmx boys. Brings me back to the olden days.

Tainted love is going back to my favorite song, very in the moment right now. I'm definatly getting back into my punk covers stage.

I hate feeling like something is not right. I just need a big hug. Nothing I can do about anything anymore I suppose.
3 bless the norhtern stars & the broken road

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