You go through your whole life having no purpose, that is you think you have no purpose, other then that of a normal person like everyone else. You finally realize that just maybe you found your purpose, teaching. Sure teaching isn’t some glorified thing that would put you down in the history books but it was important. You never know what kind of a impact you can make on a kid.
So that’s what I did, I worked hard to become what I wanted to become. I always knew that I wanted to make a difference somehow and that’s how I figured I’d do it. Not that there was much of another way to do it being a man like me. Even settled down got married and had nice life for awhile.
But then it all came down. Found out the world wasn’t so normal after all. I was half demon which wasn’t the worst of it. At first it was, drove me away from my life and made me start drinking and gambling what I had away. I didn’t care anymore, I thought my life was over. How could anyone want to be with a demon, even want to be friends with a demon.
Next thing I know I’m starting to get these splitin’ migraines followed by flashes of people in trouble. I didn’t understand what it was all about at first but then I did. The Powers that Be told me that I was the blessed one to be chosen to guide their lost champion on the right road.
I couldn’t believe they chose me to do that, I wasn’t any hero of any sort. Sure I always thought I was going to be part of something but not something that big. They had to be mistaken. But I did it. I didn’t even feel that I made much of a difference besides being the whole who got stuck with all the pain and told our hero where to go. And they wonder why I wanted to continue drinking. What’s a fella suppose to do when he’s faced with something like that.
I was always running from my past and trying to deny it until it was too late. I finally realized within those last few moments who I truly was and what my purpose in life was. I finally understand what it was to fight the good fight. Besides I couldn’t go letting our champion sacrifice himself to save them, I had to be the one to do it. Let’s face it, the world would have gone to hell without Angel around. Without me around, well wouldn’t make that much of a difference.
You realize that this world comes full circle. Got my first vision when Lucas came to me, a Bracken demon just like me. He asked me to help him against the Scourge, but I said no. Told him that I was raised human and wouldn’t help, next thing I know I get a vision of my people being massacred. I thought it was just a dream until I went there and saw…all of their bodies slaughtered and scattered about.
The Scourge is what lead me to this life with them being in one of my first visions and is what also lead me to my exist or so I thought.
I spent a month or so living up on a higher plane just watching over them. I have to say I was a bit shocked that Cordelia was so sad about my departure. You finally get what you want and then its too late. She found out I was a demon and finally told me to just ask her out, I even got that kiss from her like I wanted but then I had to take my leave.
That’s what being a hero was. It seems though that the Powers that Be had something else in store for me. Something about it not being my time to go yet and I was still needed. So there I was, one minute in some higher plane or something watching over everyone and the next in Cordy’s living room. Talk about a head trip.
I glance around and notice that she isn’t home. Guess that means I should just wait and whoa will she have a surprise waiting for her when she opens up that door and finds me sitting on her couch.