|they call this the badlands baby, but it used to be bayou. the shore of an inland sea.
April 25th 2005
my guys from gatsbys american dream are sooo goooodddd
im so happy i finally got the cd from them cause i love it
so my weekend wasnt the best at alll... worked friday 4-10
didnt do anythin afterwards. saturday i felt like shit the whole day
and my dad didnt help any, i suppose i ruined his life again
yesterday i worked from 8am-4 and then had to go to a baby party afterwards
then i was home alone and went to blockbuster, rented i ♥ huckabees
that movie is soooo amazing, everyone go rent it NOW
i was a born existentialist and that movie just made me like whoaaaaa
woke up today to my mom being retarded, and then woke up again and was alone
with my mother out buying new things for my sister again
i called sean at like 12 and we talked for a while
which is great cause i missed him and i needed that big timeeeee
i think hes calling me at like 3 or something
i got work at 4 today til 10 and i cant wait to get out of the house again
was supposed to go to the bank today but moms not here so i dont think so.. wtf
okay goodbye, ill update more later<3
|its the little days that made me fall in love with you.youre the only gift that i need
April 21st 2005
i hate my parents and how they treat me compared to my sister
little miss PERFECT who does everything wrong but gets EVERYTHING
had plans for today but mother doesnt feel like GOING anywhere?
so i had to stay in?
10 minutes later she leaves to do stuff for my sister?
then my glorious FATHER comes home and decides to blame his bad day on me
'do you have to mess up EVERYONES LIFE that you know AMANDA'
i suppose so ASSHOLE.
the last few days have sucked so bad& so many people have been
annoying me/pissing me off/disappointing me
its making it more and more easy everyday to leave philly and NEVER come back
and i just screamed at my dad how much i cant wait
til i move to florida for school and get away from his STUPIDITY
the one person who would make me feel better is missing in action
havent talked to him since a week ago and im getting worried
so now im listening to my new gatsbys american dream cd and talking to courtney
and my family just went out to eat without me cause i was told to order
WHAT THE HELL IS THIS. SCREW THAT... i feel a breathing attack coming on
i need you soon.
dont leave me alone
dont leave me alone
i cant stand
the way the world feels
when im walking alone
April 17th 2005
|| incredibly tired
okay sooooo this weekend was so awesomeeeeeeee
prom friday night was a blast, everyone looked so gorgeous
little bit of bad things but everything was settled
yesterday gina and i went down the shoreeeeeeeeee
went to ocean citys boardwalk and got FUDGE.
passed out at like 6, woke up at 8, watched enough
drove to wawa at 11 for a midnight snack, and spent like 30$ in food hahah
today we woke up at like 9ish, went to breakfast at the cottage diner thing
drove to wildwood and walked the boardwalk for a bit
I GOT A HERMIT CRAB !@#$%& yessssssssssssssssssss
afterwards gina and i played on the beach with sean jr [the hermit crab] haha
the ocean was so freaking cold. we took a lot of pictures
ill post those tomorrow or something when i have time
we came home around 6ish, too tired to go anywheres
i was hoping to talk to sean today butttt he didnt come on and mikey said
that his friend from virginia came to visit so i dont want to bother himmmm <3
but im sooooo tired right now and im gonna go to bed
work tomorrow 4-10, everyone come drop off your film
|ive got a secret, but you wont believe, but ive got this feeling, that i was put here for you
April 13th 2005
|| superrr sleepy
working like MAD the last few days
im so super tired
and i didnt feel good at all today
failed english, no summer school though :-D
all the plans are set for prom except times about the shore
got my trackjacket FINALLY
got my lab coat from work tooo!
OH OH CELL PHONES BACK ON! 8509158
LONG DISTANCE IS TOO.. i used that last nightttt when i called my boy
he told me to call him again tonight after work but
GUESS WHO DIDNT PICK UP THEIR PHONNEEEEE :(
but thats okay i still love you lotsssss.
okay im gonna go to bed now, crazy tired. <33
FILL THIS OUT, IF YOU DONT THAT MEANS YOU HATE ME :(
- I ____ Amandalyn.
- My fondest memory of Amandalyn is _______.
- When I met Amandalyn, I was __________.
- If Amandalyn was in a room alone with me I would ________.
- I would describe Amandalyn as ______.
- Amandalyn is the most _______ and _______ person I've ever talked to.
- Amandalyn loves _________.
|holding your head up is hard when you just want to stay on the ground
April 10th 2005
things that happened today in a + or - chart.
- waking up at 630
- work at 830
+ 1/2 hour break where i stuffed my faceeeee
+ came home at 12
+ message from my amazing boyfriend
+ talked to the aforementioned amazing boyfriend whilst he was on his break
+ im now in his profile :)
- stubbed my toe
+ got a new sn x250mg LOVESTORY
- dad was home by 130 and annoying as ever
+ listened to the armor for sleep cd again and againn
+ cut my hair
+ went tanning
+ got my eyebrows done
+ wendys for dinner
- madddd tired
+ megan came over to rent movies
- my sisters stupid friends
+ boondock saints<3 since she never saw ittttt
+ redid my layout for hereee
+ did more of my layout
- i miss seannnnnn
prom in 5 days. shore in 6. battle of the bands in 7.
florida trip moved up a week: leaving june 17th. staying for 2 weeks.
AHHH I CANT WAIT. ♥♥